Disclaimer : I do not own Vampire Knight.
Sometimes, love is not about accepting and receiving what others give to you, but love is just to let them be happy, even when one meant nothing to other, because love sometimes, is just unforgiving. If one truly belongs to you, even if you let them go, they will come back to you.
Kaname Kuran had packed all the things in his penthouse. His brown eyes lingered around the spacious place as he sat on the leather couch. A small smile on his face appeared when his eyes caught a collection of pictures belongs to a certain silver haired male and Kaname himself on top a shelf.
In one of the pictures, it shows the silver haired man, all in his high school graduating uniform with himself beside the man. Kaname's left wrapped around his waist and the younger male had a scowl on his face. The adorable pout was the evidence that he had been forced to be captured on picture.
Another picture shows both of them in front of a railing of a bridge. It was the only bridge that exists in their city, connecting the city to another city. The younger male was standing on the rail, Kaname's hands helped to stabilize him and after the picture was captured, the former had jumped almost excitedly into the latter's arms.
To be tell the truth, at that time, Kaname was afraid that his lover will fall no matter how many times the latter had told him, that he was strong enough and mature enough and know how to take care of himself. Because when Kaname looked down from the bridge, the water screamed at his face as if it wanted to take his lover alive.
His said lover had laughed at him, labeling him as silly because the silver haired man believe that he will never fall from there if Kaname always with him. Because Kaname would always catch him, after he fall, or before he fall.
The memory sent another small smile on his face.
Kaname sighed and leaned his back against the seat. His body did not flinch when the sound of his door being opened was heard. He knows who is coming. In fact, he had let his door unlocked because of it.
A blonde came in, bringing a file and smiled at the sight of his brunette friend.
"Finish packing?" Takuma asked as greeting and Kaname opened his eyes, nodded without a word. The blonde took a seat in front of him, placing the file on top of the table.
"The agent said that the deal will be done around a month." Takuma informed, knowing that without words, that's all Kaname wanted to hear. Kaname looked around the penthouse again.
"This place has so many memories of mine." Kaname smiled and Takuma bit his lips, shaking his head slightly.
"I don't understand. If that is so, why you wanted to leave?"
"Because I need a new life." Kaname looked down at the file, where all the documents that he needed to sell his place were kept together. Takuma looked at his friend, sighing a little.
"I wish you would be here… you know, always?"
Kaname could not help but chuckled at those words.
"Takuma, it's not like I'll never return. I'm leaving for business deal, remember?"
Takuma's eyes twitched at his words.
"You're leaving the country to live in another country. You could have sent someone else to replace you. Now I have to take your place in the company and I'm really not sure whether I could manage it or not." Takuma scolded in a small voice, crossing his arms on his chest.
"You're running away, Kaname." Takuma put a finality tone in his voice, causing the brunette's smile to fade. Kaname looked away from his blonde friend, unconsciously rubbing his temple with his fingers.
"I really need this. I don't know what else I can do if I don't start to run away." Kaname murmured almost audibly and Takuma let out another sigh. The blonde carefully took out a piece of paper from the file before giving it to the brunette.
Kaname accepted it without any words.
"Just sign this."
The brunette proceeded to sign, never once protest escaped his lips. Another minute passed in silence before Takuma absent mindedly murmured.
"You got the wedding invitation card."
The brunette turned to look at his fellow friend, smiling but the sincerity of the smile did not reach his eyes.
"When is it?"
"A fortnight from now."
Kaname closed his eyes and let out a small, weak laugh from his lips.
"Funny. That was my departing date."
Takuma turned to look at the brunette, biting his lips uncertainly.
"Please don't go, Kaname. You can still try-"
"I promised Akatsuki Kain that I'll let go if Zero chosen him."
"That's-"
"And I am tired already, Takuma. My heart can't take it anymore. Please let me do this." Kaname murmured and Takuma was automatically shut up. The blonde looked around again – really, when facing upon an emotional Kaname he got nothing else to do but looking around – and gulped before quickly shifting his place to sit beside his friend.
"Okay. But can you help me with something?"
Kaname raised an eyebrow at the sudden question but nodded nevertheless.
"What is it?"
Takuma smiled sheepishly and leaned over his friend a little.
"Well, it was like this… I wanted to propose to Senri but apparently, he seems like he loves his work more than me."
Blinking his eyes at the uncalled surprise, Kaname cannot help but to laugh whole heartedly. He patted his blonde friend on his shoulder and Takuma huffed at the thought of his lover rejecting him.
"I got some tips." Kaname smiled and the blonde brightened up quickly like a light bulb. The blonde grinned and eagerly indicated his friend to continue. Kaname chuckled and leaned on his seat to relax while his best friend took out a small note book – the blonde has this weird habit to bring a small note book and a pen with him always, he said it was for emergency case and Kaname never asked him twice about it –.
"Well, first you can…"
Sometimes, love is not about choosing who you wanted to spend your whole life time with, but love is about spending your whole life time with someone who loves you with their whole heart. Because love teaches one to not being selfish, even though the pain that one has to carry, could kill them in a blink of an eye.
"This white suit looks fine… Zero?" Shizuka gently poked on his side and Zero Kiryuu was surprised from his little wandering mind, a scowl appeared on his face. The silver haired lady grinned before showing him the picture again.
"Look at this, Zero! You'll look so handsome in it!" Shizuka happily commented and the scowl on his face faded; replaced by a tired face. The younger one gently put his hand on top of his supposed mother, sighing a little.
"Shizuka-san, this is the 6th suit that you've chosen. How am I supposed to wear 6 suits in one wedding?" Zero rolled his eyes when a pout appeared on the woman's lips. Shizuka had dragged him unwillingly from his bed – it was 7.30 am for God sake! – and brought him to several wedding boutiques but seriously, none of the suits had really touched her liking.
"Zero, I don't know how many times I have to tell you this but please, please call me Mother and really, I think this one is the best." Shizuka nodded her head, almost as if it will be her last and best choice. Zero sighed and rubbed his temple.
"Mother, it past noon already… we should get some meals because I can hear your stomach growling. How unladylike." Zero commented with a small tint of tease in his voice. Shizuka blushed slightly and the shopkeeper, a girl, standing behind her smiled. The older woman scowled at him before returning back the photo albums to her, telling her that she will return back tomorrow for further deal.
It was funny somehow. Most of the people that met them greeted both of them as mother and son. Maybe it was because of the similarity in their hair colour and how both of them interacted.
Zero smiled slightly at the thought. Now he knows how it does feels like to have a mother.
"Come, we should get going now! We only got one more week left and I can't believe both of you and Akatsuki had dealt with everything but the wedding suit!" the woman holds onto his arm as both of them made their way out from the shop; she continued to give her 'speech' about the whole thing and Zero cannot helped but to lean down so that he can press a peck on her right cheek.
Shizuka blinked, looking up toward the young man.
"What is that for?" she grinned and Zero suppressed a laughter from escaping, faking an neutral face.
He enjoyed it very much when Shizuka was being so excited and happy.
"Nothing. Now, what would you want to eat?" He proceeded with their walk – Shizuka had insisted for the driver to wait for them but Zero refused to use vehicle when they can spend much more private time walking and enjoying the day – while Shizuka started list down all the restaurants that she knows.
At last, both of them decided that a lunch at some western restaurant shall do it.
"After lunch, where else do you want to go?" Zero prayed in his mind that the woman will not mention any more wedding shop and when Shizuka did not answer, the silver haired man gave a glance towards her direction, blinking his eyes in confusion.
"Mother?"
"Do you mind if we go to visit Ichiru again today?" Shizuka looked back at him, her pink Sakura coloured eyes filled with longing and love, and Zero smiled almost sadly.
Since the first time they had learned about Ichiru's death, Shizuka went to visit his grave every day, never once she failed. Zero usually take turn with Kain to company her but apparently, the blonde always busy with works since the wedding is coming and everything. But Zero knows, oh how he knows that when the blonde went home a little bit late sometimes, he had spent his little time to visit his belated lover. Kain told him about it too, wanting to be honest and Zero respected him for loving one and another, and never forget one and another.
Zero had talked about his feeling of not belonging to the woman but Shizuka, she told him that she had started to treat him like her own son a long time ago, not because Zero remind her of her dead son but because she loves him as Zero himself.
Of course there is something else that Zero cannot tell anyone but keep to himself.
The aching feeling of remembering the sight of those broken brown eyes; belongs to Kaname Kuran.
Those aching feelings of longing and hurt, misery and guilty.
Zero cannot share it with anyone but himself because he had made his choice. There were nowhere else to go and Zero cannot decide, which is better, to be loved or to love.
"Of course we can… I think Ichiru had started to miss us too." Zero closed his eyes, letting a small smile break his usually expressionless façade and Shizuka smiled almost brightly.
She is now the sunshine of his dim world. A mother that he had always wanted.
"Well, last time we got him some dandelions, what do you want to get him this time?" Zero asked and the woman laughed, hugging his left arm tighter with her own right, her yellow bright summer dress prettily blown slightly and gently by the spring breeze.
"Well, what about blue iris? But sunflower sounds nice too! Hmm… on second thought, maybe tulip? Or… "
Sometimes, love is not about letting the one you love go and try to forget them, but to continue fight for them even though the person is no longer yours. Because love knows no one but love knows the heart that continue to beat for one. And sometimes, letting go of love is better than holding onto a one sided one.
"How are you feeling?" Akatsuki Kain asked himself while standing in front of a large mirror, adjusting his suit for the nth times, he did not know and the image of himself continue to nervously tremble. Kain had never been so nervous and restless until now.
Around few more hours, he is getting married to one and only Zero Kiryuu.
They had done the rehearsal the day before and Kain had managed throughout the day without fail but why now? Maybe because as the minutes gone by, he knows he was going to be bonded in a relationship called marriage?
Taking a deep breath, Kain closed his eyes before opening them again, revealing a pair of amber with strength and hope. Kain knows that he can do this. It was normal to feel nervous and such, he will do great later on, the blonde continued to encourage himself.
"Mother, stop it, I look fine!" Zero protested weakly as the woman continued to fix his bowtie. It was getting harder to stop the woman from getting too perfectionist as the minutes went by. Zero rolled his eyes once Shizuka released the grip she had on him, a wide smile upon her face.
"Now you look great!" she clapped her hands almost excitingly and all the annoyance he had on her before disappeared into dust by her cheerful laughter. But then, someone knocked the door.
"Oh, who could that be?" Shizuka quickly went to open the door and a female redhead around her twenties entered the room, a sweet smile greeted them. Zero looked back to examine himself one more time while Shizuka dealing with the girl.
He cannot make up of their conversation but the words 'pastries' and 'extra desserts' reached his hearing. The redhead gave the silver haired woman a document with few pages, signing her to sign on some places. But then, Shizuka called for his attention.
"Zero dear, I need a pen, can you go to Akatsuki's office, next to the room and take one of his, please?" Shizuka asked with a pleading smile and Zero sighed a little. Sometimes he cannot understand women. Come to ask for signature but did not bring her pen?
"All right." Zero made his way out without any protest, he needed some time to ready himself alone and somehow this was a good opportunity.
"Hurry up, dear! The car should be here around 20 more minutes!" he heard her voice from the room and carefully open the door to Kain's private office in the house. The blonde had gone to the church earlier than them, and if Zero was not wrong; he should have reached the church by now.
Looking inside the room for the first time, Zero entered it and made his way slowly to examine the whole room as he search for a pen. Seriously, the blonde have a cleanliness fetish.
Zero looked over his empty mahogany desk, unable to trace any sight of a pen before kneeling down in front of his closed cabinets. Maybe he placed them there.
Taking his time to slowly open one of the cabinets, he looked inside and his eyes caught sight of a silver ring.
Zero blinked as he took out the said ring, placing it before his lilac eyes and suddenly, his mind screamed when hundreds, of thousands of forgotten memories, was released.
Kaname looked around his penthouse apartment for one last time, the place where love had once existed as a smile curving on his lips. He closed his eyes and closed the door.
It is time for him to leave.
Kain put his hands against the chapel's large mahogany door. The ray of sunlight spilled in through the door as the blonde thrust it open.
TBC.
A/N : There are two things that I would like to point out here. First, to those who thinks that my characters are too OOC, please point it out to me. I need to make sure that I didn't exceed the barrier because I don't own these characters. I would be glad if you do =). Second, please check on my poll in my profile! xD
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