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If what you see by the eye doesn't please you, the close your eyes and see from the heart, Because the heart can see beauty and love more than the eyes can ever wonder..
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Its been at least two week since me and Edward have spoken and really now I couldn't careless, no I lie I really do care, its killing me that Jess has got what I want, I mean sure me and Seth grow closer and stronger each day, but I feel something's different, like he's a puppet on strings and someone's controlling his ever move, but anyway have you ever had that feeling when you get butterflies, you knees go wobbly, your head goes blank and you cant take your eyes of that special person?. That's what I feel like when I see him, I don't show it though, what am I suppose to do, let him and Jess win, not in this life time The Swan kids are strong, not cowardly wimps.
Seth was so sweet, but we both knew he's not the one I want, but people do it everyday, pretend everything's alright with your so called love one, when your not happy at all, your dieing to get out and be free, like your softly being suffocated, you can never hide form your feelings, its impossible, unless you're a heartless robot..?
I sigh and hold Seth's hand back as he leads me into school, I have gotten use to all the stares and gasps now, we just ignore them, some of them were girls that liked Seth, and hate me for going out with him, I get a lot of dirty looks, would it be like this if I was going out with the gorgeous nerd?
Seth stops by my maths class, he turns around to face me, smiles and kisses my cheek, he seems more like a gay best mate than my almost boyfriend. I smile back and watch him walk away, it had become a habit for him to kiss me by my classroom before walking away, first it was my fore head, now its my cheek I'm certain it will be on the lips by the end of this week. I felt tired, irritated and annoyed, mostly at myself for letting myself get like this, If I had just told Edward what I really felt like then maybe I would have the slightest chance with him, maybe he would be with me and would have dumped Jess a week ago, but I guess I've told myself I need to get over him, plus I don't know how to tell Seth that I'm more in love with Edward than him, I did like-like Seth I guess, just not as much as I would like to, I think he likes me more than I like him. I slowly push open the door to my class and sit in my usual seat at the front, I was totally on my own witch is what I liked no stupid distractions.
More pupils file into the class room before and after the bell rang for class, I was a stupid time freak and always like to get into class early.
"Alright class, take your seats, I swear if anyone else comes in late I will slaughter them," Just as our math teacher finishes, the door swings open and in came Mike and Edward. Wait. Double take, Edward wasn't in this class, what the fuck, no, crap there's only one seat left and…
"Ahh Edward Cullen yep, your lucky one seat left at the front, By Isabella, opps sorry Bella," Ahh really this cant be happening, I have tried so hard to avoid him, and that's all spoiled in a bloody maths class. Edward came over and sat down on the seat next to me, I scooted over to the end of the desk trying to put the biggest gap in-between both of us, Edward looks down at the gap and sighs, I haven't even looked at what he was wearing, till his shoes tapping on the chair distracted me from my thinking, I look him up and down, before letting out a small gasp, he looked amazing, he was amazing. Edward looked at me and smiled, I swung my head around so I was looking out of the window, I let my hair fall to over the side of my face so I couldn't see him, it was a pretty day outside, witch was strange considering this was forks a really rainy place, this was a rare day..
"Bella do you know the answer?" The teacher calls my name out, taking me from my thinking. I look up at the teacher and go red.
"I uhh… um well sir….What was the question again.." I stutter, the class burst into laughter and my cheeks just go redder, my face goes warm and my palms start to sweat, I desperately need some help.
"Eight hundred and seventy two," Edward whispered.
"What," I say only then did I realise I had broken my promise to myself not to talk to him. Dammit
"Eight hundred and seventy two," He repeated again, I finally got the drift of what he was trying to do, he was helping me, but why?.
"Bella do you have a answer?" The teacher says sternly, his eye brows raised
"Uhh yeah.. Eight hundred and seventy two," I smile sheepishly, the Teacher I can say was very surprised that I got the answer right because I was shite at maths, I swear he picks on me just to make me feel bad.
"Thanks," I mumble to Edward.
"No problem," HE whispers back, I hold my breath, I haven't heard his voice up close in what seems like forever, I was the sweetest most humble thing I've ever heard, and I've been ignoring it. Our math teachers goes on about the subject were doing and as usual, I ignore every word he says, that's probably why I don't have a clue what's going on most of the time.
"Bella," A whisper come from the chair next to me. No Bella Ignore him, don't answer don't answer..
"Yeah," I mutter back. Dammit curse his good looking, nice, sensible caring self.
"Can we talk."
"What in the middle of maths…. Sure," I sigh, Where is this leading.
"Can we be civilised about this," It crushed me when he said this I thought he was going to come out and say, I want you not Jess, I want to be with you, I made the worst mistake of my life.. Yeah in my dreams….
"So you know that end of the year dance is coming up.. Well I was wondering if.." IF, IF ohh my gosh what is it, spit it out boy.
"If you and Seth want to come with me and Jess, sort of like a double date thing," He smiled, but I frowned, I hadn't even thought about the dance, the night to remember, its called, sort of a rehearsal for prom. I guess it would be me and Seth going but I have been thinking it isn't to late to do something about my feelings.
"Maybe," I mutter sourly. Edwards eyes go dull, maybe, just maybe he's hurting just as much as I am.
EPOV
Ahh Common, I wasn't happy with Jess in fact I think she's a selfish cow, very vain and no were near as pretty as Bella was, but Bella was with Seth and I've seen how happy they are, I just didn't think it was possible for someone to move on like that, she probably didn't like me in the first place.. I so badly wanted to see her in an elegant dress that would compliment her incredible body. When I walked into this classroom this morning and was placed by Bella, I could have fainted, I didn't mind that she was ignoring me just seeing her up close again was enough for me, and then when she spoke I could have cried, it seems like an eternity since we last talked, I miss her, I miss her scent and her touch, her perfect lips and beautiful chocolate brown eyes.
I look down at the sheet of maths questions and moan, I really couldn't be arsed to do maths when I could look at Bella, might as well speak to her when I get the chance.
"I'm sorry if I upset you," I whisper to her, moving my hand closer to her arm.
"If you upset me, you go off with that bitch and then leave me hanging like a stupid Muppet and.. Oh forget it," She spat at me, it was now or never.
"Bella, I'm sorry I left you and walked of with Jess, but I thought you were going to tell me something like I don't want to go out with you again, we cant be friends, your stupid loser, and then slap me or something," I whine, I didn't want to make this hard.
"Edward I was going to tell you how I really felt about you, how I had fallen in love with you," She yelled at me, again the whole class stopped and looked at her, She rolled her eyes at me then stomped out of the class room.
"Bella wait-" I cry out, I should have known that was what she wanted to tell me, why was I so bloody stupid. I get out of my seat and start to go after her.
"My Cullen sit down and get on with your work, and Pull up your flipping trousers your under wear is starting to show," The teacher yelled, I looked down at my trousers, fuck sake.
BPOV.
Stupid Edward, stupid Class, stupid life. I just admitted I liked Edward Cullen in front of the whole class including him, I really need to think things through before I speak, I round the corner, and gasp at what is see, Seth and Emily Young, kissing by my fucking locker.
"Seth ," I yell angrily, he jumps looks at me with wide eyes and shakes his head.
"Bella I need to tell you something," Seth says coming closer to me. Fuck yeah you do.
"I would say so, you have about a minuet to explain yourself before I sap the shit out of you Seth," I yell in his face, okay I say I like Edward but I did like Seth to, I like him enough to get pissed at him for cheating.
"Look Bella, Jasper put me up to this, he paid me to go out with you so that you would get over Edward, I didn't want to do it but he convinced me that it was what was best for you, how could I let him and you down, I'm so sorry, but I never liked you not in that way you're a awesome mate but I've fell in love with Emily," He spoke so quickly I didn't have enough time to register what he said, My brother Jasper the person I looked up to paid some kid to go out with me to stop me from responding to my feelings, that dirty no good fucking idiot, wait till I get my claws into him, but first for Seth he has to know that what he did had two roads to go down he could have said no, because I know he new it wasn't the right thing to do. I look up Seth, and swipe my hand across his cheek, not to hard but hard enough to leave a hand print and a message: DON'T FUCKING MESS WITH ME IDIOT.
"I guess I deserved that," Seth whined touching his now reddened cheek.
"Hey calm down Bella, this is Jaspers fault not Seth's," Emily says defectively coming forward and taking Seth's hand, you would think that would kill me, but now I know he never liked me in that way, I've come to realise in those few minuets of him explaining himself that there's only one boy in my heart.
"Thanks for telling me," I sigh giving a small smile to Seth, ignoring Emily after all he had technically cheated on me.
"I'm sorry,"
"Its okay Seth, now I got to go murder my brother," I smile and chuckle a little, I turn away but a hand caught my shoulder, I spin around to see Emily, She's got a shy smile on her face.
"Give him a slap form me," I burst into a small giggle and she giggles a little with me.
"Okay," I sigh and walk away. Look out Jasper Swan.
Its been All day since I've seen Jasper, I think Seth might have tipped him of that I knew, and so he should, I've been holding my anger in all day and I am just about ready to explode. I push the door open to the canteen and see my brother in his usual seat next to Alice. Your mine. As soon as he sees me he gets out of his seat and gets ready to run, but I'm already running at him, he runs around the other side of the table just as I get there.
"Now Bella I'm sorry okay," Jasper tried to reason with me, his face scared.
"Shut up you Jackass," I shout as I run around the table to catch him, a stupid thing to do really because he runs to and then we just end up on ether side of the table. Fuck sake.
"I just wanted you to be happy," Jasper shouted, I'm sure the whole canteen was now watching, including Edward.
"Yeah because I'm going to be happy when you pay one of your mates to go out with me," I scream. I drop my head and before me was a bowl of mushy rice pudding, I put on my best shit eating face then pick up the bowl and fling it at Jasper. Jasper stumbles back and realises what's just happened, he rushes to the table and picks up a hand full of mash potato and responds by throwing it in my face, I flick the mushy, lumpy stuff of my face and smile, this was going to be fun.
"FOOD FIGHT," Mike shouts and at that the whole Canteen goes into fun up roar of laughing shouting and screaming, Apple pie, Jelly, sandwiches and today's surprise casserole goes flying round hitting random people. I throw a bowl of custard at Jasper and he ducks, it hits Jessica who screams.
"My hair, oh my god my hair," She screeches, I swear a window broke, she turns around to see me, and her eyes go black, crap. She picks up her whole tray of food and flings it at me, I put my hands out in defence and as it hits me I yelp. I have this brave feeling inside of me to just tell what I feel, and that I couldn't careless if I piss anyone of.
I stand up on the table and whistle as powerful and as loud as I could. The whole canteen stops and looks at me, Well that was easy, now for the hard bit. I clear my throat. I turn to look at Edward who was looking at me.
"Edward Cullen, I am in love with you," I blurt out. The room was full of Gasps and shocked faces, I realise what I've done now, I just embarrassed myself in front of everybody when I could have told him this in private. Nice going Isabella Swan. I look at Edward for some help, but his moth was just hung open, and then I look at Jess, it looks like she was the tiger and I was the helpless dear, I'm about to become her dinner. She bursts into a loud laugh.
"Ahh to late hunnie he's got me," Jess says fluttering her eye lashes,
"And another thing, stop acting like a spoiled brat Bella, its not good for your uhh skin, when are you going to sort out how you look anyway," She laughs. My fists ball up and I feel my eyes get wider and my jaw clench tight, I wasn't going to let my anger rip out of me but I couldn't stop myself from letting Jessica get what she deserves, not this time. She's always picked on my pissed me of and now she gets the one thing that I so desperately want, It isn't fair.
"Oh my god shut up you two faced stuck up blond, piss take of a girl, I can change my face but you will always have the same bitchy, sluty attitude, I mean you wouldn't even give Edward the time of day before his make over, I noticed something special when he first sat opposite me, have you ever noticed how his Green eyes sparkle, I noticed that before I completely changed him, I'm starting to wonder if he was perfect the way he was before."
"What are you on about you bitch, run along to your stupid friend and don't bother me and Edward, Of course the make over was necessary, I wouldn't look at him if he didn't look how he did now" Typical Jessica behaviour
"I'm the bitch I bet no one here even likes you I be they all think out a stupid back stabbing bitch, don't blame me if I'm only saying what their thinking, see that's what you have to learn about me is I'm not afraid to speak my mind I'm not one of those people to spread shit that's not true, you think your better than everyone Jess,, well I beg to differ, In case you didn't already know the world doesn't evolve Around Jessica Stanley,"
"Stop saying-"
"What stop saying the truth well that's how my parents raised me, to tell the truth, I'm not like you who lies for your own enjoyment,"
"Ha, Bella, don't be so jealous I know everything you say would be out of jealousy, why wouldn't it be when I got the one thing you cant have, Arww poor Bella," its like she was asking for it, her friends laugh along uneasily, I think maybe, just maybe they're getting sick of Jess's up tight attitude towards everybody.
"Alright Jess whatever keep your small body and your massive head happy," I grin
"Edward Say something," Jess says irritated. Edward looks between both of us and then lands his eyes on me.
"Sorry Jess but she's right your all of that," Edward says simply
"What the Fuck, Edward are you kidding me, your Agreeing with that stupid bitch?" Jess says out of obvious jealousy. Edward just gets up from his seat and starts to walk away from the table he was sat on.
"Edward don't walk away from me," Jess screams. Edward turns around and smirks.
"Don't give up your day job," He then looks at me, and I smile. Maybe he had felt the same way about me as I had about him. He opens his mouth once more.
"Jessica Stanley, you are officially dumped, I hope you very happy and I hope you know how you treat people and how you make them feel, how about that, being dumped by the nerdy stupid boy that is Edward Cullen."
"Yes Edward," Someone shouts out. The Canteen goes up into a loud cheer of whooping and laughing, because everyone was now proud that someone had finally given Jessica what she had dished out all these years. I smile at Edward and he smiles back.
"Alright Everyone Listen up, who was the punk that started the stupid food fight," Out head master boomed. Jess stood up with a evil smile on her face.
"Isabella Swan did," She yelled out .
Busted.
EPOV
This was my chance to get myself out of the whole I had dug myself with Jess, I've become sick of her being, well Jess. It angered me when she put Bella down like that and basically called her ugly, Bella was the most beautiful, wonderful person I will ever meet, I've never seen this side of Jess, I cant say I'm surprised though, just looking at the way she talks to her friends it's shallow and out of order. She better sort herself out before someone else does….
She can say what ever she wants about me, but she cant say anything about Bella while she looked like that, I knew she only likes me because I looked different, but it touched me when Bella said she noticed my eyes even before I had my make over, I loved the fact that she thought she had made the mistake of changing me and that I was perfect the way I was, I could say the same for her, if she was looking for perfect then she should look in the mirror everyday of her life, for the rest of her life.
"Isabella Swan did," Jess yelled out, Bella was not going down alone.
"No sir it was me too," I shout out, I look at Bella and she mouths the Word "Don't" I just smile at her, it will give us time to patch up the unneeded heart ace both of us have experienced.
I look at Bella one more times and mouth the words "I love you,".
Ohhh wonder whats going to happen next...
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