Read!! Important!! First off there are SPOILERS in this chapter! They are spread throughout this whole thing, I will explain at the end of the story so I dont give anything away now. The things in Italics are memories and/or thoughts. I still feel a little out of my writing game, especially with Bones, so I appologize if there are any errors or if this is out of character for anyone. I just wanted to post this before tonights episode although the last chapter has to deal with tonights eppy and not this one. Again.. I AM POSITIVE it will NOT go this way in the show but the jist of it all is true according to my sourses. But this is my take on it all, so I hope you all enjoy!

Chapter: 13

Baby Talk and Silent Confessions;

As Booth stood there and looked at his tired and beautiful Bones he wondered what as going through her mind right now? They just kissed… for the second time, only this time was on free will and not because of blackmail. He knew her and knew her logic, she would try to convince herself this was nothing more then her cold medication kicking in and it impaired her judgment. He watched as she looked at the small gap between them, then her eyes lifted and he saw tears threatening in them. Booth opened his mouth to say something, but she soon spoke and cut him off.

"Will you stay for awhile?" she asked softly and almost vulnerably.

Booth sighed with a smile, he was afraid she was going to yell at him or maybe just tell him to leave. Instead she wanted him to stay? He was going to go with the moment and not say or do anything to ruin it because as much as he wanted to, he knew that tomorrow when she was at her full self and not impaired by cold medication she would say this was a mistake. He was willing to take the rejection, not by choice but because their relationship was complicated enough and with her logic it would only cause for more problems.

"Of course," he said softly and brought his hand up to brush some hair from her face but felt her pull away too quickly for his liking. Booth sighed and watched her walk over to the stereo and shut it off. He turned and took the bowl of soup he brought for her and took it back to her kitchen. When he slowly emerged from the kitchen he saw her lean back on the couch with her legs curled underneath her.

As Booth drove back to the lab his thoughts stirred in his mind about what happened a few days ago with Bones. Cam had sent her home two days in the row because she was so sick and by the third day she wasn't aloud to come in at all. Booth and the others had to solve the foaming bones case by themselves. Of course they did with no problems, it was just bodily chemical reaction due to drugs that were inside the mans body. But nonetheless that was almost a week ago and still nothing was said about their kiss. Booth had played that night over and over again in his mind; he and Bones didn't have their late night chats this whole week.

Which was odd for him because he was so used to spending his nights with her after work, of course they talked on the phone and the excuses were given – I'm actually really tired tonight, so I think I'll go to bed early. He knew that was her way of avoiding him, but of course at work it was another story. They had to talk and be together because of the cases, but they still argued over petty things and they talked like they normally did, it was just their usual late night 'dates' that were put on hold. Maybe she was just afraid that the memory of the kiss would crawl back up? Nah, Bones is too logical for that, she wouldn't let something like that faze her!

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She watched as he walked back into the living room slowly and cautiously while sitting beside her on the couch. Bones didn't know what to say? She just asked him to stay with her because… well because she wasn't ready for him to leave. The kiss left her literally breathless and although they had kissed before this was different. This wasn't forced it was on their own which meant there was some sort of emotional tie to it. Bones wasn't sure yet how she felt on that, how she felt about feeling for Booth. She knew in the back of her mind there were feelings for him… she loved him but wasn't ready to admit to it yet. Kissing leads to sex and sex leads to that unwanted true heart pumping love that in time will only leave you heartbroken. At least that was her theory on it all.

She hated this… she hated that Booth made her think about things like this. Especially now when they were alone and it was silent in the comfort of her home. She swallowed hard seeing out of the corner of her eye that he was looking at her. She turned her head slightly and looked him in the eyes, a tiny smile formed on her lips as she looked away again.

They sat there in silents for awhile. Bones wasn't sure how long it was but before she knew it she was wrapped up in his arms again. Her head rested against his shoulder while his hands softly rubbed up and down her back. She could feel his heart pounding in his chest much like hers was doing. This was so domestic… to just be… what did people call it? Cuddling? She had never really cuddled before and it was nice… too nice actually.

Bones stood looking over the human petrified remains of a 16 year old victim that she and Booth found this morning buried in a mound of salt in a city de-icing truck. With the DNA that Cam had ran they figured out that the girl was pregnant. She and Booth had gone to the high school that she attended and realized that the 16 year old was on the volley ball team and a portion of the girls were pregnant and some had already had children. It was an odd case that there were so many girls pregnant at one time and that they were all friends.

Booth had dropped Bones off at the lab so she could help the squints out while he went off to find out more information on what was going on with the volley ball team. As Bones started to remove her gloves she saw Booth swipe his card and jog up the steps. She turned her head quickly to compose herself, every time she looked at him now she felt silly. They kissed and he held her until she fell sleep the first night she was sick. Bones knew that was what people did to comfort one another, but she also felt that was how others became dependent one another. She didn't want to become dependent on Booth, she never had someone to help her growing up, she was very independent and although Booth had helped her out a lot… a lot more then she liked to admit, she still didn't want to seem needy.

"So what did you find out?" she suddenly asked watching him come up next to her.

Booth looked at her for a moment and opened the file that was in his hand. "I talked to the coach of the team and a few more of the girls… one of them finally cracked and told me that they all had a pact of some kind."

"What like a pregnancy pact?" Angela said walking up the steps with a chuckle.

Booth shrugged, "I'm not sure? The girl said they were protesting the way they were being treated by the coach; they figured if they got pregnant none of them could play?" Booth said with a confused look on his face handing the file over to Angela.

As Angela looked at the file with all the girls' names and pictures she shook her head, "this reminds of that case a few years ago in Massachusetts. A bunch of girls did the same thing, of course it was for different reasons…" she trailed off with a sigh and shrugged.

"I don't understand…" Bones cut in looking at the remains.

Angela and Booth both looked at her seeing that she was in a daze of some kind as she stared at the remains. "What don't you understand, sweetie?" Angela asked with a small frown.

Bones' head snapped up as she cleared her thoughts. "N –nothing… it's nothing, call me when we've got more to go on." With that she trotted down the steps of the platform and down into her office while a worried Booth followed behind her.

X/X/X/

Booth sat there with his beautiful partner curled up against his body. Her breathing was slow but her heart pounded against his chest, was she alright? Was the cold medication taking a harder affect on her then necessary? Booth was sure it was just him overacting; Bones knew how to take care of herself. He looked at the clock across the room and it read almost midnight, he had been sitting there with her for almost an hour now and she didn't say a word or move? "Bones?" he whispered delicately and when she didn't respond he knew she was asleep.

He twisted his body a little and put one arm under her knees and other wrapped around her waist as he lifted her up off the couch. His back wasn't hurting him so much now and she wasn't heavy anyways so he was ok, only a little discomfort. He felt her nuzzle her face against his neck, which caused him to stumble slightly, but not enough to wake her. She drove him crazy when she was awake and now… when she was asleep she did the same? What was he going to do with her? Booth smiled to himself and pushed her bedroom door open with his foot he carried her over to the bed. He started to lay her down on the bed and felt her cling to him, she wouldn't let go which made Booth's smile widen. "Come on, Temperance, sweetheart, you need to get some sleep," he whispered laying her down completely. She wiggled around for a moment her eyes closed and she mumbled something incoherently while he pulled the blankets over her.

He watched as she bundled the blanket up in her hand and held it against her chest as she laid on her side, her eyes never once opened. Booth leaned down and brushed the hair from her face before pressing a soft kiss to her forehead. "Night Bones," he whispered before walking out of the room and leaving her apartment.

"I'm really sorry, Ange!" Bones said to Angela as she looked out her window. The day had been long and the case was finally solved. The girl's boyfriend who happened to be the quarterback on the football team and one of his buddies dumped her body in the de-icing truck. He was more worried about his reputation then actually taking care of a child so he figured he would get rid of both problems. Bones just didn't understand why children that age would want to have babies. They were still children themselves.

"You still there, sweetie?" Angela asked on the other end of the phone line.

"Yes. Sorry, I got distracted." Bones sighed and ran her fingers through her hair, "I'm really sorry about you and Roxie. Is there anything I can do?" Bones wasn't good at those sorts of things and she would admit it, but Angela was her best friend and Bones wanted to be there for her when her girlfriend broke up with her.

"No, you've helped a lot, Bren, thank you." Angela was quite again not hearing Brennan say anything. "Sweetie? You sure you're alright? You haven't been yourself this week… did something happen?" she asked now worried and concerned, her problems being put on the backburner.

"I'm fine, Ange. I promise." She lied.

"You know Booth came to talk to me yesterday and told me th -,"

"He told you we kissed!" Bones blurted out somewhat furious.

"What? You two kissed?" Angela said excited. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"Oh. Wait. What? He –he didn't tell you? What did you and Booth talk about?" she asked curious now.

"'Doesn't matter now. I want to know more about this kiss!" she said more interested now. "Did you two have sex?"

Bones wanted to be mad at herself for blurting it out but couldn't be, she told Angela everything anyhow. Bones smiled and chuckled, "no we didn't have sex. W –we he – we … I don't know who started it but we did- me and Booth kissed," she said softly pacing her living room now.

Angela sighed happily and smiled, "aw, I'm so happy for you sweetie!"

"Why?"

"Why? Because you and Booth finally took the next step… I think its great!" Angela said happily again.

Bones took in a deep breath and stopped pacing, was she supposed to be happy too? Booth wouldn't have made the move to kiss her if he wasn't interested right? And from what Angela had been telling her all a long Booth had felt something for her but they were both too blind to see? She could have been literal about it because really you couldn't see feelings or love, but like Booth told her once even though you can't see it, it's the actions people take to let you know that they care. Booth had shown her more then enough times that he cared. Should she say something to him now? Say I love you, Booth or tell him that if she believed in love he would be the definition of it to her?

X/X/X/

As Booth drove away from Fung Chows his mind was spinning. He was on his way to Bones' place to finally talk to her, he had so much to say to her and wasn't quite sure how to bring it all up. He knew once he got there it would be easy… or at least he hoped it would. She had mood swings at times and Booth could usually tell right from the start what kind of mood she was in, but then again the night he kissed her she seemed irritated with him but let him kiss her? He shrugged it off and would worry about it when he got there; this night talk was going to be a rough one.

Booth pulled into her apartment parking lot and rode the elevator up to her suit, he took his key out and slipped it through the hole then pulled back not knowing if that was a good idea or not? He raised his hand to knock and when he did Bones opened the door instantly swinging her jacket on and with confidence on her face.

"Booth!" she said somewhat startled yet with a smile on her face.

"Hey. Going somewhere?" he said lowering the Fung Chows bag with a small frown on his face.

"I was coming to see you actually," she lowered her voice and stepped aside for him to walk in.

"Well then my timing is perfect!" he said walking past her with the bag and into her kitchen.

They were off to a good start so far, Bones didn't feel so jittery about what happened a few nights ago. That was what she feared with their late night talks this week that what happened a few nights ago would happen again. She was scared she would admit to it, she was afraid of getting too close. But she had every intention of telling him something tonight, she just wasn't sure. She knew that once she got to his door it would all come to her, but instead he came to her place first. Bones took in a deep breath and removed her jacket and shoes and walked into the kitchen to see Booth placing the food out for them.

She crossed her arms over her chest casually and watched him gracefully put food on the plates and glance up at her at the same time. "How you feeling?" he asked her motioning for her to sit.

"Better. The two days I wasn't in the lab I doubled up on medication and now I'm right as snow!" she said happily.

"Right as rain, Bones. Right as rain." He shook his head and chuckled seeing her shrug some. He smiled at her and leaned in a little, "you seemed a little … I don't know what the word is, but this case seemed to get to you today? What's up?" he said trying to start casual conversation with her.

Bones thought about it for a moment and got up out of her chair, "want something to drink? Wine or beer?" she asked suddenly.

Booth turned in his seat and watched her grab a wine glass, "wine will be fine." He watched as she poured it and walked back over setting his glass down as she sat.

She sipped on hers momentarily and sighed setting the glass down, "I don't know, just seeing all those girls… they were pregnant! They were practically children themselves." She shook her head and saw Booth nod, "I could understand if they were much older and in a stable relationship… and had a stable job. At least the stable job, the relationship wouldn't matter, many woman are good mothers on their own," she started to babble when Booth cut her off.

"Wait!" he said getting a little loud. "You mean to tell me that it wouldn't matter to you if the father of your child wasn't around? You honestly think with the hours we work you'd be able to handle a baby all on your own?" he said a little softer.

Bones sat up a little and bit her bottom lip just staring at him; she knew that was a bad thing to say seeing how Booth was sort of a single father. Rebecca was around for Parker but when Booth had him he was doing it all on his own. "No, not necessarily, I didn't mean it the way it came out!" she corrected herself. She cleared her throat and sighed once more, "I just meant that some people don't have choices in the matter. From what I've seen many mothers… fathers," she pointed to Booth, "have done well on their own."

His face softened, "oh." He swallowed hard and chuckled lightly while taking a sip of wine listening to her talk again.

"What if I asked you to be the father of my child?" she asked innocently.

Booth choked on his wine and gasped for air, watching Bones sit up straight and pat him on the back. "What?" he asked between breaths.

"I mean we work together… were always around each other, I mean we don't have to be in a relationship to have a child. You'll always be around; it wouldn't be like what you have with Rebecca. I'd let you see him or her anytime you wanted!" Bones was saying all this innocently really not grasping the concept that Booth needed to have feelings involved.

Although he had feelings for Bones, a baby? They had only kissed… the subject of making love never even came up and she wanted to have a baby with him? Booth finally composed himself and cleared his throat, "It doesn't work that way, Bones!" he said to her softly. "There has to be feelings involved… yes you and I have a relationship, but its work related and sure outside of work we see each other… a lot, but still that wouldn't be enough." He looked at her hoping she was catching what he was saying, "there has to be more… there has to be feelings there. I don't want another Rebecca, Bones. I want something real and eventually one day I want a family of my own… other then Parker of course."

Bones just sat there hanging onto his every word trying to gather what he was saying to her. She thought she was getting it, she wasn't sure. She opened her mouth to say something and watched him get up out of his chair and walk towards the living room. Bones just sat there for a moment trying to gather herself, that was no way to start a conversation with someone especially when you are trying to tell them something important, like maybe how you feel about them.

When Bones walked into the living room she saw Booth looking out the window, "this wasn't how I pictured this to be," he finally said turning around to see her across the room.

"I don't understand?" she said softly walking closer to him.

"Me coming here tonight, I didn't picture it this way," he said with a sigh and rubbed his forehead.

Bones frowned and moved closer to him, "why were you expecting us to kiss again?" she said carefully watching his head snap up to look at her.

He chuckled and shook his head, "no, Bones." He sighed once more and moved over to her couch and sat down carefully as she stood before him. "I have something to tell you and I … I don't know how to say it?"

Bones' frown deepened as she looked down at him, "what is it Booth?" she whispered knowing it was something serious and important. She sat down next to him on the couch and took the wine glass from his hand seeing the serious look on his face, "tell me!" she whispered.

Booth grabbed her hand when she pulled away from setting the glass down, he held her hand gently in his own and chuckled while slightly looking up at her, "I come here to tell you something important and the night turns with us talking about having babies together.." he chuckled again and shook his head.

Bones chuckled too and squeezed his hand, "what's so important?" she asked again.

Seeley took in a deep breath and looked her in the eyes, Bones knew him better then anyone and she could tell that this was something major or he wouldn't be having such a hard time telling her anything. "On Tuesday I had to go in for a MRI scan of my brain," he finally said softly. "Been having some headaches lately… I wouldn't have been so worried if they weren't so frequent," he said softly once more finally meeting her eyes. The look on her face was breaking his heart, he squeezed her hand tightly again, "I have to go in this Monday for a biopsy… they found some sort of growth and want to look further into it."

Bones felt the tears well up in her eyes; it felt like she had been hit with a ton of bricks. Was he really just telling her all this? A minute ago they were fine, having one of their many arguments caused by her and now he was telling her that something was wrong with his brain? She swallowed hard and blinked a few times feeling the tears swell down her cheeks. She couldn't look at him, she couldn't speak, she stood up slowly and walked over to her window.

Booth sat there on the couch and looked over at her; I knew I should have told her sooner. She's pissed now. Booth stood slowly and watched as she put her hand up to the window and looked out further, "say something, Bones."

"Why didn't you tell me all this sooner?" she asked with a hurt tone and a crack in her voice.

"I -," he took in a deep breath and stepped a little closer behind her, "I just didn't want to worry you or anyone else until I found out what it was. But now I'm scared shitless and I knew I couldn't keep it from you any longer," he said softly and honestly. He watched her head drop forward and could hear her softly sob. His heart was breaking for sure now, "ah, Bones!" he whispered and stepped behind her grabbing her by the shoulders turning her around.

Bones buried her face against his chest and balled his shirt up in her fists feeling him rub her back up and down softly with his large hands. He pulled her closer and kissed her hair, she could feel his heart beating rapidly against her chest. "I don't know if I should be angry with you or upset… or … or…" she didn't finish her sentence she just sobbed against him feeling him tighten his grip around her body.

"Shh, everything will be alright," he tried to reassure her.

"You don't know that," she whispered against his chest.

Everything was different now, from the moment he told her all this. Bones couldn't feel for him now, if she did and she lost him, then she would never be the same. Hell she knew if she lost him now without confessing her feelings for him she knew she wouldn't be the same. Booth was apart of who she was and now the possibility of something seriously being wrong with his brain … something that could cost him his life was breaking her heart. This proved her theory that love didn't last… that it was only heartbreak from the start.

But she still couldn't let go. She couldn't let go of Booth and what she felt for him, apart of her wanted to hold onto that thing called hope.

Your comments have taken my breath away!!! Thank you all SO VERY much for being so kind and sticking with my story, it means the world to me!! I hope you all continue and let me know what you think! You are the ones keeping me going on here! -So with that said... The story about the 16 yr old girl and her friends being preggers is true. But whether its her boyfriend that killed her, I dont know? The Angela and Roxie thing is going to happen soon, I just dont know when? And about Booth being sick, I hear that is going to happen too, although I think it already is with his hallucinations, but I know it has something to do with his head and all that. They say his health will be going down hill and I wanted to explore that now. I promise I wont kill him off or anything ... the shows producers already promised it too. lol Oh and the baby thing, I hear that Bones askes him that this season... if he will be her 'Baby's daddy' haha. It maybe in tonights episode? I'm not sure... but also in tonights episode BB go to a strip club, I will write that in a later chapter. I have something in mind for that. ;D Anyhow, I hope you all enjoyed this chapter so far... let me know what you all think!