Chapter 7: Trust and Confessions

Tia couldn't believe she had just said that out loud. For years she had kept all the pain of losing her child locket up and in three seconds she had yelled it out to the one person she didn't want to admit it to. The memory of what happened turned Tia dead inside. Her whole body went limp and silent tears fell from her eyes. Meanwhile Rocket could only stare at her, he was not expecting that. Shaking himself, Rocket learnt forward and grabbed Tia's cold lifeless hands in his warm ones.

"Please Tia, tell me what happened." Rocket asked, he didn't know why he asked it but he could see that it was eating her on the inside. He was willing to do anything to make her feel better. Tia looked at him for a moment and then turned away with a war splashed across her face. She was trying to decide if she should tell him or not since she didn't want him to hate her. In the end she decided she was going to tell him, since she already said that she had killed her first child. She took a deep breath before she began to explain...

I've only seen a doctor twice after I married Jonathan, one when Dame Simbai healed me from my wounds I gained trying to escape Jonathan; the other time is when I lost my child. I had two miscarriages before I found out I was pregnant for the third time. I told Jonathan instantly because I thought it might calm him down and make him take on new responsibilities if he realised he was going to be a father. At first I thought he had taken being a father seriously because he tried to be nice and took care of me and didn't try to harm me. Months past and I became bigger and bigger. I was so excited; I had always wanted to be mum. One night when I was about seven months pregnant, I was sitting in the library reading a new book that Jonathan had let me order. It was a fairytale book and I was reading out loud because I had read that it was good to talk to the baby when the door burst open and Jonathan walked in. I could tell he was drunk because I could smell the alcohol all the way from the other side of the room. Before I could ask what was wrong he grabbed me by the hair and threw me against the wall.

"Jonathan, please think of the child." I begged but I think I made it worse since he slammed his fist into my gut. I tried to get him to stop but he just kept beating me. I tried to defend my stomach but I didn't do a good job, since when he knocked me to the floor I saw blood come from my womb. It seemed that Jonathan got bored at that point because he began to walk out of the room.

"Jonathan please, some things wrong, the babies hurt!" I screamed after him but he just ignored me and left. The only phone in the house was in Jonathan's office, so I had to drag myself all the way there. I passed out after that from blood loss but I woke up again in hospital. That's when I found out I couldn't have any more children and that my little girl was dead. My little Lily.

Tia couldn't speak anymore because it was just too painful. She had always wanted to be a mother and when she was pregnant she had spent a lot of her money creating a nursery for the baby and baby books. She never found out why Jonathan started beating her but she assumed she must have got over confident with Jonathans niceness and said something she shouldn't have said. Tia couldn't control the tears leaking from her eyes. She felt Rockets hand on her face and was forced to look at him.

"Don't you ever say that you killed your own child?" Rocket stated firmly, making Tia cry even more.

"But I did, she was my child Rocket, mine!" Tia shouted back at him. "I was her mother, I should of protector her, I should have dragged myself faster to the telephone, I should of..." Before she could say anymore, Rocket gripped her hard around her arms.

"Listen to me Tia. You did not kill your child, that bastard did. You did everything you could to save her, he didn't even try, to help you when his own child was dying, so don't you ever say it's your fault." Rocket tried to say as gently as he could but there was some kind of sharpness in his voice that made Tia listen. In the end, she couldn't take it no more and began crying even harder. The only thing Rocket could do was hold Tia in his arms while he rocked her back to sleep.

Rocket woke up when he heard the sound of something clinking together. Slowly, he opened his eyes and saw Dame Simbai placing food down on the table.

"Sorry to wake you, I was just putting both of your breakfasts on the table." She explained. That was when he realise that he had Tia sleeping on top of him. Despite feeling a bit weird being caught in this position, he didn't move because he didn't want to wake up Tia.

"Thanks Dame Simbai, I'll eat it when Tia wakes up." He exclaimed, stroking a piece of long white blond hair that was hanging in front of her angelic face and pushed it behind her delicate ear. He didn't understand why but he just loved her hair, it was so soft and strong, just like her.

"I'll come back and check on you in a while." Dame Simbai smiled and left the room. Rocket wasn't one hundred percent sure but he swore he saw some kind of laughter hidden behind that face. He shrugged it off and turned his attention back to his sleeping beauty. Wait, his sleeping beauty, Rocket shook his head. Since when did she become his sleeping beauty? Just then he felt Tia stir, like she was having another bad dream but she instantly relax again. He watched as Tia eyes slowly fluttered open and then closed again. She snuggled into Rockets chest before suddenly sitting up.

"Oh Rocket, I'm sorry." Tia whispered, bending her head down so her hair could hide the blush that was warming up her cheeks. But Rocket did see it and was now trying to prevent himself laughing out loud, so he wouldn't embarrass her even more.

"Good morning to you too." Rocket smiled; trying to dismiss what had just happen he added "Would you like some breakfast?" Still keeping her head low she nodded. Rocket learnt over and grabbed the two trays that both held scramble egg and strawberries. She muttered her thanks and began to eat the scrabble egg. They had very little conversation, since last night's events still reflected on them now. Tia was trying with all her might to not stuff all of her food down at once because she had not eaten for nearly a week. Just as she finished her last strawberry, Sonny came in the room.

"I would just like to let you know that we'll be approaching Akillian in about an hour." Sonny cheered with a child like smile beaming off his face. Tia could see a big smile spread across Rockets face as well, she knew Rocket had been excited to get home and see his family again. He always brought it up in conversations. She also knew that Sonny was looking forward to meeting his family as well. Tia also felt happy to know the news; even though she had no one there she was excited to start a new life. To get rid of everything bad. It was nearly over. At least that's what Tia thought until the space craft suddenly twisted out of control. She would have fallen off the bed if Rocket hadn't been sitting next to her and grabbed her just in time.

"What was that?" She questioned, as Rocket helped her sit up right. Both of Sonny and Rockets faces had turned upside down into a frown.

"Someone's trying to board us." Sonny answered. Tia watched Sonny as he processing the situation through his head but was interrupted when a screech sounded through the microphone.

"Sorry to interrupted your flight Commander Blackbones but I'm afraid you have something that belongs to us. Bring us the girl or we will come aboard and get her. You've got five minutes to decide." With that the message cut off. Fear shook through Tia's body. No, please not when I'm so close to getting away. Tears reappeared in Tia's eyes but she quickly swiped them away. If she was going to go, then she wasn't going to go out like a baby. Pushing herself off the bed, she began to walk to the door. But Sonny stood in her way.

"Where do you think you're going?" He asked, blocking her way to the door.

"Simple, I'm giving myself up." She replied, trying to push herself past him again but he held her back firmly.

"What do you mean give yourself up?" Rocket demanded, she hadn't realised that he had follow close behind her. She bit her bottom lip nervously, why does he always have this effect on me? She thought to herself as she tried to find the words to explain herself.

"I'm not going to make every man give up their life for me. It's not worth it." She stated firmly to both of them. Rocket and Sonny looked at each other; they seemed to be having some silent communication before Rocket gave him a nod.

"But if we give you up more lives will be lost." Sonny claimed. Tia wasn't sure but she could feel her eyebrows disappear into her hair line. She didn't know what to say except...

"Pardon?" She questioned. She would have said 'what' but her parents had raised her to polite and she hadn't been able to drop the habit. Especially since she had lived with Jonathan. Sonny turned around and rubbed the back of his neck, as he tried to figure out how to explain himself.

"The weapon that wiped out all of the fluxes and gain Bleylock power was created by me and a friend." He stopped for a second to look at Tia. Tia had gone into complete shock, she didn't see Sonny as the weapon making type but she knew there was more to the story, so she stayed silent and let Sonny explained. "We hadn't realised Bleylocks intentions at the time, we thought we were making it to improve the technoid football team but when we realised what was really going on we tried to stop him but it was too late." Tia heart leaped in sympathy for Sonny, he hadn't meant to start the war, he had been tricked.

"But I still don't get what this has to do with me?" She asked, completely confused now.

"You see to create the Meta flux we had to use a little bit of another flux to create it, the Breath." As soon as Sonny said the Breath, everything in Tia's mind clicked together, panicked ran through her whole body. Tia knew that she was probably the last person left in the galaxy with the breath.

"They want to use me to create another weapon." She spoke out the one thing that no one else was willing to speak. Sonny nodded his head. "Why me?" Tia cried out, as she fell to her knees. The fire that had to be burning through had suddenly gone. She couldn't hold herself together no more. She had already killed too many people; she didn't want to kill any more. Rocket bent in front of her and placed his warm hands on her cheeks.

"Tia, do you trust me?" Tia looked up at him like he had just said the craziest thing in the universe. She nodded, not trusting her tongue to speak for her.

"Then I also need you to trust Sonny, no matter what happens we will not let Bleylock have you."