You know you guys are really quite demanding you know!!!

You all want Bella to just tell Edward and the Cullen's the truth yet if she just comes out and says it straight away then there wouldn't be much of a story now would there!!!

Lol!!!! 'Patience is a virtue,' ever heard that saying???? Lol!!!

Well anyway, it's the meadow scene (cheers) I know, I know, it's here!!!! Well don't hate me if there is something you don't like in it!!!!!!

Sorry it took so long but this is actually my longest chapter I have ever written!!!

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BTW, this chapter contains a lot more Bella thinking time, which I know you all hate but it HAS to be added into the story or, again, there wouldn't really be much plot to it.

Also there need to be anther vote about if you want an Edwards POV of this chapter for the next chapter or not!?

Warning: contains swearing.

Bella's POV

I awoke the next morning blissfully. The sun cracked through the window gracefully and placed it's self on top of my floor. Wow, sun in Forks. It gave off a soft glow that lit up the place; I didn't realize where I was for a few minutes. I saw my clothes draped over my rocking chair, my laptop flashing a red light at me saying it was time to charge it, my wardrobe door slight ajar because of it's dodgy hinge. I peered at the wall where there were smudge stains from when I was very little and gentle pictures of my friends and family. I smiled and breathed in the familiar smell. I felt like I had newly awoken, not from a sleep, but from life, like I was getting a chance at it again and this time I knew I had to get it right.

I stood up slowly and walked to the bathroom across the landing. I tiptoed so that Charlie wouldn't wake and went to the mirror. I splashed some water in my face and laughed softly to myself. I hadn't remembered feeling this happy since I was very young, feeling this… at piece. For years now I had that feeling that I was going to die hanging over me, but since Edward that feeling had slowly decreased and now I was mildly aware of it. I was happy, truly happy.

I held the thought in my head and went to get ready for the morning. Once I was washed and changed into a pair of pale blue jeans, a white shirt and a black pullover, I did the same as I had done for Charlie the previous morning and then sent him off to Harry's. This time sue, Harry's wife, picked Charlie up as she was coming in to forks anyway. I was completely happy with this and so waved Charlie off as he headed towards La Push.

I walked back into the kitchen and settled myself down at the table. I was really curious about where Edward would take me today and was almost bouncing out of my seat in anticipation. He would have to take me somewhere privet for he couldn't go out in public in this weather, not in the sun. I sat there thinking; just thinking about the world, about Edward… and then someone really unwanted crossed my mind. Jacob. He had been out of my head since the note Edward left, and when I woke up this morning, the previous day just seemed like a big blur that really shouldn't worry me. But, of course, it slipped around the edges and now was consuming thoughts. My good mood from this morning ruined.

Yesterday was a big mistake. Now Jacob hated me and I didn't know if we would make up this time. He seemed pretty angry, and the look he gave me, I flinched away from the memory, feeling tears building up but pushing them back down. How could I have been so stupid? I shouldn't have let him come in to the house, I knew enough about them to realize that he would have noticed Edward had been there. I gave one unhumorous laugh. Now I had a very unwanted subject in my head and it wont get out.

Though there was one person who was able to make me forget the problems with Jacob, and that was Edward. It was just that whenever I was around him the rest of the world seemed unimportant, that, together, we could conquer anything. Yeh, right, a familiar voice from the back of my head called out, and I guess your love would be so strong that you could conquer the Volturi? Oh, give me a break here. Are you stupid or something?

No she's not stupid, she's in love. So shut it and let her glory in the moment, the Devil said defending me.

Bella, if you go to far with this you WILL regret it, the angel told me sternly.

"It's to late for that," I whispered to myself. Oh god, what have I gone and done? I'm in love?? This was wrong, so very wrong. I am going to have to leave him in a years time, and… I couldn't do that. I felt like crying at the thought of leaving Edward.

So I thought of Edward to stop my self from crying about Jake and now I wanted to cry about Edward.

I laughed once to myself and shook my head, "great," I thought sarcastically, "your one messed up girl."

At that the doorbell rang. Edward! I headed to let him in but hesitated for one moment while my hand hung over the doorknob. He said that if I didn't want to see him then I shouldn't open the door. Did I really want to see him? I mean he was the one that caused Jacob to run off and start hating me again. What was I kidding, of cause I wanted to see him.

Yes, but is it really a good idea, the angel asked.

Yes, I said determinedly and swung the door open.

Standing there, like a god, was Edward Cullen. He smiled his crocked grin at me as I open the door; I stood their Dumbstruck at his beauty for a few seconds. I shook my self and stared up into his golden brown eyes, they had the look of amusement in them.

"Hi," he told me smirking.

"What's so funny?" I asked, annoyed.

"We match," he smiled knowingly and gestured to his outfit. It was true; he was wearing faded blue jeans, a white shirt and black pullover. I frowned and looked up at him, eyebrows raised.

"What?" He said, his smile growing wider. I just shook my head and walked out the door, turning to lock the deadbolt in the process. When I turned to face Edward I found in empty space.

"Well, you coming?" he called from his car. He was holding open the passenger seat for me, gesturing for me to come towards the car. I'm just rolled my eyes and headed for his silver Volvo. I climbed in and sat on the soft leather seats, Edward closed the door behind me and within the same second was sat next to me again. He looked at me curiously and then shook his head.

"You're not waiting for the running and screaming are you?" I asked him jokingly but the meaning behind it was perfectly serious. He looked at me in shock.

"Well… yes," he said honestly, breaking eye contact and starting up the car then heading off down the road..

"I hope your patient then, because you're going to be waiting a long time."

"You reckon?" he asked, challengingly.

"I don't reckon, I know," I said indifferently, he just laughed at this. "So where are we going?"

"For a little walk."

"Define little."

"hmm… 5 miles or so," he told me sheepishly.

"5…" I sighed, "Why are we hiking again?"

His laugh flowed through the car like silk making me lose myself in it for a split second. When I came back I saw him grinning at me, his eyes not touching the road even though he was going around 90 miles and hour down a 50 road. "Well… there is a place where I would like to take you," he looked back to the road again as though embarrassed by this.

"Oh," is all I managed to say. He was taking me someplace that meant something to him and he wanted to share that with me. In surprised pleasure I felt the corner of my lips pull up. I glanced to my side and stared out the window, from my other side I heard a frustrated sigh.

"Irritating you am I?" I asked smugly.

"Yes," he answered tightly. I looked up to him and found that he was staring at me intently, when I caught his eye he turned away. "I didn't-"

"Don't worry, I know what you meant."

"But what-"

"I know about your gift to read minds," I said feeling playful, I knew he picked up on my mood, "and that you can't read my mind." The car was silent for a few minutes and my spirits calmed down, "well?" I asked, getting impatient from his response.

"I assumed you had more to say for you kept interrupting me before," he said jokingly, "and… how do you know about my gift, and the fact it doesn't work on you?"

"I grew up with vampires, if you remember."

"But that doesn't-"

"I grew up with vampires and none of there mental abilities worked on me. And the reason I knew about your gift in the first place was that, well, I have always been good at reading between the lines." I recalled the lesson to him…

"Your very hard to read. I am…err… very good at reading peoples emotion and thoughts and things, but with you there's nothing. I can't read you," he frowned. So he was basically telling me, in a very subtle way, that he was a vampire with the gift of reading minds.

"I have often been told that," I smiled wider and his frown got deeper

At first he looked at me in astonishment and then a crocked smile flew out from him. My breath caught in my throat and I felt my cheeks going hot with a blush. Now it was my turn to sigh in frustration at myself, why was I so weak hearted?

"Lets have a deal, you have to tell me the truth of what ever I ask you, as long as it is something you feel appropriate and comfortable with, and in return I shall do the same."

"I'm game," I agreed, "but may I ask why?"

"Because it is extremely irritating that I can not read your thoughts and so by asking and you telling truthfully what you are thinking, then hopefully I could satisfy my curiosity and down my annoyance." We both laughed at this and then just started to enjoy being in one another's presents.

We sat in a comfortable silence for the rest journey, neither one of us wanting to ruin the tranquil atmosphere we had created.

"We're here," Edwards voice said beside me. I looked up and found that we had gone down a small-mudded lane that narrowed into a hikers path. Fantastic, I thought sarcastically.

I heard my side of the car open and turned to see Edward standing there with his hand held out to help me. I took it and felt the sparks immediately, my heart accelerated and, again, I felt the blush. Edward expression only change to a mild surprise, and he lifted me out of the car and then dropped our hands and walked to the edge of the forest.

"Err… the footpaths that way," I said pointing to the narrow path. He looked to it and then back to me and shrugged.

"This is the way to where I want to take you," he smiled slightly, "I said we were going on a walk, not that we were following any tracks."

I sighed and lent against his car. "Ok, give me a minute." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, I can do this and it won't be that embarrassing. Walking long distances wasn't one of my strong points at all. I opened my eyes to find Edward standing in front of me, looking frustrated. Before I could say another word he had flung me on to his back and grasped hold of my leg tightly so I wouldn't fall off. I had sat like this on many vampires back before and I hated it every time, though I had to admit, it was a lot better then hiking. "Oh god," I whispered and hid my head in his shoulder.

I felt the wind whip past me as Edward ran. I had to say it was quite exhilarating, the feel of flying, but I didn't dare look up and watch as he dodged the trees and bushes. I could trust Edward not to hit a tree, though still didn't like to think about it when there was still a possibility, even if 1000 to1.

And then it was all over I felt Edward stop and very slowly I climbed off his back and lent against a tree.

"You could have warned me," I told him, breathing slow deliberate breathes.

"You would have said 'no'."

I laughed lightly and then stood up and walk towards him. "So, what did you what to show me?"

"This," and he gestured to his right causally. What I saw there was amazing. I walked towards the clearing in wonder; I heard the light footsteps of Edward following me, I glanced over my shoulder and he smiled in encouragement. I proceeded forward until I came to a meadow. It had long wavy golden-green grass, with the occasional flower poking out of the top. It swayed in perfect time with the winds breath, and it caught the light in a wave of shimmering glass. It took my breath away and I laughed silently to myself. I continued until I was standing right In the middle of it, the grass coming to just below my knees.

It was then that I realized Edward wasn't with me. I looked around the edge of the meadow for him and there he was standing hidden in the shadow of the trees.

His face was grave and I looked at him in concern. I gave a little mock bow, like I did before P.E on Friday, and then invited him to do the same. I small smile escaped on to his lips and he went along with my game. I then, very slowly, sat down on to the grass, closed my eyes and waited for Edward to come to me.

"That's not playing fair," heard his voice next to me say accusingly. I smiled at this but my eyes remained closed.

"I said I would play the game. I never said I would play fair," using a similar phrase to what he used earlier. At this I opened my eyes and found that Edward was watching me. The sight of him mad my heart do double time and my breathing increase. He was even more beautiful under the sun then anything I could imagine. I felt my mouth drop open and so quickly recovered myself and pulled my look away from his flawless form. "You… umm…" I felt my cheeks burn with another strong blush I cursed myself mentally.

I turned to look at him again and saw him not looking at me, but at the sky, I grim expression on his face. "Why are you sad?" I asked helplessly. I had startled him in my comment and he looked down at me with a soft but sad face.

"Tell me about your childhood?" he asked. It wasn't a command but I subtle request, his voice was soft and luring. I lay back onto the grass and looked up. I heard Edward do the same and we stayed there in silence for, god knows how long. Finally I spoke.

"What would you like to know?"

"Start from the beginning."

"Well… my mom gave birth to me and when I was a about a 1 year old she went on a business trip and went missing. Everyone thought she was dead but 18 mouths later she came back and was vampire, vegetarian that is. She had to leave Charlie but took me in and nurtured me like she was meant to. As soon as I was old enough she told me what she really was and I accepted that. When I was about 10 my mother wanted to move abroad but I wanted to stay in America and so I moved to Charlie's and have been here ever since. Sure, my mom comes and visits as much as possible and I am meant to see her this summer," there was a long pause as I though about that. I would have to go to the Volturi this summer, but I wouldn't have to become one until next year, when I would have to leave forks.

"So, where does she live?" Edward asked, cutting me out of my thoughts.

"Europe, around Italy," I told him with out thinking and instantly regretted it. It didn't seem as though he had noticed though, which I was grateful for.

"And what was she like? As a mom?" this question took me off guard.

"Umm… with Renée it was always like I was the mom and she was the kid. I was the one looking after her most of the time but, don't get me wrong, I loved growing up with my mom. I love my mom," I said this quietly. I had never really spoken to this to anyone before and it felt weird. Weird, but right confiding in Edward.

"And earlier, you mentioned something," oh god, what did I say, "you said 'I grew up with vampires and none of there mental abilities worked on me,' did you live with other vampires or did you come across them?" shit, why did I say that. I sat up quickly and started to play with some grass.

"Edward…"

"If you don't want to talk about it it's fine. I won't bring it up again," he was still lying down and gently play with a piece of my hair. I lay back down and turned my head so that I was looking deeply into his eyes.

"Thank you," I whispered.

"Anytime," he whispered back, still playing with my hair.

I stared to trace the Pattern of his mussels up his arm gently with my index finger. He shuddered and closed his eyes, the piece of hair lying limply in his hand. We stayed like this for an in defiant amount of time, relaxation taking over me and losing myself in it.

"Don't I… scare you?" Edward asked with a distant voice.

"Why would you?" I replied without moving my eyes from his arm and continuing to trace his mussels.

"Because of what I am," he sat up and looked me straight in the eye.

"And why would that make a difference?" I questioned also sitting up, bringing my knees up to my chest.

"Bella…" before I could even reply he was gone from next to me. "Because I'm a hunter. The prefect hunter in fact," he was now back in the shadow of the trees. His face was grave and would of probably scared me if I hadn't seen it a thousand times. He thought I didn't know what he was, that I hadn't seen these things before first hand, but of course, he wouldn't expect me to have seen them. I sighed gently and lent forward on to my knees, not taking my eyes off of Edward.

"I could rip you limb from limb," and with that he tor a huge branch off a tree and through it to the other side of the meadow. "I could out run you, you wouldn't even have a chance," then he was in front of me again and he knelt down so that we were at eye level. "Or I could just lure you in. Everything about me invites you in, my voice, my face, even my smell." He leaned back sat down onto the ground, looking at me intently for any signs of fear or realization.

"Edward, you need to understand that vampires don't scare me. I understand all of what you just said, and I'm not scared of you, and I never will be," I told him softly. "I have seen what a vampire can do first hand, I have seen a vampire feed," I shivered at the memory. Once the Volturi made me sit and watch another human being drained of their life so that I could understand them better, telling me that this was what a real vampire did, not like my mother who feasted on animals. I was only 11 years old and that memory had stayed with me all through out my years after, sometimes even disturbing my sleep these days. After that I promised myself never to kill, ever, even if the thirst was so strong I felt like I would die, never. I saw Edwards eyes widen in shock and disgust but continued on, "I have seen a vampire get ripped to shreds in front of my eyes, and then burnt to ashes," again another one of the Volturi's lessons. "Edward… you don't need to worry at all about me being scare of you." This last bit I said as a whisper, "In fact… I think… I… love you," at that I broke eye contact and looked down, biting my lip and blushing.

Edward sat in silence for a long while, thinking over what I had told him. After about 10 minutes he spoke, "Bella… why have you seen those things?" he looked at me with strained eyes.

"I don't think you want to know," is all I said. "My past is my past Edward, can we not get into that now," it was also my future but he didn't need to know that. I gave him a pleading smile and I could see he was debating it over in his head.

"But, Bella, you shouldn't see-"

"But I have and there is nothing you can do about it now, is there?"

"No," he said reluctantly.

"So I pour out my heart to you and tell you that I think I am in love with you, and you change the subject, that's never a good sign," I laughed to myself, trying to lighten the atmosphere. I Glanced up at his expression, it was of shock. I don't think he heard me the first time I said it. He glanced down at me and smiled slightly, then did the last thing I expected him to do. In seconds I was in was standing up, supported by his arms, his lips crush against mine and a rush of sudden blissfulness, like I had that morning. The kiss was much more passionate then last time and I felt slightly faint. I broke off laughing, and smiled up to him.

"Bella…" he said smiling back, "I think I love you to." The sun glisten on his face and his diamond skin lit, making his grin all the more beautiful.

"Come on, we better get back or Charlie will be getting back to an empty house," I hadn't realized but we had been up hear for hours. At that he swung me over is shoulder, gripping my legs, and started to run at full speed down into the trees.

;p long chapter for me, it was about 4000 words and my usual chapter is around 2500!!! Lol!

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