I called Artie and we planned out our song. I went over to his house that night. Alek was home so I just took Crisstoff. We started practicing and figured out what we would do. It involved me on my knees a lot. I never knew how funny the kid was. When i got home there were a few more cars there. I walked in to see Alek, Punk. Matt, Mike sitting on the coach. They all looked and waved. "Hey will you make us something?" I nodded my head. Dmitri jumped off one of there laps and came to help me. I felt a presence and turned. Puck was sitting at the table with Dmitri on his lap. "Here." He stuck out his arms and I handed him Crisstoff. "So good performance today." I nodded. "I actually preferred the earlier one." I turned and looked at him. "Accidentally went into the science room." I just gave him a look. "Now what would a guy like me have to do to be in the same exact position with a girl like you?" "Grow up. Immaturity is so unattractive." He just gave me this look that I couldn't shake off. "So what song are you and artie going to do?" "You'll just have to wait and see." "Wish we could've paired up." "why's that?" I was waiting for some perverted explanation. "Our voices would probably sound good together there within the same range." I nodded. After i finished making the guy some snacks i put it out on the island. Puck sat there with Crisstoff just munching on some food. Alek came in and grabbed the food. He gave puck and I a look. "How was your day sis?" "Peachy." "I heard someone has a little fling going on." "Yeah well what you hear and what is actually happening are on different spectrums." He just gave me a look. "So what are doing this weekend?" "Don't know probably work on some music, art," "Sounds like a real blast. i was thinking about having a party." I snorted. "Really? Is that the best decision." He looked at me with a glare. "What's that supposed to mean?" "Last time you had a party, we both remember what happened." We both looked at Crisstoff. He sighed. "fine it'll just be me and the guys." I pulled out myself phone which was vibrating. "Hi." "hey this is Quinn." "Oh hey what's up?" "Can i come over?" "Sure but to warn you someone who put you in the position your in his here." She laughed. "That's fine." "Okay see you in a bit." I hung up the phone and took Crisstoff back. I sat across from Puck and just ate for a bit. Then there was a door knock. I took Crisstoff with me. "hey Quinn." She smiled. "hi is this him?" i nodded his beautiful." "Do you want to hold him?" She shyly nodded and i handed my child to her. "I can't believe this came out of you." She followed me to the kitchen. "Quinn what are you doing here?" "I came to hang out with Letty." At first i tensed up at the name. My sister used to call me that. "Come on Q we'll go hang out in the upstairs room." We grabbed some food and headed up to watch TV. "Hey Quinn. Are you excited to sing with me?" She blushed at Alek. "I haven't decided yet." he smirked. "I think it'll be a lot of fun." She blushed and walked up the stairs. "Alek leave her be." "I'm just having fun." "Well she probably doesn't want to have any." "What she going to do?" "i don't know and it shouldn't matter." "I'll tell her the same thing i told you. It'll ruin your life." I turned red. I marched down the stairs and punched him hard in the face.

I growled at him. "First of all you ruined my life. You invited all those fucking people over so you could fucking get high and drunk. Don't go blaming my son for a mistake you made and can't handle." I pulled out ten bucks and threw it at him. "Here go fuck your life up some more. I'm fucking tired of raising you." I turned to leave when I looked up there were his friends in utter shock. Quinn was at the top of the stairs looking shocked. Alek whipped the blood off. "Well at least I didn't let Rayna die." That ended my sanity. I pounced on him punching him in the face. "It was your fucking friend. Your best fucking friend who raped me and killed her. You let him in. You got high and wasted and didn't even know where your friend went. Your friend who already had been arrested for assaulting women was. It should've been you. Rayna should be here with me helping me raise this family and you should be back in New York somewhere in an alley high." It took all three boys to pull me off of him. They were all amazed by the damage i had done to Alek. "I want you out. For good." He looked up at me amazed. "Don't you ever call my son a mistake he's the only good thing that came out of all this shit." I turned and moved through the boys. Quinn followed me to my room. I broke down and started crying. She instantly gave me Crisstoff and held me. "It's okay." She just held me. We sat there for an hour. "Do you want to know?" "Only if you want to tell." I sat up and adjusted Crisstoff who was now sleeping, in my lap. "My sister, Rayna and I weren't big partiers. Alek had this big party with a bunch of junkies. they were all high and drunk, except his friend Franklin. he was a big guy tall muscle sober and mean. Rayna and I didn't like him much. we decided to just hang out in our room. We went to bed. I felt something heavy on top of me and then he was in me. I woke up and tried fighting him off and all he did was cover my mouth and smile. Rayna must have heard because she smashed the lamp over his back. he got off of me and punched her hard and while she was staggering he pushed her into the bathroom. She lost her footing and her head hit the tub. She wasn't dead at first. He started kicking her head against the tub that's what killed her. I was calling the police while this was going on trying to get him off of her. He just kept hitting me and kicking her." She rubbed my shoulder and just sat there. "Quinn have you told your parents yet?" "No. They'll kick me out." "You can move in here. There's room and Alek will be gone so it'll be quiet." "Really?" "Really." She wrapped her arms around me and cried. "thank you so much." she soon went home after that. I went down stairs. Alek was gone. His shit was gone. something inside me cried while something else brightened. I went into the living room. Puck and Matt were still there. they both gave me looks. "What?" they said nothing. I rolled my eyes. Crisstoff was sucking on his thumb looking at them. I put him down and he waddled over there. He smiled up at Puck and gurgled. Puck picked him up while Matt gave him a look i didn't like. "Matt don't look at my son like that." "Like what?" I glared at him. "Stop it or I'll make you." "what are you going to kick my ass and then kick me out, even though I'm your sibling and need help." "First your not my sibling so I would just not kick your ass but put you into coma. Second he's been in six rehabs and I've always helped him. i have three other people to raise." Matt sat there silenced. "Yeah no smart ass comments after you get the full story." Matt looked at me. "Do you know why your brother is the way he is?" I laughed. "Actually yes I do. The same thing happened to Rayna and me and it was so much worse. Alek got it easier because he was the boy. Don't try acting like he's worse off than me. I just learned to be stronger not weak." Matt's eyes softened. "i didn't know." "I know but it's best to learn things than point the finger of blame." He nodded. "He is kind of cute." I smiled at him. Puck looked at me. "Are you going to be alright by yourself tonight?" "Yeah I already got someone coming." "Who?" "Kurt." He rolled his eyes. "Really?" "Yup love that kid." They smiled and left. I lied no one was coming over. i wanted to be alone. it was just Dmitri Criss and I. I let them stay up later than usual to watch a movie. Dmitri fell sleep on the couch and Criss in my arms. i put him to bed in his little bed. Then I put Dmitri to bed. I went back and sat on the floor of Crisstoff room. i grabbed my phone and texted Finn. 'you want to talk tomorrow' My phone vibrated. 'only if you have an answer for me.' i smiled 'good thing i do then.' 'I'm coming'. I kissed Criss' forehead

"Mama loves you." I started cleaning up downstairs. there was a knock at the front door. i looked through the peep hole. I saw Finn fidgeting and pacing. I opened the door quickly to catch him in the act. He tried to play it off. "Nervous?" I smirked at him. He had to stop himself from smiling. "Nicolette i want my answer." I walked over to him. "Ask me?" "I already did." "No you told me what you wanted. Now I'm asking you to ask me." "I don't like games?" "I'm not playing Finn." He sighed. "will you be mine? Will you be faithful? Will you be my girlfriend?" I smiled at him. "Yes Finn." He seemed to slowly let my answer sink in. then he kissed me. I kissed him back very gently. "Ask me?" I laughed. "Really Finn?" he nodded. I got down on one knee and took his hand. "Will you Finn, be my boyfriend, sing for me and possibly baby-sit when asked?" He smiled. "yes." I laughed and he kissed me again. We ended up sleeping on the couch. I woke up to the smell of somewhat burning food. I got up and saw Finn and a mess. I couldn't help but laugh. Dmitri was also there trying to help him while Criss was covered in flour near the fridge. Finn looked really cute. "We decided to cook for you." I can see that how's it going." "Um not that well." I smiled and gave him a peck on the kiss. "What where you trying to make?" "Pancakes and bacon." "Me and crisps helped." "Did you really?" Dmitri nodded. "How about I wipe down Criss and you go get the swim shorts. You two can go swimming and ill make you some food." he nodded. "That sounds good." He ran off to the upstairs. "You get to help me clean." Finn pouted. "i don't want to." I leaned in. "don't make a mess then.' I lightly kissed his lips. I got Criss all cleaned up. I put there floaties on and put them in the kid pool. The kind you blow up. I put it in the kitchen so i could watch them while we cleaned.