A/n: I don't Harry potter one bit I wish I did but I don't sadly but that's another story.

When they finally reached Dumbledore's office, Dumbledore offered Severus some candy, to which he just got a glare, saying 'Is this really the time for candy right now.'

"Severus so do you know what has happened to the Dark Lord, you said you didn't know where he was," asked Dumbledore with a serious look on his face.

"One of the Death Eaters I meet before going to the Potter's said that he was gone, as in not anymore, " said Severus softly.

"Severus I must ask you why you came here tonight instead of being with your fellow Death Eaters."

"Sir, I have had enough, the woman I love and her child were almost killed tonight and it was my entire fault, if only I didn't tell Voldemort about the prophecy then this wouldn't have happened."

Dumbledore looked at Severus thoughtfully, coming up with a plan that could work out in the future.

"Severus, I have a proposition for you, one that will clear your name and also when the trails start for the Death Eaters, you will not be a part of, and one that will help you on a new path, I want you to become a spy for the Order of the Phoenix, it is an organization that opposes Voldemort and everything he stands for. Many people are a part of it including Lily, coincidentally. So what do you say do you want to join," Dumbledore informed Severus, adding that last bit to make sure Severus joined him.

"I will join, just tell me what you need to be done and I shall do it, if you don't mind I will go back to the hospital wing and check on Lily," Severus said as he got up to leave, he did so when Dumbledore waved him along and sent him on his way.

Still with baby Harry in his hands he went on his way to the hospital wing of the castle. When he got there he found a chair next to Lily's bed and with Harry in his arms he sat down and watched over Lily. But Severus was running on very little sleep he leaned back and fell asleep with sleeping Harry in his arms.

That was the scene Lily woke up to find when she eventually opened her eyes, she saw her ex-best friend holding her son and they were both asleep. Lily smiled lightly, and then she remembered that she just lost the love of her life tonight, which prompted her to turn the opposite way and silently cry.

Severus woke up to the light sobs that Lily desperately tried to hide.

'I have to rectify this,' thought Severus.

Severus got up and put sleeping Harry on the next bed over and went over to Lily and started to rub her back very lightly.

"It's not your fault Lils its all mine, if only I kept my mouth shut….so if you need any one to blame, please blame me. If you want to kill me, I won't resist, it is my entire fault," said Severus very softly. Severus knew all this was his fault and before he could be the friend he should have been, he thought about making himself the enemy. He was the cause of it, and he didn't deserve Lily, friendship, he didn't even deserve to be able to rub her back like he was now, so he did what was right and confessed the truth straight out, rather to hide behind bitterness, like he had done before. And that's what he did.

Lily on the other hand was so shocked that she did hear what Severus said but at this moment, she didn't really care. At that moment she only cared about the fact that she had her friend back, her childhood friend who she had missed so much over the years. The older she got the more she regretted what happened between her and Severus and she wanted to rectify many times before, but by the time she found the courage to talk to him again this war happened and she found out that they were on opposite sides and there was nothing she could do, she went into hiding away from the world.

Lily just turned around and covered Severus' mouth like she did when they were younger to get him to shut up and hugged him and just cried. Severus just stayed there understanding that Lily didn't want to hear more and that she just wanted to cry on his shoulder.

After 10 minutes Lily finally stop crying, and fell asleep against his shoulder while he kept rubbing her back to calm her down. When Severus heard that she went to sleep he put her back into bed and covered her up and made sure she was tucked in and then went over and grabbed Harry and sat right next to Lily again watching the even movement of her breath going in and out of her body. It was the only sure way he knew she was alive. He had already thought she was dead once today, he was going to make sure it would never happen again.

A/n: sorry for a short chapter it just seems to be the best place to stop. Thank you angelous369, Demoness Blaze, JustAGirl019 and UltimateLHOTPFan for adding my story or me to your alerts or favorite and thank you to raider09 for the review. I hope to have longer chapters in the futures thank you for your support.