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"Jenny?" He asks me in the most confused but sweet voice.

"Nate?" I say barely get out still not believing its really him and feeling the system cleanse I've been trying to do this past year slowly slipping away every second longer he stared at me.

"How did you get in here?"He asks and I look at him with this duh expression on my face but it soon vanishes when our eyes meet which causes me to look away and reply to this ridiculous question.

"Nate I grew up here I still have a key, I should be the one asking you why you've chosen to break into our old family loft."

"Yeah well things between Chuck and Blair have been getting more serious since Christmas when they got back together and I felt like I was intruding in their lives." He has this look of a puppy that's been put out on the corner in a box and there's no one who wants him, it takes everything I have not to move closer to give him support but I haven't spoke to Nate in a year and I can't go back to that relationship.

"Ok but that still doesn't explain what you're doing here, from what I've been told Dan's been living here."

"I moved in here with Dan around winter break."

"I know you and my brother are friends but I thought that umm…you know with the situation you wouldn't want to associate with him." I know I'm beating around the bush, but I don't want to give the slightest idea that I'm interested in his feelings for Serena.

"Oh you mean am I ok that your brother is dating Serena." He smiles that heart melting smile making me flinch knowing the affect that it has had on me before.

"Yeah well that's what I meant but I didn't want to intrude where you didn't want me."

"I'm not going to lie I was pissed at first, she said that she needed to figure out herself first and now she's off with Dan, but I get it. Dan's the kind of guy she needs, he mellows her out and I pretty much bring out the worst in her." He wears the most heart breaking expression and I'm about to forget myself and hug him when he finally realizes me being in the loft is the weird thing.

"Wait Jenny I haven't seen you in a year and you're the one grilling me, I don't even know why you left to begin with. What are you doing back?" He moves closer to me forcing me to look him in the eyes.

"Actually Eric and I have kept in contact and I'm here to visit him, but since more than half the city according to Eric hates me we were going to hide out here."

"I still don't get that, ok maybe your dad and Lily could be mad, even Serena and I but that's pretty long ago. I just don't get why Blair acts as if you're the wicked witch of the west." His questioning face makes me feel so ashamed. I can't believe no one told him I slept with Chuck, it's not like he was going to be incredibly upset or something. If anything he probably would just be mad at Chuck for taking advantage of me and me for being so stupid.

"Who knows why Blair does anything she does." I want to tell him the truth but I can see glimpses of the fun times between us and I'm afraid my confession would completely ruin any chance of us being semi normal again. My phone starts to ring and I look at Nate as for permission to answer it.

"Go ahead." He nods and then heads to the kitchen to give me a little privacy.

"Hey Eric."

"Jenny, everyone knows. Gossip Girl's back and there's a blast of you getting into a cab at the train station."

"Are you kidding me? Do you think Blair knows?"

"Considering the worried message I got from Chuck warning me that if Blair sees you she might go crazy, yeah I think she saw it."I start chewing on the inside of my mouth a nervous habit I picked up this year in school because I didn't know anyone. I can see Nate looking at me intently trying to figure out who I would be talking to about Blair.

"Do you want a drink?"He lifts up a jug of what I assume to be Ice Tea.

"Sure."

"Well what am I supposed to do just crawl back to Hudson like she owns the whole city?" I swear when I say this I see a slight look of disappointment on Nate's face but I'm pretty sure that's wishful thinking on my part.

"Actually I'm thinking you stay out of sight for a couple of days at the loft, and when it's all settled down, I'll come by and we can hang out like we planned."

"Eric that sounds good but…"

"That's awesome I have to go, see you in a couple of days." Click.

"Eric…Eric." I hang up.

"He just hanged up on me." I swear I was about to tell him that Nate was here thus I couldn't stay here but he ended the conversation too early.

"Who Eric? I'm sure if he did it wasn't on purpose." He walks back into the living area handing me a glass of Ice Tea.

"Yeah I know, but he hung up before I could tell him that you're staying here so I can't hide out according to his plan." Nate looks confused at this moment.

"Why do you need to hide out? Is it because of Blair?"

"Yeah apparently Gossip Girl is back and she chose me as her first victim so Blair knows I'm here."

"Oh so Eric expects you to hide out here until it blows over." I can see understanding slowly come to his face; he wears his feelings out there for everyone to see.

"Yeah he doesn't realize you've been living with Dan I guess, it's ok I'll find a hotel down the street it's not like Blair's roaming the streets of Brooklyn looking for me." I start to maneuver my huge suitcase.

"No wait; it's your families place."He grabs hold of my arm and it sends shivers down my spine, why did he have to touch me.

"Yeah but Dan's letting you stay here…" I barely get this out with the steady contact between our bodies. "and I haven't been here in over a year."

"Ok, then why don't you just stay…with me."