I am an ass hole. I don't know what got into me. last night. I'll never make it up to her, she hates me now, I know it. I guess I couldn't believe that she didn't want it as bad as I wanted it. I need to apologize, but how.
I walked over to Isabelle's room and knocked on her door. "Hey" I said" I need your help"
She opened her door. "What? The great Jace needs my help. Mark the date mark the time" she said with a smile.
"Will you just let me in."I asked her impatiently. She raised her eyebrows and opened the door and allowed me in.
"So I screwed up"I told her." Like big time"
"And you need to apologize and make it up to her" she finished.
"Help" I said again,willing to accept anything she said.
" Take her on a walk" she shrugged a shoulder," tell her your sorry."
" What if you screwed up so bad she wont even go on the walk?"
She shook her head, "What did you do? "
"I don't want to talk about it" I buried my face in my hands and ran my hands through my hair.
"Shell go Jace" she told me. "She can't resist you. Remember?"
"Apparently she can" I said under my breath.
"What?" Isabelle asked.
"Nothing. Thanks for the advise Izzy" I got up and left.
As I was walking out Isabelle called out of her room, "Jace she went to Simon's she wont be back till late" I stopped in my track And sighed.
"Thanks" I continued walking and didn't stop until I got to my room.
I never considered myself the type to practice what to tell a girl but there I was standing in front of my mirror talking to it like I hoped I could talk to Clary.
I started and stopped countless times, never satisfied with what I came up with. I slammed my fist down on the dresser next to the mirror. I need a shower.
I stripped down and got in the shower letting the hot water poor over me. Hoping that it would wash everything away and helping me with this stupid thing I got myself into.
But it didn't help at all, I only just kept thinking of the look on her face that my own arrogance caused her. She even hit me.
I got out and pulled on some boxers and a pair of jeans, and sat on the edge of my bed not willing to do much more.
I looked at the time 7:30pm. I'd slept in late. And my Clary was off with that vampire Simon somewhere. I know he was her best friend, but it kills me to know that he still has feelings for her and Clary would probably take him over me any day.
Out in the hall I heard church meow, and Clary say in a sad voice "hey Church. Thanks saying hi to me"
Those simple words made my heart drop.