One Mistake & No Survivors

To Kameryn's creator: Sorry, I forget you didn't have an account. I will figure out a way to give you the questions I need you to answer for the epilogue when its time for you to answer them.

Disclaimer: I do not own anything or anyone from Big Time Rush. The girls belong to their creators. I only own the plot.

Chapter Twenty Five

Something Keeps Me Holding Onto Nothing

Kameryn's POV, Day One

Sunlight somehow managed to peek through the window of the room I was being held in, despite the fact that the window was covered in some kind of black cloth. I sit on the mattress is in the corner of the room, trying not to move my leg. Apparently Astoria shot me with a silencer when I was hanging on the gutter, and shattered my collarbone. I keep my arm close to my chest, hoping to avoid any pain. Some guy was in here in the middle night and removed the bullet, causing me to scream to in agonizing pain, but now I am grateful he did that.

The door swings open and I look up. Astoria enters, and slides a plate with a piece of bread towards me. "Eat." She orders. I pick up the plate, remove the bread, and throw the plate at her. I get up and try to run, but my leg is in too bad of a shape to run. I'm right outside the door when Astoria tackles me to the ground and throws a punch across my face. Blood flies out of my mouth as she throws another punch. She grabs me by the collar of the shirt and yanks me upward. I look straight into her forest green eyes, and they seem to be practically on fire from rage.

"What happened to you?" I whisper. "What happen to my crazy roommate from St. Morris? Where is the Astoria who would tackle me to the ground for fun and make me laugh? Where is that Astoria Greenbaum?"

"She was never there." Astoria hisses. "It was all fake. I made you believe I was the crazy fun girl who loved life. I hate life. I live off anger and pain. I live it."

"I like the fake Astoria more." I spit. Astoria drops me back against the floor and punches me one more time, and I feel my lip get cut from the ring on her finger. Astoria gets up off me, slamming the door shut. I lay on the ground, feeling the bruises on my face form and blood trickle down it. I drag myself back over the mattress and eat the bread that remained on the mattress. I slowly nibble on it, and look up to find the sunlight is gone.

But my hope of getting out of here isn't.

Day Two

I lay on the mattress, staring up at the ceiling. Astoria already came in and gave me bread and water, which I ate, but I am still hungry. The sun has set and I'm guessing it is around eleven at night. The room is dark expect for the moonlight peeking through the window. I door to my room slowly creaks open and I look up to see Janessa slipping in. She puts her fingers to her lips and I lay back down on the mattress. She sits next to my mattress and turns on a lantern she must have brought in with her. Janessa holds out some bread for me, and I take it greedily.

"Why are you helping me?" I whisper.

"I'm done with this spy stuff." She whispers back. "I want to go home to my family. I miss them so bad. Sitting in a jail for a year really makes you miss the outside world. Agent Gomez and I were on the verge of striking a deal that I could go free if I gave him information he wanted."

"What kind of information?" I ask, sitting up.

"He wanted information about Charles West background. Mr. West told us everything so we could trust him more easily. I fell for it."

"Why are you telling me all this?" I question. "You shoved me off that building."

"I was blinded by rage." Janessa admits. "Vivian and I…we got along. Both of us were in this to protect people we loved. I tried to leave at one point last year. My family…Mr. West threatened to kill them. Vivian was in this to protect Kendall, James, Carlos, and Logan. I only went along with all this to protect the ones I love. So when Amanda shot Vivian, I lost it. James, Elena, or Erika weren't for me to hurt so Amanda could feel how I felt, and you were. So I shoved you because I just wanted Amanda to hurt like I was hurting. I'm sorry."

"I forgive you." I say, and I can't believe I am. "But please, you have to get me out of here. I have to find my friends and let them know I'm alright."

"I can't." Janessa says. "Ciri has this place on lockdown. Can't get in or out. And your friends aren't in California anymore. We're trying to find them, and so far have no luck."

"Janessa, please." I beg. "Give me a phone, anything. I need them to know that I'm not dead."

"I can't." Janessa repeats. "I'm sorry Kameryn, but there is nothing I get you to get in contact with them."

"Then get me a doctor." I plead. "My leg feels like its broken in several places, and my collarbone is shattered. Get me out of here so I can see a doctor."

"Like I said, this place is on lockdown." Janessa sighs. "Jackson East is here, and if you want, I can have him look at your leg tomorrow night. He removed the bullet from your collarbone last night."

"The wound is still open." I say. "It can get infected."

"It won't." Janessa says. "Jackson used some kind of medicine to make sure it doesn't. I made him."

"Why are you helping me so much?" I ask again.

"I told you." Janessa says, standing up. "I'm done with all this spy stuff. I'm just done."

Janessa slips out of the room, leaving me alone with silence. I rest my head back against the mattress, and shut my eyes, wishing someone would just come along and save me.

Day Three

"Get up." A voice commands. I open my eyes and lift my head to see Ciri standing in the doorway, Janessa and Astoria behind her. Janessa's eyes are wide and looked alarm, but Astoria has a smirk on her face. Something tells me this isn't good.

"I said get up." Ciri repeats. I slowly push myself off the mattress and lean against the wall, trying to avoid putting pressure on my leg.

"You want to get out of here?" Ciri questions. I nod my head and she smiles an evil grin. "Well then, you're going to fight for your freedom."

"Against who?" I ask. Astoria pushes her way past Ciri and grabs me by the arm, dragging me out of the room. This is my first time out of the room in the three days I have been here, and I am worried for what lies ahead beyond these dark and dirty hallways. Ciri pushes these doubles doors open and we burst through them. Looking around, I conclude I must be being held at some kind of shut down gym, as the workout equipment around me is covered in dust and looks like it hasn't been used in years. In front of us in a boxing ring.

"Ready to fight?" Ciri asks. She shoves me into the rink and I lay there, not moving.

"Ciri, she can't fight!" Janessa says. "This won't be any fun to watch if she just lays there!"

I look up a little and see Janessa's eyes are pleading. She knows with the physical state I'm in, a fight could probably cause me even more injury.

"Astoria, have fun." Ciri says before dragging a screaming Janessa out of the room.

Day Four

I lay on the mattress, beaten and bloody. I didn't even try to fight against Astoria. Now, I have a giant gash across my forehead, my collarbone is still broken, and my leg throbs even more than usual. My body is littered in cuts, and my eye is black and closed up. My lip is still split, and I feel awful. I turn over on my mattress and heave over the side of it. The door to my room creaks open as I continue to hurl, despite the fact that there is barely anything in my stomach.

Ciri sits down in the corner of my room. She throws a towel in my direction, along with a bucket. I wipe up my puke and throw the towel in the bucket, and slide it back towards her. She looks at it in disgust before shoving it towards the door. "Please don't make me fight again." I plead. "I can't handle it."

"I want you to get well rested before tomorrow." Ciri smirks. "Tomorrow you fight again, and I expect you to actually put some effort into it Clarke. It sickened me watching you just lie there like a helpless animal."

"Like all those animals you killed with your family?" I question, pushing myself up off the mattress and leaning against the wall. "If I was like a helpless animal, and it sickened you to see me, did it sicken you to kill all those animals?"

"At first, yes, it did." Ciri says. "But you get used to it. Just like you are going to get to use to the fact your friends will be dead in a matter of days."

"You won't get them." I say. "They will escape. I heard that they're not even in L.A. anymore."

"They're not in L.A., but they are in Minnesota." Ciri smirks. My eyes widen. They found them. I can't warn them that danger is coming their way. Ciri is right. I am a helpless animal.

"Yes that's right. We found them." Ciri cackles. She leans in close to me, causing me to squish myself into the corner. "And I going to make sure you watch them die."

Ciri gets up and has her hand on the door now when I was, "If you kill them, then won't you just be like you were when you were younger?" Ciri doesn't leave the room, but her hand remains on the door knob. I continue to press on. "You left the cult because you didn't want to be part of the killings animal. If you kill my friends, then it will be like Italy all over again. Do you really want to go back to that?"

Ciri turns her head slightly, her black shifting to behind her shoulder as she does. "You don't know me. You don't know how hard it was for me to leave the cult. I got beaten; I was scared."

"My brother Marcus beat me." I blurt. "He comes home after midnight, drunk, and just beats me. I don't fight back and that scares me. I had to sit there while Marcus would just throw me around like I was a rag doll. I know what it is like to get hurt Ciri."

Ciri opens the door and leaves. Once the door is shut, I begin to cry.

Day Five

I'm beaten and bloody to a pulp. Astoria beat me so bad today that I feel like every wound on me won't stop bleeding. Janessa enters the room, and tries to comfort me as I cry silently into her arms.

It doesn't work.

Day Six

I gave up on trying to plead with Ciri to stop us from going to Minnesota, but now I'm sitting in the back of a truck, tied up and crying. It's hopeless. I'm hopeless. I tried to save my friends, and I couldn't even do that.

Why did I ever believe in hope?

Day Seven

Ciri has her arm around my neck, and is dragging me through waist high snow. The cold pierces my skin, and has begun to numb it. I don't fight; I just whimper. Every now and then I let out a sob, and Ciri hits me.

There's a light up ahead. And I can see them. I see Elena, Amanda, and Erika. I want to scream, but I have no energy. My mind silently pleads with them to run, but they remain in place, almost like they know we are coming.

I see them spin as Ciri silently drags me towards them. They are facing Janessa. "You actually had the guts to show your face again?" I hear Amanda ask Janessa. A smirk flickers on Janessa's face. "I want to see you again." Janessa teases, and I can see her playing along. She told me Ciri beat her the other day when she tried to save me, so she has to pretend like she wants to cause them pain.

"I'm going to kill you for what you did to Kameryn." Amanda says. "I'm going to make your death as painful as hers was." They think I'm dead. Again, my mind silently pleads for them to just turn around and see me.

"Not so fast." Astoria, appearing on their right. "Do you really want to cause her more pain?"

Ciri gives my neck a tight squeeze and I let out a whimper. Elena, Amanda, and Erika turn around, and a gasp escapes Elena's mouth at the sight of me. They stare at me, and I can see the shock on their faces. My facial expression screams for them to save me right on the spot, but they're too busy studying my injuries.

Erika takes a step forward. Ciri's grip around me tightens, and I try not to let out another whimpers. "Please, let her go." Erika pleads "Kameryn needs medical attention. Just give us her and you can go free. Escape to some other part of the world. I promise no one will come after you. Just give us Kameryn, and you can walk free."

I can't believe Erika is resorting to begging. Spies on do that when they have no options left.

"You would just let us walk like that?" Ciri asks. "No strings or anything? Do you not realize what we have done over the past year? We have kidnapped, beaten, tortured. We have done the unspeakable, and the while spy world wants us punished, and your willing to let us go?"

"We just want Kameryn back." Amanda says from behind Erika.

"Why she would trust you?" Janessa asks. "You murdered two of our friends!" I look at Janessa, and I can see the pain in her eyes.

"Samantha was an accident." Erika explains. "She and I were struggling and then she was just gone. We never had the intention to kill. We just want this to end once and for all."

"And Amanda shooting Vivian was supposed to end it?" Janessa hisses. The hurt in her eyes grows stronger at the mention of Vivian. Janessa told me their was a small funeral for Vivian two days ago, and it was one of the hardest things she ever had to attend.

"Vivian was begging for it." Amanda says. "She looked at me with eyes that just said 'end it now'. Vivian wanted to end it all, and she used me to do it."

"We don't need any more deaths." Erika says. "Please, just give us Kameryn."

Janessa and Astoria join Ciri at her side. Amanda and Elena were slightly behind Erika as she stands with her hand outstretched, and her eyes are screaming for Ciri to just give me to her. Erika has given them the best thing ever: freedom.

"No." Ciri says. Shock covers Erika's face, and I look up slightly to see Ciri has a dead serious look on her face.

What did you say?" Erika asks, clearly in disbelief that Ciri has refused her offer.

"I said no." Ciri says. "Even if you just let us walk, agents all over the world will never stop looking for us. Don't you get it yet? It never ends. The three of us will be hunted down like wild animals."

"Where's Jackson?" Elena asks.

"Turned himself him." Astoria says, rolling her eyes "Big baby couldn't handle the guilt of committing a felony." I know that too. He came to give into my room one night to say goodbye.

A silence falls over everybody. I let out an occasional whimper, and I look at Erika, pleading for her to get me out of Ciri's grasp. "We're not leaving till we have Kameryn back." Erika declares.

"You think I haven't figured that out princess?" Ciri sneers. "And hate to break it to you, but we can't give you Kameryn back. We give you her back, and everything we have worked so hard to achieve over the past year goes right down the drain. This girl right here," Ciri squeezes her arm around my neck, and pain rockets all the way down to my toes. I let out blood-curdling scream at the pain that continues to beat through me. "Is our last shot of getting out of here." Ciri finishes.

"We gave the option to walk away." Elena says, coming up on Erika's right. Amanda comes up on Erika's right, mirroring Janessa, Ciri, and Astoria. "You didn't take it. Now, give us Kameryn, and get ready to go back to prison."

"When will you three learn that we aren't afraid of you?" Astoria questions, cracking her knuckles. "We never have been. Why would we anyways? Amanda is afraid of water, Elena is afraid of the dark, and Erika, well I think we made your biggest fear come true this week by taking Kameryn."

"I'm taking the offer." Janessa says. We all look at her. "I'm not going back to prison. I can't. I'm heading halfway around the world. My family has relocated there, and I just want to be with them again. See ya."

Janessa starts to walk away. "You think you can just leave?" Astoria screams. Janessa looks over her shoulder. "I am." She replies. "I'm down with all this spy stuff. I'm tired with running and hiding. I just want to be with my family again." Janessa looks at me, giving me a small wink before disappearing into the dark of the forest.

"Who's next?" Amanda teases. "You just lost Janessa, and back-up is on the way. Its over. Why can't you two just accept it?"

"I. Never. Lose!" Ciri roars. "Not once have I lost. I succeed in getting away from my family. I succeed in finding a home. I succeed into making everybody think I was some sweet innocence girl who doesn't have the most messed up family in history!"

I hear voices of rescue. The lights of flashlights reach my eyes while voices reach my ears. "Its over." Erika says. "Accept defeat."

Agents come bursting through the trees. They are quick to slap handcuffs on Astoria. I recognize Agent Mason as the man guiding Astoria away. A helicopter floats above us, and the latter drops. Agent Mason grabs the latter, and with his grip on Astoria, the two are lifted into the helicopter, disappearing from my sight. Elena's brother, Caleb, gently removes me from Ciri's grasp. I cling to him like he is the last person on Earth. He gently guides me over to Elena, Amanda, and Erika and I collapse into their arms, hysterical sobs coming from me. They hold me up as I cry in pain and joy into their arms. I look at Ciri, who is being handcuffed by Agent Gomez. Tears stream down her face, and I can't help but feel sorry for her. All she wanted in life was to escape death, but she end up being it herself

I barely hear the helicopter fly away as Elena, Amanda, and Erika hold me in their arms. I'm filled with joy that I'm rescued. "We have to get her to a hospital." Caleb says. I look up to see another helicopter flying above us.

"We're coming with her." Erika says. Caleb only nods his head as we all grab hold of the latter. I slowly attach myself with the latter, and grab Erika's arm. She looks at me, and I have never been more thrilled to see her face. Elena tells her brother to get the boys and to meet us at the hospital with them. The latter begins its journey upwards, but I can't help but think that this isn't exactly over yet.