Chapter Eighteen: What's wrong with me?

A/N: When your teacher starts screaming and throws a chair against the wall it is NOT wise to say, "I know an amazing counselor that can help..." Learn from my mistakes :-/

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Two hours later Harry slowly started to stir on the couch. Severus was at his side in an instant, "Harry?" Bright Emerald eyes suddenly looked up at him. Severus gave him a small smile then asked, "You alright?" Harry silently nodded his head refusing to speak, "Harry... Before you passed out earlier... Well do you remember what you said to me?" Once again Harry silently nodded his head, "I need to know what you meant by that, Harry."

The Emerald eyes disappeared when Harry closed his eyes and left out a suppressed sigh. When he slowly opened his eyes once again they were no longer bright and held no twinkle. "I-.... I can't tell you."

Severus looked at him in confusion then asked softly, "And why not?"

Harry quickly drew in a deep breath then said in a strangled voice, "B-because you'd think I'm a Freak.. Or that I'm crazy... I-I'm not crazy.."

With a sigh Severus maneuvered Harry into a sitting position then sat down beside him, "Harry, I would never think you're a Freak. No matter what."

A shake of his head was all Harry did to answer that.

Severus ignored the sudden hurt he felt, "You don't believe me?"

"No it's not that..." Harry quickly answered already feeling bad for hurting Severus' feelings.

Severus looked at him in confusion, "Then why?"

Harry huffed in frustration and closed his eyes once again, "I- Promise you won't think I'm crazy?"

Severus grabbed one of Harry's hands in his and softly began to rub his thumb over his hand, "I would never think you're crazy, Harry."

Harry nodded his head then suddenly held on tighter to Severus' hand as if afraid he'd lose him when he told him. Severus in return said in a calming voice, "I won't leave you, Harry, no matter what. I won't think differently of you either, I promise." Slowly he could feel Harry loosen his grip on his hand, "Come now, child, what is it?"

Harry looked at the hem of his shirt and mumbled, "I don't know how to explain it..."

With his free hand Severus lightly pushed Harry's chin up so he was staring into Severus' dark eyes, "Try."

"L-lately I have been getting this... Voice in my head..." Harry said ashamed of himself.

Severus pushed away the shocked look that was daring to appear on his face, "What has the voice been saying to you?"

A tear rolled down Harry's face as he recalled all the nasty words the voice has been saying to him, "Nasty things..."

Severus inched a bit closer to Harry and grasped his free hand on Harry's, "Like what?"

Suddenly Harry shook his head in a wild manner, "D-don't make me repeat them... Please!"

With a sad sigh Severus said, "Harry I need to know what the voice has been saying to you... It'll be okay; I'm here and no one will harm you, alright?"

Harry softly nodded his head, "I-it keeps telling me that I'm a Freak and that n-no one will love me..."

Severus had to use all his strength to keep from showing his anger that was rising up in him, "The voice has already made an error; do you know what the error is, Harry?"

Harry stayed silent instead of answering the question.

Severus mentally made a note to tell Harry everyday this answer, "The voice told you that no one will love you, right?" When Harry gave a sad nod Severus continued, "The voice lied." Suddenly he came to contact with Harry's eyes after he said that, he continued in a soft voice, "Because I love you and always will, no matter what." Suddenly he found his lap filled with a devastated fourteen year old boy. To say he wasn't shocked would be a lie but that didn't mean he wasn't happy about it. Slowly Severus got them both comfortable and began rubbing his hand on Harry's back in a soothing pattern, "The voice is a liar, Harry. Do not believe what it says okay?" When Harry gave a light nod he continued, "What else has the voice said to you?" Harry suddenly went stiff in his lap so Severus continued to gently rub Harry's back in an attempt to calm him down.

When Harry finally answered his voice was tinged with a bit of anger, "It's one of the reasons I jumped from the tower..."

A tear slowly ran down Severus' cheek in which he quickly wiped away so Harry wouldn't see. With his mask in place he asked, "We'll get this fixed, Harry. You shouldn't have to deal with this." 'You're only a child' Severus thought sadly as he stared down at the boy on his lap.

Harry's eyes teared up as he asked, "What if it can't be fixed? What if I am crazy?"

Severus looked down at Harry with a look of determination, "We will get this fixed. If it's the last thing I do, we'll get this fixed. And you're not crazy, Harry. Do you understand?"

After a few seconds went by Severus felt Harry's head nod up and down on his chest. Severus ran his fingers through Harry's hair as he stared off into the distance wondering when the world would finally give this boy a break.

Later on that day while Harry was taking asleep in his room Severus made his way up to the Headmaster's office to inform him of this new problem. After he explained to him what was happening Albus just sat there and stared at him. Severus could tell Albus knew something but wasn't sure if he should express it.

"What do you think it is, Albus?" Severus asked while attempting to hide how much this concerned him.

Albus steepled his fingers and sighed, "From what you have told me so far it sounds like a combination of Vold-" seeing the look Severus gave him he stopped and fixed his slip, "He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named and Harry's uncle, Vernon Dursley. Although I could be wrong and it could just be some Death Eater full filling a task You-Know-Who told them to do-"

"And what kind of task would that be?! Trying to make Harry go insane?!" Severus stood in outrage.

Albus sighed and said in a calming voice, "Severus please take a seat." When Severus was seated he continued, "Now from what you have told me I do not believe it is an emotional problem, instead I feel that someone is controlling a part of his brain. Which is why I think it would be a Death Eater or You-Know-Who because Mr. Dursley would not be able to do that kind of thing seeing how he's-"

"A whale of a muggle?" Severus interupted with a smirk.

Albus rolled his blue eyes then shrugged, "Whatever you want to refer him as. But back to my explanation; I think you should start teaching him Occlumency so he can try to protect himself so whoever this is can not get at him."

Severus nodded his head, "I have actually been thinking that same thing. So you're positive this is not some emotional problem, right?"

Albus nodded his head, "I don't know why but I have a very big feeling that this is not an emotional problem, and you know my 'gut feelings' are normally always right."

"Alright, then I will just have to start Occlumency lessons soon." Severus stated the obvious. "Alright then I will head back to the rooms now Harry should be waking up soon and I don't want him to be alone when he does."

Albus' eyes began twinkling madly as he said, "Alright Severus I will see you later then at Dinner. Have a good evening, child."

With a nod of his head Severus left the room and began heading back to his private rooms where a sleeping Harry lay in bed.

'Wake up brat! Sleeping is for the weak!' A maniac laugh awoke Harry from his slumber.

Harry sighed sadly as he realized he was no longer alone in his room, "Fuck off loser. Don't you have anything better to do?"

Harry smirked when nothing replied to that.

A few seconds ticked by then suddenly it came back, 'Well now someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Grumpy grump!'

Harry rolled his eyes, "Just leave me alone. I don't have time for liars like you!"

'What could you possibly mean? I would never lie to you.'

Harry almost snorted to that, "You just did."

'You need to go back to bed, then when you're in a better mood we can have a nice little chat-"

"Or not." Harry said cutting the voice off rudely.

Harry felt as if the voice was growing angry as it said, 'Go back to bed, Freak. Your attitude needs to be lowered down a few notches too! Maybe when you wake up again it'll be better.'

'What the fuck! Even a stupid voice is telling me I have an attitude problem!' Harry rolled his eyes, "Next time don't ruin my sleep with your laughter, idiot."

A knock on the door interrupted any response the voice was about to say. "Come in." Harry called then slowly sat up in the bed.

The door opened to reveal a worried looking Severus, "Who were you talking to, Harry?"

Harry blushed and lowered his eyes to the blanket covering him.

Severus sighed and walked over to the edge of the bed to sit down, "Was the voice back?"

Harry silently nodded his head still with his eyes focused on the blanket.

Severus gently put his finger under Harry's chin and pushed it up, "What did it say to you?"

Harry sighed and glared at the blanket on his lap, "It was just telling me to wake up and how I'm obviously in a bad mood and how I have a bad attitude! I'm sorry but I'm not going to be nice to some stupid voice in my head!"

Severus felt an amused smile tugging at his lips but he reminded himself that there was nothing funny about something or someone talking in Harry's mind. "Is that all?"

Harry nodded his head still irritated over the fact that the voice even thought he had a bad attitude, "Yeah because you knocked on the door."

Severus nodded his head, "Good. Now I just got back from speaking with the Headmaster, Harry, and we have come to the conclusion that the voice in your head is either You-Know-Who or one of his followers-"

"Figures." Harry muttered darkly under his breath.

Severus sighed sadly and looked at his ward, "At least we have an idea on what the voice is, Harry; because now we can try to defeat it, do you understand?"

Harry nodded his head then said with a smile, "At least this means I'm not going crazy."

Severus couldn't help it and smiled too, "Yes, Harry, this means you're not crazy. I told you that you weren't crazy but did you believe me? Obviously not. Next time believe me because I'm always right."

Harry smirked and said slyly, "You're only right because you're so old; obviously you know more then me." Harry quickly escaped the hands that were threatening to catch him.

Severus playfully glared at Harry and said in a smooth voice, "I am not old, young man."

Harry laughed, "Of course not, what in the world was I thinking?! Hm... Maybe I am going crazy..."

Severus shook his head in amusement, "You're a brat."

Harry smiled as if that were the best compliment he has ever gotten in his entire life, "Aw you're so sweet, thank you for that amazing compliment! If you're just now realizing this though I guess I haven't been trying hard enough..." Harry smirked when Severus' eyes went wide.

"Don't you dare." Severus said in a dangerous silky voice.

In response Harry stood from his bed and made his way towards the door of his bedroom, when he reached the door he turned back to face his guardian, "Oh but I love dares!" With that said Harry turned and left the room leaving a silently fuming Severus behind.

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