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Hopefully this chapter will live up to the others and bring us into the coming week of school where Tori and Beck will have to survive their questioning friends - yeah, I said coming week! We're moving past Memorial Day, boys and girls, how exciting is that? :D

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When I Look At You

Chapter 3 ~ Sunday

Beck

He was beyond tired.

More like dead if you had to put a feeling to it.

Trying to sleep last night was like trying to cram a shoe that wouldn't fit onto your foot; both uncomfortable and unbearable and made you question your actions. No matter how many different ways you tried to force it on it just wouldn't fit and never would.

Beck had that feeling.

Upon waking up that rainy Sunday morning he found the events of the night before playing heavily on his mind; why did he have to go and ruin his perfectly good 'just friends' relationship with Tori?

When he had asked her whether she thought him and Jade were a cute couple he wasn't surprised by her answer, he was actually expecting it; he just wanted to hear her say it.

And look where that got him.

So overwhelmed by her honesty he felt his attraction towards her double as she blatantly pointed out all the obvious flaws in his and Jade's relationship; he had been waiting a while to hear someone do it and he was glad it was her. She didn't withhold her words and told him what he wanted to hear though she didn't even know it; maybe that's why he felt the need to kiss her.

To see what she would do.

To see if she backed up her words with action.

He smiled to himself as he laid in bed listening to the rain; she didn't disappoint. It was like that day so long ago in Sikowitz's class where they had done the alphabetical improv lesson where she proved she wasn't just all talk and no action. The girl had a mind about her that proved she meant what she said and she said what meant, an uncommon trait in most people.

Still thinking about that day in class, Beck almost jumped at the vibration of his phone on the tiny built-in nightstand next to his bed. Reaching over he found a text from Jade reminding him that only one more day stood between their reunion, a winking smiley face following her words. Why did he feel like that was slightly ominous? Frowning, he texted back with a simple 'I know' and a smiley face of his own in hopes that it'd hold her off until later. From there he dropped the phone lazily into the sheets and went back to thinking.

He was of course still completely conflicted about his weekend escapades; what would their repercussions be, if any? What would happen when Jade finally returned home expecting to see her boyfriend impatiently waiting to see her? Would he even be there waiting?

Frowning, Beck forced himself from bed and pulled on some clothing closet in reach before shuffling out to his tiny kitchen, questions still flying around in his mind.

Some he didn't know the answers to, some he did.

Those were the ones that scared him the most.

Tori

Armed with an umbrella and raincoat Tori sloshed her way through town, silently cursing at her sister the whole time for having taken their shared car without even asking.

But then again who knew she was going to have such an active weekend?

A car really would have helped.

Looking both ways before crossing the street she entered the neighborhood she knew Beck lived in, having remembered it from the many drive bys Jade had performed with Tori in the car during their brief break up.

She felt depressed by just remembering from that alone.

Sighing, she counted the houses as she moved further down the street, the rain providing a nice, relaxing backdrop for her thoughts; she seemed to be thinking a lot lately, namely after last night.

Trying to sleep after her and Beck's latest outing hadn't been easy; it was more like a nightmare, really. She'd fall asleep only to be awakened moments later thinking Jade was trying to break in and beat her to a pulp when only it was the settling of the house or the wind in the trees outside.

It was horrible.

What was even worse was the fact the few hours she did get to sleep were cut short by the rising sun breaking in through her windows and forcing her from her bed and down into the living room where she dozed for a few more hours until she just couldn't sleep anymore.

From there she made breakfast where halfway through scrambling eggs and frying bacon she realized how lonely it would be eating alone and made a rare split second decision; she was going to take breakfast to Beck.

He never texted or called her once after dropping her off somewhere around midnight and had since remained silent. She didn't know if confronting him would fix anything or make matters worse, but there was only one way to find out.

Chopping the bacon into a mess of tiny bits and throwing some cheese into the pan of eggs she managed to scratch up a breakfast casserole of sorts which she then dumped into a large bowl that she placed in the microwave to keep warm while she slipped on some rain boots and grabbed and umbrella from the closet. Grabbing the bowel on the way out the door she walked confidently with her head held high; things were not going to be awkward between her and Beck.

But now that she had finally reached his RV parked in his parent's driveway she felt that confidence slip slightly. Standing there in the rain with the umbrella vibrating her hand as rain continued to pelt down on it upon it she contemplated her next move. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea? Should she just turn around and go back? Kicking idly at the puddle she stood in Tori felt herself become conflicted as she stared at the silver recreational vehicle. She definitely didn't want things to be awkward, but then again feared that showing up unannounced on his doorstep would be weird and uncalled for.

Biting her lip as the rain slightly picked up she forced herself forward towards the rounded off side door lined with patio lights. Reaching up to knock she swallowed all traces of fear and smiled slightly. Somehow she knew Beck wouldn't be mad; somehow she knew it was going to be alright.

She could just read him that way.

Beck

It was hard to hear through the pounding rain, even with the TV turned up louder than usual. Experiencing rainstorms while living in an RV was the one thing he wished he could change; they were both annoying and slightly depressing. Who wanted to sit alone in a hunk of metal while rain poured down outside?

Rubbing his eyes he pulled himself from the sofa and crossed over to his small kitchen-like area, swiping his coffee mug off the arm of the couch on the way. Pouring a fresh cup he looked up in time to see a dark pink umbrella pass by his window, its holder hidden underneath. Moments later a low beating sounding on the door and caused him to hurry over and open it against the hurricane like winds.

"Gooood morning!" Tori tried to sing though her cheeriness was seemingly dampened by the rain that blew in underneath her umbrella. Beck shook his head and stepped aside, trying hard to hide his amusement as Tori attempted to close the umbrella and balance a bowl in her arm while trying to step inside at the same time. Finally releasing his laughter he grabbed her arm and pulled her inside, taking her umbrella with the other and snapping it shut in seconds. Closing the door behind him he turned and took in her washed out appearance while she attempted to run a hand through her frizzing hair.

"Raining out?" He asked as he stepped around her to retrieve his coffee cup, a small smile playing on his features.

"No, it's sunny and hot," She replied, sarcasm evident in her voice as she still tried in vain to fix her appearance, but to no avail, "here." She said while working out a knot in her hair and thrusting the bowl at him. Quirking an eyebrow he collected it from her hand and popped open the lid, the aroma of breakfast filling his small living quarter.

"Food. Nice." He stated while taking another deep breath of freshly cooked food .

"Oh, well, your welcome!" She said shrugging, still trying to un-stick her clothes from her body.

"Do you want a towel?" He asked while pulling down a set of plates from an above cabinet, smiling at her actions.

"A towel would be helpful!" She laughed, looking up at him to smile, causing him to laugh at her pathetic form and disappear for a few seconds until returning with a clean towel and handing it off to her.

"Thanks."

"No prob," He said, dishing out her breakfast casserole onto two plates, "but can I ask why you brought breakfast even though it's already noon?"

"Oh…well…I, uh, it was…" She struggled, not really wanting to admit that she missed his presence.

"Lonely?" He filled in, fixing her with a knowing look which only caused her to blush.

"Yeah." She sighed, the redness spreading on her features.

"Me too." He smiled, handing her a plate and motioning her over to his small table.

"I don't want to get your cushions wet." She said as she tried to put the towel underneath her as padding only to be stopped by half way by Beck's hand on her arm.

"Don't worry about it; they'll dry." And with that he sat down opposite her where they ate in silence and he occasionally commented on her cooking skills and they chit chatted on a wide variety of random subjects that somehow made their way into their thoughts. Twenty minutes later the food was gone and they found themselves staring at each other, not quite sure as to what to do next.

"Sooooo…" Tori started as she pushed a rogue bacon bit around on her plate and hugged herself.

"Are you cold?" He asked, a hint of humor in his voice.

"Well usually when you're soaked you get cold." She stated with a shrug as he pulled her plate away from her and dropped it in the small sink. From there he disappeared for a few moments and re-emerged with a pair of black sweats and a long sleeve sweater.

"Here," He said flopping them down onto the table in front of her, "the bathroom's that way." He said nodding his head back behind him and trying not to laugh at her shocked face. She got up slowly, the whole time avoiding his gaze as she trudged down the narrow hall and into his tiny bathroom where he could hear her arms and legs hitting the walls in the miniscule compartment. Sinking down onto the sofa he turned the TV up louder and almost jumped when he looked and saw her standing there looking smaller than ever in his clothes.

"I think I remember this," She stated as she pulled a black and white striped sleeve down over her hand, "you wore this when we, uh, met again on, in, uh, Sikowitz's class." She struggled though he immediately knew what she was trying to avoid; he had worn the same shirt when they had kissed during the improv lesson.

"Yup…that's my favorite actually." He stated, pointing at it from where he sat and causing Tori to look up and grin.

"Aw, Beck has favorite clothes! That's so manly!" She laughed as she crossed in front of him and dropped down onto the sofa next him with a healthy distance between them.

"I like to look stylish, thank you." He stated matter of factly which only made her quirk an eyebrow.

"Really? So the whole dark and brooding clothing thing is just a statement?" She said, pulling her knees up to her chest and leaning against them, waiting for his response.

"Yes, they are," He said turning directly towards her, "they show both my individuality and good taste." She smiled at this and shook her head.

"You are creative and deep." She said, her words making him think back to when she had needed to decorate her locker for school.

"It's who I am." He stated with a wave of his hands as he watched her laugh and slump over slightly in his direction, her eyes wandering towards the TV screen. From there he glanced at her frequently, taking in her silhouette and features before slowly raising an arm lie across the back of the sofa in an oh-so innocent manner.

"Are you really that cold?" He asked with genuine concern, pulling her attention from the show in front of them after noticing her shivering limbs.

"I'm good." She said, her voice pitching higher than usual like it usually did when she was lying.

"Are you sure?" He drawled, nodding his head at the empty space right beside him and grinning slightly. She looked at him for a long while until finally sighing and moving closer to him, his body heat immediately penetrating her clothes and soaking into her shaking joints as she curled up as close as she could into his side. Smiling, Beck brought his arm atop the sofa down to wrap around her hunched up form and around her middle where he forced his hand to stay still. A few moments later after Tori had properly situated herself he leaned down slightly to try and see her face behind her curtain of hair.

"Better?" He asked as he brushed it aside, his fingertips grazing the frozen tip of her ear and making him realize that she really was cold and not just putting on show. Smiling at her frantic nodding that signaled she was indeed feeling better he slumped down further into the sofa, his arm taking her with him though she didn't seem to mind. Forcing his gaze back to the TV he still felt himself smiling slightly as Tori began to shiver less in his hold as her body temperature began to return to normal.

Jade would have played cold rather than actually being cold; she would have manipulated him and talked him into getting what she wanted.

And Tori…well…he just liked the reality of life with her; it was just so much easier.

Tori

What was that noise?

It wasn't the rain...rain doesn't growl.

Listening hard to the TV set in front of her, Tori realized that the small growling noise wasn't coming from the reality show she was watching either, but something else. Squinting her eyes in the growing darkness of the RV, she looked everywhere for the noise until realizing it was coming from directly beside her.

Beck had fallen asleep; his head laid out flat on the back of the sofa and his arm still latched around her waist, his wide open mouth only emphasizing his rough snores.

"Awwwww…" She smiled, not able to refrain herself as she reached up and ran her fingers lightly through his hair and away from his eyes; he was just too cute.

How did she not notice him falling asleep? He was right next to her after all; he had been for the past…how many hours? Realizing she had lost track of the time due to her fascination with the reality show marathon on TV she reached over and plucked her phone from a cup holder, the screen lighting up at her touch. Blinking against the brightness she found that a good five hours had passed since she first arrived and had breakfast for lunch with Beck.

How had five hours passed between them with only a handful of spoken words?

Looking back at Beck she found him still asleep and completely un-moved, his face still relaxed with the unconsciousness of sleep. Running a hand through her hair and looking back at the TV she realized that the show she had been watching earlier wasn't on despite the fact it had been a marathon.

What was going on?

Cocking her head to the side in thought she suddenly realized that she too had fallen asleep; and right next to Beck, no less! Smacking a hand against her face in disbelief she groaned and fell back against the sofa, her actions shifting the cushions and Beck's sleeping form. Why did she always seem to fall asleep on him? Rolling her head to the left she became face to face with the boy beside her, his face mere inches from her; all she'd need to do would be stretch across and her lips would meet his in another kiss.

But that wasn't going to happen no matter how much she wanted it too.

She had to go, to leave, to just stop fooling herself that maybe someday they'd be together.

Groaning once again Tori attempted to move from her position on the couch, her fingers softly prying away the arm that had snaked itself around her waist, but to no avail; the boy had a serious grip.

Trying a bit harder she jumped at the sudden vibrating from the cup holder where she knew his phone to be and reached over quickly to silence it's deafening roar in the otherwise quiet space. Lifting it quickly the small device slipped in her fingers, the screen lighting up and the incoming text message appearing on the screen. She didn't want to be nosy but also couldn't help herself as she squinted at the screen, the ID picture of the person texting Beck looking oddly familiar.

With a small scream of realization she shot forwards only to be locked into place by Beck's arm which caused her to nose dive to the floor where a pain filled grunt was ground out through clenched teeth.

"Torrriiiiii…?" Beck asked while yawning slightly and moving to get up, only to be tripped by the half of Tori that was still on the sofa and promptly falling down on top of her.

"Oh my god!" Tori yelped as he tried in vain to roll off of her in the small space crammed with flailing limbs, "Beck you need to move! I have to go!" She exclaimed as she fought against him until finally managing to push him away and pull herself to a semi standing position by means of the TV cabinet.

He looked up warily at her from the floor, sleep and confusion evident on his face.

"I don't unders—"

"There's no time, I just have to go!" She exclaimed, flinging his phone at him upon realizing it was still in her grasp as she made a break for the bathroom to collect her slightly damp clothes.

"I didn't mean to read it, it was an accident!" She continued to gush as she collected her bowl from the sink and struggled to slip her rain boots back on.

"What?"

"Your phone!" She said quickly, "It started vibrating and I went to move it but it lit up and I saw it was Jade texting you and couldn't help but read it and she's going to be here any minute meaning I'm going to be totally dead if she walks in here and I'm here and she thinks we're up to someth—"

"Tori, it's alright, just breathe!" He said cutting her off mid-freak out, "It's alright, Jade will never know you were here."

"But I have your clothes on!" She exclaimed, still struggling with a boot.

"Just bring 'em back later," He said pushing away her hands and fixing her boot so her foot would slip down inside where it was supposed to go, "it's no problem."

"I just don't want to get you in trouble and make her thi—"

"Tori!" He laughed, pulling her from her stooped position and guiding her to the door where he calmly picked up her umbrella and handed it to her where she practically ripped it from his hold and charged for the door. "You need to calm down."

"You're right," She sighed, rubbing a hand across her face, "It's just I know how Jade is around me and we already have some kind of weird friendship thing going on and I don't want to ruin it."

"You're not going to ruin it and Jade's not going to be mad."

"Well I still don't want to get you in trouble." She admitted, not meeting his eye and opting to play with her umbrella handle.

"Jade doesn't dictate who I can and can't hang out with when she abandons me for the weekend; I do. I chose you for company because you were in the same boat and she'll just have to deal with it." Tori looked up at this and smiled slightly though she was still internally freaking out about Jade walking in and finding them together.

"You're right," She said while nodding, "but can I still run away as quickly as possible?" She asked, her smile brightening as Beck just shook his head and smiled too.

"I don't see why not." He said as he finally opened the door and held her arm as she stepped down the small metal stairs and out into the driveway.

"Well," She sighed, turning to look at him one last time before making a break for home, "thanks for the company; it was by the far the best Memorial Day weekend I've ever had." She smiled once again, hoping her false happiness would outshine her budding disappointment that she'd never again have Beck to herself for a whole weekend.

"You're very welcome," He smiled back, though she could obviously tell he wasn't as good as hiding his emotions as her, "see ya on Tuesday." And with that he shut the door, her gaze never leaving his until the small click of the latch echoed across the water logged yard.

Smiling slightly she shook her head as she trudged her way through the now misting rain and set off for home, avoiding any main roads that Jade would likely drive down in her impatience to get to the silver RV that much quicker.

Why did it seem like he didn't want her to leave?

Could it be he felt that small spark of something between them too or was it just her adrenaline pumped brain playing tricks on her?

If it was the latter then that's just plain rude.

Oooo, Tori, that was close! :)

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