Daddy this is our first Christmas without you and I am crying right now because you won't be here with us in your body. I go to mom's and yours bedroom sometimes because I can still remember you laying on your back watching tv or on your stomach asleep. I can still smell your scent all in the house and I sniff your clothes. I remember the times you held me soo close in your arms and never failed to protect me daddy. This is hard to write when I am crying and can't get all my thoughts together but daddy I love you so much and miss you tons. Tonight we went out and ate at CiCi's and I ate enough for both of us, and yes I did eat a brownie for you. I can just hear what you say everyday. We are trying to be strong daddy, but some days I break because I remember the last days that we spent together. I know you love me and I know you know I love you, but it just hurts I didn't say it enough when you were alive and well. Daddy, I am glad that you held me close in your arms and close to you for 18 years. I know when I look up at the stars and the clouds and everything, you are with me. Oh daddy how I miss you soo. I love you Daddy. Love your Baby Girl