Chap. 3 Enjoy. Lyrics/song by emilie autumn
Disclaimer, I do not own lyrics or Naruto
"Tenten, there is chair over there." he pionted in a random direction and i went to get the chair bringing it up to sit facing him. "So how old are you?"
"I'm almost 15,"
"oh, well thats a good age, I think the other kid is that age."
"Cool, how are we related?"
"Well, not only was your mother my little sister, but your father was also my best friend."
"Oh, so you must know then."
"Know what?"
"About me."
"That your adopted? of course I knew that! everyone who has ever looked between you and your parents can tell!"
"A-adopted?"
"You didnt know?"
"No..."
"Oh, i wonder why they wouldnt tell you something so important, they really musnt have like you."
"They loved me."
"And thats why they left you."
I got up and began walking away slowly when I felt a hand grab my shoulder and pull me back. I was hit. he grabbed my arm and hit me in the stomach, bending over and whispering into my ear.
"You will not just walk away when i am talking to you!" I coughed and nodded as he pulled back, i coughed again and some blood came out onto my hand.
"Your filthy, go wash up." I nodded and ran up the stairs as fast as i could, which wasnt to fast since i was injured. When i got to my room i closed the door and sunk to the ground clutching my stomach, it really hurt like hell.
I dont know when but i fell asleep there, behind the door. I woke up to the sound of an arguement. I got up and walked into the bathroom, taking a shower.
When i finished my shower I pulled on my sweats and tank top, then examined my now bruising damage. I wrapped my stomach with bandage, making sure it wasnt to tight or to loose.
I left my bedroom and followed the noise coming from the kitchen down stairs. I saw Zen as I rounded the corner, then, I saw Sasuke.
Zen was yelling at Sasuke who was listening and obeying, they both looked at me. I flinched under Zens glare.
"Aww, Tenten, sorry you had to see that, do you need something?"
"Umm, food i haven't eaten at all today."
"Well we cant have you going on like that, eat whatever you find. This is Sasuke."
"Hi, Sasuke, I'm Tenten, we met at school once."
"Yes, I remember you."
"Ok, well i'm just going to get something and go back to my room."
"Ok kid." Zen had said watching me as i found some crackers and scrambled back up the stairs and into my room. I shut the door and walked into the bathroom removing my status journal from its hidden place in the bottom drawer under the towels.
I sat on the sink and pulled out a pen to write in todays entry.
Journal entry.
'Dad is in a severe coma, mom is dead, New guardian, uncle Zen, He hits. Sasuke li-'
"Ow!" I looked arm the area of pain in my arm. "Shit, no, not now..." I dropped the book and crackers i'd been munching on and turned all of my attention onto the bleeding gash across my wrist, only an inch from the main vein, to close. I wrapped it in toilet paper, seeing as i have no bandage, i'll have to see if Sasuke has any. I hope he does.
I grabbed a sweater and put it on to cover the toilet paper on my arm. I walked out of my room and towards the room with music coming from it, then looked downstairs to see Zen in front of the Tv, so this must be Sasukes room, I was walking up to his door when the music ceased, i was about to knock, but he already answered.
"What do you want!?" he asked, irritated.
"Help." he looked at me questioningly.
"Come in." He said as he allowed me to enter, i did.
His room has black curtains, a midnight blue comforter. There was a black fan hanging from the ceiling, producing light, a door i guessed led to a bathroom, and a closet. I looked around the room and also saw his desk with big speakers conected to an ipod next to his laptop.
"Um, do you have any bandage?"
"What for, did you break a nail?" ugh, what a snob. I sighed.
"No, But I need bandage."
"Why?" I sighed again and took off my sweater and removed the blood soaked toilet paper from my wrist.
"This is why." i stuck out my wrist and he inspected it, then smirked at me.
"You've been here a day, and already you've cut yourself, you poser, you want the pity, you no more than sakura, an attention whore, she cut herself the moment something bad,"he made air quotes around bad." happened to her, Why am i wasting my time talking to you."
"It's nothing like that! i didnt do it! you dont know anything about me, i just need to get it cover, it's dripping on your floor, and I'll clean it up, but if i dont stop it from bleeding its not going to end good." He sighed and walked to his closet, i watched him grab white bandage and come back.
"Why are you here." He gestured for me to follow him, "oh and thanks for cleaning the bathroom, i never used it, i used the shower at a friends house but it looks nice."
"Your welcome, and thanks. so we share a bathroom?"
"Yes, so we can communicate through there if we need to." I walked past im and grabbed my journal, running it into my room and hiding it.
"Dont worry, I wont snoop through your diary and look at all your little boy crushes."
"Look i told you, you dont know anything about me, and thats not whats in that notebook."
"What ever." he turned on the sink and felt the temperture of the water, then wet a wash clothe, "Hand me your wrist."
"Ok," I said as i extended my arm toward him. He grabbed my wrist firmly and cleaned up the oozing cut. He rinsed the wash cloth again and made sure toclean the entire area before applying hydrogen peroxide, which stung making me flinch, he then rinsed it again and began wrapping it in bandage.
"We cant get close, Sa-te-su-nt-ke-en," We looked at each other and blinked.
"Did that just happen?" i asked as he continued to wrap my bandage.
"Yeah, but i guess in this case it would be ok to be close, right?"
"Yeah, maybe..." his reasons must be so different then mine.
"But he cant know, because we'll get hurt, he'll think were plotting against him or something, but when outside the house he'll expect us to be perfect friends. so if he ever finds us hanging out, we have to tell him were practicing. got it." i nodded, wow this is more difficult than i thought.
"So it's about 9, would he let me leave?"
"no, not unless it's an order by tsunade."
"Can i stay at someone house?"
"Not unless your willing to get hurt when you get back."
"oh...." I looked away he had finished wrapping up my wrist.
"Are you going too tell me how that happened?"
"I cant, I cant tell you, I cant tell neji and it's so frusterating i cant stop it but i know whats going to happen, and youll have to turn to." my face was in my hands, my teeth were clenched and i was concentrating on breathing. "Sorry, I just, not who everyone thinks i am."
"I think we can be good friends, lets hang out."
"right now? it's 9:45."
"Yeah, come on."
"Ok." He closed the door to the bathroom then laid down on his back on topof his bed, hanging of the edge.
"You like the rush?"
"It's better than cutting."
"So it's true then, you do cut."
"Well, yeah, but a good friend showed me that this is better, so why are you here?"
"You said 'lets hang out', thats why." He sat up.
"I meant why are you staying here, in this hell hole."
"My parents didnt come back, And i dont know why i didnt see it, i knew he crossed his fingers, and now i cant even see him and i told her i hated her and... I'm adopted..." I was looked at the floor i recently sat down on. hugging my knees i felt his hand on my back.
"Tenten, I know I dont know you very well but I know you dont want my pity, so just talk about it maybe I can help."
"Sasuke, I cant I'm unable to, to tell you about it i would have to tell you everything i cant!"
"Ok, thats fine, you dont have to tell me, but why dont you get some sleep?"
"Heh, and now your trying to get rid of me, thats funny."
"No, I'm not, It's your first night in some weird place you at least know me alittle, you can trust me, and you can sleep here tonight, I'll be i.m.-ing."
"oooh who, your 'little girl crushes,' huh?" I smirked and he looked at me alittle nervously and scratched the back of his head like naruto.
"Uhh, not exactly..."
I sat their dumbfounded. then glared at him.
"Who."
"..."
"......"
"The reason for the pain and the reason not to cut to deep."
"Ahh, poetic?"
"Just go to sleep." I watched him bring up a page and log into myspace.
"Say, Sasuke, what site are you on?"
"Myspace, why?"
"Its a social networking site right?"
"Yeah, and your the only one who doesnt have one."
"Oh so that must be the site neji is always on."
"Yeah, you want to make one?" I yawned.
"Oh, maybe tomorrow, do you have any emilie on you ipod?"
"Emilie autumn? never had you pegged as an emilie fan."
"You shouldnt peg me, can you play one of her softer songs? they help me sleep when i have to much in my mind."
"Sure, how's what if? and dont you mean on your mind?"
"thats good, no i mean in."
Here you sit in your high-backed chair
Wonder how the view is from there
I wouldn't know 'cause I like to sit
Upon the floor, yeah upon the floor
"Night, get some sleep k?"
If you like we could play a game
Let's pretend that we are the same
But you will have to look much closer
Than you do, closer than you do
"hai......"
And I'm far too tired to stay here anymore
And I don't care what you think anyway
'Cause I think you were wrong about me
Yeah what if you were, what if you were
And what if I'm a snowstorm burning
What if I'm a world unturning
What if I'm an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep
What if I'm the kindest demon
Something you may not believe in
What if I'm a siren singing gentlemen to sleep
I know you've got it figured out
Tell me what I am all about
And I just might learn a thing or two
Hundred about you, maybe about you
I'm the end of your telescope
I don't change just to suit your vision
'Cause I am bound by a fraying rope
Around my hands, tied around my hands
And you close your eyes when I say I'm breaking free
And put your hands over both your ears
Because you cannot stand to believe I'm not
The perfect girl you thought
Well what have I got to lose
And what if I'm a weeping willow
Laughing tears upon my pillow
What if I'm a socialite who wants to be alone
What if I'm a toothless leopard
What if I'm a sheepless shepherd
What if I'm an angel without wings to take me home
You don't know me
Never will, never will
I'm outside your picture frame
And the glass is breaking now
You can't see me
Never will, never will
If you're never gonna see
What if I'm a crowded desert
Too much pain with little pleasure
What if I'm the nicest place you never want to go
What if I don't know who I am
Will that keep us both from trying
To find out and when you have
Be sure to let me know
What if I'm a snowstorm burning
What if I'm a world unturning
What if I'm an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep
What if I'm the kindest demon
Something you may not believe in
What if I'm a siren singing gentlemen to sleep
Sleep...
Sleep...
Love the song ^^ check out emilie autumn, she is amazing. Anyways, remember reveiws = inspiration so reveiw for me? chap. 4 on it's way ^^