'No.'
'Whyy?'
'Because I say!'
'So?'
XXX
'Ichigo!'
He throws his hands in the air.
'I can't move in with you! I don't dare!'
'Grimm, it's time to let go.'
XXX
'I can't! Can't you see?'
He's close to tears.
What is it that he fears?
I say, 'Help me see.'
XXX
'I hate looking weak,' he mutters.
'I can't leave. He's my father.
I must stay. Even if he beats me harder.
'Ichigo, is that wrong?' he utters.
XXX
I stare in surprise.
Then, I grab his hand and pull him near.
'Hush,' I say, 'I'm here, my dear.
'Let a new life rise.'
XXX
He smiles and blushes.
I don't care, I love it.
My entire world, he lit.
So we stay, no rushes.
XXX
I want an adventure flick.
He prefers a romantic one.
A mix of both might be fun.
I just hope I don't get sick.
XXX
I want a normal night.
Just the two of us.
Nothing capricious.
He deserves something right.
XXX
We watch the love one first.
Because he wanted to.
We cuddle up too.
And kept one drink to quench our thirst.
XXX
'You know they're going to kiss?'
I whisper in his ear.
'Well he's been calling her dear!'
He manages to hiss.
XXX
I laugh and ruffle his hair.
He lets me and I grow bold.
I bring him closer in my hold.
He just stares at the movie without a care.
XXX
I kiss his cheek.
Then I kiss his nose.
I kiss to his mouth so he knows.
Knows what I seek.
XXX
I kiss his mouth once.
Then again and again and again.
He tastes like spices and daisies in rain.
It's nothing I've tasted in months.
XXX
I don't know I long I was kissing him.
But I began to feel him pushing me away.
That's no fair! I don't get a say?
How can be cruelly keep this taste with him?
XXX
'Ichi, stop,' he begs.
'I'm not Ichi,' I rasp. 'I'm Shirosaki, kid.
Now watch me fuck you stupid.'
And I grab his legs.
XXX
He screams and kicks me.
I ignore and hold him down.
Really, his actions make me frown.
It'll hurt more if he messes with me!
XXX
Suddenly, he cries.
I snap out of it and look at him.
His eyes are red around the rim.
Can he take my lies?
XXX
'Grimm, I can explain.'
'Get away from me!'
'First, let me-!'
'No! I want to be sane!'
XXX
And he bolts out of the room.
I watch him go.
Why would he want to stay with Ichigo?
When Shiro might come soon?
I've never told anyone about Shiro.
He's my weakness, my flaw.
My demon bared raw.
And I just let him grow.
XXX
He went too far tonight.
He tried to hurt MY Grimmjow.
That I could not allow.
Because now, he's nowhere in sight.
XXX
He's not inside.
And he's left all his things behind.
I can't rest until I speak my mind.
Hence, I dare venture outside.
XXX
His face is stuck in my head.
His name is stuck in my throat.
It's cold but worry cost me my coat.
Worry that I might find him dead.
XXX
It's all your fault,' Shiro blames.
I snarl, 'Don't you dare blame ME!'
'Why? YOU couldn't control me!
Now watch your relationship go up in flames!'
XXX
'Shut up! Shut up!' I yell
And block my ears.
He giggles, 'What are your fears?'
'Huh?' What is he trying to tell?
XXX
'Are you scared of losing him?
Or are you afraid you'll KILL him?'
Like right out of a horror film.
Like that, my future seems dim.
XXX
Is that what I'm afraid of?
That he'll die by my hands?
But…I saved him! I don't understand!
I love him. Can I really kill him off?
XXX
'YES YOU CAN!' Shiro insists.
'Get out of my head!' I growl.
'I like it here so lose that scowl!'
He laughs as I curl my hands into fists.
XXX
'You think you can beat me out?'
'I WILL beat you out, you fuck!'
He goes crazy laughing, 'Good luck!'
And thus begins my pummeling bout.
XXX
That's when I hear a cry.
It's soft. I shouldn't have heard it.
But I do. And I stop my hissy fit.
I can see him all scared and I want to cry.
XXX
I try coming near.
But he keeps going backwards.
There is nothing, not even words,
That can wipe away his fear.
XXX
'Come out, Grimmjow.'
'No.'
'I'm not going to go.'
'Leave me alone NOW.'
XXX
'He's being difficult!' Shiro whines.
I snarl, 'Stay out of this!'
'Why don't you give him a KISS?'
He's coming. I can feel the signs.
XXX
'Grimmjow, run!'
'What?'
'Run before I cut-!'
I told him to run…
XXX
Shiro can be rough.
He would tear people limb from limb.
But Shiro had vicious plans for him.
Just to share his thoughts was enough.
XXX
I plead.
'He's all I have, please!'
'C'mon!' he giggles. 'I only want to tease!'
'Please, he's all I want, I NEED!'
XXX
'No, you don't.'
'Don't you tell me how I should feel!'
'If what you feel is real,
You'd stop me. But you won't.'
XXX
'You're a coward,' he declares.
'But…I...can't…'
'Cunt.'
He takes Grimmjow's shirt and tears.
XXX
He's trying to fight my demon.
Why? It's useless.
It'll end in a mess.
Why doesn't he just run?
XXX
He's a fighter.
I'm a coward.
Because he's scarred,
He's a fighter.
XXX
No more.
I told him I'd be his protector.
His lover, his savior.
And I am; to my very core.
XXX
So I'll fight.
For him I will.
Before there's a kill.
Yes, for him I'll fight.
XXX
'What are you doing?'
Shiro shrieks.
Whoa. Didn't know he freaks.
But I have to be his undoing.
XXX
Suddenly, he grabs my beloved's neck.
'One move,' he hisses.
'And he shall be getting death's kisses.'
'Stop! You've already made him a wreck!'
XXX
'Then sit back,
And let me have my fun!'
'You won't stop, even when you're done!
Compassion is what you lack!'
XXX
I pull myself away.
Clutching my head,
Body in pain, wishing I were dead.
But what will he say?
XXX
He's screaming.
He loves to fight.
Why does he curl up in fright?
I think I am dreaming.
XXX
'Don't give up.'
He's looking at me.
With blue, blue eyes he's looking at me.
'Ichigo, don't you dare give up.'
XXX
Shiro's hissing.
'Sick,' he spits,
'Love is sick! It's the PITS!'
I answer, 'Too bad. You're missing.'
XXX
'You WILL lose control!
I'll be back, you wait and see.'
'I won't let you get to me.
Now demon, release my soul.'
XXX
A smirk.
'I won't stop later like so.'
I know.
Behind every corner he will lurk.
XXX
Grimmjow is my world.
Protecting him is my job.
So his innocence Shiro cannot rob.
But my demon cannot be cured.
XXX
He'll always be there.
Taunting, tempting, teasing.
All the while, never ceasing.
He is beyond the will to care.
XXX
Shiro may never leave.
But what about Grimmjow?
He isn't bound to me now.
Leaving me he may perceive.
XXX
My eyes burn.
Tears sting me with their saltiness.
My life will forever be a mess.
My stomach decides to churn.
XXX
A hand lands on my shoulder.
And then, someone hugs me!
My tears blind me, I cannot see.
But my world no longer seems colder.
XXX
'I'm here.'
He whispers in my ear.
'No need to shed a tear.
Because I'll ALWAYS be here.'
XXX
I hug him too.
He saw me at my worst.
He saw that I was cursed.
But…he understood. He knew.
XXX
And he didn't care.
I wanted him by my side.
And he didn't mind.
To leave, he wouldn't dare.
XXX
I would climb mountains for him;
Cross oceans for him;
Jump off a cliff for him;
And I would fight for him.
XXX
Fight Shiro to remain sane.
As we leave, I hold him tight.
He is mine and this feels right.
But in my head, he laughs again.