Those Little Pivotal Moments
Chapter 2
Well, I should really be studying for exams right now, but I'm, really not in the mood, so I decided to update instead. Enjoy!
Oh yeah, and I forgot last time: I do not own Sonny with a Chance…that should be quite obvious, considering my use of Fanfiction.
The second she got through the door, she rushed to the computer. She was confident that today would be the day that she'd find her perfect friend. Someone to confide in and someone to confide in her. As she clicked refresh on her browser window, she sighed. Disappointed again.
It had been weeks since she had signed up at the online friendship site. She sighed again. It looked like she wouldn't ever find someone like her…because there simply wasn't anyone. With this realization, she clicked on the confirmation email for her account that she had received three weeks ago. She moved her mouse to a little link at the bottom of the page.
"To stop receiving messages from this organization cancel your account here"
She took a second to collect herself, and came to terms with the fact that she would be alone for the rest of her life. She was milliseconds away from pressing the button, when a car alarm went off. She turned to the window and was about to glance back to the computer when the noise amplified. In curiosity, she glanced out the window, only to see that the racket had been caused by a couple carrying large, heavy-looking boxes. They were laughing their heads off, presumably having crashed into the car when trying to move into the new apartment duplex across the street. This just caused her to feel more depressed, because she'd never experience love that true, that beautiful, ever again. The couple kissed sweetly and she turned away from the window.
She returned to her computer which had since fallen asleep and turned it on again. Her browser window refreshed and a new email popped up in her inbox. Distracted by the new email she opened it.
I've never felt so alone. Why? I have everything, yet I have nothing, because I have no one anymore. You only realize what you have once you've lost it. And I've definitely lost 'it'.
~ lovestinks124
If you wish to help this person, and let them help you, please click this link and confirm your friendship.
Her face lit up. Suddenly she was just as optimistic as she had been three depressing weeks ago. All her worries were gone, and she grinned a real Sonny-grin, for the first time in months.
I know exactly how you feel. Superficial items mean nothing to me anymore. I've lost the most important people in my life. It was just three months ago when my life fell apart.
~LifeIsn'tAlwaysSunny
Only 5 minutes after she sent her reply, she received one back.
I'm so sad to hear that! But at the same time it's nice to know I'm not alone. What happened three months ago? You only have to tell me if you feel comfortable...
~ lovestinks124
Sonny's grin slowly vanished. This person was so sweet. She had actually forgotten about everything for a moment. But she was reminded again of the fateful day three months and 2 days ago...not that she was keeping count or anything…
Sonny walked into the cafeteria, and saw Chad sitting with his cast mates. She smiled at him and made a move to walk in his direction. But she saw two of his cast members, presumably, because they were wearing Mackenzie Falls uniforms. They were practically exact replicas of one another: both incredibly skinny and blond. They wore short skirts and walked with confidence that Sonny only wished she had. One of the two walked towards Chad, while the other giggled and walked off, crashing into Sonny. The blonde grimaced, "Ugg, watch it! Where the heck do you think you're going anyways? That's the Falls table. For Falls people."
"I'm going to sit to my boyfriend," Sonny grinned, despite her discomfort with the situation.
The blonde laughed wholeheartedly, "You? But you're so...plain. Keep dreaming honey." She giggled and gestured towards Chad and the other girl. "My friend Tanya is his girlfriend, or she will be any moment now!"
Sonny wasn't worried. Why should she be? She was by far Chad's most long-standing girlfriend. Well maybe she was worried...just a little. Tanya sat down on Chad's lap and giggled just as her friend standing in front of Sonny had done. That wasn't what unnerved Sonny though. Chad smiled at her, obviously responding to her incessant flirting. After a few moments though, he placed Tanya on the seat next to him and got up, walking over to Sonny. "Hey Sonshine! I'm so glad you're here! You will never believe what's going on at the falls this week! Mackenzie's evil half-brother is still in love with his ex-girlfriend, but she falls in love Mackenzie, who falls in love with her, and they try to run off together, but they can't because..." Chad continued talking, but Sonny wasn't listening.
Tanya and her friend were looking at Sonny in disbelief. She grinned back in triumph. "What?" Tanya shrieked, "She's not even pretty! How could he possibly love her?"
"Ha don't worry, try him again in a week, then he'll be single again," her friend giggled.
Sonny's smile fell. Chad hadn't even noticed what had happened. He was as oblivious as ever. She knew she shouldn't let it bother her, but she couldn't help thinking that maybe Tanya was right. Sonny wasn't a Hollywood model. She was a farm girl from the state of cheese. Chad would get tired of her. He would wake up one day, and he wouldn't be able to resist someone like Tanya. Eventually, Sonny pushed those thoughts out of her mind though. That day had not come, and she shouldn't worry.
It was only days later that Chad and Sonny were having a romantic dinner to celebrate their six-monthaversary. They had been having a wonderful time, when Chad suddenly became solemn. "I have to tell you something Sonny. You see, I have recently realized that something has happened to me. I'm becoming kind and caring and I'm actually helping people and the thing is that I've never done that before and..." Chad halted his incessant rambling for a moment and took a deep breath. "What I'm trying to say Sonny is ... I love you"
It had all gone downhill from there. Sonny's mind had just kept playing the situation from a few days ago back.
"How could he possibly love her?"
What if Tanya was right? Maybe Chad didn't like Tanya, not yet anyway. But girls like that were always throwing themselves at him. It was only a matter of time before he gave in. Sonny would never be anything like them. She and Chad were doomed for failure, and she couldn't give her heart to a relationship that was doomed. So, like she always did when someone got too close, she ran off, literally. She had talked herself into destroying one of the best relationships she had ever had.
It pained Sonny to actually write out what had happened, because it meant finally admitting that she had made a mistake, one which she couldn't very well undo. Despite her discomfort, she felt that she owed it to the person to give them an explanation. After all, they were being unbelievably caring, despite the fact that they had never met her.
It's hard for me to look back on, but it's probably good if I tell somebody. In a nutshell, I was starting to really feel…love for my boyfriend and it scared me. So much, that one day I just left him because I have always been afraid of getting too close to somebody, and being hurt because of that.
Only a week later, my mom had to leave me as well to go back to my hometown to care for my brother. Having the two most important people in my life gone so suddenly caused me to draw back from all my other friends as well.
If you don't mind my asking, how did you end up loosing the people closest to you?
Sonny sighed in contentment. To her surprise, it had actually felt good to get that off her chest, even if she didn't say it out loud. That was the next step; she would take it all one step at a time. And maybe one day, she would actually manage to move on and live a happy and optimistic life.
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Also, my next update probably won't be until Thursday or Friday, when my exams are over.