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BPOV (Bella)
It had been two days.
Two days since formal; two days since Edward and I decided to be us again; two days since we convinced the rest of the family we never would be and that we were angry with them; two days since I had kissed Edward; two days since I had seen, or spoken, to Edward.
It had been a very long two days.
I hadn't heard exactly what happened when Edward went back to them. I know they hadn't figured it out and that they believed we were unfixable.
I'm not sure how Edward convinced them, but he did. I was thankful and regretful at the same time. I wanted to be with him, but I also wanted to win.
I couldn't think of anything to do to distract myself. Ultimately I ended up in my room, while Renesmee slept the night away, lying in my bed just thinking about Edward. We couldn't be around each other if we wanted to teach them all to mind their own business. And as much as I was regretting that decision right now, I had to admit that both Alice and Renesmee needed to learn this lesson.
I closed my eyes thinking about how happy Edward looked when I finally let go of all my issues; he is so gorgeous when he smiles…
There was a loud tapping at my window, followed by the window being creaked open.
I didn't open my eyes; I knew it was Edward. Although he was usually quieter. His scent struck my senses and I was immediately at peace again. "What are you doing here?" I whispered.
"Renesmee's asleep and the rest of the family is hunting… and I missed you," he confessed.
I felt my smile grow larger. "…I missed you, too, Edward. Come here." I patted the space beside me, so he could lie down as well. Before a full ten seconds passed; I was encased in his arms with my head tucked into the crook of his shoulder. God, I've missed this…
"I've really missed this." His words echoing my thoughts.
"Me too." We laid in silence for a few minutes before I felt the need to ask him a question. "What are you thinking about?"
He chuckled; causing my arm that had been placed over his chest to shake slightly. "That used to be my line."
"Well, if you tell me, maybe you'll be granted the same courtesy," I stupidly promised.
"That is tempting…" He made me wait several minutes before he continued; no doubt making me feel how he had so many years ago when I would hold out on him. "I was just thinking about how much I missed this, and how I made every mistake to not have it again. I should've never left you; I should've come back sooner; I should've found you-"
"Edward, stop." I placed two fingers over his perfect lips to interrupt his apologies. They weren't needed anymore; I had already forgiven him. "Don't start that. I know you feel guilty, but I don't want to hear it anymore. I forgave you a long time ago, before I even told you that I did. I wish you had stayed a few more days because then you would have known about the little gift you left growing inside of me, but honestly, I'm glad it worked out this way. I got time with her and now we'll be a family forever."
It sounded more heartless than I meant for it too. I truly wished he had been with Renesmee and me for the past twenty years, but I liked how my life had progressed to this point. I had a beautiful daughter, a wonderful family, and a perfect mate; I got what I wanted. I couldn't bring myself to regret the way it happened since everything had worked out to our favor.
"I'm still so sorry, Bella." He held me tighter; like he was afraid I'd evaporate in his arms.
"Fine, but stop apologizing, or I'm kicking your ass out that window." I glared at him, playfully, hoping he would just relax and enjoy the moment with me.
"Okay… I was also thinking that I wanted to kiss you." There's the Edward I love.
"Now, that's what I wanted to hear…"
I pulled his face to mine and took over his lips with my own. He sighed and… actually purred as our tongues danced. I pulled away after a few minutes before it could go any farther than I wanted at the moment.
"Now what were you thinking about?" he whispered into my hair.
"Damn, how are you not distracted?" I looked into his eyes, looking for an answer.
"Practice."
"Sure." I playfully pushed him into the pillow and resumed my spot in the crook of his shoulder. "You honestly want to know?"
"I do."
"I was wondering if you missed it." I confessed.
"Missed… what?"
I sighed, wishing I didn't have to explain it. "I'm here in your arms; the best place in the world, ever. But I was wondering if you missed how it used to be when I was human. You know; my breathing, my heartbeat, my softness, my blush, my sleep talking…"
He tucked a lock of my hair behind my ear, stopping my rambling. "You are still just as absurd, you know that. You think I miss those things… you really want to know?"
"Yes." I willed myself to be strong, expecting the worst.
"You still breathe, Bella, and it still feels amazing when your breath washes over my face, but I definitely don't miss you requiring regular breaths. For instance, now I can kiss you without worrying about you passing out on me."
He turned my head to softly kiss my lips. "Stop distracting me…" I mumbled through my haze.
"Sorry…" He laughed. "Where was I… the heartbeat?" I nodded, hoping he would continue. "I have your former heartbeat, and all frenzied variations, completely immersed in my memory. It got me through the twenty years without you but… no, I don't miss it. I can tune it in whenever I want."
I smiled, faintly remembering my embarrassment when my heart rate picked up. I quickly changed the subject. "And my blush?"
"While you always looked incredibly cute and… sexy when you blushed," he whispered. It would have done the trick if I was human. "I do not miss the blood that caused it to form. Do you remember the first human you smelled after your transformation?" Of course I remembered. I was frightened of killing Angela for so long. "Multiply that by fifty and then imagine kissing it. Do you really think I miss that? I wouldn't be nearly as comfortable here if that was still a factor." I nodded, soaking in his words.
"As for your softness; you are soft, Bella. You're just more durable. Now I don't have to worry about wrapping my arms around you and accidently crushing your bones in my fervor." I chuckled when he pulled me into his hard chest.
"How'd you do it? Not kill me when we were together, I mean." I had smashed so many computers, cell phones, and other meaningless objects in a hasty situation. I had ruined books by turning a page too quickly. How did he not rip me in two while having sex with me?
"As I'm sure you recall there were several casualties; your pillows, your bottom bed sheet and a chunk of your headboard if I remember correctly." He smirked his dazzling crooked smile at me. "I was just happy that you made it through with only a few bruises. It took all I had."
"I love you." There was nothing left to say.
"I love you, too; more than anything."
It was quiet for several minutes before I remembered I had asked him more. "Hmm, what about my sleep talking?"
He chuckled. "That may be the only thing I actually miss. I loved holding you in my arms and watching you sleep. The fact that you whispered what was going on inside your head every night, and the fact that you voiced your feelings about me uninhibited, was a truly wonderful bonus. But this… you and me here like this with my arms around you, talking like this… no contest, Bella. I have the time that I spent with you as a human in my memories and that is more than enough to make the way we are now completely blissful and without regret. I wouldn't change you back for anything."
I turned, sitting up. "You're good." I leaned down and kissed him in a deep, full of love kiss. "You're really, really good."
A/N: I hope you enjoy the bedtime fluff! I thought you all deserved it. Next chapter will resume the angst, promise.
Honestly, I was really concerned about the bet and if I was going to OOC, but you all encouraged it and I'm so thankful.
Not much to say, thanks for the reviews as always. You all are too kind and I hope you continue to be ;)
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