*I don't own Twilight.*

Chapter Twenty-One

Edward Cullen

I had just laid my soul out on a platter for Bella through the songs I had written for the most important three women in my life. I told her about my history, about law school and how much I hated being a lawyer.

Carlisle had insisted on the career, saying I was so good at arguing and manipulating people that I'd be a great lawyer. Honestly, I was. The best fucking criminal defense lawyer New York had seen in years, one of the partners in my firm told me. But I worked a ton of hours – sometimes over night and into the next day. I constantly had my cell phone with me, always on and ringing.

What I didn't mention to Bella was the life I lived the New York. When I wasn't working, I was partying.

When Bella asked how many women I'd been with, I wasn't completely honest. In New York, it was a different woman almost every night. When I came home to visit, I'd end up spending the trip wasted and fucking girls that I'd known in high school or just random girls in clubs. There was even a picture posted in the Chicago Suns-Times of me, completely trashed and obviously fucked up, making out with one chick and groping her tit while another girl had her hand on my crotch.

The headline was something like: Cullen Junior, Living the "High" Life?

It was definitely nothing I ever wanted Bella to see, even though I stupidly kept a copy because I thought it was hilarious at the time. Now a father, it was embarrassing.

"Are there any skeletons in my closet?" Bella repeated my words then laughed. I couldn't see her face but she sounded a little nervous.

"Yeah. Secret past as a stripper? Married ex-boyfriends?"

Bella pulled back and stared at me. Her face was shocked and I wondered if I'd hit the nail on the head.

"What?" Her voice squeaked. "Of course I wasn't a stripper," she giggled softly and rolled her eyes. Married ex, then.

"Did you go through a gothic phase in high school?"

She giggled harder and shook her head.

"Did you… ever experiment with another girl in college?"

Bella's face turned bright red. Aha. I had something, between this and a possible married ex-boyfriend.

"I see… ever done any illegal drugs?"

She nodded as her face flushed even brighter red.

"What a naughty little girl. Let's start with that."

"A few times… I smoked pot. It just really mellowed me out, it was kind of nice," I hummed in agreement but quieted to let her continue, kind of amazed that my sweet innocent girl, my police chief's daughter's girl, had done drugs.

"In college, I would take my roommate's Adderall if I had to study a lot," Bella avoided me eyes, instead playing with the trim on Audrey's outfit.

"Go on," I told her, sensing there was more. I wasn't disappointed.

"I snorted cocaine a few times with Rose," she mumbled, her face bright red. Holy shit, cocaine? I was almost proud of my girl.

"Seriously? B, you're a rebel. That turns me the fuck on."

"You're so weird," she laughed and relaxed against me, probably thinking my questioning was over. Hmm, married ex or lesbianism… might as well save the best for last.

"And the married ex?"

"I didn't know he was married!" Bella cried defensively. My jaw dropped. I had meant and thought she meant an ex that had gotten married. But she dated him while he was married? That prick deceived my girl?

"Holy shit, what? How long did you date him?"

"A little over a year… it was a few years ago. I thought I loved him so much," I seethed inside, hearing her talk about loving something else. The thought made my blood boil. I knew she wasn't a virgin but thinking about her with anyone else made me crazy. She was mine. "He was so perfect… we wanted all of the same things. Then one day he was on a 'business trip' and I walked by his office to feel close to him. He, um, was a lawyer. Kind of ironic, right? But I saw him standing outside the building. I got so excited and went to say hi but he turned and he was holding a baby who looked exactly like baby pictures I'd seen of him."

"That asshole, I want to kill this dude for fucking with you, baby," I rubbed her back.

"Well, his wife appeared two seconds later and I felt like someone kicked me in the stomach. When he saw me, oh my God, his face. I'll never forget that look on his face. They walked past me and I guess he thought I would pretend for him but asked how dare he – then apologized to his wife and ran away."

"Shit, Bella. I'm proud of you," And I was. But I was also concerned that she still had feelings for this asshole.

Before I could ask, she continued her story, "I got over him so quickly that I realized I never loved him like that. Leah – the wife – stayed with him and they have a billion kids now."

"Leah's a pretty dumb bitch then," I muttered.

Bella shook her head, "If you love someone, you forgive them for their wrongs. But I'm sure he's cheated again, she just might not be smart enough to figure it out."

"I'll never do that to you. I know I messed up around Christmas but… never, Bella. I love you far too much," I murmured into her ear. She shivered and kissed me softly.

"I know, Edward." I smiled. I loved that she trusted me.

"Now for the best part… the girl-on-girl experimentation!"

"Oh, boy. I think that should be left to a better time… where I can more readily help with how turned on you'll get. Don't wory, though. There are pictures. And not even Emmett knows," Bella winked at me before getting up and walking away, leaving me on the piano bench completely shocked. Not even Emmett knows? Did that mean it was Rose? And there are pictures? Holy shit.

I sat on the bench for a minute, thinking of Bella's revelation. There's no way I can picture it. But then I thought about how Rose and Bella are both tens. Their tight little bodies together and… instantly hard. I groaned softly and got up, walking to our bathroom to take care of business.

When I walke out after cleaning up, ten minutes later, Bella was curled up in bed and I could hear Audrey snoring in her bassinet. Bella had a book out in front of her but her eyes were closed. My poor girl. The lack of sleep during the night and the medication were a poor combination and she was exhausted. I consider taking a nap but instead picked up the removable basket part of the bassinet and carefully carried it and Audrey downstairs, careful not to jostle and wake her.

I spent the next three hours lounging, watching television. Then Audrey woke up and fussed but there was no full on wailing so I thought we might be making process. I picked her up and she calmed down, immediately making me feel like she actually likes me and I rolled my eyes at myself for being dramatic. Audrey was only a few days old – she didn't know anything except for the love Bella and I give her. Audrey and I relaxed for a while, watched the Cubs game before she got fussy. I had changed her diaper but it'd been four hours since her last meal so I decide to take her up to Bella.

"Let's go to your milk bar, Audrey. You could two choices today, same as always. Lefty or Righty… now I like Lefty a little more because it's so big it looks like it could feed a small country," I joke to Audrey as I make my way up the stairs.

Wow, Cullen. You sound like a fucking loser right in front of the kid.

Bella was still out like a light but she was lying on her back. Her twisting and turning had moved her shirt down so half her tit was exposed and I could tell from the wet spots that they were leaking.

I decided, instead of waking B, I'd take matters into my own hands. I reached forward, unlatching the nursing bra like I had seen her do a million times in the past couple days. When her breast was fully exposed, I held Audrey to it. She latched on immediately and Bella's milk chocolate eyes blinked open. She looked confused and I wondered if I made a mistake.

"Uh, she was hungry, I didn't want to wake you," I whispered because I know she dislikes loud noises when she first wakes up, claiming they make her head hurt.

"No… it was sweet. Weird, but sweet," she was whispering back and her voice was raspy and sleepy. She took Audrey from my arms and stroked her arm, whispering to her as she ate.

"Gonna fill me in on what you're talking about?" I raised my eyebrows and settled in next to Bella. She giggled and shook her head.

I pouted at her, knowing she normally can't resist this face but she's a mom now and tough, apparently.

"Girl talk, buddy. If we have a son, you can have guy talk with him," she grins at me and her eyes sparkle so bright I almost tell her that I'll do anything that she wants. But as much as I love Audrey and adore her and would kill anyone who tried to take her from me another pregnancy and another child was not in the cards for us. Plus, I couldn't go this long without sex again.

"No more kids, my darling fiancée. One is quite enough," I told her but reached over and rubbed her upper thigh, "we can do the act that creates a baby a lot though."

"Oh, definitely. As soon as we start, we should go at it every day. Multiple times," Bell giggled again, making me think she's up to no good. All I know is I'll be wearing condoms every time we have sex to prevent any more surprises after she finished breastfeeding. Bella has told me that there's no way of getting pregnant while breastfeeding and I confirmed this on the internet. As soon as the baby's off the boob, I'm bagging my dick to ensure no more children. Fuck, I'd be double bagging. And there's birth control in B's future. I'll hide it in her breakfast if I have to.

~*~

The next three weeks passed in the same manner and the days were flying by. Audrey was such a good baby and Bella had managed to get her on a schedule.

It went a little something like this: Audrey slept for about six hours at night. Bella woke up between eight and nine, before Audrey and me and showered. I woke up if Audrey woke during B's shower. If she didn't, Bella would wake me up when she was done. I passed off Audrey and showered and shaved while B fed A. After I finished, I would go down to the kitchen and make breakfast for both of us.

B was apparently quite a healthy girl when she wasn't pregnant and was all about organics right now ("Audrey eats what I eat, Edward.") so breakfast usually consisted of fresh fruit and organic eggs with milk. I just ate what she ate because, honestly, I was too lazy to fix two meals. Hell, before B, you wouldn't catch me making one fucking meal. It was eating out and ordering food all the way.

After breakfast, Audrey usually fell asleep around ten and Bella pumped. I'd start to clean up around the house and do laundry and she would join in, sorting and folding all the tiny clothes. I'd make sure to do all the vacuuming because I was pretty sure B wasn't allowed. Once all the chores were done, we would relax and fool around and eat lunch. Bella had taken to making these totally extravagant, delicious salads. At one, A would up and demand to be fed.

When she finished, I burped her and played with her while Bella pumped. There was an insane amount of breast milk in our freezer. She would join us when she finished. A was starting to stay awake longer now and seemed to enjoy spending time in her bouncy chair or swing. In between the playing, we'd bathe her and dress in. Bella fed her whenever she nuzzled her chest. Between four and five, Audrey would be asleep again and we cooked dinner together every night. It varied and I leaned Bella was even a better cook when it was all fresh, organic stuff.

Company usually came right after dinner, around seven. We had people over almost every day and it was nice because my mom and dad did our grocery shopping and Alice and Rose would pick up anything else we needed. They would stay, visit for a while. When Alice came with Charlotte, she usually had to drag her kicking and screaming out the door, literally… most of the time I took over because Alice was pretty pregnant and I worried about Charlotte kicking her stomach.

On the nights Rosalie and Emmett would come, it was a little more relaxed despite their two children. Henry and Jax were good kids and only whined when they saw chips or cookies or something that my mom had brought over and Rosalie said they couldn't have them. Emmett and I usually snuck them to them, immediately shutting them up. Rose was already showing. I guess when it was your third kid you started showing almost immediately. I had no plans to find out with Bella.

My parents came with food and gifts of all sorts every other night. Audrey would be clothed in designer clothing until she was five at least and my parents had gotten multiple things with either her initials or name on it. They even went as fast as having a custom diamond 'A' necklace to match Bella's but it was a miniature version. Bella had cried at the gesture and kept hugging both of them, even though she had Audrey attached to her tit.

Audrey would wake up during the visits, eat and entertain in the way that only a baby can. She was great about getting passed around and generally didn't fuss much. When she did, I would play her lullaby and it calmed her down quickly. Usually people left by ten or eleven and Audrey would eat one more time and usually fall asleep while on her best friends, Bella's Boobies.

That time was Mommy and Daddy time and we spent it making out, touching each other like teenagers right down to the heavy petting. I'd gotten a bunch of blow jobs but last night, Bella let me dry hump her. It was her first orgasm since she'd given birth and she screamed my name. It was the hottest session of dry humping ever. She promised that by the six week mark, she'd be up for sex and I couldn't wait. I missed my girl and the physical part of our relationship. We talked a lot and of course, the aforementioned activities but something about being inside her and the look of pure love on her face when we made love… I felt more connected to her then than any other time.

Mommy and Daddy time was over around three when Audrey woke up to eat. She'd eat and immediately fall back asleep then sleep until about eight or nine. Then our day started all over again.

Today, though, was different. We had only left the house for doctor appointments but it was Rose's birthday the next day and Bella had asked my parents with teary eyes to watch our baby girl. We were going to dinner at Eclipse, a restaurant that neither of us had been to before. I was excited. Bella kept lamenting on the fact that we were leaving our three week old at home and what if anything happened when I finally snapped.

"Bella, I swear to God. You don't have to come but come on; we've been in the house for weeks! I want alone time with my fiancée, I want to get you drunk and make out with you," I told her and she pouted for a second. She was just finishing pumping so she wouldn't be leaky all night. The doorbell rang before she had a chance to respond and I went downstairs with the baby. My parents were here a little early so we could get dressed in peace.

I opened the door and my parents were beaming. Mom held a Saks bag and Dad had containers of food, their dinner, I guessed. I grinned at them, "Hey Mom, Dad. Come on in," I stepped out of the way and jiggled A in my arms.

"Hi, honey. Give me that baby and you go get ready!"

I laughed and did as she said, handing her Audrey before running back to the stairs. When I opened the door to our room, my jaw dropped at the sight in front of me. Bella was wearing an emerald colored strapless bra that was made out of some sort of mesh material. I could see her hard nipples, plain and clear. Her tits were spilling out of it. The panties she was wearing were low-cut and the same material. You could not even come close to guessing this woman had a baby ever, let alone three weeks ago. I silently thanked God for her being one of the many few women that regained their pre-pregnancy body so quickly.

"Holy… fuck, Bella." My body was already reacting. My dick was immediately rock hard and I just wanted to… touch.

"You like it?" Bella's face flushed as she did a little twirl in front of me. In my head, I cursed her for putting what I very obviously couldn't have in such pretty packaging. I stopped her to examine the panties from behind. They fully covered her ass but you could see right through the material, somehow, making her ass look even more amazing. Both the bra and panties were lined with ruffles. I wanted to say fuck going out and fuck her instead.

"Like is a fucking understatement. I want to throw your hot little body down on this bed and fuck you over and over," I smirked as she shivered and I could see her nipples harden even further. "Too bad I have three weeks to go."

"So I fit into most of my things, except stuff that was kind of tight before I was pregnant, anyway," Bella wisely changed the subject before walking into the huge closet, examining some clothes that still had tags on them. The other day, Alice had insisted that Bella needed some clothes to celebrate fitting into her old ones. I said she could celebrate by wearing the old ones but got the stink eye from both Alice and Bella. Alice was due in about two months and not nearly as hormonal as Bella had been but I still didn't want to mess with her so I had quickly pulled out my wallet and handed over my credit card.

"Go crazy," I had told Alice. And she did. The next day, she returned with bags upon bags from what was apparently everyone's favorite store… Saks Fifth Avenue. The total on the receipts made me want to vomit but I kept my mouth shut. Good thing because the shopping trip had resulted in a ton of new lingerie which Bella kept hidden from me.

I followed Bella into her closet and looked around, not sure where to start.

"A dress?" Bella asked, raising her eyebrows at me. I nodded because I wanted to see those legs. She grinned, as if she knew what I was thinking. After a few minutes of searching, she held up a deep purple dress. It looked weird. The sleeves were what she'd called capped. It was tight at the boobs and waist and the skirt flared out a bit but it was pleated and had pockets. I made a face and glanced at the price tag – almost five hundred. I grimaced and shook my head.

"You don't like it at all? I like it…" she stuck out her bottom lip and put her hand on her hip, sticking it out.

"Nope, next option," I leaned down and kissed her before taking the dress and hanging it back up. B went back to looking at her huge assortment of dresses while I wondered why Alice had brought so many. The next one she held up was black, beaded lace at the top and empire waist. The bottom was a loose, creamy kind of light pink color and the bottom was edged in the same fabric as the top. The neckline was square. I shook my head again.

"Looks like something you would wear to go out to dinner with my parents. Too modest," I informed her. I wanted cleavage. I wanted legs. I wanted to see her nipples when she was chilly or turned on.

My girl giggled softly and huffed but I could tell she was joking. I moved closer to her, standing directly behind her. I knew she could feel my dick against her back but I didn't think she minded. I knew she didn't mind when she pressed back against me. I leaned down and started dropping kisses along the back of her neck, pushing her hair aside to give myself better access. Bella whimpered softly. I pulled away suddenly and grinned at her whine. I wanted her to the point where she was about to explode. I wanted her to beg for it.

She looked over her shoulder and I could see her eyes were darker and lustful. I just smirked at her. She finally showed me a third dress and I nodded. It was perfect. The dress was white with some kind of rosette detail over the boobs and a black band right under them. The skirt was the same cream color and kind of got a little fuller and was pleated but I liked it much better than the first one. It was short and would show off her toned, tanned from the time she'd been spending in the back yard, long legs.

Luckily the dress material was thick enough that once she put it on, you couldn't see the dark green of her underwear. I zipped up the back, looking forward to unzipping it later.

"Shoes?" she asked, looking at her rack of shoes.

"Heels, baby," I told her and stood behind her again, holding her hips. I looked over the selection. She had a billion pairs and it was hard to decide.

"Mhmm, I know," she murmured before bending at the waist to see a pair at the very bottom. I held my breath as her perky ass came in direct contact with my crotch. I pulled her closer against me and ground against her, causing her to moan my name.

"Fuck, I'm gonna need to jerk off before we leave," I muttered, not really meaning to say it out loud. She looked over her shoulder at me, surprise on her face. She pushed herself harder against me, causing me to groan loudly.

"Why jerk off when you have me?" Bella asked, her voice low and seductive.

"I didn't… I wanted to wait…" I was cut off when she turned suddenly and wrapped her arms around my neck, pulling me down to her level to kiss me hotly on the mouth. I groaned, surprised as she fought to dominate the kiss. It was more aggressive than I was used to and she rubbed her little body against mine before hitching her leg around my waist.

I broke the kiss and stared at her with wide eyes. She smiled sheepishly at me, dropping her leg. My hands roamed down to her ass and squeezed gently.

"That was so fucking… hot. You've never taken control like that," I murmured, kissing her face.

"I'm just so… I'm so wet," her face was flushed and her chest heaving. My eyes widened further because she had never, ever said this to me before. She was still shy with talking dirty.

"I won't jerk off, we'll be in the same boat," I ginned at her, my hands still on her perky ass. I patted it gently before pulling away, reaching down to adjust myself. She glanced down, licking her lips unconsciously.

"Can I…" Bella started, finally making eye contact. I shook my head, "Later."

She grinned and blushed softly, turning back to the shoes. She finally picked out a pair of peep-toe stilettos that were black. She held my shoulder as she slipped them on and twirled in front of me so I could check her out. She looked fantastic, right down to the dark purple fingernails and toenails that peeked out of her shoes.

"Baby, you look amazing. I can't believe you just had a baby. I know I say it every day but your body has just … it's amazing. It's like when I met you."

"I'm just lucky," Bella grinned as she ran her hands over her almost flat stomach. She kissed me once more before saying she was going to do her hair and make up and walking out of the closet.

I turned to my side and wondered if it would be ridiculous if I tried to coordinate with my fiancée. I quickly decided it would be. I took almost as long as B to pick out my outfit, finally settling on slate gray dress pants and a white button up shirt. I decided against the tie and pulled on one of my pairs of black dress shoes. I ran a hand through my hair, knowing it was use less before walking out of the closet to find Bella. I heard her humming from the bathroom.

I walked over to the open bathroom door and she was putting the finishing touches on her make up. Her hair was in a low side ponytail that flowed over her right shoulder and down the front of her dress in huge curls. She smiled at me through the mirror and I grinned back, wondering how I got so lucky to have gotten this beautiful girl to fall in love with me.

Bella decided to keep it simple and wore no jewelry besides the large diamond on her left ring finger. When we were both finally ready, we walked down the stairs. Sounds of my parents talking to Audrey rang through the downstairs and I knew we wouldn't be getting out of here without Bella spending a little bit of time with our daughter so I led the way to the living room.

"Oh, Bella, you look gorgeous!" my mother exclaimed, standing up with Audrey in her arms. Bella flushed a little bit and reached for the baby. She took her then softly thanked my mom.

"Audrey Elizabeth, Mama has missed you," she whispered, bouncing her softly. I stood behind her, looking down at the baby. She was gurgling and holding onto Bella's finger. I reached down and stroked Audrey's chubby cheek. The three of us stood for a minute, lost in the moment until a flash suddenly went off. I groaned softly and looked up. My dad grinned sheepishly at me from behind the camera.

"You'll thank me later. Now smile, both of you."

We posed for a few pictures and I felt like we were going to prom – except we had a baby. My mom told us how we were such a gorgeous couple about a thousand times and I had to prompt Bella to give the baby to one of my parents so we could make our reservations just as many times before she finally listened. Forty-five minutes later, we were in the car and on the way. Bella kept sighing softly.

"B, come on, cheer up!"

"I know, I'm excited! It's just… we're further away from her than we've ever been," Bella's bottom lip quivered and I reached over, squeezing her thigh.

"None of that, baby. We're going to have a wonderful dinner. Have a lot of drinks. Have a great time with our friends. Have special time tonight," I murmured the last part, sliding my hand further up her thigh, under her short dress. She spread her legs, her worries forgotten. I grinned, proud of my ability to distract her.

I was suddenly confident that tonight was going to be a great night.

~*~

it's been a long weekend of work, weeding the front yard and watching it's always sunny in philadelphia. how did you guys spend your weekends?