SPOILERS are in the beginging of this for episode, 4x19. I wanted to post before tonights episode. I hear that 4x17 will be pushed back a week due to American Idol? I'm not sure but that's what it says on the FOX website, I just wanted to make everyone aware of that now. Anyhow, I was hoping to get a little over 100 comments for my hard work with that chapter, but that's ok. The ones that have commented are great! You guys are always my consistant reviewers and it means so much to me that you take a minute after reading a chaper to tell me what you think! So THANK YOU to you all that have done that consistantly since my first chapter. You dont know who much it means to me! I hope you all like this chapter, its sad I will let you all know that now, but that's what makes it interesting I think? After the SPOILERS for 4x19 in this story, the rest of it is all my personal writing. It maybe out of character for BB and may not be? But this is my story and I want to write it the way I see it in my head, and from my great reviews so far, no one has complained and I appericiate that so much! So I will shut up now so you can all read this! Thank you again! ;D Enjoy!

Chapter: 15

Emotional Consequences;

"Booth you really shouldn't be out here," Bones said looking over the new remains that were found this morning in a garbage bag outside a building that was known for doing photo shoots around the area.

"It's Wednesday, Bones… Tomorrows Thursday, one day isn't going to make a big difference…" he said bending down on the other side of the remains. "So what have we got?" he asked looking at her with a side grin.

Bones sighed and shook her head; it was only two days ago that she was at his house, spending the night because he wanted to hold her captive… and why? Because he was being a big baby and didn't want to be alone. But Bones didn't mind it, he did after all say that he might need her for something in the middle of the night and he did. She coddled him when he needed it the most. Every since that morning when she woke up in his bed with him, a complete innocent affair of course, he was different, more alert and aware of them, especially at the lab and in front of people, Bones didn't mind it because she was sure that she too was the same way.

"Female… mid to late twenties… her arms were cut in half… her legs too," she said trailing off while examining the skull and the rest of the bones, "there doesn't seem to be any sign that she was hit with something. Or any sign of struggle?" Bones furrowed her brows together and stood up looking at Booth. "I'll know more when -,"

"When we get back to the lab," Booth finished and looked at the guys behind him. He pointed to the garbage bag with the human remains in it. "You know what to do."

X/X/X/

"Thankfully to the meteorite shard that Dr. Hodgins found inside our victims ear I was able to help identify her," Cam said with a file in hand.

"That's impossible to identify someone with a piece of evidence like that," Bones said.

"True. But there is only one place that would have something like that around here and that's at the Institute of Science. It was easy for me to take all the female employees and narrow my search out, plus with the help of DNA…" she trailed off and handed the file to Dr. Brennan.

Bones just looked at her confused for a moment and opened the file. "Dr. Diane Sidman."

Booth slid his card through and jogged up the platform; he walked over and behind Bones and looked over her shoulder at the picture of the woman. He watched as Bones stiffened up and could hear her breath hitch which caused him to smile. He looked up at the rest of the squints and smiled, just the normal everyday Booth.

"Looks like she was engaged to the founder of the institution, Landis Collar and she was the editor-in-chief to the Journal of Collar Institute." Booth said still reading over Bones' shoulder.

She moved away from him and set the file down on the table before her, she could feel his breath hit her neck as he spoke; his body brushing against hers like it was drove her insane. A part of her wanted to think that he was doing that on purpose, sure they were like that before, but he never made it so obvious like he was now. He was just testing her for some reason and Bones didn't know why? While she was caught up in her thoughts she heard a phone ring, it was Booth's. She stood there and watched as he turned his back to everyone to talk.

"Booth…" there was a long pause and she was his head hang low a little, "today? Well we are sort of in the middle of a case right now…" another pause, "alright… I can be in by four, ok, thanks." When he snapped his phone shut Bones looked away quickly and prodded at the remains.

She could hear Booth sigh and walk over next to her at the table; she looked up at him carefully and saw the look of worry on his face. "E –everything alright?" she finally asked removing her gloves and turning to face him.

He faked a smile, "yep. Everything's alright." He sighed once more and rubbed the back of his neck, "I think we need to bring this Landis guy in and have a little talk with him. What do say?" Booth said suddenly interested in the case again.

Bones studied him for a moment and nodded as she started to remove her lab jacket and walk down the platform with him.

X/X/X/

Bones slipped on her sports bra and her matching black stretchy shorts before putting her hair up into a ponytail. It was a little after five and their case they had earlier was already solved, seems her fiancé had another woman, Jennifer Keating who was jealous of Diane and figured if she got rid of her she could have Landis all to herself. But nothing got past Bones and the rest of the team they found evidence that she murdered the young woman and dumped her body behind the building.

It was just another day and another case to Bones. She slipped her tennis shoes on and headed out her door locking it behind her. Booth said he had things to do around four so Bones had to drive herself back to her apartment, he wouldn't tell her what was going on? But she knew she would figure it out sooner or later? She jogged down the hall and opened a door; a few months ago she had her own personal gym put inside the apartment building. It was easier then driving down town to get a good workout when she could do it here a few steps away from her own apartment.

Bones needed to blow off some steam anyhow; this was a rough week for her. She had never worried so much about one person in her life. What was making it harder for her was the fact that she was experiencing feelings for Booth that she had carefully kept hidden the past four years and now all the sudden they wanted to come out, but she couldn't do that. She couldn't tell Booth how she felt about him, especially now with him being sick, if something happened to him, she would be devastated. Compartmentalizing now would be out of the question, she was in too deep with him.

As Temperance turned the stereo on and music pounded through the room she put her gloves on and started to punch the bag that hung from the ceiling. She was trying to imagine what it would be like if she did tell Booth how she felt? She wasn't blind and could clearly tell that Booth felt something for her, maybe love? Maybe not? It could be just a lust thing; she did find him sexually attractive on many levels and in the past Booth had said things to make her believe that she was sexually appealing to him as well.

But the events of the last few months made her believe that what she and Booth really had was something special. It was hidden, not very well to the rest of the world, but nonetheless it was. Now the only thing holding her back from telling him how she really felt was the fact that he was sick, she couldn't bear to lose someone else in her life, especially Booth. She had to be more careful now around him, she couldn't let her walls down and give in like she had within the past few months. It wasn't right to feel this way about him knowing that one day he would just leave her in one way or another and she would be left alone.

Maybe it was crazy thinking, but Bones' brain didn't work like everyone else's. She was ahead a lot and she thought more quickly about things then most people did. She also knew she overly thought about things as well… she was doing it now.

X/X/X/

As Booth entered her apartment building his mind was in chaos, the worry he had before had doubled now. How was he going to tell Bones what he had to tell her? How would she take it? Booth removed his suit jacket as he walked off the elevator and down the hall to her apartment; he stopped midway down hearing loud music playing from one of the other rooms. He walked towards the door and looked through the glass window seeing his Bones running a treadmill. His jaw dropped seeing the perfect curve of her body as she jogged against the moving tread. She was well sculpted and Booth had always known that, but he had never seen her workout before?

Booth carefully opened the door and leaned against the frame of it watching her carefully, the soft bounce of her breasts in that black sports bra, the way her ass muscles moved inside of her shorts. Booth felt a stirring in his pants; he was getting hard just watching her. He had to stop, he didn't come here to scope out his partner, he came here to tell her something important it was just hard to think about when she was … oh God! Just stop her now Seeley before you pop a big one and have to leave to take care of it!

"Bones?" he shouted over the music. He watched her jump and try to grab onto the side bars of the machine before she stumbled forward and scraped her body against the moving tread. Booth rushed over to her and shut the machine off before kneeling down beside her seeing that she was holding onto her right palm. "Let me see," he instructed seeing a large scrape that was starting to bleed.

"Booth! What the hell are you doing here?" she scolded feeling him help pull her up off the ground as she examined her hand.

"I came to … talk to you. I didn't mean to scare you!" he said apologetically.

She nodded and took in a few deep breaths before heading towards the door. Booth followed behind her as she opened her apartment door. As they stepped inside she walked straight towards the kitchen and gulped down a bottle of water. She was all sweaty from head to toe and Booth thought she never looked sexier then she did now. He moved his eyes quickly from her body and looked into her eyes.

"What do you need to talk to me about?" she asked breathing heavily.

Booth's eyes averted down again watching her stomach muscles clamp together every time she took in a deep breath, oh yes, she was defiantly sexy. Focus Seeley… focus, you came here to talk to her about something very important. "Don't you wanna take a shower first? Take care of your hand maybe? You scraped it pretty bad," he said trying to buy himself some more time so he could figure out what and how he was going to tell her his doctor said.

She looked at him carefully and sighed, "just give me ten minutes." She walked out of the kitchen and down the hall to her bedroom to take a quick shower.

X/X/X/

Booth loosened his tie and walked around in circles around her living room. Looking at pictures and knick-knacks he had seen a zillion times before, he knew Bones could handle what he was going to tell her. It was Bones after all; she was a person that compartmentalized very well in bad situations. She never let her emotions get involved or so he thought? Sometimes he could tell that she did with him… if she didn't she wouldn't have tried so hard to help him out the day of his biopsy.

He could hear footsteps as he turned around to see her emerge from the kitchen. Her hair wet, her face slightly flushed and she was in her black silk robe. Booth took in a deep breath and swallowed loudly.

"What's so important?" she asked casually walking towards her couch. As she sat Booth walked over and did the same.

She turned to look at him seeing that same look on his face the day he came over here to tell her that something was wrong with him.

"Bones… I … that call I got earlier was from my doctor," he started and sighed softly, "they got… they got the results back from the biopsy."

Bones swallowed hard and looked down at her hands as he fumbled with the hem of her silk robe. "What did they find?" she whispered not looking up into his eyes. She had a talk with herself earlier; she couldn't give in and let her emotions get the best of her again. Not this time… she… just couldn't.

"A tumor."

Bones' eyes shot up instantly and she regretted it the moment she did, the look on his face was scary, he was worried and he had tears in his eyes. Bones felt her heart stop momentarily. She parted her lips to speak but nothing sounded, just a soft whimper from the cry she wanted to let out but held in.

"I saw the MRI, it's lodged against hippocampus," he said softly blinking a few times to get rid of his blurry vision. He scanned over her face, she was frightened, but holding back her emotions very well.

"Are they going to do any treatment for it?" she asked suddenly.

"For right now I have to take some kind of medication to shrink it, then they are going to go from there." He stood up and took a deep breath while running his hand over his face while walking towards her window.

Bones stayed put, she didn't know what to say or do right now to comfort him. So much for holding back emotions, she couldn't do it now; she was in too deep with Booth. She felt a stream of tears roll down her cheeks now as she looked down at her hands again. A tumor could lead to cancer and she only hoped that they caught it in time.

"What about work?" she asked sniffing up her tears.

"I'm still going to be able to do my job, Bones." His voice was calm as he turned around to see her looking down, the glare from the light in her living room shown on her face and he could see the glint of tears on her cheeks. His heart dropped that moment as he walked over and sat down next to her, "I'll be fine though. I promise you that, things like this happen. I was lucky they caught it so soon," he whispered and brought his finger to her cheek whipping a tear away while trailing it down her jaw line and lifting her chin so she would look at him. "Temperance…" he whispered.

Her eyes shot up again hearing her name, Booth never said her name, he always called her Bones. She was only Temperance when he was being extra serious and it was important. "Are you scared?" she suddenly asked, knowing the answer, but she just asked to mask her emotions before she said something she might regret later or before he said anything else.

He sighed and dropped his finger from her chin, "I've been shot … stabbed… blown up… you name it, but not once during those times did I really feel like that was… the end." He took in a deep breath and moved back a little from her and dropped his head.

Bones knew that time her heart really did stop, that was so unlike Booth. He was never scared about anything, even when he was captured by the Gravedigger or when Miss. Noonan shot him he didn't seem like this. He was strong during all of that, now looking at him it was as though he was a little kid again, like he knew something bad was seriously going to happen this time. Brennan wasn't sure what to do now; she had coddled him before, but was that enough? What was he looking for her to do?

What should she do?

Her bottom lip and chin quivered watching him as he began to sob; it wasn't heavy crying but enough for her heart to break again.

The main thing Booth was worried about was his son; Booth didn't want this whole thing to get worse before he could get better. He didn't want to think about death and leaving his child without a father, but Booth had to face facts this was life. Not to mention the other thing that worried him most was that he could leave Bones, for real this time. No National Security reasons, but because something real, like his health was turning for the worst and there was nothing he could do about it. Booth wanted to look up to see her face, but he was already an emotion wreck and knew she was too by this point.

He wanted to pull her into his arms and tell her everything now, tell her that he was in fact in love with her. That he didn't want to go another moment without having her in his life, but he was coward. He couldn't do that to her now, if something did happen to him and they got involved emotionally… and physically and something happened to him he would never forgive himself.

Neither of them knew at the moment but they were both thinking the same thing.

But it was Bones that made the first move, usually it was Booth, actually it was always Booth, but this time she felt it was her time to show him just how much she was concerned and how much she cared for him. Bones looked up and reached out putting both her small hands on his cheeks making him lift his eyes to her. She swallowed hard seeing tears soaked on his cheeks, they mirrored her own.

She blinked a few times feeling him lean into her touch as she pulled him forward more and brought her lips to the spot on his head where they had to cut for his biopsy. This was Temperance now, not Bones, she was using her heart instead of her brain, she was going with instinct and doing what she thought was right. Booth taught her to use her heart when it was needed and she felt this was the time for that.

Her lips lingered on the wound as she moved her hands to the back of his head softly stroking his hair feeling his hands come around her back pulling her close against his body. When she pulled her lips away he lifted his head to look at her, her bright emerald eyes were filled with unshed tears and when one fell he moved his hand to her cheek and whipped it away. Bones closed her eyes and cuddled her cheek into his touch and moved her hands around his neck softly cupping it.

When she opened her eyes his forehead rested against hers, both of their breathings went ragged and soft. She wasn't sure who made the first move but before she knew it they were kissing. His lips softly kissing her top lip before he delved his tongue deep inside of her mouth for a passionate and hungry kiss. Bones didn't object, she in fact pressed herself harder against him, her fingers raking through his short hair, softly pulling it while he started to hover over top of her. His hands roamed along the silkiness of her robe along her back, he moaned faintly when she did.

The kiss was innocent, it wasn't hot and heavy, but it was needy and passionate. Booth kissed along her jaw line and down her neck only to move back up again to her lips. When he tasted more saltiness from her crying he pulled back instantly and brought her up with him. He looked to see that her tears hadn't subsided. He was hurting her now even more by kissing her; this was exactly what he didn't want to do. Hurt her again.

He cupped her face and saw her lips swollen and red much like his own.

"Booth?" she whispered almost breathlessly watching him stair at her.

"I can't do this do you," he whispered back even softer turning his head from hers as he still cupped it between his hands.

She opened her mouth to ask what he meant before she felt him kiss her quickly and stand. She was left breathless as she stood seeing him grab his suit jacket and head for the door. He turned his head to look over his shoulder to see her standing there looking lost and confused with tears streaming down her face, he was angry with himself now, he knew it wasn't his fault about the tumor thing, but he could have stopped himself before he kissed her and made things worse. He gave her a faint smile and walked out.

Temperance was stunned, it was usually her that stopped something when it became to intimate between her and Booth and this time it was him. Did he really not want her? Or was he feeling the same things she was feeling towards him and he was scared to get too close now? Was this all proving her theory right about feeling something for him? It wouldn't last?

Chapter: 16 is being worked on now. But I wont post until I'm finished obviously, lol, but also until I feel that everyone is ready for it by reading the reviews I get for this chapter. So R&R pretty please!! Thank you, I really do hope you all enjoyed this chapter, I got a little choked up myself writing it. Pathetic I know. Lmao XD