Jade

I woke up in the morning, remembering the dream I had last night.

Flashback

I was sitting on my bed, listening to music, as my phone rang once again. I winced at the first ring of the phone, because it was really loud, so I could hear it clearly. I slowly got up, walking towards my desk, where my cell phone was lying. As I reached the desk, I took my cell phone and looked at it.

"Anonymous" I sighed. Once again, the same shit, and it's creeping me out. I took a deep breath and answered it.

"Hello?" I waited "Hello? Who am I talking to?" I asked, after hearing no answer. Suddenly the room want dark. My cell phone vanished and I looked around scared to death. There was no one. I got really nervous and tears were making their way up to my eyes. I spin around, until persons start to appear. First it was Sinjin. Then it was Robbie, followed by Andre, Beck, Patrick and Sikowitz. They built a circle around me and they stepped forward. Repeating it all the time, until they were just inches away from me. Every one had his eyes wide open and the creepiest smile I've ever seen. I gulped as I felt vulnerable and defenceless. I wanted to scream, to tell them to stop, but all that came out was my unsteady breath. Tears were running down my eyes, as they started to touch me everywhere.

"I want you Jade. I like you and you like me, too. You know it." Every one of them said. I closed my eyes. As I opened my eyes again, I was in my room, alone in the darkness. I breathed heavily.

End Flashback.

I was so glad, that it was only a dream. I got up and walked towards my desk. I took my cell phone and looked at it. '20 missed calls and 40 text messages' was all I read, before I threw it on my bed. I sat down on my chair and put my head in between my hands. Why is he so annoying? Why me of all people? I sighed and looked up. That was the first time I noticed a small package. I took it and removed the wrapping. Since the gift wrap was black, it kind of interested me. I opened the package and a necklace with a black skull as a pendant was faced by me. I smiled. This was beautiful, was this from Beck? I looked around, if someone left a note with it. I found a small piece of paper. I grabbed it excitedly and began to read out loudly.

'Dear Jade,

since I know you like skulls and black things, I thought that this would please you. When I first saw it, I imagined you wearing it and it just fitted so great, that I thought a gift would maybe change your mind. You know, about us. We could be so happy together. Think about it.

In true and deep love,

your Anonymous'

As I read the third line, my excitement turned into disgust, pure disgust. I was shocked as I noticed, that he was here. Here in my house, in my room. He saw me sleeping, sleeping and vulnerable. Was it Beck? No, I accompanied him to the door and I slept one hour after he left. I shook my head and began to cry. I hate him, hate him more than anything! How can he do this to me? Ruin my life, make me feel like…like crap. This time it wasn't just a single tear, it was a whole sea of tears. And I couldn't, I wouldn't hold them back.

I cried for about two hours. Then I stopped. No! He is not gonna make me feel like that. I am a strong woman…teenager and I have no fear. Yes I have fear, but he won't see it, no.

Suddenly my door opened, as my mother stepped in.

"Hey sweetie, we're back." she said happily, kissing me on top of my head. Then she saw my swollen eyes. "What's wrong, sweetie?" she asked concerned. She knew I hated it, when she called me 'sweetie' but at the moment I didn't really care. I needed someone to talk.

"Mom, someone is stalking me" I whispered.

"What? Stalking?" she asked, trying to confirm if she just heard right. I nodded slightly.

"Yes" I breathed.

"Oh goodness, Jade! I told you not to go chatting with foreign people. They are a danger for you and for your family. But you just wouldn't listen, would you? No! You are always doing the complete opposite of what we're telling you. Why?" she burst out angrily. I was flabbergasted by her reaction. That was nothing I even expected of her. I thought she would try to cheer me up, but instead she made reproaches.

"I…I…" I tried to say anything, but I just couldn't talk.

"You will do nothing. I gotta talk to your dad and tell him about everything"

"No! Mom, please don't! He will just…" I trailed off.

"He will what?" she asked raising an eyebrow.

"Nothing" I whispered. With that she left. I wanted to say 'hate me more' but I just let her go. She was too stubborn to listen to me. I wanted to tell her that the stalker was here in my room, in our house, but I just let it be. She would totally freak out.

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You

You are lying on your bed, facing the ceiling, as you remember your exciting trip to Jade's house yesterday. Her t-shirt, her bra, her small plate, her room, her bed, her face, her sleeping body. You inhale deeply, as you think about her. Your phone rings and you look at it. You could see the callers ID, but you decide not to answer. You don't want to talk right now. You look down on the piece of cloth on your floor. The shirt with the flower pattern was smiling at you, wanting you to come enter a happy, optimistic world. You shake your head in a 'No, thank you' kind of way. Different thoughts wander through your mind, as you remember that you bought her a gift. A gift which fitted her perfectly: a black skull necklace. You wonder if she liked it or not. Maybe she did, and maybe she is wearing this tomorrow at school. You just lie there and fall asleep.

The next day, you wake up, get dressed quickly and go to school. You are excited to see Jade and maybe the necklace. As you look at the entrance, to see if she's coming, you see Andre and Tori passing you. You ignore them, because they are not important. And then you see her. But today something is different. She walks, as if she needs defence. Her head sinks between her shoulders, she is hiding her face and her blue eyes look so…sad. You've never seen her like that before and you somehow feel pity for her. Did you go too far? Didn't you think before doing the things you did? But it was for a good reason, right? It was for your future. You did that for her. And for you. She will forgive you, if she knows the real reasons. No, she'll never get to know that you are the stalker, because you won't tell her. You'll ask her out. Right now! You don't know where your sudden confidence comes from, but it just feels right to do it. You walk towards her, taking a deep breath. She was standing in front of her locker, rudely stuffing books in her bag.

"Hey Jade…" you start slowly. "I wan-"

"LEAVE ME ALONE!" she shouts angrily, as she pushes you aside. You look at her as she runs away. Everyone was now looking at you. You felt quiet embarrassed, but you just turn around and go, feeling numb.

AN:Okay, I'm so embarrassed right now! And that's just because my lack of knowledge. Since I'm not from an english speaking country (I'm from Germany), I sometimes have to look up words. And I somehow didn't know the word 'shirt'(I don't mean t-shirt shirt, I mean chemise for men). So I looked it up and there were three words to choose. 1. shirt; 2. chemise; . And I thought that the word chemise would work for men, too. So I used it. Sorry if I gave you wrong hints or something like that, it wasn't my intention, really.

The second last chapter to go! I'll update the last chapter on Sunday, so stay tuned and review and I'll update! :)

~teddybaer~