Disclaimer : I do not own Vampire Knight.
A young brunette smiled as an older blonde standing in front of him, examining the chapel. Since the blonde have come a few hours earlier to check on the church's decoration, latter hoped that he had done his best to amaze the former. However, the blonde looked as if he was deep in a thought rather than examining his grand work.
"Well, do you agree with the décor?" the teen turned to look at Kain. The latter made an approving sound, nodding his head slightly. Fidgeting slightly, the brunette looked around and subconsciously rubbed the back of his neck.
"You don't need any more addition?"
"Yes." He was replied with a half hearted respond.
The brunette looked at his watch before giving a glance towards the door.
"The guests are coming in an hour?" the brunette asked again but this time he was responded with silence and not even a non verbal answer. The brunette blinked his eyes in confusion.
"Kain-san?"
"I can't do this."
"Eh?" wide eyed, the brunette eep'ed in surprised when Kain walked away without a second glance back to him.
The blonde went out from the chapel, taking a deep, shaky breath as he closed his eyes.
He cannot do this.
He cannot go on with the wedding.
Somehow, the thought of Zero being with him – even though because Zero was feeling secured for now, what will happen when his memories come back to live and Kaname Kuran – will he crave for the brunette later on?
Kain knows that he was being selfish even from the first place.
He wanted to be cruel. He wanted to hurt others that wanted to gain what he also wanted. He wanted to at least once, be happy forever after.
But he cannot do it.
Because if he hurt other, he will get hurt in return. If he hurt the one that he loves, he will be more than hurt in return.
He knows the first reason why this wedding is becoming reality was because Zero looked alike to Ichiru. Because that twin of his, was his first love. His first everything. And knowing that Ichiru had died, Kain knows that he never did get over his belated lover's death but acting like he did because he thought, telling himself that he loves Zero because of Zero is Zero, should be able to make it.
But no.
Loving Zero because Zero is Zero, cannot be his survival.
Because looking at Zero, it will always, and forever always, reminds him that he loves Ichiru Kiryuu more.
Marrying his older twin brother because he loves his younger twin brother more, what kind of marriage is that?
It seemed like the word 'selfish' cannot be present in his dictionary too.
Kain took a deep breath and quickly taking out his cell phone. He knows it sounds crazy but he was going to cancel the wedding.
When the blonde looked up for his auntie's number, surprisingly, his phone rang by the said caller. Staring at the screen for a second, Kain answered the call and strode to his car.
"Hello, Auntie?"
"Akatsuki! Oh God, Akatsuki! Zero is missing!"
Kain stopped in his track, his amber eyes widened as he heard the news.
"Auntie, calm down. Have you search thoroughly for him?" his grip on his cell phone tightened as Shizuka's trembling voice answered.
"I did! I asked him to look for a pen in your office but he didn't return back at all! And when I went out to look for him, few of the maids said that they saw Zero went out all by himself around half an hour ago. They tried to stop him but he won't budge and I don't know what else to do!" the woman started to panic and Kain cursed in his mind. He quickly went inside his car and started the engine.
"Auntie, just stay in the house in case if Zero returns. I'm going to look up for him." Kain firmly stated and Shizuka agreed immediately. The call ended and Kain started to drive away from the parking lot. As he drives, the blonde searched for a number of a certain brunette and pressed the green button for calling.
Kaname sat down on one of the provided seats in the waiting room. Currently he was waiting for the departing time and he did not know what to do to kill the time left. The brunette took out his laptop and turned it on. Silently he began to start on some of his unfinished work when his cell phone suddenly rang.
Looking at the identity of the caller, Kaname's eyes twitched.
What else could he wanted after he had taken away all Kaname has had?
"Hello, Kain-san." He answered all in while trying to make his voice as calmly as possible. But Kain's voice was nothing but controlled panic and serious.
"Kuran-san, I need your help. Zero had gone missing."
The cell phone almost falls from his grip as his brown eyes widened. Kaname quickly closed down his laptop and placing back his documents into its belonging, the device stayed on his ear.
"Are you sure? Maybe he's just somewhere around the house?"
"Yes, I'm sure. Few of the maids said that he went out all by himself-" Kain stopped in his explanation when Shizuka's previous words repeated in his mind.
His office?
His amber eyes widened as he abruptly pressed the brake on his car, pulling it into a stop. His heart started to beat fast as his mind came to a conclusion.
The ring.
Kaname stopped in his packing, frowning as silence suddenly present.
"Kain-san…?"
"…Kuran-san, I think Zero had gotten back his memories."
Zero sat inside one of the seats in a bus. His eyes were dead as sounds of laughter and chatting of other passengers surrounding him. One of his hands slowly stroking the silvery white wings belongs to a butterfly hair clip. He somehow was grateful that he got some cash with him.
His final destination was quite far but that doesn't matter.
He felt like a murderer.
That was far more important.
He had left his jacket somewhere inside the house before he went out and now only left wearing his white dress shirt, the sleeves were rolled up until they reached his elbows, two buttons on top the dress shirt unbuttoned, his bowtie untie around his collar and his hair was in mess.
He had gone to a particular place before he found himself in the bus.
But that place was unoccupied and only one thought had crossed his mind.
After all that he had done to the brunette, was it so stupid of him to believe that the brunette would just stay still in a place where their memories were most kept?
Stopping his thumb to continue caressing one of the wings, he titled his head up a little and the sight of his next destination greeted him not far from the bus's current position.
A small, dead smile craved on his lips.
The sounds of soft clicking were heard from his pocket when the bus stopped beside a bus stop. The rings that both Kain and Kaname had given to him must have knocked one another but Zero paid no mind.
He slowly stood on his feet and get down from the bus.
"Should we call the police?"
"Can't, he was missing less than 24 hours. I'll call few of my friends instead to look out for him too."
"Fine. I'll be looking for him at the cemetery."
"I'll go and search at other places." Kaname ended the call and entered one of the cabs. He had quickly dialed the numbers belong to Takuma and Yuuki, hoping that they could help with the searching.
The blonde was on his way to the office when Kaname called him, automatically agreed to help while the young brunette girl was in her house but also agreed nonetheless, even though she was quite to listen to his news. Kaname have not told her a single detail about his meeting with the still alive Zero, afraid that the girl will do something unpredictable but it seemed like his prediction was a little bit wrong.
Once he was done, Kaname closed his eyes and took a deep breath.
He cannot believe that Zero had run away on his wedding day and he was scared for the young man's safety. The first place that he is going to look up is his penthouse apartment. There was a still chance that Zero would return back to their old home and Kaname wanted nothing but to gather the silver haired man into his arms at the moment.
But what if Zero did not went there or maybe he had already left by the time Kaname reached back to his house?
When the taxi passed a particular, familiar place, Kaname's eyes caught a sight of a man standing on the said bridge, his white clothes and black pants was knowable but not his feature because of the distance.
Kaname felt his body turned cold at a sudden thought that crossed his mind. His hands trembled as he gripped onto the door's handle.
"Kaname, don't be stupid, would you? I will only fall if you weren't there to catch me!"
"Mister, drive me to the bridge! Quick!" Kaname ordered the taxi driver in a panicking voice. The driver was confused by the sudden change of direction but obeyed nonetheless.
Kaname went to call the blonde again, his body restlessly trembling.
His mind screamed that the time is running out.
"Kuran-"
"The bridge. The west bridge. Zero is there." Kaname stated in a controlled voice and Kain gasped in surprise. He heard sounds of car being stopped and turned almost too abruptly.
"I'm close to it now!"
Kaname's brown eyes widened when the figure became clearer, painting the colour of hair that he loved and will love till the end.
"Hurry up, damn it!" Kaname finally exclaimed, to both the driver and Kain; Kain had responded by ended the call while the driver changed the gear and drove faster.
Zero stood behind the railing, his body at the closer edge of the bridge as the gentle wind of spring rushing softly against his face. The young silver head closed his eyes.
'It feels so nice…'
So nice as if nothing had happened to his life.
He wondered if he could feel this sensation again one day… maybe in his next lifetime.
He slowly breathed as sound of a car pulled into a stop not close to his position was heard.
Reacting almost barely, he turned his head slightly to his right side.
Kain had gone out from the car and was gasping for breath, as if he was running to reach the place but Zero knows better. It was because his fear and fretfulness.
His amber eyes were clear with those even though his face masked with his emotionless façade and Zero suddenly wanted to cry his heart out at the blonde. Poor soul, Zero had left him there at the church, waiting for their wedding to happen but Zero can't.
He can't go and make real of the wedding.
The blonde carefully trying to approach him and Zero made a slight movement to grab the railing behind him a little bit tighter. It seems to cause the blonde to stop, probably afraid that if he tried to come closer, Zero will let go of the railings.
Zero lowered his eyes downwards; he was feeling blank and undone.
What is this feeling actually?
Lifeless… perhaps?
"Zero… don't do this, step back behind the railing, please?" Kain pleading almost softly and Zero titled his head up to meet the blonde's eyes. Kain was startled a little and Zero wasn't sure why.
Was it because of the dead looks that his eyes carry or because the broken smile that he gave the tall blonde?
"Zero!"
Lilac eyes widened as he turned to look at his left.
A brunette is standing there, hair in mess by the by strong winds and he is all clad in black expensive clothes. He looked restless and worried and everything in between. His handsome face scrunched in the way that Zero always hated, his eyes mirroring nothing but his concern and anxiety.
Zero blinked looking at the Adonis for a moment, his eyes softened at the thought of the almost empty apartment that he had visited before he comes to the bridge.
He thought that the brunette had left and will never return.
But now that his heart had enough aches and pain for hurting the ones that he loves, he feel nothing but suicidal.
Why can't he stop hurting others?
Why in every action that he took to save one, he will hurt another?
Why can't he stop hurting everyone and himself?
"Zero, baby, what are you doing?" Kaname tried his very best to sound as calm as he could. The blank look that he received from his lover was scaring him. It was as if the silver haired male had decided whole heartedly to leave him.
Leaving him, this time for real.
Leaving him, this time forever.
Zero titled his head slightly towards him, his body moved to lean against the railing as Kaname slowly took an approaching action.
"It's dangerous there, Zero… Why don't you step away from there and let me hold you?" Kaname let a smile masked his real emotions, his words were careful and slow. He slowly reached out a hand to offer it to the younger male but Zero made no action to grab it. His lilac eyes filled with blankness, not even a hesitating look appeared on his face.
Kain bit his lips and carefully took another closer step.
"Yes, Zero. Why don't you listen to Kaname?" Kain and Kaname sent one another a short glance of understanding as Kaname nodded.
Zero looked down at the river. He knew that the river was deep by only the outer sight that its offer to the viewers.
Then, out of sudden, his body trembled slightly at the thought of himself meeting with the cold liquid as he closed his eyes tight.
Kaname wanted to approach the silver head and pulled him away from the place when Zero's small body stiffened against the railing. Kain, in the other hand also tried to take another small impending step towards the said man.
A small commotion started to happen as the other people – the drivers and walkers stopped to see what was happening – and Kaname wanted so much to scream at them to go away.
Zero took a shaky breath as realization came and hit him hard.
No.
He does not want to die yet.
Kain and Kaname will suffer more if he died.
And Kaname… Kaname would have to go through his death once again.
Blinking his eyes open, Zero turned to meet with both men of his life. Kain was a little bit far from his position and Kaname was still offering his hand for him to take. But it does not matter. Zero knows that even if Kain was a little bit closer to him than Kaname was, he wanted to be selfish at least once.
Zero wanted Kaname and no one else.
Kaname was a little surprised when a tint of being alive appeared in his lover's face as Zero slowly reached out his own trembling one, wanting to take a firm holds on the hand of his lover. Kaname's eyes were filled with hope and love, Zero wanted to hug him tight and beg for his forgiveness.
Beg for everything that he had done to be forgiven because after all that had happened, Kaname is still there for him.
Ambers and brown eyes widened when Zero slowly started to make an advance towards Kaname.
"That's it… slowly, baby, slowly…" Kaname murmured gently, carefully stepping closer to hold onto Zero. He does not want to rush, afraid that it will cause shock or surprise to the younger male, but he cannot control his body either. He wanted Zero to be safe – and quick.
Zero's eyes were bright like how they used to be when they were still together, when love was all around and Kaname wanted to grab onto this opportunity, to make them stay bright and maybe brighter… just with him.
Zero fully turned to take the upcoming hand but when his body did, a butterfly hair clip fell from his dress shirt's pocket and Zero abruptly turned to look at its fall, eyes widened.
It happened in a slow, meaningful motion as he made a movement to grab onto the hair clip.
But when his hand did, he realized that his feet were no longer on the ground.
His body can feel the air as it fall, pulled by the gravity. Eyes widened in shocked, not because he was falling but because the chance to be back into the brunette's arms was disappearing upon his eyes. His hands moved to place the butterfly hair clip closed to his chest, his eyes closed tight to bear the upcoming pain he was about to experience.
Ambers and browns were watching his fall, eyes widened as their lover's body hit the surface of the cold water.
"ZEERROOO...!"
TBC.
A/N : Next chapter is the last chapter. Then I'll be adding an epilogue too. =) Next update will be on Sunday, thank you. xD
Anonymous Reviews Replies :
Nokinaru : xD I bet you love this chapter like hell! Ah, our dear Zero-rin would always be a mental masochist in my story xD (Okay, I admit it, I got issue =.=) I've received so many threats and sometimes death threats, now I am immune against them! (evil sick giggles) Sorry that I made you a bit confused on that part, I think that maybe I'm feeling too excited while writing it that time? =/ Thank you for reading this anyway, baby~! (hugs)
kanamexzero fan : =) I just wanted to make sure that I don't exceed the limit of their characteristics, I mean, I don't own them O.o Yeah, Takuma is like the only one who managed to help Kaname get through everything, not to mention, his searching device too xD Hahaha... please don't eat me =.=; You must didn't expect this kind of chapter but somehow, yeah, I'm proud of my own ability to shock people off! xD Thank you for reading this, dear~! (hugs)
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