I own: a pile of books that I have no idea when I'll read them…
I don't own : Twilight (any of it) or the music I make reference to (well, I do have it on iTunes and some on CDs, but I don't think that's what they're talking about…)
BPOV (Bella)… Hours later ;)
We lay on the floor next to the couch… it proved to be inconvenient after a while to stay on the small surface…
The sun had risen early and now it was fading away again.
We hadn't talked since we had shed our clothes; at least about nothing of consequence…
We weren't tired and probably didn't need to stop, but lying next to Edward was nearly as good as making love to him. He held me to his chest and stroked my back. Sometime during the day, he had brought out a blanket and it was now lying over us while I traced patterns on his chest.
Occasionally he would sigh and I would feel him shift to smell my hair before kissing my forehead. We hadn't looked each other in the eye for the longest time. I knew the silence wouldn't last forever, and by no means did I want it to, but I somehow found it hard to speak and ruin the bubble we were currently basking in.
"You're far too quiet, Bella. What are you thinking?" He was nervous for some reason, but then again so was I.
"I love you." I spoke without changing my position at all. I had said it countless times over the past hours, but I couldn't think of anything else to say. I couldn't bear to ruin everything.
"Are you… are you okay… happy, I mean?" My brain felt like goo for a moment. How could I not be happy? I hadn't realized I projected the thought till he let out a sigh of relief. "Oh, thank God…"
I shifted then, pulling the blanket to cover myself while still leaving enough for him as well. "Do you really have to ask that?"
"It's been a long time… I wish I could say that I can read you just as well, but I can't. You seemed nervous." There it was… he read me fine, but he assumed the wrong cause of my nerves.
"You do read me well, Edward. I'm nervous, but not because of this." I gestured to us still naked within a blanket. "You said I died. Do you really feel that way?" I barely got the words out before he grasped my face that I had apparently turned away from him to look into his eyes.
"Bella… you know that isn't true. I flashed back for a split second, to when, to how I felt before. I'm selfish enough to want you forever, but I always thought you were too good for this life." I nodded, but dropped my eyes from him. "You could have died so easily. You could have figured it out too late and been sent to a hospital and they would have had no idea how to save you. You could have been alone when you went into labor. You could have not found the venom, or passed out before you could have used it. Angela could have not guessed correctly in helping you. Hell, it could have been too late to change you…" He rushed through the various outcomes before I looked up and begin running my fingers through his hair. I hoped to calm him with my actions and words, but he begged me with his eyes to stop. "I could have lost you so easily, Bella, and not even known it. And not known about Renesmee. I should've been there. I should've taken care of you like I promised; both of you."
I kept running my fingers up and down his scalp, but I could see the tears in his eyes. "Okay… okay, Edward. It's okay."
"I don't feel that you died... but you could have, Bella and I can't bear that thought at all. I love you too goddamn much." I was shocked by his language, but I couldn't disagree.
"Right back at you." I said as I kissed his eyelids. I held my arms around him for a long time and he didn't stray from laying his head on my shoulder. Every few minutes he would kiss where my neck meets my shoulder and on the thirty-third pass, I laughed, interrupting his actions. "Sorry, sorry."
"It's fine." He leaned back to look at me. The blanket had shifted during our conversation and we were now pressed together without it. He stroked up and down my back. "I think we've both said that enough, though, don't you?"
"Absolutely." I pressed my lips to his before lifting myself up and beginning to redress.
"What in the hell are you doing getting dressed?" For a moment, I was scared. He actually seemed upset in his voice, but when I turned, he was smiling.
I sighed in relief before pulling on my panties and clasping my bra. "We have a week, Edward and the sun is about to set." I threw his boxers in his face and he grinned evilly at me. "We have some people to check up on." He nodded before dressing quickly.
EPOV (Esme!)
I tried not to laugh as Alice paced in front of the couch. Renesmee snuggled into my side as Alice continued her rant.
"I cannot believe them! They lied to us! How dare they…" She turned around and continued to pace. "How long have they been lying? My god, they purposely were trying to make us feel guilty… Oh, I'm going to kill them when they come back… if they ever finish what they're doing… ugh!"
It was incredibly difficult to not laugh. She wasn't paying attention to any of us. I looked to Jasper who was sitting next to Rosalie and Emmett smiling slightly at his wife. I nodded my head towards her and he got up.
"Alice, relax." She looked at him as if he cut her credit cards up right in front of her. "I know, I know you're mad, but look at it from their point of view."
Again, she looked at him as if he had banned her from every mall in a 10,000 mile radius. "Are you kidding me right now, Jazz? You cannot be serious."
He sighed while holding her by her shoulders. "I am and deep down, you know I'm right. I'm sure it was lesson that they hoped you would learn." I felt Renesmee still beside me; completely ridden with guilt. "Let's go hunting, you'll think more rationally afterwards."
She glared at him, but relented… although she did shy away from his touch.
Once they were gone, everyone laughed. Emmett and Carlisle barely contained themselves. I looked over at Renesmee and she was the only one not laughing. "What's wrong, Sweet One?" I whispered as I combed her hair back with my fingers.
"Mom's never lied to me before," she mumbled.
Carlisle leaned towards us and lifted her chin. "Bella's your mom, but she's still Bella. As much time as you've spent with her, you still don't know every side of her. Neither do we. She loves you and nothing will change that." Renesmee nodded and laid her head on my shoulder. "With that being said… you cannot manipulate her." He laughed to show he wasn't mad and she smiled while nodding once again.
Emmett coughed, which was a sure sign of something since vampires never need to cough. Rosalie looked to him as he begged her to speak. She sighed, nearly giggling. "Renesmee." She looked over to her aunt. "You shouldn't manipulate anybody, really. It's not the most… attractive trait, even though we all do it to some degree." Renemsee looked confused until Rose tilted her head towards her husband.
Renesmee looked scared for a second before standing up and walking over to Emmett. I nearly laughed out loud when he flinched away from her touch. He was terrified of his 20 year old, one hundred and twelve pound niece. She sighed, exhausted from the commotion of the day, and simply placed her hand to his cheek.
They were both silent for a moment, but when she pulled away he nodded and pulled her in for a hug. Rosalie laughed. "So what did she have on you, Emmett?"
Emmett froze, looking at Renesmee with desperate eyes. "I promised him I'd never tell," Renesmee laughed.
"Damn." Carlisle muttered. All eyes focused on him. "What? I was curious…"
Renesmee laughed and held out her hand for me. "What, Sweet One?"
"Can you sit with me until I fall asleep?" She looked sheepish, which I attributed to her being fully grown asking for her grandma to tuck her in, but I had no intention of letting her take back the request. I had missed too much time and would gladly sit with her every night if she liked.
"Of course." I pulled her to my side and walked with her upstairs to the room Alice had so discretely decorated for her whenever she stayed over.
A/N: I love you all!!! Its short I know, but I think both parts were a necessity in this story. I'm tired of them saying sorry and I love the fact that they're naked while discussing that aspect. LOL! Maybe two more chapters now, I want to wrap up Forks and then let them get back to the family… we'll see ;)
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