Chapter Seventeen: Who could ever understand me? No one, that's who.

A/N: Omg I just keep getting hurt lol. Last night I went to a farm like four hours away from my house to pick up my new calf for my 4H this year and when my cousin left to open up the crate so we could put him in it he started flipping out and ended up headbutting me in my jaw. All the doctors I went to thought it was absolutely hilarious; which it's not. How about I let them get headbutted by a fucking cow and we'll see if they're laughing afterwards, assholes. Anyway they all thought it was broken so I had to go get x-rays, about an hour ago I got my results back; it's not broken or cracked just very badly bruised internally and externally, I have bruises like all over my face; I look like shit lol.

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~Severus Addicted

Suddenly rain started falling from the sky all around them.

With a sigh Severus stood from the boulder and said, "Come, let's get inside before we get sick."

Harry rolled his eyes and said, "What's a little bit of rain gonna do? I'm not the Wicked Witch of the West it's not like I'm going to melt."

"A "little bit of rain" is an understatement, Harry. Now get up or I will be forced to carry you inside." Severus crossed his arms as he waited for Harry to make up his mind.

When a minute went past Severus stepped closer and acted as if he were about to pick him up so Harry quickly jumped off the boulder and said, "Alright, alright jeez." Harry started up to the castle with Severus following behind hiding a smirk.

When they entered the "house" Severus pointed to the couch. Harry gave him a quizzical look but slowly lowered himself onto the soft leather couch.

Once he was seated Severus went into the kitchen to grab a dinner chair which he placed in front of Harry. "Harry, we need to talk."

Harry sighed and had to refrain himself from responding with, "We don't have to..." Instead he used his brain and said, "About what?"

"Well, many things. For now let's just discuss your attitude and then we will move from there." Severus looked at Harry to see how he would respond to that.

Harry just stared at him then shrugged his shoulders, "You always say I have such an attitude problem... I don't see it."

Severus sighed, "Of course you don't."

A glare was thrown at Severus as Harry snapped, "And what the fuck is that supposed to mean?!"

It was Severus' turn to glare at Harry, "Watch your mouth young man before it gets slapped. Do you want me to wash your mouth out with soap? Your language lately has been vulgar!"

'Your hair is vulgar!' Harry rolled his eyes to the ceiling and huffed in frustration, "What's so wrong with my language? Someone was just being stupid when they decided to make those words "bad", it's stupid if you ask me!"

"No matter, I do not want you using that kind of language and as I am your guardian you must follow my rules." Severus stated simply as he leaned back in his chair with a sigh.

"Screw you. I don't care about your stupid rules! For Merlin's sake can't you just leave it be?!"

Severus saw red as he looked at the fourteen year old in front of him, "Say that to me again, boy, and you'll be finding yourself over my lap! And no I can not just 'leave it be!' I am your guardian and I demand that you stop this immediately!"

Harry jumped to his feet and snapped, "Oh you demand do you?!"

Severus slowly stood to narrow his eyes down at the boy, "Yes I demand! Now if you have any sense of mind you would do as I say and sit yourself back on that couch!"

Harry glared daggers at him as he said angrily, "Make me. I don't want to sit down, and I sure as hell don't want to follow your stupid rules!"

Suddenly Harry felt his feet leave the ground and swung over Severus' shoulder. "What are you doing?! PUT ME DOWN!"

In response Severus landed a stinging swat to his backside making Harry yelp in surprise, "I will put you down when you calm down!"

Harry kicked him in the stomach and tried to wiggle away from the strong hands holding him up, "CALM DOWN?! I DON'T WA-" Another stinging swat landed making him yelp again. "STOP IT! PUT ME DOWN!"

"I already told you Harry James, you calm down and I will put you on your feet. But if you continue this tantrum I will get the hair brush!" Severus said in a stern voice that made chills run up and down his spine.

Harry flinched at the thought of the hair brush, "Please put me down?"

Severus shook his head, "Not going to work, young man."

Harry sighed and slowly left his arms go limp and hang upside down, "This is stupid." Harry muttered under his breath.

Severus narrowed his eyes and said sternly, "What did you say? I didn't quite catch that, care to repeat what you just said?"

Harry slowly shook his head and said, "No.... Sir."

After a few minutes of silence went bye Harry suddenly said, "I can feel all the blood rushing to my head. Severus, please put me down I'll behave."

With a light nod of his head Severus slowly placed Harry on his feet, "Sit back down on the couch and we can continue this conversation hopefully peacefully; if not you will not be sitting comfortably during this conversation." Severus gave him a look that told him he meant every single word he just said and he'd stick to it.

Harry gave a soft sigh of defeat then nodded his head, "Alright..."

Severus nodded to the couch so Harry slowly sat down, once he was seated Severus said, "That little tantrum just showed my point in your attitude problem-" Harry opened his mouth to argue but snapped it shut when he saw the look Severus gave him, "Now that we went over my disagreement with your dirty language it's time to move onto the issue that you think you don't need to follow my rules-"

"That's stupid! I do too know I have to follow your rules." Harry snapped in his two cents.

Severus only raised his eyebrows then said, "Now boy, you just got done arguing with me because you didn't want to follow my rules. Now which is it Harry James, do you know you have to follow my rules or not?"

Harry sighed and rolled his eyes, "Whatever, this is stupid. Why are we even having this discussion?!"

Severus narrowed his eyes at his ward then said, "We are having this discussion because you need to hear it! Now you are starting to get angry again so close your eyes and calm down, we will continue when you're calm again."

Harry huffed and rolled his eyes once again, "Whatever."

"One more time and you're going to be in so much trouble, young man!" Severus snapped and leaned closer in his chair towards Harry.

Harry softly gulped down the retort he had for that then closed his eyes and left himself calm down. After a minute went bye he opened his eyes and sighed.

"Are you okay now?" At Harry's light nod he continued, "Now as I am your guardian you must follow my rules and try not to get an attitude with me over every little thing you disagree with. Yes, we are going to have disagreements and you are going to loose your temper but you must know that will have consequences. Do you understand?" Severus asked in a soft voice as to help keep Harry calm.

'No.' "Yes, I do understand. Now can I go to bed?" Harry asked in a forced calm voice.

Severus lightly shook his head glad that part was over, "No we're not done. Harry, I feel like you need to get something off you chest and I am willing to be that person for you to tell me what's on your mind, but I feel you need someone else too-"

Harry's eyes grew wide in panic, "W-what are you talking about?"

Severus lightly reached over and touched Harry's wrist in an attempt to show he wasn't facing this alone, "I think you should talk to a counselor, Harry."

Harry suddenly stood from the couch and violently shook his head, "NO! I'm not going to talk to a counselor, and you can't make me!"

With a sigh Severus slowly stood and stared at Harry with understanding shining through his dark eyes, "You're right, I can't make you. But I want you to know that a counselor will help you with all your pent up anger, all your struggles. I can be that person, I just want you to know that. But I think you would want to speak to someone else, am I right?"

Harry silently agreed but made no move to say so, "I-I don't want to see a counselor... What will that help anyway?! They can't help me! They wouldn't understand!"

Severus quickly noted the panicked look in Harry's eyes so he slowly took a step closer to Harry and reached out his hand to place on his shoulder, "You could be surprised what someone understands-"

Harry pulled out of the grasp and shook his head, "NO! Who in this fucked up world knows what it's like to be some hero.. I'm not a hero! If I was a hero would there still be innocent people dying everyday?! Would there still be bad guys running free?! Would there?! There's no one that understands what that's like, to wake up everyday and remember a flash of green light, a scream. No one would understand me! I'm so fucked up! No one would understand what it's like to be a Freak! It would just a waste of time! I don't want to put my burdens on anymore people, they don't deserve it. No... I'm not going to a counselor.. It wouldn't help anyway.." Harry struggled to keep the tears from rolling down his cheeks, struggled to keep his sanity together.

Severus opened his mouth to calm him down but Harry suddenly turned from him and shook his head, "I'm not going to a counselor..." Harry muttered and slowly walked towards the door, "I'm not going to a counselor.." Harry muttered again as a few tears leaked from his eyes, "It'd be a waste of time... And who has time to listen to some messed up boy?"

Severus opened his mouth to speak once again but suddenly Harry looked at him as if he were in pain then ran from the room. He could hear his footsteps racing through the halls, slowly fading away.

'A counselor... Is that man going crazy? No one can help you! You were right, you are a fucked up freak! No one can save you now... You're too far in.... Too far in..' The voice screamed in his mind.. That dark silky voice... It knew all his secrets; his silent pleas.

Harry shook his mind in an attempt to knock the voice out, but did it work? Never. "Leave me alone.. Just go away and don't come back!" Harry softly muttered as tears rolled down his cheeks and he rounded a corner. He could hear foot steps running after him; it was probably Severus but he refused to stop now, refused to give in, refused to speak.

The voice burst into laughter at Harry's request, 'I can't do that. Man you really are stupid aren't you? No wonder no one wants to deal with you... You're uncle was right; you're just a worthless Freak!'

Harry screamed out in frustrated and anger, "Be quiet... I-I don't mean to be a Freak... I don't mean to, I swear."

'Oh trust me I know you don't mean to. You were just born like this... No wonder your parents died so quickly, they didn't see any reason to stay with you.. Now I definitely understand their meaning for that one." A bitter laugh filled Harry's mind like a fluffy cloud.

Harry softly shook his head, "No... They didn't leave me!"

'What did you think they did? Think they just died trying to protect someone like YOU? A FREAK?! Is everyone going crazy around here?!'

Harry's breathing quickly became hitched but he continued to run; where he was running? He had no idea. "Leave me alone... Please! I don't need you, I don't want you!"

'Oh but you do need me. Who else is going to tell you the truth when all you believe are lies? You're such a silly boy.'

'Lies?!' Harry shook his head as if to clear the confusion or wipe out the voice, "Just shut up! Go away!"

'Nah, I'm perfectly happy where I am thank you.' Harry could feel as if the voice was smiling, joking with him in a sickening way.

Suddenly a pair of foot steps came into his line of vision... Wait.. When did he end up on the floor?! With a sigh Harry slowly sat up on his knees and stared at the polished boots in front of him.

A soft sigh vibrated through his mind, 'Until next time then, boy. We'll have more fun next time; I promise you.' Laughter filled his mind until it slowly faded away.

Harry sighed in defeat then crumpled on the floor in exhaustion, "Make it go away... Make it stop."

Severus stared at the boy in front of him in confusion, "Harry, make what go away? What do you want to stop?" But the boy was already passed out on the floor as if he ran a hundred miles in the desert without any water but in all actuality he hadn't even left the hall that led to their rooms.

With a soft, sad sigh Severus slowly picked Harry up in his arms and carried him back down the hall to their rooms where he laid him on the couch so he could keep a better eye on him.

A/N: The voice is back!!!!! MAWAHAHAHAHAH lol. What do you think it is? Or who do you think it represents?

I hope you all enjoyed this chapter :]

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~Severus Addicted