Hey Guys! Emily here! Well I was bored and as you may have noticed I am completely obsessed with Evanescence so I will be doing a type of song 3 shot or 4 shot maybe? The lyrics won't be there but just listen to the song while you read and See the resemblance. So anyway here we go! ENJOY 3 *2nd Story Btw Please Be nice* =)

Song: My Immortal

By: Evanescence

Eli POV:

Why Couldn't I just be Normal? Why did everything always have to happen to me? I wasn't crazy, but I couldn't stop. Every time, I try to throw something away I get scared that some one I love is going to die, and I'm not going through that again. Ever since the week of April 22nd ,2009 it started. The day Julia died. I was crushed and broken internally. Hell, I even tried committing suicide. She was the first girl I ever loved, and it's my fault she died.

But, then I moved to degrassi and met Clare. The Gorgeous Blue eyed beauty I was falling in love with. What I did was stupid. I yelled at her and made a show just because she cleaned out my locker. The look on her face… She looked Scarred. Terrorized. I bet she scared of me and won't even talk to me ever again. Damn it!

Now here I am outside my house in Morty crying like some love sick crazy idiot. Why couldn't thinks just be normal? Why couldn't I just stop… - My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of my mother saying to open the door. I clicked open the door with no response.

"Wow! It is coming down buckets! Better get inside before it gets worse." she said.

When I didn't respond she continued. "I was thinking Grill Tempe [1] for diner?" She said still trying to start a conversation.

"Thought maybe you would want to call Clare and invite her over?" She said. I was about to break down crying again just by the sound of her name.

"I'm not sure that would work" I said on the verge of tears.

"Are you gonna tell me what happened between you two?" She finally replied catching on.

"Clare and I, were- were just not gonna work out" I said in a raspy voice.

"But, you seemed so Happy with her?" She said confused.

"I was- but Now she knows the real me." I replied with a mixture of sadness and anger.

"Yeah, your dad told me she came over." She replied finally putting one and one together.

"It sucks living like me mom… It's Hell." I replied on the verge of tears once again.

"We tried to help you baby boy… I guess some how we let you get a little bit – Lost." My mom said feeling almost sorry for me.

"Lost in my own room" I said practically crying.

"Eli, it's been a long time since we lost Julia. Ever think you could change?" My mom said trying to point out the positives. But their weren't any.

"What if I forget?" I argued.

"Oh Eli! That stuff in your room… that's not Julia. Julia's in here" she said pointing to her heart. "and she would want you to be happy." She added

I couldn't do it. No one could help me. No matter how hard I tried. I put my head against the steering wheel and sighed. The only one who helped was Clare and she was gone.

A Couple Hours Later…

I needed to fix things. I walked up to Clare's house and knocked on the door. She opened it with a look of shock and surprise on her face.

"What are you doing here?" she asked in a soft and sweet tone.

I didn't bother to respond I walked into her house and sat down on the couch. She looked at me confused and shut the door. She walked up to me and sat down on the coffee table in front of me. I began to tell her the truth in a instant.

"It started after Julia died. The not throwing stuff out, Every time I try to throw out something- I feel like I'm gonna die. Or – or someone else is going to. Someone I love." I said with a shaking voice my body shaking and quivering.

"Eli, have you ever heard of hoardering?" Clare asked.

"Yeah, my mom said she'd take me to talk to someone. A therapist or something, I wanna change Clare. " I replied still shaking.

"That's good Eli. That's really really good. If you need anything just ask me, Okay?" She said trying to somehow give me hope.

"Here's what I want Clare. I want you not to give up on me. You're the only thing that makes me feel like, I could ever get better." I said to her. At the moment she grasped my hands in her own.

"Then I guess you're stuck with me. Just like you said I was stuck with you" she said beginning to smile. She jumped up and hugged me like she would never let go.

That was the moment I knew I was in love with Clare Edwards. Every Part of her was perfect. Her ocean blue eyes. Her cinnamon perfectly curled hair. Her fresh vanilla sent. Astounding. I still and probably always will love Julia. But right now all that mattered to me was Clare. Nothing could change that. I loved her…

Clare was perfect and all mine. I would never let anything hurt her. I would be like her lover and protector. Always By her side. [2]

END

Hehe =) What you guys think? Yeah not my best work but hey it's only my second story! Hopefully I will get better! REVIEW PLEASE! I will have maybe 2 or 3 other stories I'm thinking about posting their both songs from evanescence Yeah, I'm kind of obsessed with their music now =) hehe. But please review and tell me how I did? THANKS LOVE YAH 3 =)

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Now for the foot notes hehe =) didn't think I'd forget about those did you?

1. I wasn't sure exactly what they said so I just improvised.

2. THAT WAS A HINT TO NEXT CHAPTER. Hehe Want another hint? It has to do with the song Call Me when your sober. Clare when she says Eli's suffocating her, and car crashes? Wanna find out what happens? REVIEW =) Don't forget to add a story alert lol!

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