Daddy here I am again, it's been 21 days since you got lifted up and I know why, you were suffering so much. I know you are always here with me. Daddy I miss you so much. I wished you were there with me, and mom, and JC at church Friday night but I know your sprirt was, it was so much fun. Sunday I heard a message that will life throughout me forever. Words I meant to say and didn't and words I said but I didn't mean. Daddy, when we were alone by our selves, I started an arguement I didn't mean, daddy I wished I could take it back but I can't but I know you forgave me. It just hurts me because I didn't know it was going to be our last time we were together. I just look back on those days and I cry and cry because I didn't mean to do what I did. I want to say things about you at the memorial but I just can't put the words I want to and everything. I wished we could erase the last week you were alive and redo it but we can't. I just love that we had our fun times more then the bad times. I couldn't have had a better daddy than you, you were always there beside me and when you weren't you were always on the phone with me telling me that you were alright. Daddy your baby girl is doing alright some times but I miss you. Everytime I am over at Susan's treatments I look out the window or door, imagining the car was out there with you in it, and at noon I look for you to come in and ask me if I want to go eat. Daddy I miss our one on one time. If I had just one more day I would do everything new, daddy. Daddy I would love to thank you for not abusing me in any way or hurting me, there are so many kids that gets abused and me and JC was one of the lucky ones to have a great father. Daddy I better quit typing I have so many tears coming down. I love you daddy so much and I miss you.