I picked up this story again.

I have some good ideas for it.

And I watched my first ever Anime show.I understand so much more now.

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Chapter 4

Vexen didn't show up to school the next day of course. I wasn't surprised at all by this fact. But many students and teachers spent most of the day gossiping about where he could be. Vexen has never missed a day of school. He's always there to spread unhappiness and detention.

Well…was always there.

I smile to myself and go back to solving math problems.

I've been in a wonderful mood all day. I haven't had any homicidal thoughts at all. It's like The Entity doesn't even exist in me anymore. I haven't talked to Demyx or Zexion yet today. But I will deal with them at lunch. I'm sure Zexion is over his little fit.

"Hey Axel, do you know what the answer to number 16 is?" asks Hayner tapping me on the shoulder.

I jump not expecting the tap. All the nerves that had been gone all day coil up through my muscles all over again. The peace I felt is completely gone. I feel The Entity rising up somewhere in my chest.

All it took was one little tap to put me on edge again.

What's going to push me over the edge this time?

"X equals 2Y to the tenth power," I growl back wanting to tell him to pay attention and do his own fucking work.

"Oh! Thanks, Ax," replies Hayner happily not noticing the tone in my voice.

I take a deep breath trying to get back my calmness. But it's no use. I'm all keyed up again. I grind my teeth in frustration.

I could ask Hayner if he saw something out of the window. And keep insisting something was there until he finally gets up to go check. The window is already open. It would only take one shove. I could say he fell. Or I could say he jumped. We're on the 3rd floor. There's no way he would survive the fall. His brains would be splattered across the student parking lot.

I shake my head trying to get rid of these thoughts.

That would never work! Some of the other students might see me shove him. Plus I'd rather not deal with everyone asking me about it when they hear I saw him fall.

I'm disgusted with myself! That is about the saddest murder I have ever thought up! I wouldn't even call that murder; it's more like assisted suicide.

Brrrrrrrrriiiiinnnggg!!!!!

I jolt out of my thoughts as the bell for lunch rings. I turn in my finished homework and follow the rest of the students out into the hallway. I don't like being in the crowded hallway. I don't like people bumping into me and standing in the middle of the way I'm walking. I can't help but keep a permanent sneer on my face on the way to my locker.

"Hey, Axel!"

I cringe at that voice.

I try to compose my face into a more pleasant expression before turning around to face her. Larxene is a girl that has had some sort of weird crush on me since like 4th grade. She just won't leave me alone. I have politely told her that I only see her as a friend, but she still thinks I will be hers one day. It's kind of sad. But she's too annoying to actually have sympathy for.

"Hi, Larxene," I reply to the blonde girl. She is actually an attractive girl, just not my type.

"How are you?" asks Larxene smiling in an adoring way at me.

"Good. You?" I say resisting letting my expression become a scowl.

"Oh I've been wonderful! Did you hear Vexen was absent today? I hate his class," says Larxene happily flipping her hair.

My lips twitch upwards at the mention of Vexen, "Yeah, I heard. Hopefully he'll never come back."

"Knowing him, he will be back by tomorrow," groans Larxene.

"Yeah, probably," I say. I can't help but feel gleeful when people mention Vexen. He is…so far…the only person that I have actually killed that I got to know beforehand. And it made it all the sweeter when I got to snuff out that worthless bastard's life.

"So I was wondering…," I focus back on Larxene, "…If you wanted to eat lunch with me today?"

"I can't," I say, "I really need to talk to Demyx about something."

"Oh…couldn't you talk to him later?" tries Larxene.

I take a deep breath to keep my cool, "I'm sorry, it's really important."

"So I'm not important?" asks Larxene icily. Her bitch side is starting to come out.

"I'm sorry…I just really need to talk to him," I say trying to get her to calm down.

"Oh whatever, Axel! You don't need to be a jerk to me! Talk to me when you're in a better mood!" explodes Larxene. She does another flip of her hair and stomps off down the hallway in a dramatic huff.

It's like she thinks I care.

One day I should just grab her purse and pull out all of her noxious make up and shove it down her pale throat. Then chase after that with her hairspray. Maybe then she would leave me alone! Maybe it would kill her and she would definitely leave me alone.

I sigh before opening my locker and shoving my books in it. I'm already late for lunch because of Larxene. I might as well not even bother eating now. All the food is going to be cold leftovers.

I slam my locker closed and stroll down the hallway to the cafeteria.

I'm pissed off. But I need to calm down so I can talk to Demyx. I don't want to upset him and Zexion any more. But I feel so angry. For no real reason! The fact that I can't feel peace makes me even more ticked off.

I walk into the cafeteria and look around. Everyone is already sitting down with their food. I walk over to the usual table. Demyx and Zexion are sitting there already. But someone else is there too.

That Roxas kid from detention is awkwardly sitting next to Demyx as he fires question after question at him. Demyx likes new people. He usually tries to take the timid ones under his wing.

"Hey," I say sitting down.

Zexion glares at me unhappily. I guess he isn't over what happened yesterday. I don't really care.

"Hi Axel! This is Roxas. He's new," chirps Demyx happily. He doesn't stay mad long. His attention span is too short for him to focus on one thing for very long.

"Yeah, we've met," I say looking at him.

Roxas looks terribly nervous. He's hunched down in his seat and is gripping his hands together. I don't know why he's so nervous. Demyx is easy to get along with. And Zexion isn't that scary.

Well he is a bit scarier since my arrival at the table. But it's all for show, Zexion won't do anything.

"Why aren't you eating, Ax?" asks Demyx looking at the empty table in front of me.

I look at his tray of…well I'm really sure what it is, "I wasn't hungry."

"Yeah, this stuff is pretty freaking gross. I'm about to swear off food forever!" exclaims Demyx.

"Yeah, you do that," I say rolling my eyes.

"So are you still good for tonight?" asks Demyx suddenly.

I think back on any plans I had made for tonight. I was going to go downtown to…blow off some steam. I don't remember making any plans with Demyx, "What's going on tonight?"

"Death Creatures Alive Part 5!!" yells Demyx practically jumping over the table at me.

"Oh, that stupid movie," I grumble. Demyx is obsessed with this series of brainless horror movies. It's nothing but a gore fest with a loosely based plot.

I'd rather not waste my time seeing people "seemingly" die on screen.

"Come on! It'll be fun! Namine and Riku are going to come! You can come to if you want, Roxas," says Demyx looking at Roxas.

"Um…sure," says Roxas timidly like he didn't expect to be brought into the conversation.

"We're going at 6. I can pick you up," offers Demyx.

"Alright," replies Roxas.

Brrrrrrrriiiiinnngg!!!

The bell that ends lunch rings loudly. Everyone at the table gets up and starts toward the door back to the hallway. I catch Demyx's arm as he throws away his mostly uneaten lunch, "Do you think you could give me a ride home from school?"

"Oh! Sure," replies Demyx.

"Thanks," I say before running off to grab my books from my locker.

For some reason I am fascinated with Roxas. I actually want to go to the stupid movie so I can maybe learn something new about him. I just get this vibe from him. And I always feel calm when I'm around him. Although now that I'm back in the sea of students my nerves are back to their normal frayed to the root selves.

I keep having to remind myself to keep acting like my normal pleasant self.

But it's getting harder and harder. It feels like The Entity is getting stronger. I can usually hold it back for a week after...a stress relief. But it only lasted a day this time! I'm not sure where I went wrong. All I can feel is this weird tension in my chest. And its more pronounced than usual. I can't stop thinking of blood. I can't stop thinking of the glint of my knife.

And I'm not sure if I like this change in me or not.

Not much happened.

But I wanted to end it before Demyx giving Axel a ride home.

Because a lot of stuff is going to happen next chapter.

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