Chapter Eleven
I DO NOT OWN THE SONG THAT CHRIS SINGS IN THIS CHAPTER!
I smile as Chris and I sit in the car. He's got a bandage over his right eye because during his and Evan's hellacious match, he managed to get himself cut. While he didn't pick up the win, the fans cheered him and Evan both. I look over at him and he looks like he's lost in thought. "What's going on in that head of yours?"
"Oh…well…it's nothing…" Chris lies.
"Your lieing to me. What's going on in that head of yours?" I ask again, putting my hand on the one of his hands that's laying on the arm rest between us.
"I was backstage and Cena came up to talk to me. He thinks that Wade and the rest of the boys from NXT were the ones who hurt Regal. I know those boys…they wouldn't do that. And I had planned to sing a song for them tonight, Wade's favorite Green Day song 21 Guns. But…I dunno…"
"First of all, if you don't think that Wade did that than maybe he didn't. Maybe it's just one of Cena's crazy whims." I start, trying to diverge him from the path of thinking badly of Wade just because I know how Chris feels about him. "Second of all, if you want to devote a song to your rookie, then devote a song to your rookie. Who gives a damn what others say? And since when have you been one to care what others think? Hell, you're devoted to being the number one hated guy in WWE history."
Chris laughs, "Yeah I guess you're right. I just…I dunno what to think. What if Wade and the others are the culprits? Otunga is despicable enough as it is. And Sheffield? Don't even get me started on Skip Sheffield."
"Do what you want. Don't worry about others. Not even me." I reply, not aware of that last part slipping out.
"What do you mean not even you? You're my wife, of course I'm going to worry about you. Is there a reason I should worry about you tonight more than usual?" Chris asks as he pulls into the parking lot of the bar and parks.
He turns and looks at me as I say, "No. I don't know where that came from. A slip of the tongue."
"You know, most slips of the tongue are based a little on truth." He raises an eyebrow at me, "So, are you sure you have nothing to tell me."
For a moment I think he knows. "Of course not. We're married. Married people don't keep secrets."
Chris smiles at me and says, "That's what I thought." He gets out of the car and I follow. "I'm gonna go get ready to play. You go on in and get a table close to the stage."
I nod and kiss him before walking into the bar. It's loud, even though the band isn't playing. I can see Cena and Orton shooting pool against Mike "The Miz" Mizanin and John Morrison, the Bella twins talking to some guy at the bar, and Evan talking with David Hart Smith and my two lovable Canadians. I take a seat by them, "Hey guys."
Natalya smiles, leaning over to hug me and almost spilling her drink in the process, "Heya Meggers."
"How many of those have you had Natty?" I laugh, hugging her back.
"She's had three. When Tyson said she could drink with the best of them, I didn't know the best of them meant Brett Hart," David laughs.
I have to smile, "Natty's always been one to run with the boys."
At that moment the door to the bar opens and the entire bar grows silent. In walks the Nexus, each dressed in slacks and button up shirts. They each look nice, including Wade. He's got his hair slicked back and he's wearing a black button up shirt with the top few buttons unbuttoned and black slacks with black buckle shoes. I can see why Chris says that most of the girls backstage fall in love with him. "You all don't have to be quiet on our account." Wade smirks.
"Who invited you all?" John asks.
"It's a free bar Cena, we can come here if we wish." Wade says, "and besides I'm supporting my pro, the same as the rest of my friends have supported theirs."
Cena starts to look like he's going to punch Wade but Randy grabs his arm, "John it's not worth it."
Chris walks out on stage and everyone quiets down. He leans into the microphone, guitar strap around his neck and holding a black acoustic guitar. "Hey hows everybody doing tonight?" me and the rest of the guys, except for the NXT boys that is, cheer. "Well, first up I'm gonna sing a song dedicated to my rookie Wade Barett. Here's hoping for a win tomorrow night."
Do you know whats worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating
If I didn't know better, I could say that Chris not only picked this song because of Wade loving it so much but because of the meaning behind this first part. It's almost like he's trying to convince Wade that even if he doesn't win, not to go to extremes and not to do something immensely stupid. I look over at Wade whose listening intently and drinking a beer.
Does the pain weigh out the pride
And you look for a place to hide
Did someone break your heart inside
You're in ruins
Though it doesn't seem like it, I bet those lyrics of the song fit the other members of the NXT gang. They must be hurt right now because of not being able to win NXT, looking for things and places to hide their true feelings. And most of them had their hearts broken by their pros, the same pro's that they've been attacking, and all because they're pros might have been brutally honest and told them they weren't going to make it.
One, twenty one guns
Lay down your arms give up the fight
One, twenty one guns
Throw up your arms into the sky you and I
Give up the fight? Now my mind races to if Chris really does think that they've been attacking their pros. I had admittedly never heard this song before tonight but I thought, with it being a Green Day song, it might be a little faster. That's not the case. This song is slow, almost as if it's trying to send a deliberate message. And he said it was Wade's favorite. Maybe I underestimated the big lug. Maybe there is more to him than a man who has talked all these other boys into following him to take down those who have hurt them. That right there is a feet unto itself though. He's leading these young men, which probably isn't an easy task.
When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
And your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
This verse fits me almost perfectly. When I heard that Vince maybe firing me and had moved me to the announcing table because I was getting older and was possibly going to fire Chris from the one job he loved more than anything, possibly even me, I felt like I was backed against a wall. So I did the one thing that I knew might get me out of that jam, I made a deal with Wade Barett. My thoughts since then, which was only this afternoon may I remind you, have taken their toll. I've almost become paranoid about it. The last line doesn't fit me, at least not yet. I dunno if this decision about joining these NXT boys is going to do me some harm or if it's just going to cause a fight between me and Chris. That is if I ever tell Chris. What was it I said in the car? Oh yeah, that's right, I told him married people don't keep secrets. Boy is he in for a shock.
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hang over doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins
Perhaps nothing is significant about that verse except for one line. Nothing's ever built to last. I should know that more than anyone. Almost as soon as Natalya, David, Tyson, and I graduated from the Hart Family Dungeon it closed. One of the longest open wrestling schools and it just closes down as if it were a resteraunt that got a bad health code. Then there was Natalya, Tyson and I's tag team. They were sent to ECW right off the bat and I was sent to Raw. We haven't tag teamed since. Then was my career in the ring in general. I got pregnant and just like that I gave it up. All because I wanted a family. Chris had a wife before…I'm almost afraid to think what would happen to us if we divorced. He means the world to me. And if nothing's ever built to last then one day…that's gonna end to.
One, twenty one guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, twenty one guns
Throw up your arms into the sky you and I
Chris intently breaks into a great guitar solo and I see, out of the corner of my eye because I don't want them to know that I'm watching them, Justin Gabriel lean forward as if he were trying to memorize the guitar cords and how Chris is doing that. They have to have hobbies of their own to. Justin must play guitar. I wonder what else sets them apart from one another. Maybe if I can find something big enough, I can split the team up when they start planning the big attacks.
Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home
Did you stand to close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone
Two things catch my eye. One is how amazingly awesome Chris was at holding out the note that stone landed on and the other is Wade leaning back, almost looking pensive as if this song if making him think about what he's doing as well. Maybe it has. Maybe he'll have a change in heart of whats going down and decide not to go through with whatever he has planned on Raw for if he wins. But I doubt it. They are all convinced that they are right and when a person is that convinced of something it usually takes a force of nature or an act of God to change their mind. I don't for see either of those happening anytime soon. The WWE isn't that lucky.
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins
As I sit there, watching the NXT boys out of the corner of my eye, I can see Wade look down at his glass as if he's trying to hide something. Then it hits me. That entire verse strikes him hard. This song means something to him. I think it over inside my head. The only line I can think of being that moving, apart from the entire song itself, it's the something inside this heart has died line. Something in his heart has died. If he doesn't win tomorrow…maybe he won't get another try. God knows that if he doesn't go along with his plans these other boys won't get their shot at the big time. Then it hits me. He's not planning this for himself. He knows he's good. He's been planning whatever he's planning so that these other boys can get a shot at stardom. He's done this for his friends. Nothing sets him apart from any of us. We'd all do something for our best friend. I'd take on the world to make sure both Evan and Chris got what they wanted out of life. That's what Wade is doing. He's just being seen as a bad guy because they don't get it. None of them get it. Not like I do.
One, twenty one guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, twenty one guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
One, twenty one guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, twenty one guns
Throw up your arms into the sky you and I
As Chris finishes up that song and launches into another I look over at Wade, only to notice him giving me a look. I think he knows that I know about why he's doing this. I smile and mouth, "I don't blame you."
He looks at me and mouths, "Glad you see it my way."