Daddy, I want to let you know I love you, altho you already know that. I am struggling still with the pain, my faith is still growing strong by each day that passes. I want to say something about you on Friday but I don't know if I can say it. I know I am going to be crying Friday at the memorial and I don't think I can stand up in front of everyone and cry while reading. I know people read my notes and say what a wonderful daughter I am, I am a good daughter but I don't know daddy. Sometimes it felt like I wasn't when I got you all mad and I knew your heart conditions and I did it anyways. Daddy I started a scrapbook of you so it can still look like you are here with me in person. It's still hard daddy not seeing you here with me. I blow kisses to the sky for you and I act crazy sometimes and laugh. I 3 my life and I know that you gave me all you love while you were with me and you still do at this very moment. I miss our times together, just me and you. Anything I wanted you made sure I got it or got close to it. For 18 years I had a great father and mentor and I still do, it's just hard not seeing you. I know I keep repeating that, but I still can't believe you are gone. I remember that day when you were awake from your coma and you knew I was crying and you flipped my hand over and held and squeezed it hard. I told you I loved you so much and you mouthed it too. Even tho I hate to keep it in my mind, the hospital visits weren't all bad, but I just couldn't see you in that state and I left and went to cry in the bathroom on the phone with friends or on the computer. I was never alone daddy, and I will never be. You and God are watching out for me. You walk everywhere I walk and go everywhere I do. Daddy, I want to tell you that since the day I was born I was wrapped around you finger and you never let go. Daddy, I feel so loved by so many people and I know I am. There are some people that I talk to that makes me think I am with them and knew them forever. There are some wrestlers I talk to everyday and they make me feel loved. I can never go to sleep before I get a goodnight from one person and you know who it is. 3 you daddy sooo much and I miss you.