Ahh I'm bad at keeping promises! I said this would be out weeks ago! I apologize that it's so short and so late! I'll try to get the next one out asap, But for now, enjoy!
Sebastian was already at the house by the time that Ellen and Jo showed up around four fifteen. Kate had managed to herd all five boys into the living room to watch whatever was on the TV. Despite the history between their fathers, Jo and Kate were very close. Jo was only a year or two older than Kate but she had maturity to bridge the gap and more. Part of the reason the two got along so well was because of the short supply of female hunters. Even though Kate was a far more experienced hunter they could understand each other well. "Hey guys!" Kate called sticking her head out the kitchen door, "Time to eat!"
Seb and Dean were the first to bound up and snatch up plates. After everyone had full plates they decide to forgoe the dining room and brought the food out into the living room to eat on the couches. Ellen chatted with Katie and Jo as they ate, laughing occasionally at the men, who couldn't be bothered to speak while they shoveled down seconds and thirds. When Dean set his empty plate down with a grunt Katie laughed, "Good thing I made enough food for an army."
He smirked and settled back into his armchair. "Sebastian ate a damn good chunk too." Jo added.
Kate smiled at him affectionately and he grinned back. "I'm just thankful the turkey wasn't dry." He teased.
She threw her shoe at him. "hey!"
Dean groaned, "Please tell me we aren't doing the 'I'm thankful for... blah blah blah' thing."
"We're not." Kate sighed, "But I do have to say I'm glad we got everyone here today."
Jo nodded and Sam said, "What do you mean we? You did all the work."
"Tasty work." Bobby added.
Everyone laughed and Sam got up and collected plates, effectively giving the signal that everyone was free to do as they pleased. Sebastian and his dad both got up and headed into the garage where a beat up pool table was housed. Ellen and Jo talked quietly and Katie silently watched her brother.
His eyes were as heavy as they had been everyday until the incident with Yellow Eyes. He had a slight smile on his face but she could see the sadness and the exhaustion in the set of his mouth. He dipped his head and titled it to the side. He caught her gaze with that smirk he wore as a defense mechanism. She nodded her head towards the door and he sighed. They stood up and she followed him outside. He led them to their spot in the backyard behind the workshop where the she would take things apart and put them back together again just to see how they worked. Behind the garage they kept a porch swing that was so rusted it no longer rocked. They sat down next to each other silently, and they could here the sounds of chatter from inside the house. Neither one spoke and the nervous silence made her cringe.
Breaking first she said his name.
He bowed his head and sighed, "You're going to make me talk about this aren't you?"
"Yes" She whispered, "But I wish I didn't have to."
"I know kid, me too." He leaned back and cast his eyes to the stars. "I did what I had to do Kate, I hope you know that."
Her eyebrows came together in a frown. "I understand, I only feel like we were forced to choose between brothers, and you chose for us."
"Katie Bean," He said quietly with an agonized expression, "There was no choosing, You and Sam, you're all I've got. It was my job to protect him, and you, and I failed. Now I have to pay for that."
"You are such an idiot!" She snapped, "You think that this a punishment for not protecting us?" Her voice broke and tears fell onto her cheeks, "None of this is your fault!" She pointed at the house. "Everyone in there, is here for you, they came because they love you. And everyone in there knows that this not your fault, why can't you see that? We all care about you and we all want to spend as much time with you as we can. None of us are ready to say goodbye because we know that you don't deserve this. And maybe if you did deserve it, it would be different but you don't."
He closed his eyes and opened them again. "I don't want to go to Hell Kate, if thats what you think."
She stayed quiet waiting for him to say more.
"I have to go wether we like it or not."
She shook her head, "No you don't! Let me talk to Cas, we'll figure something out. We'll-"
"No! If you mess with the deal Sam dies and If anyone has to die it's going to be me." Dean said firmly. "besides," He added with an attempt at humor, "You've always needed Sam much more than me."
"That's not true and you know it." Katie said not laughing, "I need you both."
Saying no more they both looked up and watched the sky until Sam called them inside.
"You'll be okay." Sebastian told her inside, holding her close. It was one of the many things she loved about him, he never tried to comfort her with lies only told her the truth, and the truth was she would be okay, someday.