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At that moment I had no idea what her smile could possibly mean but I should have expected what came.

But it all together took me by surprise.

Bella's POV

''March 13,'' Tanya started reading my journal, while I glared at her. ''I got over him, and I don't think anything about Edward, I wonder if I ever even did-''

I frowned. ''What the heck are you reading?!'' I interrupted after hearing those words I was sure I didn't write. I mean, I wrote my journal, but I sure didn't write that, even though they did sound familiar.

''Your journal, Stupid,'' she rolled her eyes. I rolled my eyes back, trying to figure this out.

And then, maybe I was crazy, but I started laughing. Hardly.

Edward and Tanya quickly looked at me, as if I had gone insane. Which maybe I had, but I understood this situation quickly.

As I understood the situation, I was glad that everything was a big misunderstanding in Tanya's side.

Tanya didn't have my real journal; she had a fake one that Alice and Rosalie had wrote quite a while ago. They were both trying to be funny, so they had written the completely opposite of what was on my journal itself.

At first, they had been trying to cheer me up, so I wouldn't feel bad. But is soon turned into a game.

Alice had written at the end of my first journal 'And so I am happy to finally begin this part of my life without him.' when I had wrote 'And so the journey without Edward has begun.'

I know, it sounded cheesy, but hey I was young for crying out loud! I didn't know any better!

When I had found out about the journal, I laughed at their attempt at humor. It was just so stupid, but I kept it anyway. It had been on my locker......

''What is wrong with her?'' I heard Tanya ask Edward, her voice both seducing and annoyed.

I sighed. If the fake journal had been in my locker, how did Tanya get a hold of it? I had never shared my locker combination with anyone, well aside from Alice and Rosalie, but I was sure that they would never betray my trust in them.

Wouldn't they?

''Tanya, I'm just curious, where did you get that journal?'' I asked my voice calm. It really wouldn't do any good to just start screaming, like I felt I should.

Tanya sighed, while Edward watched our exchange quietly.

Having Edward there made everything even worse. Not only had he heard my earlier fight with Tanya, but now he had to be a witness to this embarrassing situation.

''I don't think that really concerns you.''

Edward tried to stifle his laughter with coughing, but he didn't quite succeed.

Couldn't she just tell me? I was seriously running out of patience.

''Tanya, really, you.......'' I was running out of words to explain. ''You don't have my journal, Tanya,'' I tried to explain. But it sounded lame even to my own ears.

Yeah, Bella, she would totally swallow that one, Moron.

I shook my head, clearing my thoughts as I tried to figure out the best way to explain this to her, while not giving too much away with Edward here.

''Look,'' I started, hoping she would at least understand. ''That is not my journal, I swear, you got-''

''How stupid do you think I am to believe that, Swan?'' she asked, irritation covering her words.

She was making this was harder than it had to be. Couldn't she just let it go?

If Edward was what she wanted, why did she bother me, I didn't control Edward. I didn't have the minimal control over him, even if I had, what did she want from me?

I shrugged, not wanting to answer her question. She looked outraged, but I couldn't care less; I was running out of patience.

''Bella!? Edward?!''

I looked towards the direction where the voice came from. I sighed great fully as I saw Emmett and Rosalie making their way towards us.

''Yeah?'' I called back.

As soon as they reached us, and stopped while looking at Tanya, Edward, and me.

Great, because I so needed the questions right now.

''What's going on here?'' Rosalie asked, sensing the tense atmosphere that so tightly surrounded us.

''Nothing, Rose,'' Edward answered before I could even form a respond in my head. ''We were heading back anyway. Do you guys need us for something?''

Rosalie shook her head, but didn't look convinced of Edward's explanation. She suspected something, and no doubt she was going to question me as soon as she could talk to me alone.

''Okay, we were just heading back to the gym. I don't think anyone could take any more the loud notice in the cafeteria,'' she explained while eyeing all of us carefully.

''Okay, we will be right behind you, Rose,'' I smiled a convincing smile, hopping that she would calm down, or at least not harass me with her rapidly formed questions.

''Okay, see ya guys,'' Emmett started to walk away, half dragging Rose with him, probably wanting to escape the uncomfortable atmosphere.

''Okay,'' Rosalie replied still looking at me.

I nodded.

Edward and I left after that to go to the cafeteria so they could attach, once more, the handcuffs. This was the annoying part of the whole thing: being tied together all the time.

Sure, it was a good example of marriage, but still.........I didn't like it.

Edward and I walked towards the gym, but there was something weird between both of us. He looked deep in thought, like he was considering something. That idea terrified me to no end. It was bad enough that I didn't know how much he had heard from my earlier conversation.

''Edward, please talk to me,'' I whispered loudly after the silence had grown too uncomfortable.

''What do you want me to say?'' he asked, and I was sure I heard pain in his words.

I sighed. Things had been so good between us, right until the stupid singing thing, and then Tanya. I wish this would be a big nightmare, everything.

I wish that I would wake up tomorrow morning to find myself as a middle schooler, that I would make my way to school, and find Edward waiting for me in the cafeteria. I wish, I wish............

''Anything, Edward. I don't know, but if I need to apologize-''

''Bella, what would make you think that?'' he asked, interrupting my thoughts.

''Because,'' I looked for just the right words, but I didn't seem to think about anything. ''I......I don't know,'' I admitted.

He shook his head, and stopped both of us, taking my small hands in his.

''I am the one who should apologize,'' when I started to say something, he stopped me. ''I eavesdropped on your conversation, Bella. I had no right to, but I still did it,'' he said, his eyes filled with shame.

I bit my lip, holding back the words that were threatening to come out of my mouth. I wanted to tell him that I loved him, that possibly all the things that he had heard had been lies. But most importantly, I didn't want him to hurt, not if I could do anything to stop it.

Edward had to be happy, he deserved as much. He is loving, understanding, patient, loving; he was perfection in form of a man.

That much I was absolutely certain about.

''Edward,'' I shook my head, trying to make him see my point. ''You have nothing to apologize for, you did nothing wrong.''

Edward started shaking his head before I had even finished. ''Bella,'' he said, his voice almost pleading. ''Please understand that I did have a fault here.''

I suppressed my laughter, a brilliant plan already forming in my head.

We had been able to joke before the whole blizzard thing; maybe I could lift up his spirits doing so.

''I don't see how this is your fault,'' I responded, trying hard to keep my expression unreadable before it could give me away.

He sighed, and pinched the bridge of his nose. He looked so annoyed, and it was almost cute. At least the plan was starting to work.

''Bella, I was the one who eavesdropped,'' he reminded me, trying to gain control of his usual calm voice.

''I don't know what we are apologizing for anyway, Edward. It was neither our fault, you have to see that. Tanya got on my nerves, and I responded badly,'' I admitted, confused.

I was confused why he was apologizing for, first of all. He had done no wrong, Tanya had gotten on my nerves, and I had snapped. He had nothing to do with that, but still he had found something that he needed to apologize for, and I really couldn't understand his actions.

He shook his head, and ran a hand through his hair. And I found myself smiling at that. When we were in middle school, he would do that repeatedly, sometime getting on my nerves, or someone else's. He just couldn't help it. It was a reflex reaction to stress.

''Bella, I.......I let myself hope for something that couldn't happen, and I'm sorry my actions made Tanya treat you that way,'' he apologized sincerely, for what, I was not sure.

''I don't.......I don't understand, Edward,'' I admitted after thinking about his words.

They didn't make any sense. What did he hope for? And most importantly, why did he think that lead to the big fight between Tanya and me.

''Bella....''

He was about to say something when we heard the loud laugh that had to be Emmett's and our private moment was somehow gone. He let go of my hand, but kept the one that was keeping us, in a way, together.

Edward looked me in the eyes, and I looked up at his eyes, and I could feel the hurt in my expression as soon as I saw his. The pain in his eyes was easy to see. Though, you had to know him well to figure out his emotions, this one was clearly displayed for everyone to see.

His eyes were pleading, as if he wanted me to agree with him, but couldn't find way. There was dissipation in his eyes as well, and I yearned to comfort him.

I wanted to hug him and tell him that everything was going to be alright. I wanted to take hid head in both my hands, and beg him to tell me what was bothering him so much. I wanted to throw my hand around him and cry.

Cry because of all everything that had happened. So many things had stood in our way, and I couldn't do anything about it. I wanted to comfort him, to hug him and kiss him, reassuring him that everything was going to be alright.....

But instead I ran my hand across the length of his cheek, the back of my hand stopping to press my hand against his cheek.

His hand came to cover my own, and I smiled up at him. With that smile I hopped to ease his worries, and at least bring some life back into his eyes. It worked to a certain point, there was no more desperation in his eyes, but everything else remained.

I remember when I was young, and all it took was a simple smile of his, or looking at his forest green eyes, to agree with anything,

And as I stated once more into his eyes, I suddenly needed him, and I was sure of one thing.

I needed to get Edward back.........even if it was just for being friends.

Bad news: I won't be able to update for about two weeks. I know, that is a lot of time, but there were some big family problems. My Great-grandma passed away, and we have to leave the state for a couple of days . When I got the news I was heartbroken, and still am, but please understand that this is very personal and important. I need to get over this, and spend time with my family. I have lost a big brother before, and I just need to calm down before I do anything without thinking. Thank you for your understandin.

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