AHHHHHHHH I'm stupied. I forgot the Disclamer thing D: Well here it goes

I DON'T OWN TWILIGHT!

And woot. I'm done. :) Anyways chapter 3 is up and I will try to have chap 4 up soon toooooooooo. (: ENJOY and REVIEW!

DIVIDED

All night I watched the beautiful, small crystals of ice pile on the ground. Before I was a vampire I would never stop to see how pretty they were. The pale white ice becoming different shapes before my eyes was just amazing.

Three weeks ago I was holding a conversation with Edward, but now we hardly talked. Alice was the only one who would convene me that I was worth something to this vegetarian family. It felt like she was the only one who believedthat I had the power to hold myself here. To save myself.

As we were in a car going to school, I was starting to believe Alice. And it felt like I had a sister for the first time since... forever.

But that soon changed after that morning.

We arrived at school on time- like a normal day. Roughly fifteen minutes before the fist bell. Once I slid out I grabbed my books and scarf.

Emmett poked my shoulder when he got out.

"They've gotten Golder." Emmett teased, slamming the silver door so hard the poor Volvo shook. Edward was about to yell something at Emmett surly, if he'd did any abusing thing to th car.

But he was interrupted by a loud scream and the sound of harsh tires and rubber stopping on a dime on a deadly iced over road.

Nothing had ever intensified like this before. Even though my powers had a tendencies to make things seem slower through my eyes, It was just so slow... and I was standing so close that I didn't even think, just reacted.

The Screams, screeching rubber, and ice seemed like a deadly trap that I was going to get myself stuck in.

I only herd a few voices in Particular- Alice's' ghastly, "No, Bree don't!" A hiss. A warning to me. That she didn't know what would happen- just that something would happen. Then something louder in a tone I had not yet herd from her. "NO!"

"She's ruined us." Rosalie was whispering to Emmett and was already dunking towards the car. Seeming to predict what I was going to do.

And Jasper, I was truly starting to fear him. He was tense, ready to pounce over at the smell of blood... that and he was thinking of ways to kill me if I made one Mistake.

I knew in an instance, that I was going to do something. Something that might of seemed a little crazy. Irresponsible. Perhaps hurting the, my family. Mine. I realized in a small second. Stupid how something so drastic would change one little word in my mind.

I couldn't find the one member of the family who I'd think would be most critical and unhelpful at the moment. Edward. The Edward Cullen.

My eyes had turned to the tragicomedy of the Car that was turning out of control towards my friend. I have had a couple of geometry classes and it was easy to read what angle it would hit- Right when he was standing.

But I all thoughts aside and focused on saving Mike. I didn't bother to be careful- for I knew that something would happen and the secret would be found out. I knew that something would go wrong. I knew it... But I couldn't see the future. That was Alice's department.

I knew, though.

If anyone saw me, it would be the biggest thing that would hit my family. We'd have to flee like I knew that they have done oh to many times before. But this would be different- just a month into my new life style and I had made a slip. Guilt was washing over me like a wave.

But what guilt would I have if I didn't save a life. Of course, I had come here to save lives. And one life was good enough to risk, also the counting others I would kill if I smelt the blood.

One moment I was running as fast as I had ever had before, Hitting the ground- knocking Mike down and out, I braced for the impact of Tyler's Van to Mike and I. I had one of my perfect feet tossed out to stop it, or at least try to, though the heel of my shoe would end up breaking and causing Alice to be even madder at me- but that would be a small, unimportant effect that I didn't care about.

I tucked myself around him perfectively, pushing him towards the underneath of the car. Right now I was worried for the impact, that should of already hit me.

But I felt Nothing.

Weird. I thought. Puzzled, I opened my tensely closed eyes, blinking in shock. I hadn't even realized that they were so harshly closed. Opening them into small slits I noticed a tall, lanky but muscled figure digging his shoulder into the van. I blinked again.

He was shaking his head darkly at me as the vehicle came to a complete stop- hands raised, in a striking mode as I followed them and saw that they were extended to a dent in the van. After a moment it all came back. The screams. The Fear. It all seemed like an all too delayed reaction. If they only knew half of what happened. And, perhaps they did.

"Someone get Tyler out of the Van!"

"Call 911!"

"Students get back get back for the gunnery!"

"Follow me." The last was harsh, and He said it in a low voice as he squeezed between the car space.

And I followed obediently, keeping my big stubborn mouth shut. We came just a few feet away from the scene- away from everyone and everything, but still hearing the cries of teenagers as they screamed for adults and an abundance's sirens in the distance.

I realized I was unfocused, as I slowly pushed though to it. Shocked by my reaction and the powerfulness of it. But his harshness refocused me. "What were you thinking!?" He hissed at me with his black eyes coming out, as if they were to attack me and try to rid of me. I tried not to wince.

So it's like that, huh? I thought in my head darkly. "You know damn well what I was thinking." I snapped. Ironic. "I wasn't going to watch my friend die from either a car crash or Jasper drinking his blood." I screamed.

"Friend? Friend!? That is a human, Bree. That's Not a friend. That's supposed to be our prey!" He ranted in disbelief.

"No!" I started stubbornly. "He's a friend like Alice and Emmett." I told him, looking the other way. I thought you were one too but, apparently I was wrong.

When I felt his presence closer then me I turned my head, to find myself an inch away from his grave face. Both of his hands on the car around me- trapping me. "Bree, I just saved your life!" He whispered in a uneasy harsh tone- as if he didn't realize what he done, either. "You could be a tad thankful." He hissed.

"No." I said flatly, his breath hitting my face. . "If you were to save my life, I would of needed you about four years ago... give or take."

That hit something, I knew it. He winced. "Fine. I saved Mike's... Bree, if you hadn't tried to be the hero, do you realize none of the family would be hating you and so damn worried..."

I cut him off right there. "One of us would of killed Mike... And the other people who got in the way. Really Edward, when was the last time Jasper hunted... and I'm still so inexperienced with this-" I was trying to convince him. I was going to make an effort for this family. And I was making an effort to reason with him and save my ass.

A growl grew in his throat. "Don't ever talk that way about my fam-"

"Edward!" I yelled, but my voice was in a whisper. "You know that I know things I shouldn't know." I started in a urgent tone. "It would of happened: Yeah yeah, damn it! Yeah I can't see the future, but something bad would of Happened!" His face was still so close to me, I could taste his icy breath on my lips. I swear to god if you don't lean back I'm going to bite your fucking nose off. I cursed in my mind.

He inched back, but only a little. He seemed so intent of bursting my personal bubble. "Even if you had saved him- Bree someone might of saw us." He empathized.

"Did they?" I asked in a sour tone.

He frowned. "No. But what if-"

"No! No what ifs. You can't change what I just did, you can't change what you did either." I looked over my shoulder to the family, then back at Edward. "Edward I'm not letting any person die if I can help it."

"Why?" he only muttered it, closing his eyes. "Enlighten me." He whispered.

I shrugged. "Maybe, just maybe if I save all the lives that I've taken, that dammed conscious of mine will stop telling me I'm a monster." I snapped.

He lightly touched the barrier- the van, and cut me off. "I suppose that we need to visit Carlisle.. explain why his wife's niece and his adopted son have been in a car crash." His turn of the century accent came out as he nodded towards the ambulance. "Ladies first."

I looked at him and 'humphed'. "Of course."

Our conversation only lasted for a few moments before we were found by our fellow student body and Carlisle's employees. Edward even tried to get me strapped to a gunnery. "Oh she's delusional. She must have a concussion." I swear if it wasn't for the bystanders I would have punched him.

With what dignity I managed to keep, I looked at the family who were looking the opposite way except for Alice. She was the only one with wary eyes and a small nod of approval. A very, very small nod.

Then we left- to the place of pure utter hell. Forks Hospital.

Edward managed to let me ride in the back and keep a watchful eye on Mike while he had shot gun. But I think it was only to escape my presence for the moment... or make me feel guilty. Both, seemed to work. All i stared at was the forming redness and bruise of Mike's head as the sirens blared into my ears. I could hear, even out side of that roar, the cars pulling of hastily after us. But I didn't listen to it.

"Carlisle whats wrong with you! She's arrogant, Self absorbed and manipulative!" I herd Rosalie telling him in a hushed tone as Edward and I neared. I winced. "We can't live with her!"

I smiled faintly. "Really, how much more can she hate me?" I tried, frowning, not liking the idea. "Never mind."

"Rosalie-" Carlisle started. "Shes a wonderful addiction to the family. Have you ever seen Esme so happy in years? Even Edward has giving her a shot. I'm not going to-"

"no, no no!" She hissed. "I don't see even why you let her join this family. She almost gave away the secret and had the Volturi on our tails! Maybe thats the plan in the first place! Aro Marcus and Caulies were worried we were getting to strong as a family and powerful- and they sent her to kill us all!"

"Carlisle- we can't have her here. She's a threat to the family. To the lives of humans in forks-" Jasper said coolly, agreeing with Rosalie.

Okay now we were eaves dropping. I felt Edward face close to mine as we were peeking around the wall.

"Rosalie- do not talk to me like that!" Carlisle warned. "She's a great addition, Jasper. You can't blame her for-" He cut himself from that and I was shocked by his harsh tone. A little bit louder he added. "Edward, Bree, please come here. I know your there."

They weren't amused. Rosalie was already in my face and telling me off. "How could you?! I want you out of here... your no good for us! No on wants you here and your only going to destroy us!" She growled.

Please, Please, Please don't bite her! I muttered at myself.

"Rosalie. Apologize to her. Now." Edward hissed, pushing himself a little forwards.

I touched my hand to his chest, slightly. A warning. "No, Edward. Let her continue." I said. That surprised everyone.

"Well," She started again, "I want you out... I don't know who you think you are Bree, but your no use to this family- I don't even know why you joined in the first place. Your useless and out to kill us all!"

They wouldn't dare kick me out. I thought, scared and harsh. I looked at Carlisle, to Edward, then back to Rosalie who was- frankly she was pleased at my lack of words.

"Rosalie." I started. "I came here to save lives. Not take them." I said nicely, feeling a since of Dasha vu coming on. "If there is a life out there that I can prevent from death, I'll do it. I know how it's like to have a wonderful life- and that being taken away." I hissed. "And I'm not going to let anyone else suffer my fate." I said this all rather calm.

With a harsh glare- she turned and stormed out of the hospital- Jasper following her with a cold look our way.

Then I turned to Carlisle. "If you don't want me, I completely understand. I'm sure I could go back the the Volturi," Oh dear god no no no! "Or, maybe even start a coven of my own." I bowed my head a little respectably at him, scared of what he might do. Raising up I realized that I had my fingers crossed behind my back for good luck.

There was a small pause that I hated. I suddenly wished I had Edward's power to read minds rather then to know what happened yesterday.

"Of course I don't want you to leave. Believe it or not Rosalie... and Jasper do Love you... to an extent." He tried, hopeful.

I raised my chin slightly. "I'll believe it when I see it." ]
He frowned, turning to Edward. "Now what's this about My niece in law and son getting into a car crash?"

I laughed once, completely slap happy. You want to take this one? I hoped.

He sighed. "Bree, and I, well actually Bree decided she didn't want to watch Mike die or have a near death experience and then die from oh um, Jasper, trying to eat him." He said his name like he didn't like it- different from when he was speaking to me earlier. Something must have changed his mind. "She Just wanted to save her friends life and I... I don't know why I did that because I know she could take care of herself." He hinted. "I.. I t-thought that the Car was going to hit Mike and she was so close that I thought- maybe she'd be the one to snap." He admitted.

I kept my glaze to the floor. I wouldn't of. I snapped in my head.

"I know that now." He whispered swiftly in my ear as I crossed my arms while pressing my lips out.

Carlisle shook his head. "That was a stupid move Bree-" He said.

I couldn't bare to meet Carlisle's glaze.

Carlisle was slowly nodding but he turned his gaze to the hospital room. "I should be getting to them." He muttered. "Good luck with our family." He hinted, reaching into his pocket and taking out a smooth, shiny silver metal. The keys to his Mercedes. He tossed it to Edward and turned on his heels. I herd him mutter nonsense words as he turned away from us.

"Thank you, Carlisle." I smiled faintly, whispering.

And with that, Edward and I headed for the automatic revolving doors that feed into a large parking lot where the solid black, leather interior, dark tinted Mercedes was that was across the hospital.

"Are you sure you don't want to see the damage you've done to your friends?" He asked politely but his words were hurtful.

I blinked, scowling at him. "No- I just want to face the family, go to my room, curl up in a ball and die- oh wait. Already done, how about you?"

"Sounds good." He said weakly.

We had just turned the corner when a alarm sounded. "Bree!" Eric shouted, I saw heads lift in a organized movement as we turned the corner. Suddenly a small crowd was forming Around Edward and I as i herd the mumbles of humans in unison.

"Are you Okay?"

"What happened."

"How's Mike and Tyler?"

"Is Dr. Cullen helping them?"

"Are they going to die?!"

I laughed once and grabbed Edward's tense arm and spoke only words he could hear. "Their not going to murder us, loosen up." I snapped in a low voice, too low for anyone else to hear.

Jessica was the first to reach out to me, she was sprinting. It looked odd to see her running a slow full speed in heels and a tight pants. "Bree Bree! Are you Okay?! How's Mike."

I smiled at her. "Yeah yeah, I'm fine Jess. As for Mike- I truly don't know, you'll have to ask Carlisle." I said slowly. Her eyes were so round after that that I had to convince her that'd he'd at least live.

"He's not going to die!" I said, shocked by her annoyance. "He might just have a minor conclusion at the most. Back In school by Next week." I said, smiling weekly.

"Bree!" This time it was Ang. "Oh my god Bree are you okay?! What about Mike and Tyler?" She was yelling as she ran over and hugged me.

"Fine fine," I was growing tired of this. "They're all fine." Ha. No one loves you Edward. I teased in my mind as I met his eye.

He grabbed my arm, pulling me towards the door. "Esme's worried ." He laughed as he told my friends and pushed to go to the parking lot. We actually made it out alive; to an extent.

Edward curtly opened the door for me as we got in the black Mercedes.

"How mad are they?" I asked.

"Esme has no idea what to believe, Alice can sympathize, Jasper is Disappointed, Rosalie is boiling, and Emmett is, well Emmett is taking Rose's side."

A loud moan escaped my lips. "Great. Just Great. Why is Jasper Disappointed? He wanted Carlisle to kick me out?" I guessed and Edward Shook his Head.

"He's insecure. When you moved here- he thought he wasn't going to be the weakest one anymore." He said without any emotion on his stone hard face.

I couldn't help but draw my lips back into a threatening growl. "He doesn't like me because I'm Stronger mentally then him!" I snapped. I was more then mad or scared now- I was full blown pissed off.

Edward stayed calm, perhaps for my sake alone. "I'm sorry- I shouldn't of said that." He started. "That was Rude."

"No, I'm glad you did." I hissed quietly. As far as I was concerned, Jasper and Rosalie could go to Hell- but I'd probably see them down there when I died, too.

There was another silence as we sped towards our... dare I say it? home.

I swallowed. "Edward?" I asked, my voice quieter then I had expected.

"Yes?" A puzzlement hit his tone, as if he wasn't reading my mind for once.

"Where do you stand?" I asked, keeping my eyes on the medium paced trees, trying to hypnotize myself

He slowed down a little and looked over at me. "With you, of course." He said it so simply...

"But, I thought you were mad! Especially that small argument-" Explain. It was so much easier to talk with him inside my mind.

He laughed. "That was before I figured out that you were Right."

I 'humphed' loudly. "Now your admitting it?"

He sighed. "Do you have any idea how unbearable it is to be out smarted by you. Nothing going ageist you personally but, for a vampire who was created by the Volturi, Raised by the Volturi, Lived Breathed and ate 'Volturi' your quite smart."

I frowned. "Continue." I directed.

He rolled his eyes. "It's not fair." He frowned.

"Not fair?" my mouth crunched up in disgust. "What's not fair is that I saved a life and now I'm in trouble for it." I snapped. "What's not fair is I had a wonderful life and that was taken away because Demetri was hungry." I winced at his name. "What's not fair is that Jasper hates me because I have better control. What not fair is that the Volturi-"

He turned his head slightly towards me. "Short Temper today?" He asked in a indifferent tone. "Whats with all the Not fairs, anyway." He asked, changing subject.

I frowned. "I guess life hasn't been fair to me."

That was it for the Conversation till We got close to the house. I knew we were there when I heard them arguing.

Edward had only gotten quieter and quieter as we got closer to the house, trying to think of a good argument for me... or us.

Parking in the garage, separate from the house we both ran at full speed to the porch, both fearing what would we see when we got inside.

"I know!" I said. "How about we turn this into a game? I bet Esme has Emmett in a head lock while Rosalie is yelling at Alice and Jasper is in utter hell. What about you?" I was stalling.

He smiled wary. "No there all waiting for us to arrive." He nodded towards the mansion that had grown eerily quiet.

I opened the door, slowly. "Cheater." I muttered, and walked in. I was surprised. Emmett had Rosalie in His arms on the couch. Esme was sitting, staring at us with impatient eyes. Alice and Jasper were arguing under their breath as they say us enter and I sighed.

First sight at me, Rose jumped up and hissed. "Your back? I thought you understood when I said to leave. Nobody wants you hear." She snapped.

"Rose, I want her here. Alice does. Esme, Carlisle- Even your beloved Emmett!" Edward hissed under his breath.

A growling sound entered my throat. "I told you I'm not leaving. I'm not going back to being a monster!" I said, crouching and taking a step forwards.

"You are a monster. Except it. Deal with it." She said the words slowly and clearly as she took another step towards me. "Your never going to help anyone but yourself. Your one thought is to Kill. You'll never be a Cullen." She snapped.

"Shut up!" I screamed at her. Springing towards her, my hands in tightly clenched fists. I didn't know exactly what I was planning-

But that was a Bad Idea.

"Bree!" Edward Suddenly yelled out in fear, anger and variableness. He had obsessively herd some secret thought that hadn't been spoken.

I had no Idea what was happening for once but I was now lifted up by the neck as a growling sound was on Emmett's lips.

Grasping at his hands I tried breaking free but he had way to strong a hold. Even though I didn't need to breath, self preservation kicked in as I grasped for air, making a ghastly sound.

"No-" was all I could make out before I saw a fist bring back in a threatening pose. Like a snake, about to claim it's pray. I winced back waiting for him to hit me. Nothing could happen that I couldn't fix- It wasn't like Emmett would kill me- He had gotten to late to do so. All in all, he couldn't touch me.

While I floated there: Stunned by what was happening, what I was remembering, and what I was feeling: There was a crash. I was tossed limply to the ground like a rag doll. I felt like a rag doll, ironically.

Blinking I looked around the room and saw that figure that i had gone strangely used to holding Emmett to the wall. A low growl was hissing in a gruesome voice. "Don't. Touch. Her."

I held my breath and I noticed, for the second time today, that every thing was going slower then normal.

Even when Emmett hissed and pushed back till they were really throwing punches in the kitchen.

"No!" I hissed deep inside my throat, running so fast- in front of the shocked Esme, Then fearful Alice, The pouting Rosalie and hissing Jasper who were all staring like a deer in head lights.

I threw myself between the fighting family. I caught Edward's moving hands and turned quickly out of the way of Emmett's Wrath. It surprised me in different ways. How easily he responded and relaxed at my touch, how evenly matched he and Emmett was, and how close it could have been.

Thankfully Esme got the same since of direction that I had, and I saw to of her arms reaching around Emmett's whole stomach- trying to pull him back: Alice soon followed In pursuit, she ran to the front of him, pushing him farther away.

I still didn't like the closeness of the two, so I pulled the shocked and wide eyed Edward to the farthest corner of the room.

He didn't utter a word; his expression trying to hide his own surprise, though it didn't reach his eyes. Hell, It didn't reach half of his face.

"What the Hell was that!" I snapped harshly.

Then a shadow was covering me. "Edward- Edward are you okay?" A hand laid onto my solder. Esme.

"Yeah." He muttered, looking down. "Sorry mom I- that was, thoughtless and reckless. I-"

I quickly stepped out of the way of Esme and Edward deciding to tune it out and be the bigger person. Huge, taking in consideration of the other people in the house. I slowly walked over to Emmett: who was both shocked his extreme actions. I gave a small frown. "Sorry."

"For what?" His booming mouth asked in disbelief. "I just tried to kill you Bree!" He hissed, turning his back on me to Rosalie. "Are you Okay?!"

Disgusting. Was all I could think. Emmett had his arms around his lover and guided her towards the Garage.

But as Rosalie passed me she spit at my shoes. "I hope your Happy." she said with all the coldness of the two poles, and walked out the door.

I stood there in shock for a few moments. Dazed, and growing furious.

Then unbearable anger flooded over me. hope I'm happy? ME! "Maybe I should go." I looked around at the damaged I had caused by this one mistake.

"No Bree!" Esme hissed. "You can't leave! No ones leaving!" She said darkly like a threat.

I shook my head. Why do they want me so much! Look what I've done!

Edward was all ready sitting on the couch- anguished by his actions and spoke up. "Because, Bree- your part of this family. We all need you in some pathetic way or another."

Seems like he's lost all of his sanity.

I walked slowly to the couch and as I sat down I closed my eyes tightly.

I herd the car start loudly- Rosalie's Convertible. BMW M'5 in a bright Red color. It was stand-offish, just like the Devil herself.

I felt the wait shift on the couch as Edward turned to face me. "Are you okay?" He finally asked- disrupting the disturbing silence.

I nodded slightly and turned my head away to ignore his worried eyes. I forced the lump out of my throat.

"Fourteen People. Kids. Bree. Children." She corrected herself with a bit of steal in her voice. I blinked in surprise then I noticed her hand rubbing Jasper's systematically. I realized that it wasn't me who was gonna kill them.

Edward Nodded. "You did the Right thing." He assured me, reaching out to wrap his arm around me. I couldn't help but scoot a little closer towards him. For once in all my time of being a vampire- I felt like I would go on. Like I really had Friends- a Family. My Family. Something that I haven't had in years.

Wrapping his arm tighter to me, I sighed. Why can't time just freeze like this. I thought. Everything felt good, calm. But Maybe that was Jasper.

Jasper. I felt a feeling crawling deep inside my stomach, getting bigger. A dislike- a hurt, regret, and unloving feeling.

"Why!" The ultra quiet Jasper spoke up; And it wasn't a question. "Why do you even care, Edward!" He hissed and I winced.

Edward said Nothing- But tensed.

"Bree- Forgive me for being so openly frank about this but you can't act like that! What you did today was unexceptional-" Jasper was intercepted.

"I don't think your equipped to tell her was exceptional and what's not." Edward's growl lashed out as hard but as beautiful as Diamonds.

With that Jasper had raised up, his fist tightened, wanting to punch something. I tensed, too, wait for another fight to break out. But, instead, he shook his head, sprinting up stairs at full speed.

I frowned. Maybe I don't belong here After all. I thought quietly as I looked down. But I'm sure as hell going to try.

Ohhh Jasper's a Badass x3