Chapter 17 Freak out

John's POV

I was so glad for the end of the day, all I could think of was having a nice hot shower and curling up in bed with Jamie beside me. I heard about the crap Traci tried to pull and apparently not only did she get outsmarted by Jamie but she was also welcomed to beat down street (as Raven would put it apparently) I had to admit it was good to see that that bitch finally got what was coming to her. I was starting to think maybe she was as thick as a plank of wood. Picking up my stuff I headed to the hotel and up to our room. According to Miz, Jamie went back earlier than intended claiming to feel sick. Grabbing some red roses to make her feel better I made it to our room in quick fashion.

"Jamie!" I called out to her hearing the water running. Now I was in the mood for another shower knowing that I wouldget dirty long before I got clean. Thinking that she didn't hear me, I set my stuff down and put the roses in a near-by vase. I knew she would like them simply because they were bright and smelled nice and because they were from me. "Jamie!" I called out again as the door opened. Her face went pale as she grasped the robe she was wearing closer to her body "What are you doing here?"

"Uh hellew, we share a room remember" I laughed a little looking at her. Those blue eyes wide with fear. Instantly my heart lept into my throat, something clearly wasn't right. "Jamie whats wrong?" I stepped forward making her retreat

"Please don't! You said you were sorry!" Jamie pleaded at me, tears streaking down her face. Ok something was really really wrong.

"Jamie its me, John. I'm not going to hurt you"

She shook her head not believing me "Yes you are, you said you wouldn't anymore! You said you were sorry"

"Jamie I'm not going to hurt you, I would never hurt you" I tried to keep my voice steady and calm. She was freaking me out. Whatever she was talking about made no sense but apparently someone hurt her, I just hoped it wasn't me.

"You hurt me before!" Jamie shouted "Why did you do that to me!"

"Jamie I didn't do anything to you, I wouldn't hurt you"

She started to shake her head furiously, muttering to herself. I thought maybe she was having another TIA but this didn't fit the symptoms. This was way outta my depth but I had to do something because whatever she was going through she wasn't going to go through it alone.

"You know what you did" She looked up at me coldly before returning to pleading "You promised me you wouldn't do it again! I didn't tell anyone just like you asked"

"Jamie..." I tried to get closer to her but thats when I made the real mistake. Screaming like a banshee she started to swing, shouting in hurt anger. "I won't let you do it again! It hurt the first time! No! No! No!"

She caught me right across the face, stumbling backwards I caught myself before I fell. Jamie stopped and looked at me in nothing but utter fear. That alone broke my heart, she was afraid of me. "Please don't hurt me! I just don't wanna do it again, please don't make me"

"Jamie I'm not gonna make you do anything you don't want too" I said gently, throbbing pain etched across my jaw. She got me pretty good.

"Please just leave, please don't do it again. I've been a good girl I swear I have" Jamie litterly got down on her knees and begged me to leave. The way I saw it I had no other choice. Sighing I took everything she could use to hurt herself away before locking the door from the outside. At least only I would be able to get in. Freaking out I sent a text to Raven, she said if I ever needed anything to text her, well I needed to know why the hell my girlfriend was freaking out and what I had done to hurt her so bad. Putting my phone away I headed down the hall, I still needed a place to crash and someone to talk too about this latest development.

I knocked on the door twice hoping that a bed was available. "John?"

"Hey Randy, mind if I crash with you tonight?"

He stood back and let me, "Jamie kick you out?" He laughed as I crashed down on the bed.

"Sit down I have something to tell you. Hopefully you can help me figure it out"