A/N: tadaaaa xD here's my 5th chapter xD I looovee writing something like that. hope ya guyz still like it

Chapter 5: Love and Silence

Elliot thought back to the phone call he had made later that day. Now he was sure that Olivia would help him. Always. Forever. But could he risk their friendship?

"Benson." Olivia answered.

"Hey, Liv. It's me."

"Elliot? Are you okay?" She sounded worried.

"Yeah, I just needed to hear your voice again. It's too long since the last time."

"Don't lie to me, Elliot Stabler. I know you aren't okay."

"Then why are you asking? But okay, you won. I can't even stand when I think about what I've done, Liv. I couldn't look you in the eyes either." Elliot sighed.

"El? Don't be mad at yourself. You don't have to. You just lost it. And that is okay. Even I got dropouts sometimes."

"But you don't almost kill the perps."

"Good point, but I think you know what I mean, don't you? You just have to talk to someone about what happened, okay? And then he or she can help you through it."

"And who the hell would that be then? Huang? Munch? Fin? No, I can't think of someone who could be that well in listening to such a crazy cop who loses his temper all three weeks."

Elliot smiled a bit. He knew what she was trying to talk about, but he liked to tantalize her a bit. Now he realized how much he had missed her.

"Maybe I'd be that. You thought of that point? Come on, Elliot. I know you're kidding. Shall I come to your apartment so we can talk about it?"

"NO! I mean, don't, okay? I… am not in my apartment. And I… I don't wanna talk about it now, okay? Please understand."

"Oh… okay. Then… can you tell me, where you are?"

Elliot sighed and told her the name of the ratty hotel. It was clear that she couldn't understand how he was going to live in it.

"Well, then… call me if you need something. I'll be there for you, every time you need me, El."

"Thank you, Liv. I know you will. I… love you."

Elliot put down the phone and leaned back in the chair of the hotel room he was staying in. He was sure; Olivia was helping him through his… problems. Whenever he needed it. That made him feel calm and safe. It was good to have someone who was caring and loving. Elliot sighed and closed his eyes. Now he felt the little touch of Liv's fingers on his hands, even if she wasn't there.

Now he realized that he loved her. Loved her more than he loved anyone else. He loved her eyes, dark brown and shining. Her hair, brown and wonderful. Her lips, rosy and graceful. Then another picture appeared in his mind: Kathy. Even if they fought the whole time they were spending together, they still loved each other.

But not as deep as Elliot's and Olivia's love was. Kathy was such a good and loving person, but she cared more about the five children she had with Elliot.

The kids understood all, that their parents wouldn't be together much longer. Elliot already had signed the divorce papers and was waiting for Kathy to do the same and send it back to him.

Elliot ran his fingers through his short, brown hair and stared at the ceiling. Soon he would get the reply with the signed papers from Kathy and send it to the lawyer. He hoped it wouldn't go much longer. He hoped it badly…

Meanwhile, Olivia sat at her desk and stared at the ceiling of the squad room. Her partner, Fin, looked at her, but said nothing.

Liv thought about Elliot and what he'd said to her. He said:

"I… love you."

And suddenly she knew it was true. He has always been there for her. In hard and in good times. He'd saved her life more than one time and risked his own for her.

It was more than love: He was her soul mate, her other half, her partner for the rest of their life.

Olivia sighed and turned to Fin. They locked eyes on each other.

"What?" he said.

"Do you think Elliot will come back again?"

"Yeah, I'm pretty sure about it. Maybe just for your sake, but he will."

"You are SURE about it? How can you know?"

"Everyone in the team knows you two guys are in love, Liv."

"Oh Lord… Is it really that obvious?"

Fin nodded and gazed through the open door of the office of their captain, even if there was nothing. Olivia sighed hard and went back to work.

Then there was a cough. Kathleen Stabler, Elliot's older daughter stood opposite the female detective and looked on the ground.

"Liv?" she asked.

"Yeah, Kat? What's up?"

"Uh… where's my dad, Liv? Isn't he here?"

"I… he is in a hotel, I think. Apparently not in his apartment, am I right?"

Liv decided to hold the information about the hotel name back. She didn't know if Elliot wanted to talk to one of his kids right now.

"You should call him and find out, Kathleen. I'm sure he's looking forward to hear something from you again."

"You don't know where he is?" the tall blonde asked. She looked just like Kathy to Olivia. Liv shook her head.

"No, but I know, he's alive and more or less happy."

Kathleen nodded thoughtful. Then she just turned around and walked to the elevators, without saying goodbye or thank you. When she was away, Olivia raised an eyebrow and began to work again. But soon her thoughts drifted to Elliot again.

Late in the night, Olivia woke up from a dream about work. She turned the radio on and listened to some slow music to calm her down, when something knocked at her window. Liv frowned and headed through the darkness to the glass and looked out.

She thought she saw someone hiding between the hedge and the street. But she wasn't sure about. Olivia nearly jumped out of her skin when her cell phone went off.

"Yeah?" she mumbled sleepy.

"L-Liv? I-It's Kathleen. I-I found m-my f-fathers h-hotel room… H-He isn't here b-but… there's l-lots of b-blood in here… P-Please… come a-and h-help me Liv…"

Silence filled Olivia's apartment.

Quiet.

Nothing.

Emptiness.

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