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I've decided that there shall be no epilogue for this story since I've mixed both last chapter and epilogue together already. To those who really wanted an epilogue, I'm really sorry. Forgive me, okay? =)
And one more thing, I would appreciate it very much if there were stories that you love much more better than mine out there and you don't compare it with mine. I'm not the best of the bests, perhaps, I don't even deserve to be called as a good author. There are much more better authors and stories out there but please, can you just keep them to yourself and don't compare them to me on my face? It's hurt and quite offending actually. I'm sorry that my stories quite lame and sucks sometimes, but I love to write. Just let me write, can you?
Anyway, enjoy the last piece, everyone. =)
'Cold…'
'It's too cold…'
'I can't see… it's too blurry…'
Bubbles of air surrounding him as his body continued to drown. Suddenly, he heard sound of another splash – this time not by his body but another – and the he felt the gravity being disturbed and arms wrapped around him.
Through blurry eyes, he could see the colour of brown in the bright blue water – but cold – covering his sight and he was pulled to rise.
Kaname took a large intake of air as he emerged out of water, the unconscious silver haired male wrapped in his embrace and the brunette panting heavily as he started to make his way towards the edge of the river which is quite far from their position.
But it did not matter. What matter is they have to reach the water's edge – quickly.
Finally managed to arrive at said place, he dragged the smaller body to lay on the sandy ground as well. Kaname took barely a half minute to calm down his breathing.
He had jumped off the building without a second after seeing Zero's body fell into the deep water. The only thing that he wanted was to save his lover. If Zero were to drown, he will drown as well.
Turning to look at the unconscious man beside him, Kaname's brown eyes became wide with panic and fear as he hastily open his soaked coat and undone the cuff on his sleeves. He rolled the silver haired man to face him and slapped his cheeks a few times, not too hard but not too gentle either.
"Zero! Zero, can you hear me? Wake up!" Kaname urgently shook the cold and pale body.
Zero is not a good swimmer; he had never been in favour with sports such as swimming.
Kaname felt his body trembling once he checked Zero's chest, sensing the absence of heartbeats. He quickly placed the heel of his right hand on Zero's middle chest, his other hand on top the other but interlaced with the right one as he started to make a number of compressions.
When he was done, he tilted Zero's head a little and pinched his nose with his fingers before covering his open mouth with his own to blow some air inside. The next moment he returned to make compression again, water dripped out from Zero's mouth but he made no respond at all.
"Zero, wake up, wake up!" Kaname felt his control losing to his emotions as he continued with the Cardiopulmonary Resuscitation.
But Zero did not give any respond at all and he was not even breathing.
Kaname, however did not stop.
He continue with the method and after a while, when receiving nothing as reaction, he crawled on top of Zero, his legs on either sides of Zero's waist as his hands moved to grab his shoulders. The brunette gritted his teeth, unwelcome tears started to drip uncontrollably while shaking the narrow shoulders, trying his best to wake up the smaller male.
"Wake up, damnit, wake up! Don't do this to me, Zero, just wake up!"
His consciousness laughed at him, a man who was desperately trying to fight the fate.
His fingers tightened their grips and Kaname did not care.
Let Zero feel the pain so that he will wake up.
But he was still rewarded with no reaction.
No respond.
The brunette let out a shaky breath, slowly leaned down to place his forehead against Zero's flat chest, tears wetting the already wet clothe he was wearing.
And ironically, the butterfly hair clip, his lover was still holding it tight in his right hand.
"Yes, Yuuki, I'll be there tomorrow – oh God!" Zero's lilac eyes widened when he accidentally bumped into a stranger, the warm cup of black coffee in his left hand spilled on the stranger's clothes. Zero blinked out of shock, looking at the tainted white, dress shirt. It looks like it was made from silk.
"You spilled your coffee on me." The stranger surprisingly spoke to him in a deep, smooth voice and Zero slowly looked up only to see a pair of brown eyes. The man was taller than him and he was a brunette.
Zero's eyes twitched a little at his feature.
He thinks he knows this man.
But first thing has to come first.
"Sorry, I didn't mean it." Zero took his handkerchief out of his pocket, carefully pressing the material against the expensive one but the stranger quickly grabbed onto his hand.
"It is fine. I'm on my way home anyway." The brunette smiled and Zero raised an eyebrow.
Was it fine to spill your black coffee on a silk material?
"Well, I can pay for the laundry-" he insisted instead and move to take his wallet from his pocket but the brunette had raised a hand up as a sign for him to stop.
"No need, seriously." He smiled and moved to make his way but Zero had quickly called out for him.
"Wait, do I know you?" the brunette stopped in his track, turning back to look at him again.
"Well… I don't think I do. Because if we had ever met before, I would have never forgets you."
Eyes twitching again, Zero glared at the brunette's mischievous smile and suddenly, the past struck him, helped by the unforgettable sight of that smile.
Of course.
"You are Kaname Kuran, you were a senior from Cross Academy, one of the students from the top class."
The brunette titled his head slightly, staring at the pretty boy in front of him before closing his eyes, smiling.
"Yes… I am Kaname Kuran. You must be one of the students from Cross Academy too if you know me. I'm actually a quite secretive and busy person during my high school days." He returned to approach the younger man again and Zero sighed, looking away.
"Of course you were. The name is Zero Kiryuu. I was a junior when you were in your last year." He mumbled and checked back on his cellphone. He had accidentally ended the call by the time he had taken out his handkerchief before. Kaname watched him for a moment before his eyes glistening with amusement.
"Well, on second thought, Kiryuu-san, maybe you should treat me for lunch since you spilled your coffee on my clothes."
"Really, now? And I just thought that you are a gentleman."
"I am, Kiryuu-san. A lunch can prove it better."
Looking around to think about his schedule for the rest of the day, Zero finally sighing a little, it was his fault anyway.
"Tomorrow I got some business to be done but I'm free for the rest of today."
"I won't have it any better way."
"Zero, don't do this to me… I love you, please wake up…" Kaname continued to cry his heart out, his hands grabbing handfuls of Zero's white dress shirt. His body trembled by the coldness of the air and his miserable emotions.
Zero opened his eyes slightly as he coughed a little, unheard by the crying brunette on top of him. Blinking his eyes to adjust with the sudden amount of sunlight, he turned his dizzy sight towards the brunette, his fingers moved and tapped on Kaname's shoulder.
"Kaname…" he whispered weakly and somehow the body stiffened against his. Zero let out a small gasp for air – because Kaname was a lot heavier than he is even with his slim body – and a second later, Kaname had straightened his body, half sitting on Zero's thighs, brown eyes widened with tears and surprise.
Zero have his eyes open half lidded, a pair of blurry and bright pretty-pretty lilacs greets him, lips parting for breath and cheeks pink with life. His wet strands of silver stuck on his forehead and he weakly moved his right hand that was still holding the butterfly hair clip, just to place it beside his head.
"I have this weird dream just now… I dreamt about our first meeting… the official first meeting…" his voice was small and slightly hoarse – perhaps because the water that had suffocated his lungs – and Kaname swore he heard what his lover said. However, what fascinated him more was the sight of Zero.
Being beautiful and alive.
As if he did not just fell off the bridge.
As if Kaname did not tried to save him but failed instead.
Kaname felt his tears dripping down again but this time without a sound.
Zero finally blinked in realization but then, soon after, his right hand moved and gently pried off the tears from Kaname's eyes.
"Hey… don't be such a baby…" he whispered gently, eyes softened into those in love and Kaname closed his own, another teardrop escaped before he leaned down to pull the younger male into his arms.
Zero responded almost immediately, wrapping his arms around Kaname's neck as tight as he could. His fingers running through Kaname's wet brown locks as Kaname continued to cry on his right shoulder.
Kain stopped running not far from their position. He panting for breath as he watched the both of them embracing one another, the ambulance that he had called finally makes their presence knowing and the blonde let out a small, relieved sigh.
'Kaname Kuran, it looks like Zero had chosen you for the past and even for the future.'
"I'm sorry."
"Hm?" Kaname looked up from where he positioned his head, on Zero's chest as the latter sitting on the patient bed. The brunette had himself beside the silver head, his arms wrapped around Zero's small frame and Zero had his arms around his shoulders.
Zero looked back into his eyes, his face mirroring calmness and neutrality; however tainted with regret and guilt.
"I'm sorry for all the things that I've done to you. I've been very cruel and inconsiderate towards you." Zero murmured softly and the brunette blinked his eyes. The older man sat down properly to face his lover, carefully leaning forward to press a gentle kiss on his forehead.
"You are already forgiven, Zero. I can't stay mad at you for even a day." Kaname pressed another kiss on his left cheek, followed by his nose tip and the right edge of his lips. Zero closed his eyes, their breaths mingle and the brunettes carefully rubbing his thumb again Zero's pink, soft lips.
"I love you, Kaname… I truly do." The younger male whispered and Kaname lovingly rewarded him with a kiss on his lips. Zero exhaled softly once he pulled away, his lilac eyes revealed behinds his eyelids and Kaname smiled.
"What do you want to do now?"
The question was expected but when it was heard, Zero never thought that he never had the most suitable answer for it.
The silver haired male take his lover's hands into his, carefully fiddling with them on his lap as his eyes lowered down a little bit.
"I think we need time to let things go first."
"Time?" Kaname questioned softly and Zero tightened his hold on their hands.
"I want to be with you, Kaname, please don't misunderstood it. But Kain just… we just cancelled the wedding. I mean, we should let things sort-"
Kaname placed a finger on Zero's lips, stopping his explanation and gave a small smile to the younger man. He carefully ran his fingers through strands of Zero's silver hair, then pushing few of them behind his left ear.
"Shh… I understand what you are saying. Both you and Kain need time." Kaname nodded his head before retreating to his sitting position. Zero looked up at him, eyebrows scrunched in a frown.
"What about you?"
"Hmm… I can't deny it, I was supposed to go to France today since there are important meetings to be done by few more days. But for you, I don't need time at all. If I have you, I don't need time at all…" Kaname murmured, painting soft light colour of blushes on Zero's pale cheeks. The younger man looked down on his lap again, letting out a small sigh.
"Kaname, you think you can call Akatsuki to come in now? I don't doubt he's still out and I kind of need to have a small talk with him."
"All right. I love you, Zero." the brunette pressed a kiss on his forehead before went to open the door. Once opened, it revealed Kain that was sitting on one of the provided seats. The blonde stood up and approached the brunette who made his way out.
"Zero wanted to see you."
"Fine." Kain nodded at the brunette and Kaname just tapped him on his shoulder. Taking a second for a deep breath, Kain entered the room and closed the door. The silver haired male titled his head up to watch as the blonde made his way to sit on the chair beside his bed.
Offering a small smile, Zero looked at those amber eyes and Kain rewarded him with his own smile.
"Sorry that I took quite long with Kaname."
"It's fine. How are you feeling?" the blonde's eyes examining him a little. To be telling the truth, there was actually no need for Zero to be sent to the hospital but the brunette and the blonde himself had insisted that Zero need a checkup. Of course it annoyed the silver haired male for quite a time but then somehow, peace came to find its way.
"Better actually. Thank you, Akatsuki." Zero let out a soft sigh and the said man leaned relaxingly in his chair.
"Auntie insisted to come but it seems like she got stuck in handling some stuff since the wedding was cancelled. I have to return afterwards to help her."
"I see. Well, I don't want to keep you long. So, I'll just say what both of us wanted to hear."
At Zero's words, both males looked back at each other. Zero carefully took a familiar ring he had kept together with him even in the ambulance from the side table, unknown to both males that were guarding him. He carefully took one of Kain's hands and placed the ring in his palm before closing it.
A soft apologize and 'thank you' escaped the younger man's lips as he cover the fist with both of his hands.
Amber eyes softened and the owner leaned forward to press a gentle kiss on his forehead.
"No… I'm sorry and thank you, Zero. Get enough rest and see you later."
With that, the blonde left and the door closed.
5 months later.
Standing in front of a familiar grave, a certain silver haired male carefully kneeled down on one knee and placed a bouquet of white carnations on it. He let a small smile slipped and gently brushed his hand against the tombstone that had been renewed with a new name.
Belongs to a loving son and a brother.
"Finally I'm starting to feel better and perfect. I guess you can laugh at me wherever you are right now. I'm quite sucked in dealings with emotions like this and I wonder what would have happened if actually it was you who survived, not me?" He chuckled slowly and rewarded only with soft, gentle breeze of wind belongs to upcoming winter.
It had been months since the last time he met Kaname.
The brunette had gone to another country for his business deal and until now, Zero have no idea when will he return. They have not been in contact at all, wisely making use of the meaning 'to take time'.
Kain, in other hand, had moved to another city with Shizuka as well. But usually during weekends, they would come to visit Ichiru and sometimes, to meet him too.
Zero had spent around a month explaining all the things that had happened – of course he hide about some stuff too – to everyone that was shocked to know that he is still alive, especially Yuuki. The brunette girl had caused a commotion the time he went to continue his study.
Since he was supposed to graduate 3 months after the accident, he have to recollect all his studies and somehow, being a quite smart ass that he is, he managed it and his graduation, let just say he have to retake one semester – his last semester – due to all that had happened.
Letting out a heavy sigh, Zero ruffled his own hair and sat down with crossed legs in front of the tomb.
His right hand went to absent-mindedly caressing the ring he placed on the fourth finger of his left one. The time he had sent Kaname off at the airport, he had asked the latter to put back the ring into its truthful position. The brunette was more than happy to comply. He kissed the ring once he put it on him before kissing Zero passionately in the public area.
Zero shook his head slightly when he realized he had been reminisced and the wind blowing softly, few of his now quite long silver strands fell to cover his eyes. In fact now, he had tied his hair in a little ponytail, earning some squeals of 'cute' and 'adorable' from few of his female classmates but he could care less.
Through all the times he was alone, he had make out a lot of things. He learnt about what had happened to Kaname during his 'death' from the brunette's best friend, Takuma and how miserable the brunette had been. Zero had rented a small apartment closed to his university as well even though the penthouse was cancelled to be sold but it still needed to get through some issues first. Furthermore, Zero did not think he could survive living there alone without the brunette and in their separation period.
Somehow, Zero had took quite a time to perfectly get over his guilt. He always think that the only thing that they need is time but actually, it was only him who need time. Kaname had been nothing more but a forgiving and understanding lover. It seems almost ridiculous that Zero had thought they should break up so that the brunette can find someone better and not burdening for him to love. But maybe, Zero had been spoiled too much by the older man. Spoiled by his unconditional love and everything that he would have given up just for him.
Perhaps that was the selfishness inside of him that had caused them to stay together, even when time was involved in it.
Right now, he thinks that he would have gone crazy if Kaname continued to stay with him since he regained all his memories. His emotions, undoubtedly had been a mess and Zero does not want Kaname to watch over him too during his recovery.
But maybe, a mutual separation is what they needed after years of being so close together.
However, right now, Zero missed the older brunette so much. To just hear his voice and to look at his eyes, Zero missed all of those.
Being disconnected without knowing what could have happened to him, is actually worrying. To not know, whether he took care of himself well or not. To not know, whether his business deal went smoothly or not. To not know, how he cope with their separation and perhaps... he had meet someone else, someone better out there.
Taking a deep breath as he continued to stare at his brother's resting place, he closed his eyes. Thinking too much can cause a major headache and that was the last thing he needed while enjoying his free time with his brother right now.
But then, he heard a sound of a car being pulled into a stop not far away. Silence came again after a minute or so but it did not last long either. Zero was a little bit startled by the sound of the metal gate being reopened by an uninvited guest and the silver haired male titled his head slightly to one side. He somehow can see a vague sight of a figure, standing in front of the cemetery gate, close to the place where he had parked his new motorcycle.
Blinking his eyes, Zero went to slowly stand up while the person in other hand started to approach him.
The sunset coloured the sky into peaceful mix of orange and dark blue, expressing how long he had spent his time there at the cemetery but still, the wind was cold against his skin.
Somehow, Zero felt his heart beating faster as the figure walked closer, slowly and calmly, just to become clearer, just to reveal a familiar feature, a gentle familiar smile on his face. As he approached him, his familiar orbs softened like a lover and the wind, again, beautifully blowing against those locks that Zero loved to run his fingers through.
His steps stopped when the distance between them was comfortable enough. The one that will not invade Zero's personal space, just like how Zero like it; his familiar scent spread around the shorter male's surroundings. There was a bunch of flowers he hold in his arms and Zero's pretty-pretty lilac eyes blurred with tears - the ones that rush when emotions running up, as if he was a kid, being given a candy for his well behaved manner - when the taller man opened his arms wide for him.
"Zero… I'm home."
As he took his sprinted steps and was embraced, petals of lilacs – the flower that was Zero's favourite – fell on the ground by their reunion as their lips meet in a chaste kiss after months of separation.
Just like lovers.
END.
A/N : Wow, this is a lamest ending and the most clichéd one as well, that's why I always preferred ending with a death xD
Reason why I wrote His Little Devotion is because actually I wanted to kill Kaname in Lovers, you know the first part that he jumped off the bridge for Zero? Yes, I planned for him to die. But on second thought, if I did, you guys will kill me too. So in order to avoid two deaths, let just say I'll pick no death at all. xD You guys suffered so much already and deserve a happy ending. xD So if you could, the readers out there, leave me a review to make me happy for this last chapter too?
All right. With this, I put a full stop on Lovers. Hope that you guys will have a great day and be happy always =)
Review please.