Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or the songs I make reference to. If I did own Twilight, this story would be sold in stores everywhere with less grammar/spelling mistakes and I'd be rich… Damn :(

BPOV

I wanted to strangle them.

I wanted to dismantle my sister and gag my daughter while we ran away from Alice while she was trying to reassemble herself. I could take out Rosalie if need be; hell she'd probably help me and distract Renesmee at this point. She was obviously just as bored as I was.

It had been five hours of nonstop shopping and I literally wanted to die standing in our third store. Yeah, five hours and we had only been to three freaking stores. Did I mention that we had just arrived at the third store ten minutes ago? I am going to kill them.

They were feeding off each other. Renesmee would hold up a top to get Alice's opinion and Alice, in turn, would find twenty-something pairs of pants to accompany it. Then Alice would find a skirt she thought would go with Renesmee's complexion and they would have to design an entire outfit around it, complete with accessories.

I, however, stood off to the side hoping to go unnoticed by the shopping maniacs.

I would have never imagined that Alice could actually be worse to shop with, but when you add Renesmee… Let's just say, I was glad I was already dead. I was about ready to die of boredom.

"How long can Renesmee keep going?" Rosalie whispered to me; not that it mattered, both Alice and Renesmee were too focused to hear her.

"I don't know. I've never let her loose like this. Now that she has a partner in crime, she may not stop." I sounded sad, depressed even. My daughter had gone over to the dark side.

"The mall doesn't close till ten; we've got five more hours of this." Rosalie sounded desperate.

"What do you suggest?" I was willing to take a criminal partner of my own if it got me away from this horror movie.

"They won't notice if we're gone; they haven't asked an opinion of us for hours and they aren't even looking for clothes for us anymore. Why don't we find a more interesting store?"

"Sounds good." I was frantic to escape the shopping duo and we could easily catch up to them later.

***

Rosalie and I ended up in a local music store. I was flipping through older rock CDs at vampire speed since there were only a few customers and they were all scanning the new releases and top forty hits.

Rosalie stood across from me pretending to be interested in the CDs as well. I kept seeing her look up, open her mouth, and then return to her prior stance. She went through the motions several times before I couldn't take it anymore. She obviously had something to say; if I was human, I never would have seen the motions, but my senses were heightened enough now. Without looking up I asked, "what's on your mind, Rosalie?"

I watched from under my eyelids as she gaped at me. As I looked up, she recovered her poise. "What do you mean?"

"You want to say something; I can see you opening and closing your mouth." She looked at me, gaping again. "Vampire, now; remember?" I whispered.

Rosalie looked down and nodded her head slightly. "Right. Well, I wanted to talk to you."

Yeah, I got that… "Okay, go ahead."

"Bella, I'm sorry." It came out in a rush and I barely caught it.

That's unexpected. I could see the effort she was putting in towards me and Renesmee, but here she was actually apologizing. Did Emmett put her up to this? "Why are you sorry?"

She let out an exasperated breath and continued to look anywhere but at my eyes. "For all of it, Bella. I was a bitch to you and I didn't even have a good reason for it. You never did anything to me and I was still cruel to you. It wasn't fair and… I'm sorry."

Wow. Rosalie just apologized to me. Where's the hidden camera?

I was completely floored by her admission. "Thank you, Rose." She nodded. "I hate to ruin this, but… why now? Why apologize at all; I never held it against you?"

She finally met my eyes. "That's why." Huh? "You never held my behavior against me. You could have, but you never did. You could have gotten Edward, or any of the rest of them, to threaten me or defend you, but you didn't. You could have told Renesmee I was an evil bitch and to ignore me if she ever met me, but you didn't. You told her wonderful things about me, things that are completely sugar-coated, when you didn't have to." She looked back to the CDs. "I wouldn't have been so kind," she added under her breath.

I thought back; I had never told Renesmee anything horrible about anyone of the Cullens. Why would I? They were completely wonderful and they were family. She deserved to make her own memories and experiences with them without my influence. Besides, I truly never held Rosalie's behavior against her; she was protecting her family. I could admire that, even more now.

"Can I ask you something, Bella?" Her voice pulled me from my thoughts and I merely nodded. "What's it like?"

"What's what like?"

She paused. "Being a mom?"

Oh. Suddenly it all made sense. It wasn't the fact that I was willing to give up my life to be with Edward when I was eighteen and human that made her mad; it was that I was willing to give up my humanity, or rather the ability to be a mother. She never got the chance for that. She resented me because of that.

"That's it, isn't it?" I phrased it as kindly and gently as I could. "That's why you acted the way you did towards me; because I was giving up the thing you wanted."

"Yeah," she looked down as she spoke. "I always wanted to be a mother. You didn't know what you were going to give up. You can't know what you'll want in ten or fifteen years when you're eighteen; you had your whole life ahead of you. But you were just going to give it up; I couldn't bear that."

I saw her point; I saw it from both sides.

As the human teenager completely in love with Edward, I wouldn't have thought twice about not having children. Until I realized I was pregnant, I never wanted to be a mother and if I hadn't been and Edward would have changed me; I probably would have never thought about it.

But as the vampire mother that I was…

I see her point completely. I love being a mother, but even more than that, I love being a mom to Renesmee. She is my world and I would never change anything that led to her being mine. Knowing what I know now, I wouldn't choose Edward and that life over her. I just wouldn't.

"I get that now. Back then I would have thought you were wrong about me, but now… I agree with you, Rose. I didn't know what I would be giving up. I probably wouldn't have missed it. But having it now, I would never give it up. I wouldn't give Renesmee up for anything, even Edward."

"It's that wonderful; being a mom?" She looked so sad.

"Yeah. It has its moments. Like now; I seriously wanted to strangle her back there with Alice. But… she's my daughter. Granted she grew too quickly and she is smarter than me, and has been for years, but she's my little girl. She's me; she came from me and I can barely fathom that." I shook my head. I still could barely wrap my head around the fact that I actually had a daughter; she was so surreal.

"What was it like being pregnant?" I could see how loaded that question was. Not only did Rose want to be a mom, but she wanted the whole experience.

"Honestly?" She nodded. "It kinda sucked. I mean feeling her move and knowing that she was mine was incredible. I already felt that connection, but it hurt like hell. She grew so quickly and it felt like I was carrying a sixty pound bowling ball in my abdomen. The morning sickness sucked, because it wasn't actually in the morning. It was all-freaking-day. And when she finally was about to be born, I felt like my spine had been severed by a hacksaw." She looked at me, completely shocked. Most women say it's the most wonderful experience in the world. Maybe it is for them and maybe it's just because my baby was half-vampire that I felt the weight of it, but honestly, I'm not buying that. It hurt and I imagined it hurt for everyone. They're all Liars "It's the final product, Rose. The pregnancy was the hard part, but for me it only lasted about a month."

She nodded again. "You mind if I ask you a question?" She smiled at me and nodded. "Actually, it's more of a favor?"

Rosalie's face shifted for a second before she smiled even more brightly. "What are sisters for?"

I laughed. "Well sister dear," she laughed at my response. "I was hoping you could be the sane aunt for Renesmee. Alice is great; you know I love her, but they're going to get in trouble shopping all the time and there are going to be times when she needs that more-mature person. They'll be close too, I'm sure, but you can relate better. You remember what it's like to be human and Alice doesn't. I know Renesmee already loves you and I can tell you love her back. I figured that out pretty quickly when you went outside with her the other day to make sure she was okay. I appreciated that more than you will ever know…" I looked to Rose, hoping that I didn't need to continue my explanation. She could be the kind of Aunt or friend that Renesmee never had. Someone that cared for her, but didn't discipline her or judge her. If anyone was capable of that, it was Rose.

Rose flew around the CD storage units to me. "I would be honored," she whispered as she hugged me tightly.

I had never hugged Rosalie before and it felt nice; like she was actually a sister.

Rose quickly disentangled herself from my arms. We may have bonded, but this was still Rosalie Hale, ice queen. "I gotta ask…" I nodded. I knew this was coming, but honestly, I though Emmett or Esme would be the culprit. "What's going on between you and Edward?"

I shook my head. "Nothing."

"And is that his decision, or yours?"

She knew; and she knew that I knew she knew. Oh, good lord, did I just think that?

I shook my head, clearing my thoughts. "Mine, Rose. I just… I don't know what to think about him anymore."

"Do you love him?" Well, just start off with the easy questions, why don't ya?

"I do, but I don't know in what regards anymore. I haven't let myself think of him as anything other than Renesmee's father for years now. I don't know how to work around that. I'm not sure I want to." I added the last sentence quietly, but it's not like she wouldn't hear it.

"You know he loves you and that he searched for you for god knows how many years."

"Yeah, I know." I just didn't know where to put that.

"I never thought I'd see this day," she mumbled.

"And what day is that?" I said, growing slightly irritated.

She laughed. "You pick; the day that Bella Swan dismisses Edward or the day that Edward doesn't get everything he wants."

I rolled my eyes; apparently both were true. "He left me Rose. He told me he didn't want me and that he didn't love me and then he just left me there in the woods. I don't know how to line that up with the fact that he searched for me and never stopped caring, along with the fact that he wants me back. I'm trying to make sense out of it, but I just don't know right now."

It was the most honest answer concerning my feelings for Edward that I had made in the last week. It was exactly how I felt, because truly I didn't know anything except the facts. But the facts weren't helping me with my emotions; they just caused them to conflict more.

Rosalie turned and grabbed my arm. "Wait. He told you he didn't love you?" she hissed

"Yeah, I believed it too." I didn't realize it wasn't common knowledge; granted it wasn't like I published the information for Renesmee.

"That bastard, I'll kill him." She was seeing red now and I was kind of scared for Edward. I had spent years being terrified of Rose; I still didn't want to end up on her bad side.

I rubbed her hand on my arm. "Rose. Calm down; I don't want Renesmee to know about how Edward treated me that day or why he left. It's just between us, right?"

She looked at me like I had three heads. "You're serious?"

"Yes, I am. I don't want her to know why he left me. She wouldn't see him the same. I know she wouldn't hold him, or even Jasper, accountable; she's far too understanding, but she would never forget that and I don't want her to know because of me. If Edward chooses to tell her, its fine. but I won't harm his relationship with her."

"Fine." She was pissed, but at least she wasn't pissed at me and she wasn't going to kill him. She might make things harder for him, but I could deal with that. What I couldn't deal with is if she made Renesmee question her family. She needed to have relationships without other's influence.

A/N: Fantastic, another chapter! Hope you all like it, let me know. I think it has a good mix of fun and humor; it even gets a little sappy with them. I'm not sure where that came from but I love it.

It will probably be a little while before the next chapter but rest assured it will come. I'm moving next weekend and am packing all week so I won't have much time to write. If I do it will probably be in the missing moments.

For those of you who don't know; I added another story with is a companion to this one. It has missing moments and outtakes from Give Her Some Credit. Right now there's just a convo between Edward and Jasper but I plan to add more.

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