Chapter 26 Are you stupid?
Johns POV
The news still shocked me and disturbed me to the core. Someone had violated my Jamie in the worst of ways and I was no better (because of the molesting thing) Jamie began to notice in the past three days that I had become distant (although she said like a goat) I could put it down to the pay per view coming up so that bought me some time. While she was in town I decided to have a chat to Raven after all she used to be a psychologist, maybe she could help. The small girl was in the locker room talking to Randy about something, when I came in they instantly shut up, like they were talking about me.
"Hey Raven"
"Hey John"
She looked so pale or maybe it was just me, "Can I talk to you for a moment Raven?"
"Sure" She kissed Randy's cheek "And I'm not going to the fucking doctors so leave it"
"Fine but I still say there can be something done" Randy said darkly as Raven took my arm and lead me out the door.
I led her to my locker room before shutting the door and bolting it shut, even Jamie wasn't allowed to interrupt this because this is something I wanted her to hear at least not yet.
"So what did you want?"
"You have to tell her"
"Tell who what now?" Raven looked at me confused.
"You have to tell Jamie what happened to her, you have to tell her the truth"
"About the car accident"
"You know thats not what happend to her"
"Let me get this straight, you want me to tell Jamie that she was raped by her sisters boyfriend then her sister smashed her head into a fridge and then I got sent to the SAS as punishment for the murder of that slut?"
"You killed your own sister?" My eyes bulged, they bulged even more as Raven shrugged it off casually "She hurt Jamie so I hurt her. As it turns out I was stronger and more lethal. Funny that"
"Ok put that aside, you have to tell her. She has a right to know Raven"
"Can I ask one question? Are you fucking retarded?"
"Excuse me?"
"You want me to put the nightmare in her head and destroy her"
"She has a right to know Raven and if she knows then maybe she can work through it and move on and she won't freak out"
"Let me tell you something John, three hundred and sixty four days of the year she is blissfully un-aware of what happened, she freaks out for one day and then moves on. If you tell her what happened to her it would destroy her and if you destroy her I will destroy you"
"Really?"
"Four people have died already for making Jamie's life hell I won't hesitate to make it five. Now leave it be"
"She has a right to know Raven"
"John she is better not knowing and you know it, the only reason you want her knowing is to make yourself feel better. Just move on already, it was five years ago and all the people involved in the incident are dead and Jamie is finally happy so just get over it. Now if you don't mind I have to go and tell Randy that he's taking me to the doctors because apparently it will help"
Raven slid out the door leaving me to think, I knew she was right deep down but that didn't make it easier. I knew I couldn't tell Jamie what happened to her and I think the real reason I wanted to was because I felt so helpless, there was nothing I could do to change the fact that she was raped.
Who do you agree with?