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So… please don't kill me for this chapter.
It gets a little emotional at parts, so be warned.
Also there is some swearing.
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Bella's POV
"Felix..." I stopped short as my voice caught in my throat; this resulted from a low rasping laugh from the other end.
"It's nice to hear from you to Bella, how have we been?" He was keeping a light, casual tone which suggested he was up to no good, and I didn't like the idea of that. I took a deep breath and relaxed myself. After years of living with the Volturi I had realized that the best way to talk to the guard was to show no emotion, not care about anything. It got the best response out of them and didn't feed them any satisfaction if they were aiming to hurt you.
"I'm fine Felix, thank you," I said in as bland a voice possible. "And you?"
"Oh, you know, the usual... Bella, I hate to be the bringer of bad news, well actually I love it, especially when I am the one causing it. Why do you think I joined the Volturi?" he said with a smile in his voice. I sneered at his cruel, sadistic attitude.
"So...?" I asked back, through gritted teeth.
"But seriously, I have little joy in telling you this first part. Your mother... she was working in the wars up in china, you know how over populated places can get and then there are the newborns, and she was on the frontline like always. She looked fine until..." Felix's voice disappeared as the pieces fit together in my head, only catching enough to hear the words 'mother' and 'dead'. I really wanted to not believe him, to think that this was all one of his humorless jokes and my mom was still alive. I felt a silent tear leak down my cheek and off my chin, my breathing stopped and a deep grief built up inside of me. My mother was dead; these were the only thoughts I could process through. Other thoughts, the more rational ones that told me to look closer because this meant something more for me, they were all blocked. I was so... lonely. If you have ever lost a loved one you will know the feeling; of hopelessness, despair, thinking everything irrational and unfair. But most of all you will know the pain, to think that you will never see that person again, as if someone has taken them away. The unrealism of that is more than anyone should have to go through, but I was under the impression that I would never lose my mom. The idea that my mom could die never struck me before, I was always sure I would have her forever and I couldn't comprehend why I didn't. I felt another lose tear trickle out of the corner of my eye and I whipped it away angrily. I didn't want to believe any of it, I wanted to scream and shout and rage about how all this was bullshit and my mother wasn't dead, that she was still there watching over me like always. But, of course, I didn't do that. My knees gave out from under me and I hit the floor with a 'thud'. I suddenly realized how much I needed someone to hold me and tell me everything was going to be ok. I hadn't realized how much I needed Edward.
"Are you sure-" my voice cut off as a sob came through. More tears spilt over my eyes and I put my hand over my mouth to stop sound from coming out, so to not giveaway to many tell-tale tears to Felix.
"Ah, cheer up Bellsy. Look on the bright side; this is what I have been dying to say... it's time!" Felix sounded like a child who was getting a new toy. He was giddy, obviously enjoying my pain, and was now delivering me a message that didn't make sense. I took a deep breath and took my hand away from my face, my eyes still wet and teary.
"What are you talking about?" I said in a strained voice.
"What do you think Bellsy? You initiation of course," he told me as if it was the most obvious thing on the planet.
"What in-" my breath stopped once again, and more tears piled in. If I hadn't of already been on my knees then I would have fallen over again. I closed my eyes and shook my head, screwing my face up and grinding my teeth together. I lost my grip on the phone and it went smashing down to the floor, I realized for the first time that I was shaking, and badly. I bent forward, wrapping my arms around my stomach tightly, clutching for dear life onto myself. This was wrong, all so very wrong and I couldn't... I wouldn't... but I had to, and without my mom there to hold my hand.
"Bella?" a voice said from the phone. I just stared at it with disgust, unable to think of what to do. This all had to be a dream, all fake. This doesn't happen, not all at once. I have a year, A YEAR! I'm not ready, I can't leave Edward. Somewhere, in the back of my head, I heard a little voice go 'I told you so' and then disappear as his job of leading me to the Volturi was done. I reached over to and picked up the phone, holding onto it with a tight grip.
"Tell me this is all a sick joke," I demanded at Felix.
"Don't be like that. This is, if you like, the boss's orders. Your moms dead Bella, there is no one to protect you now, your ours and we want you today. Jump on the next plane to Italy from Seattle," his voice now turning to a serious, businessman like quality.
"You can't do this. I have a life," I protested, yet knowing full well it was useless.
"Bella, we are your life. We are your past, present and future. You can't run or hide from us. You will come to Volturra and do what you're told, and if you don't I will hunt you down and drag you here one piece at a time, killing anyone that gets in my way." He was 100% serious, and all I could do was agree. I knew that Felix would come and that the Cullen's would protect me. If they did that they would get killed, and I can't let that happen.
"Fine," I whispered, sinking deeper into despair.
"Good girl. We will make a guard out of you yet. Now, you will get on flight 180 leaving Seattle-"
"I'm in Phoenix," I quickly interrupted.
"Oh, running away from home are we?" Felix's asked with interest.
"Get on with it," I snapped. My face was cold and hard, the teardrops now feeling like melted steel.
"Ok, Phoenix. Get on the 6:00 flight; you are..." I heard the tapping of a keyboard on the other end. "...all booked in, just pay at the desk with your visa... Bella, you will come because you know what will happen if you don't."
"I know," my voice breaking, and I knew that satisfied Felix.
Yes, I did know, all too well. They used to threaten me with it as a little girl, saying that I was weak because of my feelings. They would hurt my mother every time I did something wrong, shredding her to bits and making me watch. It wasn't my fault if I could remember whom the 6th ancient vampire was, or which ruler from the Tudor bloodline became a vampire only to be killed by his maker. But if I did forget they would torture her until I got it right. Seeing my mother hurt in such a way really motivated me, made me work harder and harder so that she wouldn't get hurt. But now she is dead they can't do that, so they will have to target Charlie. Obviously they would track me down in the end if I decided to run, but they would make me pay for my disobedience by harming, or more like killing, my farther. So, no, bolting was not an option.
"See you later my Isabella," he said, pronouncing my fall name with such perfect diction it made me feel sick. I was not his Isabella, I was Edwards Bella, and always would be no matter what. The dial tone came through but I did not lower the phone, despair rising up into my chest once again. There was no doubt about, I would have to go, but I wish I didn't.
I started to think about what I would do without Edward, and what he would do without me. I very much hopped that he would forget me and move on, but I highly doubted that. I knew he saw me as his mate, and vampires don't give up their mates very easily.
In a spur of the moment decision I pulled out my sketchbook and started to write out my heart onto the page.
Dear Edward…
Jaspers POV
Alice and I went down to reception to check out of the hotel. We walked up to the front together and asked the person behind the desk if she would give us the bill. She looked shock for a second, as most humans do, but quickly composed herself and gave us what we wanted. I felt a strong sense of embarrassment coming from the woman, and as she typed in our detail she would glance at us and begin to eye me up. Of course Alice was having none of this and quickly slid her arm around my waist; in return I did the same. Alice caught the receptionist's eye and she quickly put her head back down. As she did this I felt smugness coming off Alice and, at vampire hearing, I whispered 'evil pixie.' She laughed at this, getting strange looks from the people around her.
We went up to the room arm in arm, not wanting to divide from each other's contact, but as we walked in I was hit by a strong wave of emotion. I reeled back as the sudden change in atmosphere entered my system. It was fear, pain, sorrow and despair, something extremely hard to describe unless you have felt it before. I collected myself as fast as I could, standing straight and searching the room franticly for the threat. I came up short when I saw Bella walk calmly out of her room; a smile on her face and baggage held tightly in her hands. I felt that the deep anxiety was coming from her but her facial figures gave nothing away.
"Are you alright Bella?" I asked her, worry clear in my voice. She seemed pretty taken aback that I was so concerned and gave me a strange look.
"Yeah, of course I am," she reassured me, a rough, small laugh slipping from her lips. I knew something was wrong and could see she was trying very hard to fool us, a little too hard and her composure was slowly snapping. I wasn't convinced, but Alice seemed to be. She skipped over to Bella and took her bags, Bella smiled at this and graciously accepted. She and Alice walked out the room together like best friends and I had a sudden grateful attitude towards Bella as Alice now had a close friend and sister, not that Rosalie wasn't it is just she has a tendency to be... short tempered with Alice.
The feeling of despair still hung in the air and I couldn't quite think what could have happened while we were down stairs. I remembered the phone call with Edward and that Bella had a sudden panic, so I decided to pass it off as that, just because I knew nothing much would happen between now and 6:00 and so shouldn't worry.
Bella's POV
We were on our way to the airport, the car filled with an intense silence. I was glad they didn't pick up on too much; I knew Jasper suspected something and, after a while, so did Alice, but they didn't think it was anything bad. I was so scared, I would be changed and forced to work for the Volturi, not to mention separated from Edward. This was hell, pure hell. I knew I shouldn't have started anything in Forks; I shouldn't have gotten involved with him. But, I love Edward so much and how could I not want to spend every waking moment with him?
The car pulled into the parking lot of the airport and we climbed out. I grabbed my bags and slung them over my shoulder, when Alice offered to help, I declined. We walked into the airport and went through a load of safety checks, when that was done we entered into the shopping plaza and found a bench at the side, near the wall, and sat down on that.
"Bella, do you want anything to eat?" Alice asked.
"No, not just yet. I will tell you if I get hungry," I replied, my voice heavy.
"I'm just going to ask when they will land," Jasper said before standing up and walking over to the desk.
I leaned down to my bag and pulled out my sketchbook. I started to doodle on the next free page, drawing random shapes and pictures. When Jasper came back he told us they would be landing in 15 minutes, so I still had plenty of time to make my move. I tried to keep as relaxed as possible, but I still got worried glances from Jasper.
"Flight to Rome, Italy leaving in 10 minutes. Passengers please come to the terminal," the speakers cried out five minutes later. My plane was leaving earlier then I thought and I need to leave very soon.
"You know, I think I am hungry. Jasper, will you take me to the shop?" I asked, turning to him.
"Of course, Bella."
We stood up together and I picked up my bag, perversely leaving my sketchbook on the bench next to Alice. We walked away together, and I was planning to get myself a donut and milkshake. This was only because I needed to keep Alice's visions at bay for the time being. I picked them out and paid, then, quite to my convenience, I needed to toilet.
"Little girl's room," I told him as I started to walk away. I walked at a quick pace towards the toilet and, as soon as Jaspers back was turned, slipped into the crowd. I knew how to lose a vampire in a crowd, how to get their noses confused, this wouldn't have worked with Edward as I was his singer but, to Jasper, I just smelt like any other human. When he finally realized that I wasn't where I was supposed to be it was too late, and I was already lost in the mesh of people.
Could I possibly ask you not to kill me?
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