A.N. Hey I know this is weird cause I never put my A.N at the very beginning, but I want to remind everyone to be a good reader and review :D. Criticism about plot and character development is welcomed if not looked for. Don't bother talking about grammar and spelling, I all ready know it sucks.

Adara was completely speechless, Zaki dead, that spunky grey haired girl that just seemed to know everything. "She's really dead?" Adara asked, "Dead, like never ever coming back?" Adara had to keep from making her voice break.

Keiji wiped a rain drop from his eyes. "She fell of a gorge, we couldn't find her body, if they don't get word in the next two weeks, she's being declared killed, right now she's only MIA." Keiji explained.

Adara pretended to perk up "Well she's not dead yet, so…" she didn't know what to say. "You should go home, your going to catch a cold." Scolding seemed safe now. Adara didn't want to scold, but it was the only thing keeping her from declaring her love. "Meet me at 4 am, yeah I know it's early, but I start training, at 5. Meet at the tree?" A night of rest will make it easier for him to talk; Adara knew Keiji good enough to know that trying to make him explain everything now would be nearly impossible.

Keiji took her hands in his and gave them a soft squeeze, "I don't know what I would do with out you Adara, I wouldn't have gotten any where with out you." Adara's heart was breaking hearing him speak those words. The urge to kiss him was way to strong. Taking advantage of his grief would be horrible of her.

"Go home and rest," Adara ordered reluctantly parting their hands.

"Bye, Adara. Thank you for everything."

Rolling her eyes, "Yeah, yeah gosh stop being so sappy, I'll see you tomorrow morning." This made both them chuckle sadly. Keiji left her; she stood looking at his dwindling silhouette. Taking a real big breath, Adara went inside.

The next morning Adara left extra early for the park, nobody in her family noticed any thing strange in her, when she had walked in. Or else they had the decency to not talk about it. Keiji was all ready up on their branch. Keiji reached out to help her up like he usually did but Adara smiled and shook her head. She had been training with Neji he taught her how to jump high enough to go to the top of the tallest tree in Konoha. She just had to show off a little bit. With little to no effort she got on top of the branch. Keiji smiled weekly, "Impressive."

"Thanks," Adara gave him a big smile, before plopping herself down. "So are you better now?" Keiji nodded. "I want to know what happened." Adara made her voice go soft. Keiji looked out at the sky; it was as cloudy as yesterday.

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There was a peaceful silence on this cloudy early morning, Sara thanked, well god wasn't real, but she was thankful to what ever controlled the universe out there. Usually there was some sort of screaming and fights going on here. She had found the cheapest facility she could to go to rehab, hell there was more drug traffic here then out on the streets. She had gone 3 months in here, longer then she had stayed at the other places. She had been doing so well. Zakuro had even visited her with Max, they had talked she had seemed so put together, OH GOD. Zaki oh god her beautiful little Zakuro, her beautiful amazing child, was gone from her. She had no reason to be sober; she had no reason to be high. She had no reason. But tears had dried out over night.

The men had come late in the evening; telling her that her daughter was MIA, Missing in action. DEAD! In other words, but the useless impotent government couldn't find her body. That's what MIA means. Fuck they probably hadn't cared enough to search for her. God it was fucking hard enough getting her in that uppity rich peoples academy, they had tried to stop Sara from doing the one thing her husband had demanded on his death bed. They said she didn't have the right back ground, wouldn't have been able to make it. Being a shinobi wasn't in her blood. But Sara got her in, she used to think it was the only thing she had ever done right by her daughter. BUT FUCK THEM, they sent her off and got her killed. AND WOULDN'T EVEN DO HER LITTLE GIRL THE DECENCY TO GIVE HER NAME A SPOT ON THAT FUCKEN MEMORIAL! The only people not right to be in the government were the shinobi! They only cared for themselves and the rich. It was cheaper to get high on crystal meth each weekend then to pay for one fucken D ranked mission.

If her husband had still been alive, if he hadn't gotten mixed up with that gang called Roots. If he had kept his nose out of It she remembers those day's too. He had seemed distant disturbed. All he would tell her was that it was to save Gai's life. That was all he would say, had to do it. Afterwards he had seemed so shaken, he told her he would never be able to live down what he had done. What he had helped to do. A week later he had killed himself. He had left a note for Zaki, but Sara and Allie both agreed to wait for her to get older before they gave it to her. But she would never be able to read this note; she would never be getting any older.

Sara was a horrible mother; she had never been there for her child, her only reason to live. And now that only reason was gone. The woman wiped away the dirt on the mirror and looked at herself one last time. She wore her black dress, and a matching black hair bow. She looked sweet, her eyes were hazel. Just like Zaki's eyes, Zaki had looked like her father so much. But she always knew that Zaki's was hers for she had her eyes. Taking out the medicine bottle she had fucked the security guy for she smiled. It was pilled morphine; she had taken some earlier today to check if he hadn't cheated her. Taking the pills was easier then she had anticipated. She had all ready locked the door, it was cold in here. Might as well turn the hot water on.

It was luke warm when Sara stepped in dress and all. Leaning against the shower wall she smiled as the water hit her. As the water washed away her past life, Sara closed her eyes and smiled, she was going to see her husband again. She was going to see her baby girl again.

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After the story Adara sat there and stared out at Konoha, the clouds only parted in certain places. Making it look like heavens light was shining upon certain places and times. She looked at Keiji who was staring at Konoha too. "You know I remember my mother saying something about those things," He mused pointing at the ray of light that was on top of the hokage's tower. "She told me, that when the light of heaven shines through a bunch of clouds, after a huge storm. Somebody's life is changed for ever." Adara looked at Keiji, he looked so lonely. With out even thinking about it she leaned her head on his shoulder.

"I wonder whose life is going to be changed today?" She asked. Keiji gave a little grunt and wrapped an arm around her.

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Kaida stared up at the light that shown down on top of the Hokage mountain. She had decided that this would be the first step. Looking down on the city she loved, she hated, she didn't understand. This was the first step to understanding, Kaida looked down at Yo. It was time to get rid of him. It was time to snap the cord. She was a grown up now she didn't need, NO she shouldn't have a stuffed teddy bear.

She looked down at the tan rough fabric; the stuffing was starting to come out, the nose was almost about to fall off. Anger filled Kaida, this thing represented all the stuff that got Zaki killed. This no good compellation of fabric, it was time it fell of the edge into the abyss, just like Zaki. Taking one deep breath Kaida flung her child hood of the cliff of the Hokage Mountain.

"Woof Woof !" a loud dog bark came from the left of her. The sun that had shown down so lightly upon her was blocked out by a huge dog, which grabbed Yo in his mouth. When the creature landed with a thud it automatically turned around and hurdled back to the direction it came from. Kaida spun around to see where it was headed. A handsome man was back about 50 feet. He had rough brown hair and curious brown eyes. His face was tanned from being in the sun for too long. "Good job Akamaru! Give it here," He patted the huge beast on the top of its head. His brown eyes then sparkled towards her. The man started strolling towards her, and it seemed like in second he was hunkering down and handing Yo back to Kaida. "You almost dropped this off the gorge; you wouldn't want to lose your stuffed animal."

Kaida grabbed Yo violently from his hands "Yes I did want that! Who are you?"

The man chuckled a little and sat down on the edge, "Names Inuzaki Kiba, what's yours?" The man chuckled holding out his hands. Kaida didn't take it, but she sat down as the big dog called Akamaru bumped her down.

"Mitsu Kaida," She humped.

"You know for a little girl, you sure in a bad mood, what's gotten into your stockings. Don't be ashamed if somebody made fun of you because of the bear." He assured her.

"For your information! I'm not a little girl; I'm far above my age level. I'm already a Gennin. And nobody has made fun of me for Yo I mean this bear, it's just…symbolic." Kiba's eye brows rose in semi- disbelief and a small smirk formed across his face. Kaida's cheeks flushed a little, who was he to pass judgment?

The man shrugged, "Gennin or not it seems like a shame to throw away a perfectly good stuffed animal."

Kaida crossed her arms and huffed "you wouldn't understand." She spat.

The dog man gave a little whistle "you sure are a little spit fire, no wonder your name means little dragon. And you assume to much girly, I no exactly what your going through. You probably just lost someone, I don't know who. But loss is emanating in your scent. I went through the same thing when I was I don't know a little but younger then you." He seemed to be musing down at the city.

"I doubt that," Kaida whispered.

Kiba continued, "My father died when I was 6, he died on a mission. You feel that the whole world just fell apart. You don't understand what was so great about what they died for. You love Konoha, but yet you hate it at the same time. Then you start blaming yourself, if you had been older, if you wouldn't have misunderstood, what was happening around you. It was because of how childish you were. That's why they died, that's why they never came back. So you pick something to through off a cliff or drown in a river, you pick something to just hurt. You place all your hate and all you're suffering, in that object, and proceed to try to throw it away, .For ever, maybe of a cliff?" The man struck a blow to Kaida, she looked back at the tall man who wasn't looking at her, but petting his pet dog.

"Yeah, something like that, a little different, but very similar." She squeaked holding back tears. "What did you throw away?" She asked finally.

"My stuffed Dalmatian named pogo," He admitted. "It didn't make me any wiser; it didn't make me any more grown up. It just made me a little bit more depressed that I had lost my favorite stuffed animal." He took Yo gently from Kaida's hands, "What's his name?" He asked her.

"His name is Yo, it means positive." Kaida said. Kiba gave Kaida back Yo.

"Well Kaida, getting rid of Yo wont change anything, it wont make who ever you lost come back, it wont suddenly make you twenty years older, it wont do anything much. And why would you throw away your childhood? It's a precious gift we only receive once. I'm sure who ever you lost wouldn't want you to do it." Kiba spoke simple words. Kaida looked at Akamaru and gently reached out to pet him. "Go ahead," Kiba reassured, "he's great with people."

Akamaru gave a small yelp and started licking Kaida's face which made the little girl laugh. The dog stopped his playful attack of his tongue, and sat his huge head down on the girls lap. "It was my team mate," She admitted patting the dogs head. And before she started on the story, she added this, "I love dogs."

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Keiji pointed to another Heaven's light that was showing down on the bad part of Konoha the dregs. "That's where Zaki lived, its weird but that's all I know about her home life, or personal life. She just didn't talk much about it."

Adara sighed, "now that I think about it I don't know much about her either, except that she was extremely defensive, and that her dad killed himself."

"She had a godmother, she worked with," Keiji added.

"I miss her all ready," Adara said, that chakra was coming again. The man who had attacked her a few days previous was here. Adara hadn't told anybody about it. She had planned on telling Zaki, but right now that wasn't an option.

"Yeah, I'm sorry."

"Why you sorry?"

"It's my entire fault, if I had been stronger, if I had been able to pull them up, none of it would have happened." Keiji admitted.

Adara had to think for a minuet how did a person respond to that? "A lot of things could have been different Keiji, but we just have to live with the out comes. Would have's could have's and should haves have no place in the shinobi world. They have no place in life." It was 4:50 now, if she left, the man would attack her again, but she would face the wrath of Neji if she didn't show. But Neji would just give her a lecture; this man would do anything to her as long as it wasn't killing her. Better to stay with Keiji.

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Gai took a deep breath; he had been up all night since he heard the news. The only thing, he could think was how Allie must have taken it. That was her god daughter, no it was Zak's daughter, Zak's and Sara's daughter. That girl's life, he should have been apart of, he should have been there to help raise her. Hadn't he made a promise when he was younger? He would always be there for Allie, for Sara and Zak. Especially Zak, they had been so close. Brothers but better, he wouldn't know how to describe Zak and his friendship.

You get to know a person extremely well when you save their life or visa versa. As a shinobi you get strong bonds, but none of them were as strong as the one Zak and he had. How do you describe the friend who would walk with you during the middle of the night because you couldn't go home because your mother was doing her work? Gai had never really had a mother, she was ok in a way. But being a prostitute she couldn't really give Gai all he needed to have. Like clothing, a proper home life or an education. But she did her best.

None of them had, had good home lives, Gai's father was non existent, and his mother was a prostitute. Zak's dad was single and maybe schizophrenic, nobody actually knew. The only thing Zak new was that the guy talked to himself. Sara had the worst home life, her father would beat her senseless each night before her mother would yell and scream at her for being a whore.

Allie came in later in the scene, maybe when they were about 11, her father moved in with his sister at the time ran the Zoo. He had been a farmer who after his wife had died lost his appetite for farming. Allies aunt had been a very, distant woman, she had never encouraged the prostitution or the drug trafficking that was so plenty at her bar. But she never said no to it, as long as you kept the place clean didn't break anything you could do almost any thing in there. Allie had all ways said she wanted to make it a place for kids to hang out, to help them shape up better.

But all of that stuff was just pipe dreams. None of that was ever going to happen. It was all gone. Gai had unconsciously been standing in front of the Zoo. Should he go in and talk with Allie? She probably wasn't up yet. Or was still up cleaning a wreck of last night, maybe she went to go comfort Sara, Sara could never deal with loss very well. Allie was just, well she was a blood sucking witch but an incredibly strong willed and courageous blood sucking witch that could seem to with stand everything.

"Come on you guys! Lets think of something to do!" Zak complained as the three of them, walked in the ally behind the Zoo. Gai didn't feel like doing anything, he felt like sleeping, the training his sensei was giving him was rough. After a few minuet of silence Zak continued, giving an exasperated speech to Sara, "Now Sara, Gai is only what, 2 years away? Yeah 2 years from becoming useless cannon fodder called ninja. He has 2 years of being a normal person. Before TOTALLY selling out to the government and becoming a useless clone" Zak was on one of his rants.

"Being a shinobi isn't that bad, and training, it's not tiresome or gruesome it's serene. It's nicer then meandering around this crappy city for nothing to do." Gai defended.

"Hey I meander with style!" Zak defended. Sara was just smiling, Her face was black and blue and splotchy with bruises, her father had been very angry a couple nights ago. Sara sat down on a garbage heap, Zak sitting right next to her looped a caring arm around her shoulder. The usually silent girl smiled and buried her head in his shoulder. "We need to find you a woman!" He declared. Sara laughed at his theatrical acts. Zak jumped up again thinking of another great idea. "No No NO! You are going to be one of those extra sensitive guys that everybody thinks is gay, but once the chicks feel there safe around you you'll be like" making a giant hip thrust every time he said bam, Zak continued. "BAM PREGNATE, BAM PREGNATE, BAM PREGNATE. Then you know we'll have a whole new generation of little Gai's running around!" Gai blushed; he had never been comfortable about sex talk. And since Zak reached puberty that's all he talked about. Sara rolled his eyes and gave Zak a big purple nurple.

"You should stop talking so crudely," she said in a silent deadly voice. Zak yelped with agony.

"God woman that's my nipple not a freaking radio dial!" He screeched.

"What the hell are you guys doing out here?" a new voice intervened; Gai looked around to see a short girl with short mouse brunette hair. Her eyes were sharp and she looked angry.

"Oh sorry, we didn't' mean to intrude I live upstairs with my mom, so we usually hang out here," Gai excused he had never seen this girl before.

"Don't apologies to this dame, she can't just come to our hang out and order us out." Zak said pretending to act tough.

"You act tough for a skinny little stick," The stranger asserted, the girl seemed tough if not a little too aggressive.

Zak backed off a little, "well I'm not the fighter, I'm a lover" he then pointed towards Sara and winked, "just ask her." Pushing Gai forward he continued, "Now this here, is our, you know muscle he's like a mountain of manliness!" Zak always talked too big for everything.

Gai couldn't say anything, his voice had been taken away. This beautiful creature in front of him was staring at him with dark brown eyes. He was too lost in them to say anything, like chocolate kind of. He was swimming around in a chocolate void looking for some words to save him and impress her. Gai licked his lips they felt chapped, after what seemed like a lifetime and a half he came up with something, "Hi."

Little did 11 year old Gai know, he had just met a succubus of hell. But maybe she wasn't so bad, even a bitch had feelings. And well...Gai owed a lot to her. Even if he would never admit it, Gai swallowed his pride and broke another promise his younger self made. He stepped into the establishment known as the zoo again.

"We are closed! Can't you people read a fucking sign!" A harsh voice shouted towards the door. Gai looked around the only thing that had changed was the variation of tables and chairs, probably cause the old ones where bashed on somebody's head. Allie was cleaning the bar with a rag, something her Aunt used to do all the time as a stress reliever seemed her niece had picked it up.

Gai stayed silent awhile surveying how she had changed over years, she had grown in height, and her curves had become less awkward more full. Her hair had gotten darker and something else had changed. Gai didn't know what, something was missing, or something was added, he didn't know. "I didn't come in for a drink" he finally said. Allie looked up startled. Confusion and anger mixed in her chocolate syrup eyes.

"Then get out!" Was the final response. Now that Gai got a good look at her face, her eyes were puffy from crying. It wasn't a good look for her.

" I just wanted to see…"

"To see what Gai? To see what?"

"Just see how you were…"

Allie gave a harsh laugh, "That's rich, you wouldn't show up to your best friends funeral but you would come and see how I'm doing when a girl, you had nothing to do with. Is MISSING in action. Did you come apologize that the government can't even come up with a fucken body?" Allie was angry she was scrubbing the bar violently.

Gai didn't know what to say, all the things she spoke of where true, "No I…"

"Well then I don't want to hear anything else right now!" Allie said, shaking her head, Gai saw the new tears coming down her face. Gai reached out to comfort her, she yanked herself away. "DON'T! Touch me; you lost that privilege a long time ago Gai." He withdrew his hand from her as she took a couple steps away.

Allie turned around so her back was facing Gai, "Please, Allie I just…don't turn your back towards me." For a first time in years Gai felt helpless not in control. Anything she said right now would be the end of something, and UN like other stories this one will have no happy ending.

"Hurts don't it? Its not easy when somebody you want to face, won't face you." The piece broke; you have two separate things in a picture that are totally unrelated, and then you tear the picture in two. You know those two things can never get together, but now there was absolutely of that ever happening.

Gai only had three words to say, "I'll leave now." And he did just as he said.