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Chapter Four

Bella Swan

I spent the rest of the day surrounding myself with students. Even during my lunch period, during which I usually locked myself in my classroom, I spent in the cafeteria and thankfully avoided any contact with Edward.

I thought I was home free until I had finally exited Hansen Hall on the way to the parking lot and ran into Kate Taylor, the very obnoxious fine arts teacher. She'd gotten hired the year after me and thought that as two of the youngest teachers in the school that we'd get along and be best friends. The only thing was she was a completely vapid, self centered jerk.

"Bella," She was sounded slightly out of breath and like she'd had to run to catch up with me. Her cheeks were red and her hair slightly disheveled. She looked like she had a good piece of gossip.

"Kate," I said evenly, "What's up?"

"Oh, I was just wondering if that hunky new teacher found you," she smirked when she said this, like she couldn't believe that any hot guy would be looking for me. I felt myself getting even more annoyed at Edward.

"Who, Mr. Cullen? Yes, I spoke with him."

"He's sooo cute, Bella. Isn't he so cute? Those eyes! They're so green. Can you put in a good word for me? You two are like, just friends, right?" She was practically bouncing in her heels as she asked questions, clearly hopeful that she'd be getting a piece of Edward Cullen.

"Ugh, Kate. I don't even know him and he's sort of a jerk. Sorry, I think you'll have to talk to him for yourself," I tried to sound like I didn't care if she talked to him. I didn't. I shouldn't. In fact, maybe it would stop my Edward Cullen obsession if he was involved with someone else, "Actually, you know what? You should totally go for it. I bet you're just his type. And I hear his family is loaded. His dad's a cardiologist or something. I have to go, Kate. Good luck!"

Once I finally made it across the parking lot to my Audi, I climbed in and sighed in relief. Avoiding Edward Cullen was going to be hard. It was going to mean constantly surrounding myself with other teachers and students but it could be done.

His blasé attitude when it came to condoms had annoyed me. Seriously, what guy couldn't remember if he'd used one? Which probably meant he didn't because most guys tried to avoid them as much as possible. Maybe he was one of the responsible ones. Maybe he pulled out. Maybe, maybe, maybe.

On the drive home, I called Alice. I knew I had to get the conversation out of the way and that she got worried whenever I went too long without answering her calls or calling her back. The phone rang a few times before someone picked up and I heard Alice's muffled voice in the background.

"Hi Aunt Bewwa!"

I laughed because Alice and Charlotte were constantly battling who got to answer the phone. It sounded like Charlotte won this battle.

"Hi sweets, what are you up to?"

I could hear Alice in the background again, prompting Charlotte on what to say.

"I miss you Aunt Bewwa. Why you no call Mama back so we can play?"

I giggled quietly, not wanting to offend Charlotte and cursing Alice for making me sound like the bad guy.

"Aunt Bella's just been busy. How about you let me talk to your mama so I can arrange a play date?"

"Ok, you can talk to Mama and I will go watch Max and Ruby with Dada 'cuz it's his favorite!"

"Alright, honey, have fun!"

It took some more shuffling of the phone and hearing Alice call to Jasper that Charlotte was coming his way before she said anything.

"Why, look who it is! I thought you fell off the face of the Earth and poor little Charlotte has been asking all day where Aunt Bewwa is."

"Enough with the guilt trip, Ali, I've been busy… lesson plans and the lit magazine. I was thinking I'd stop by tomorrow after school? I can occupy Charlotte while you make dinner then we can chat after she falls asleep?"

"Is everything ok, Bells? You sound sad."

Of course she would pick up on it, Alice picked up on everything. I sighed and nodded, even though she couldn't see me, "Yeah, Al. I'm good. Hey, I have to make a stop so I'll call you later, k?"

"Ok, Bella! But you better not back out of tomorrow, Charlotte's going to be so excited! Oh, so am I! Bye!"

I smiled at how enthusiastic she sounded and hung up after saying goodbye. I'd vent to her about Edward Cullen, how he was a stupid boy with a stupid penis (maybe that part was kind of wonderful…), who apparently had no memory of condom usage.

~*~

When I got home, I had another e-mail from Edward.

From: E. Cullen

To: Isabella Swan

Sent: Monday, September 28, 2009 5:56 PM

Subject: Hey.

Are you going to continue to ignore me? Come on. Give me a chance. We'll go to dinner or something. If you really want nothing to do with me, I'll back off. Meet me in the teachers' lounge tomorrow morning, the one in Hansen.

Edward

I sighed and deleted it. I wouldn't meet him in the teachers' lounge in Hansen, I wouldn't go to dinner with him. Mission Ignore Edward Cullen was officially in effect.

~*~

I discovered the next day that avoiding Edward Cullen, while working in the same school as him, was next to impossible. His classes took place in the Art Center, the building next to Hansen where I taught but he somehow was always popping up somewhere. I saw him talking to Kate, even though she worked in the Art Center as well. I saw him talking with some students. I saw him in the cafeteria when I was on duty.

The weird thing was, he didn't seem to be trying to seek me out. I was just starting to feel at ease and like maybe he got the hint when the day ended. I still had a literary magazine meeting, so I ran to get a soda from the machine so I could get back to my classroom and set up before my students got there. When I walked back into the room, Edward Cullen was sitting in my desk chair. Shit.

"Hey," he sounded annoyed. This wasn't good. How could I avoid him if he showed up in my classroom? Could I just pretend he wasn't there? So that's what I did, I pretended he wasn't sitting in my desk, looking good enough to eat and started setting up for the meeting. I thought maybe he'd just leave until I turned around and he was standing so close that I bumped into him. He put his hand on my hip to steady me and I felt that same electric rush that I'd felt that night.

"Oh! I… sorry?" My voice sounded weird, almost breathy. His body seemed tense and his candy green eyes were intently staring at my lips. "Edward…"

I didn't get a chance to say anything else because his lips were on mine, his free hand moving to the back of my head. I made a noise that closely resembled a whimper and placed my hands on his chest. He sucked my bottom lip into his mouth, nibbling gently before letting it free and kissing me again. This time I parted my lips and his tongue met mine, tangling together.

As we kissed, his hand that had been on my hip started roaming. Up my side, gently running his fingers against the side of my breast then sliding his hand back down to my hip. He repeated this circuit a few times before palming my breast. Moaning softly, I pulled him closer to me and felt his hardness against my belly. Feeling him against me made me realize where we were and I snapped out of my haze, pulling away, "Oh my god."

"Pretty amazing, right?" He smirked and made a move to pull me back toward him but I stepped away, shaking my head. I could feel how flushed I was and knew my panties were completely soaked but I had a mission and this went completely against it.

"Edward! You have to leave now. I can't… I don't want to…"

"You don't want to? You seemed pretty into in two seconds ago. Fuck, Bella. I know I said I'd leave you alone if you didn't want anything to do with me but today was fucking hard. You look… so hot. Your ass in that skirt…" He slid his hand down to my ass as if to emphasize his point, "Do you know the way your male students talk about you? I hear them in the halls, saying how nice your rack is, how tight your ass looks."

"Excuse me?" I pushed away again and started straightening my shirt, "They do not!"

He stopped closer and leaned in, whispering against my ear, "They talk about how they want to fuck you. It made me want to kick their asses, Bella. I want to be the only one fucking you."

I bit my lip, his breath tickling my ear and sending shivers down my spine. When I spoke, my voice was barely above a whisper, "I'm not going to fuck you again, Edward. It was a mistake. Please, go. Students will be getting here for a meeting soon and I don't think it'd be good for anyone to walk in on us again…"

Edward glared at me for a second before turning on his heel and stomping out of the room, slamming the door shut behind him. I rolled my eyes. Someone isn't used to not getting his way.

~*~

A few minutes later, the students filed in for the meeting. I was distracted and ended up dismissing the meeting early, unable to concentrate after the meeting with Edward. The only thoughts I was able to have were those of him pushing my skirt up around my waist and thrusting into me… making me scream his name like on Saturday night.

Ugh, Bella. Stop. You're not fucking him again. You probably did enough damage the first time.

Finally, I made it out of the building and considered cancelling on Alice but I knew she'd kill me so I sucked it up and made my way over. I parked and sat in my car for a few minutes, making sure my hair still looked ok and that my make up wasn't smeared. Once I stopped stalling, I walked up the sidewalk and rang the bell. I heard stomping and Jasper calling to be careful before the door swung open to reveal my favorite girl.

"Aunt Bewwa!" Charlotte squealed in her loud voice. I picked her up and hugged her tight against me.

"Charlotte Grace!" I smiled at Jasper, "Hey Jazz. You're home from work early."

"Yeah, I went in a little early so I could get home. Rose and Em are inside too. Alice figured she'd make a dinner party of it," he shrugged, as if to say he had no choice in the matter.

"Oh, great, four against one," I scrunched up my nose and rolled my eyes.

Jasper laughed, confirming my fears that I'd be interrogated at some point in the evening, "Come on. Emmett and Henry are in the living room and Alice and Rose are in the kitchen." I nodded, still holding Charlotte who was playing with my hair quietly. I went into the living room and said hello to Emmett and Henry before going to the kitchen.

"Hey ladies," I smiled at Rose and Alice, giving them each a one armed hug. "I didn't realize everyone was going to be here."

"Wellll, I just figured it'd be nice…" Alice sounded a little unsure but I grinned at her and shrugged, "It's good, I've missed Charlotte and Henry."

I bounced Charlotte a bit and kissed her cheek loudly, she squealed and giggled before announcing, "Oh, yes, Aunt Bewwa and Aunt Rose, you gonna cowor with me. Baby Henry can cowor too but he can't use pink 'cuz he's a boy."

"Charlotte, honey, Uncle Emmett and Daddy are going to color with you and Henry. Mommy and Aunt Rose need to have grown up time with Aunt Bella. Go get Daddy and Aunt Bella will play later."

I nodded at Charlotte to confirm that her mommy was telling the truth and set her down, watching as she ran into the living room, screaming that it was time to 'cowor', "I hope she never learns her L's, it's just so cute."

Alice laughed and nodded, "It'll mean she's growing up and I don't know if I can handle that."

Turning to Rose, I gently rubbed her belly. She put her hand over mine and moved so I could feel the baby kicking. I smiled at her, "Another soccer player, huh? How are ya feelin' mama?"

"Great. I pee every three minutes. I'm as big now as I was at forty weeks with Henry.I can't get comfortable enough to sleep. I want sex every second of every day but feel too huge to have it. He kicks all the freaking time. The norm. How about you, Bells, how are you doing?"

I felt my face flush as I thought of Edward in the classroom earlier, "I'm good."

"You're blushing! Alice, she's blushing. You owe us details about the other night! What happened after you left? The truth?"

"Ugh, you guys! I knew you'd never give up. Alright, but this stays between us. No Jasper, no Emmett, no random people on the street… got it?" I tried to sound stern, using my teacher voice.

They both nodded eagerly so I continued.

"I was so drunk, I can't remember every detail. We bumped into each other dancing then the next thing I know, we're in a cab and he was ripping off my panties…"

"Whoa," Alice interrupted, "he ripped your panties off?! In a cab?! That's so hot!"

"Um, yes," I felt my face turn even brighter red from both embarrassment and being a little turned on at the memory, "don't interrupt. Anyway, so we get back to his place, which is ridiculously nice. You must be right about him being rich, Rose. So we get back to his place and have the most amazing sex ever. The best sex I've ever had. A lot of it, from what I can remember. Then I wake up and have no clue where I am and he's there making breakfast and coffee and I snuck out and…"

"Bella Swan! You snuck out?! A totally hot, rich guy who's amazing in bed and you sneak out?" Alice looked like you could have knocked her over with a feather, "What if he had been the one? Bella! He was probably the one and now you'll never see him again."

"Oh, she can see him again," Rose smirked, looking like she had something up her sleeve, "Em's parents are friends with his parents. They've known each other since they were like, three. I can get his number for you. Just say you had an emergency and had to leave."

"Ok, you guys need to let me finish! I snuck out and went home and yesterday morning when I checked my e-mail, there was one for him. Turns out, he's the new piano teacher at Morgan Park."

"Oh my god, this is perfect, Bella! He's totally the one!"

"Ali, you're going to need to calm down. He's a total ass. He came into my classroom yesterday like he owned the place and insinuated that I sleep with men and sneak out all the time! He called me a slut!" I huffed and crossed my arms across my chest, getting aggravated again thinking about it, "Then he said he couldn't remember if we'd used condoms! Who doesn't use condoms?!"

"Well, you're on birth control, right? And I bet if he slept around a lot, he'd be sure to use them…" Rose shrugged, like it was no big deal. She had no idea that my life was being turned upside down. I didn't want to tell them about the artificial insemination but I didn't see anyway around it.

"No, Rose. I'm not on birth control. I was planning… I… who do I ever have sex with to remember to be on birth control?"

Way to chicken out, Bella.

"Oh," they both said at the same time, looking at each other with wide eyes.

"Yeah. Oh. And then he e-mails me again asking me to dinner, saying we should talk, that he'd leave me alone if I wasn't interested. I decided I'd just avoid him but he came to my classroom again after school ended but before the meeting for the magazine and… he kissed me and it was amazing. Then he started groping me and I remembered where we were and stopped him and he started saying all this stuff about the boys that I teach wanting to fuck me but he wants to be the only one to fuck me and…"

Alice interrupted, again, "Wow… how… caveman of him."

"I know, right?! So I told him it was a mistake and made him leave… but I can't get him out of my head. All I can think about is what would've happened this afternoon if we hadn't been at school and I hadn't stopped him."

"Maybe you should give him a chance, Bella. Maybe he was just being such an ass in response to you leaving and telling him it was a mistake…" Rose shrugged, signaling that it was the only thing she could think of.

"Maybe start off as friends. See if you're compatible like that. And go from there because I have a feeling, Bella. And you know my feelings are always right!" Alice started chopping up vegetables as she spoke. I sighed and shrugged, "Maybe. Hey, I'm going to go play with the kids. Let me know if you need any help in here, ok?"

For the rest of the night, I avoided adult conversation. I kept one of the kids with me at all times, either braiding Charlotte's hair or playing air plane with Henry.

When I finally got home, I crashed in my work clothes with my shoes still on. Tomorrow would be better. Tomorrow, I would figure life out.

~*~

Edward Cullen

Fuck Bella Swan. Bella Swan and her pretty brown eyes and her sweet little ass and perky tits. Her hot little whimpers and moans. How swollen and red her lips were after our make out session in room 203. How good it felt when she pressed her tight little body against me, my cock against her belly. Fuck how hard I got whenever I thought about her. Like right now.

I groaned and rolled over in bed onto my back, throwing the blankets off me before reaching down and pulling my cock out of my boxers. This would be the third time since I got home but I couldn't stop thinking of her. Gathering the precum from the tip of my dick, I started stroking myself. I thought about Bella, bent over her desk with her skirt pushed up to reveal her pert ass and bare pussy. I imagined thrusting into her from behind and how she would moan my name.

I tightened my grip around myself and started stroking faster. I thought about flipping her over and ripping her top open to reveal her breasts and how they would bounce as I fucked her harder. I imagined her cumming around me and me cumming in her and with that vivid picture in my head, I came all over my hand and stomach, moaning her name.

Fuck. I was in deep. I grabbed some tissues and cleaned myself up. I closed my eyes and finally fell asleep but I dreamt about Bella all night long.

~*~

The next day, I had a plan. Make Bella Swan Jealous. There was only one other teacher around our age. That Kate girl, who had spent most of yesterday following me around. I'd even tried hanging out in Hansen Hall to avoid her but she was unavoidable. Today, I was going to take advantage of that.

When I entered the teachers' lounge in Hansen, both Bella and Kate were there. Kate was wearing some… dress which looked kind of tacky but the kind of tacky where you know it cost money. Bella was wearing black pants that were tight and a light purple sweater, her hair up in a ponytail. She looked a thousand times better than Kate.

She looked at me and looked like she was about to say something but I turned away. Completely ignoring Bella, I gave turned to Kate and gave her The Smile. It was the one I used to get out of trouble when I was younger. The one that had gotten me laid more times than I could count. It seemed to have the desired affect on Kate. She smiled back and giggled, wiggling her fingers at me, "Hey, Edward."

"Hey Kate, how's it going? You look nice today," I glanced over at Bella to see she had a scowl on her face and smirked a bit. Thankfully, Kate thought it was directed at her.

"You like it? Thanks, it's new," she smoothed out invisible wrinkles from her dress and beamed at me, like I'd just proposed instead of said she'd looked nice.

"No problem. You always look so… well put together, I don't know how the boys can concentrate on their art with you as their teacher," I winked at her and grinned some more. I was laying it on thick and Bella made some sort of noise. I looked over again and she seemed to be reading an essay or maybe something for that magazine. The few other teachers that were there started leaving, probably noticing the tension in the room, "Say Kate. Would you like to have lunch with me today? I don't know many people yet and you seem so friendly."

Bella made another noise and was now glaring at the paper. I looked over her and faked surprise, "Oh, hello, Miss Swan. I didn't see you there."

"Mhm, hello, Edward," she muttered, her face turning slightly pink. Kate put her hand on my arm, trying to regain my attention, "So lunch? I'll meet you in the music room?"

"Sounds perfect," I smiled at her again as she walked away then sat at the table across from Bella, arms folded across my chest and smirking. Bella looked up after a minute and tried to glare at me, though her eyes looked slightly watery and she kept blinking so the effect wasn't the same.

Shit. Maybe not a good idea, Cullen. Is she crying? You're such a fuck up.

"Bella."

"What, Edward?" Her voice sounded shaky and I knew for sure at that point that she was trying not to cry.

"You ok? Look, I'm sorry." I reached across the table to touch her arm but she moved it away, biting her lip and sniffling.

"I'm fine. I was only sitting in here this morning because I was hoping you'd pop in. I wanted to… apologize for saying it was a mistake and see if you wanted to have lunch but I see you've moved onto your next victim so… never mind," she started getting get stuff together and putting it in her bag as I stared at her, at a loss for words. Would admitting that I'd only flirted with Kate to make her jealous be bad? Probably. Fuck. I'm such a fuck up.

"Bella…" I started to speak but she held her hand up and shook her head.

"No, Edward. It's fine. I just had thought we could be friends but clearly, that's not possible. I hope you and Kate are very happy together," she sniffled again and left the lounge.

You, Edward Cullen, are a fucking fucked up fuck up.

~*~

uh-oh. so bella finally wants to give edward a chance and he messes up. also, longest update so far. i think that deserves a review, eh? the next chapter is written, it'll be up soon!