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BPOV (Early Monday Morning)

I had been running for miles… although it was probably more like tens of miles. My legs were quite a bit faster now.

I wasn't sure what I was looking for, I knew hunting was a priority but it wasn't in the forefront of my mind at the moment. I was still holding my breath; I had been, since I jumped out of the two-story window. Normally, the height would have scared me but my senses were so alert that I just jumped without thinking. The minute I hit the ground, I took off like a newborn vamp outta hell.

I slowed down a bit; I was probably in Canada by now.

The smells from the house were still sizzling in my memory. I had smelled blood and it smelled… delicious. I knew it was human and then I realized it was a human I knew; or at least one I was friends with and one that I desperately wanted to meet again, without the gore.

I didn't want to hurt them; I didn't want to hurt anyone. I opened up my senses and smelled the air around me. No humans, but something… It had to be some animal, it smelled like an animal. It didn't smell delicious, maybe… a little bland. Still it smelled like food, smelled like blood.

I knew hunting would reduce the bloodlust that was creeping up into the front position in my mind. But I had no idea how to hunt. I always figured one of them would be here to help me, but they weren't anymore. I had to do it on my own.

They never let me tag along during their hunting trips. He always said it was 'too dangerous' and that it was 'pure suicide.' Whatever, here I am, not knowing what to do, and it's all his fault.

Emmett was the only one who actually ever talked about hunting with me. I think he only did at first because it ticked him off.

***Flashback***

"It's so cool Bella, hunting's awesome. You'll find out someday… I wouldn't bet against Alice." Emmett whispered the last part while watching Alice and Edward fight over some vision she had had. I couldn't help but laugh. I felt bad for Alice, she didn't choose her visions, but Edward didn't care; he always wanted to change them, at least lately. They continued to argue but took it outside away from "human ears;" everyone else could hear them even if they left the property.

"You really think I'll actually become one of you someday with him so… determined against it?" I certainly was having doubts.

"Totally! Alice sees it. Besides you absolutely have to come hunting with us, I'll teach you how to take down a bear." I laughed at his enthusiasm. I really wanted to see them hunting. I could picture them gracefully pouncing on animals left and right before draining the blood. I'm sure it was frightening, but I also imagined that it was beautiful. I couldn't think of anything they could ever do as unbeautiful.

"What's it like? Hunting, I mean." I knew Edward would get furious that I asked and probably even more furious if Emmett answered. But I honestly wanted to know, especially if I would be hunting myself someday.

Emmett cracked a huge smile. "You know I'm not supposed to tell you about that."

"I won't tell him."

"He won't need you to tell him, he'll know because of his freaking mindreading."

"So you won't tell me?"

"I didn't say that…" Emmett's smile grew all the way to his ears. "He'll be mad but I'm used to broody Edward, that doesn't bother me. You have a right to know."

I nodded, encouraging him to continue.

"When we hunt, get give into our instincts. It's animalistic but it's what we need to do to survive. That's why I try to make it fun. You know, make bets about who can catch the most animals or try and fight a bear… or four." He laughed and I couldn't help but join in. Imagining Emmett fighting a bear, or even four bears, made me laugh. Most people would probably be scared to death, either for him or the bears, but after seeing him so eager to fight anyone and anything, I figured it was probably an interesting sight.

"How do you know what to do?" I didn't really think my question out, but I was curious.

"Well… I said that your instincts take over, or rather, your vampire instincts. It's how we're build… made… created, whatever. You've seen our strength, our speed, and our senses, but you've only seen a fraction of what we can do." I tried to interrupt, tried to explain what Edward had shown me that day when he was trying to convince me that he was dangerous, but Emmett just nodded and continued. "I know what Edward has showed you, and trust me, that's just the tipping point. We have more power in our bodies than we actually need.

"When we leave to hunt, it's because we tune everything else out. We can barely differentiate between animal and human blood when we're in that… zone. That's why we go to secluded locations where humans won't go. When we get a whiff of the blood, we kinda go into like a trance. It's crazy; I can barely notice Rose when I smell a bear near me." We both laughed and I could tell he was trying to lighten the mood.

"We feel the draw to our prey, like we're getting pulled to it. You don't even need to think about it Bella, it just happens. The impulse comes over you and you just… bite and drink. It just happens."

"Like it's… involuntary?"

"Yeah, that's a good description. Yeah, it just makes sense and your body needs it so you just do it." Emmett started laughing, probably at the phrase 'do it.' Then his laughter intensified when he saw my blush. "Jeez Bella, you're such a crackup!"

I desperately was trying to change the subject back. "So is that why Edward won't let me go, because he's afraid no one will… stop?"

"Yeah, he has a point though. You. Out there. With all of us. It really isn't safe. But soon you'll be one of us and then you can whoop his ass if he tries to stop you. I can't wait to see that." He burst out in another round of laughter.

Edward came back in, looking quite frustrated. Obviously Alice said more of the things he didn't like to hear. He put his arms around me and then glared at Emmett.

I put my hand on his cheek to make him look at me. "Don't be mad. I asked." He face softened but he still wouldn't smile.

"I'll take you home."

"Okay." I knew I didn't really have a choice.

"I'll talk to you later, Emmett." He said it so softly, I barely heard. I grabbed Edward's hand and put my hand back to his cheek.

"Stop. Don't be mad at him. Or Alice. Just… be here, with me, happy."

He smiled then and I knew he was listening. "Sorry. I am happy here with you, you have no idea."

***End Flashback***

I felt my stomach tighten over nothing but the memory. I hadn't meant to remember so much. I ignored the emotions I was feeling and thought about what Emmett had told me before.

Follow instincts… I can do that.

I sniffed the air and smelled the aroma again. It definitely wasn't human, so I figured it was safe to "let go," so to speak.

I took off into the direction that called to me. I got about ten feet from the smell and saw what the scent was representing. A deer; how anticlimactic. I ran and pounced on the doe before she even knew what was happening. I snapped her neck, eager to end her pain and fear. I sunk in my teeth right next to her major artery and sucked in the warm liquid. It soothed my throat that I hadn't even realized was on fire. I drank till I was only drinking in air.

Emmett was right; I just knew what to do. Thanks big brother.

I took down two more deer quickly. I didn't think about it at all. As I laid the bodied down into a natural ditch to decompose back into the earth, I thought about Angela and Renesmee.

My throat didn't burn at all but I wasn't sure that would continue when I was face to face with my friend and my baby. There's really only one way to find out… I'll just take it slow. I ran, following my own scent to lead me back to the house. It felt like mere seconds had passed before I saw the break in the trees followed by the massive white house.

I could see ever paint stroke along the outside walls and every fingerprint on the wall of glass. I could also hear every sigh and heartbeat. I took a deep, completely unnecessary, breath to settle my nerves.

I ran up the side of the house and jumped through the window to Carlisle's study. I could smell the blood again and my throat ached a bit but I could push it away. I saw the sheet I had borrowed from Rose's room, covered in my blood. I went to the filing cabinet and took out a bio-hazard bag and put the sheet inside. It didn't appeal to me, but it was still potent. I looked back to the spot. The spot where I had Renesmee. The spot where she bit her way out of me. The spot where I turned into a vampire.

I saw the syringes lying on the floor, both empty. I hadn't intended to use both, it was just a precaution that I took out two incase I didn't think it was working. I wasn't sure the amount I would need or the condition I'd be in. I really didn't intend for both of them to be in me. I looked to the first syringe. It was the one Angela put in me.

Well, that's the one I wanted. I looked at the other one; I didn't even look at the name. I knew which ones I had pulled out. Why I pulled that one, I still didn't know. I should have pulled Carlisle's. I really didn't want this venom coursing through me for eternity. I felt like crying, but knew from observation that the tears would never come.

I placed the syringes into the bio-hazard bag and tied it shut. It was over and done with. I couldn't dwell.

I looked around the room; I had stashed some clothes in the closet, so I decided to change. My body was back to its normal size but far from it normal surface or temperature. I was cold, hard, and although I hadn't seen it yet, sparkly. I hoped I'd be beautiful, but I wasn't concerned about it at the moment.

I could hear two heartbeats. One sounded like it was coming from the living room. The body wasn't moving and the heartbeat was a bit faster than I remembered them being. Renesmee. I was positive. She must be on the couch.

I listened for another heartbeat. Angela. It sounded like she was in the kitchen and she was moving around, humming to herself. I could smell her blood and the potency but I felt able to resist. Then I smelled more. Did she hurt herself? I heard pouring. Oh, she must be fixing Renesmee a bottle- bottles, damn! I didn't have bottles, I didn't have anything. I was hoping Angela could get me some stuff before I went into labor. Oh well, I guess she figured something out.

I listened as I heard Angela walk back into the living room with Renesmee's "food." She stopped and signed. "Well I guess it can wait till she's done with her nap." She naps? She sleeps? Oh my gosh! My baby sleeps; I don't way but I was shocked. I guess I figured the vampire part wouldn't make that possible.

I went to the door. I wanted to see her, especially if she was sleeping. I wanted to hold her. I wanted to thank Angela for taking care of her; for sacrificing her weekend… and her perfect attendance, to help me. I opened the door and the smell assaulted my senses. I closed it as quietly as I could but it still made a definite bang.

"Bella?" I heard Angela gasp. I couldn't risk her coming up. I couldn't risk the proximity. I could handle it when there was a whole story plus a door between us, but I wasn't sure about any less than that.

I bounded out of the window in less than a second and stood in front of the wall of glass. I saw Angela standing at the foot of the stairs contemplating whether she should go upstairs or not. I tapped the glass as lightly as I could and saw Angela jump and spin around to face me.

"Bella?" She looked so confused and shocked. I looked at my reflection and saw myself for the first time. I looked different, more… enhanced. But it still looked like me, just more defined. Then I saw my eyes. They were dark crimson. I should have grabbed some sunglasses. I held my hand in front of my eyes and waved her over.

"On my god, Bella. What…?" She couldn't finish her question and I knew I couldn't really answer it.

"I can't explain Angela. You don't know how much I wish I could, but its best you don't know anything. I can't risk something happening to you because of me… and her." I looked to Renesmee on the couch. Her head was turned away from me. She looked so perfect with her curls falling off the edge of the cushion.

"Bella… I don't need to know. I have an idea but I don't need it confirmed." She made a nervous laugh and I wondered how much she figured out. Obviously it wasn't enough to make her leave. "I'm glad I could help and I promise, I won't tell anyone. Ever." She looked back to Renesmee. "She's really special, and smart. She's absolutely perfect. And she missed you. I swear, I couldn't sworn that she even… never mind."

"She what?" I was concerned. What did she do? What could she do?

"It's nothing, I think I'm just a little tired and overwhelmed."

"I'm sorry." I didn't know what else to say.

She looked at Renesmee and back to me after a few minutes. "You're leaving aren't you?"

"Yeah. I have to. I have to protect her. I can't really be seen like this either." I moved my hand and saw her gasp. She collected herself quickly, but vampire reflexes let me catch it.

"I hope you two will be safe. I'll miss you. And I'm really going to miss Renesmee; she's such an extraordinary baby." I could tell she meant it, she fell for Renesmee. I couldn't blame her, I was already missing her and she was just on the other side of the wall. "Are you sure you'll be okay?" She looked nervous and I wondered again how much she figured out.

"Yeah, we'll be good. I wouldn't let anything happen to my baby."

She smiled at me. "I know. Goodbye Bella."

"Goodbye Angela. Thank you." She smiled and grabbed her bag. She could probably go to school for the rest of the day.

I held my breath as she walked outside and got into her car to drive away. Then I took a deep breath. I could smell Renesmee, but she didn't smell like a "regular" human. She smelled floral, like freesia, like me; like I used to. And somewhat icy. She smelled perfect.

I opened the door and the bloodlust was the last thing on my mind. I didn't crave her in that way, I craved her company. I sped to her side and picked her up as gently as I could manage so not to wake her. She felt feather-light; like there was nothing in my arms at all. I giggled not knowing if it was my vampire aspect or hers that made it feel like that.

She yawned and opened her eyes. Her mouth opened and then turned into a giant smile. "Hi."

I couldn't think of what to say so I just stared down at her and continued to smile. I already loved her more than anything in the world. More than anyone in the world.

Renesmee shifted and lifted a hand up to my chin. I gasped as a saw a vision of myself covered in sweat with my face enveloped in pain trying to say soothing words to her. Then it flashed to a vision of me holding her, the reflection from the window wall we stood in front of.

The vision disappeared and I looked into her eyes, she looked… proud. "Did you do that?" She lifted her hand to my cheek and showed me a vision of her doing the same to Angela, showing her a vision of me. She was asking Angela where I was. "Oh, you did do that… that's a special gift Renesmee." I was so dumbfounded. I couldn't believe she used her power around Angela, but she wouldn't have known not to. She sensed that I trusted her and so she did too.

I stood there thinking about Angela. She must have been so freaked out. That must have been what she was about to tell me but she was so unsure she couldn't accept it. I walked over to the window wall trying to process what to do. Renesmee signed in my arms and then reached up to me again. This time she showed me a vision of Angela. She wanted to know where she went. She loved Angela too. "She went home, she can't stay with us." She showed me the vision again. Her tone was forceful as she mentally asked 'why.'

"Angela isn't like us. But hopefully we'll see her again someday." I wasn't sure if we ever would, or even could. But I couldn't bring myself to tell her that we'd never see her again. I couldn't break her heart.

"Why don't you show me what I missed while I was away?" Renesmee smiled and showed me everything I had missed.

She showed me Angela washing her up and dressing her in one of Alice's shirts. She showed me Angela being confused about the blood, but again choosing to just ignore her concerns. She showed me Angela rocking her and humming some acoustic version of "Use Somebody" by Kings of Leon. She showed me Angela telling her stories about me, mostly from school and never mentioning him.

She showed me Angela taking her for walk around the house and her being amazed by the tall green trees; she wanted to touch them but was afraid to ask since Angela didn't respond to her first request.

"You can show or ask me anything Renesmee. We just have to be careful; you can't do this to others, okay?" She showed me myself telling her the statement along with her silent 'yes.' She then showed me Angela again but this time she remembered her smell. She showed me how Angela's blood made her thirsty.

Oh no, she didn't, did she? "I know, I smelled it too, but we don't hurt people, especially Angela. You love her, remember?" Her silent confirmation made me relax. She wouldn't hurt her, I should have known that.

Renesmee yawned again and closed her eyes. A few minutes later, I was sure she was asleep. I didn't want to put her down but I needed to get us ready to leave. I walked up to Alice's room and laid her on the bed. I tucked a blanket around her and started packing a bag of clothes for myself along with some of Alice's shirts for Renesmee. They would have to do till I could go into a store and buy some baby clothes. I put my bags into the back of my truck along with the trunk from Alice. I took some pillows from Alice's bed and created a makeshift bed in my truck for Renesmee.

I decided to take the opportunity to call Charlie and Renee so they wouldn't suspect anything. They both had brought into my stories so I could relax and just worry about where I was headed with my daughter.

As I watched Renesmee sleep I wondered where we would go and what we would do now. I didn't have much confidence in myself, but Renesmee had confidence in me. She wasn't worried or scared. She was relieved and happy that I was here with her.

A/N: Okay, LONGEST chapter yet. I couldn't seem to stop writing. I just really wanted to wrap up the Angela stuff and I couldn't let go of the flashback with Emmett. Come on, who doesn't love Emmett?!

I can't tell you all how great I'm feeling about the reviews! I got like 53 e-mails within an hour and then like ten more while I was going through those. I am literally on cloud nine!

I hope you all like this chapter. I wanted to give everyone a good taste of Bella and Renesmee because they won't be in the next chapter… sorry. I'm already missing them. But I'm excited for who's coming back. I'll give you a hint; there will be a few guys and possibly a pixie…

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~kmwhyte