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Despite the bigger amount of chapters already written, this story goes more slowly than the other, it's a bit stuck, overwhelmed by the other. I'm sorry, because it has also more readers and it results shorter.

The title of this chapter is from R.E.M.'s Swan Swan H. Listen and enjoy this new chapter. Your reviews make my day.

Derek's PoV

Part 4 – The Whiskey Is Water, The Water Is Wine

I like my body when it is with your body.

It is so quite new a thing

E.E. Cummings

Meredith convinced me to call my mother. It hadn't been easy months for us, but she still thought it was nice of me to talk to her sometimes. I haven't been calling her in weeks and I felt guilty about it. The only thing she brought up at every call was the shooting and I couldn't handle it anymore.

Meredith just came back home from work as I hung up the phone. She looked exhausted.

"Hey" I cheered

"Oh, Derek" she said a little surprised "Already here?"

"My surgery was postponed, I texted you"

"Right, sorry, I'm a mess..."

"Wanna go lie down?"

"I will grab a bite of something first. Have you eaten already?"

"No, I got caught up at the phone with Mom"

"So you called her, finally!" she smirked, but her smile was still tired and faded quickly. As soon as she sat at the table, she crossed her arms on the table and lied her head on them.

"I did" I stood up and I kissed her temple, taking away a lock of hair from her face.

"I'm glad."

"She was glad too that I called..."

"Did you tell her about the baby?" she asked me to break the news to her, but I wasn't sure she still wanted her to know.

"No, I wanted you to be there"

"You should have" she didn't sound accusatory, just a little disappointed. And tired.

"We can tell her in person. She asked me to fly over for Christmas"

"To New York?" her head tilted up slightly

"Yeah. Kathleen and Nancy would join us. Amy is tied up and Martha had just had a baby so she'd like to have a quiet Christmas at home, though she's sending the other two kids" I explained in a beat, without even breathing

"Der" her head fell back on her arms

"You're freaking out, I know. Sorry."

She barely lifted her head from the table to look at me "No, I'm just tired"

"We can think about that a little while longer, but Mer, she'll be over the moon if we'll visit"

"I'll think about it, ok?"

"Why don't we just call it a night?" I suggested, as her eyes closed

"No, I wanna eat with you"

"You were on call last night"

"Apparently" she giggled, then I sat beside her and she leaned on my shoulder

"Hungry?"

"I don't know"

"Let's go to bed then"

She looked at me hopeful, almost as I was giving her an early Christmas present. I smiled, kissing softly her lips, then I lingered over her forehead a little while, breathing her scent. I missed her. When I pulled away, her eyelids were already closed. I chuckled to myself, then I carried her upstairs in my arms. She flinched a little when I put her down, then I snuggled beside her and I put my arms around her. She unconsciously leaned to me, cradling in my hug. My hands fell automatically over her stomach and my heart just ached. It would have been a bump at this point. Little and unnoticeable under her clothes, but already there. And I would have seen it every night and kissed them before falling asleep.

She growled and turned to me, tying her arms to my chest, I could feel that she was awake

"What are you thinking?" she babbled, her eyes still shut. I immediately pulled away my hands, moving them to her hip

"It would be great to bring you to New York" I half lied

"Do you think we'll find tickets at this point?"

"Maybe Mom had already booked them" she giggled

"Let's go then"

"Seriously?"

"I love you" she said, before brushing her lips to mine and fall back to sleep.

When she woke up in the morning, I expected her to deny all of it, instead she asked me to call my mom again and tell her we would be coming. It scared the crap out of her, but she told me to go ahead anyway and I was glad.

We found an early morning flight for the 23rd and we had a whole week off. After we told Richard about the baby he was even happier to give us some time off to catch up with the real world outside the hospital and to be with each other.

As soon as we decided to fly to New York, Amelia called me. We were still curled up in bed when my phone rang and I immediately thought it was something important. She had never called me in weeks, not once after she visited.

"Amy?"

"Derek, did I woke you up?" her voice was small, distant

"No, don't worry. What's wrong?"

"How do you know something's wrong?" I sensed panic in her voice

"You never call over nothing. What's going on?"

The line felt silent and I heard her sigh.

"Amy?"

"It's bad Derek..."

"Amy, please, tell me what's going on"

"Promise me you won't tell Mom or anybody else in the family" she sniffed

"Why?"

"I'm pregnant"

My heart relaxed. I immediately thought she was on drugs again or something bad happened to her, my little sister is pregnant instead.

"Why shouldn't I tell anybody? When you came here you didn't told me anything, I didn't even know you were seeing someone, that's good news!"

"I'm alone Derek. We've seen each other for a month and we had already broke up when I found out. Don't tell Mom" her voice was shaky just at the thought of Mom finding out.

"Mom can help. We can help, you know...Me and Meredith. We can come over and stay a little while if you need some support. Or you can come here..."

"No, doesn't matter, I just wanted to tell somebody. You're the closest. Besides, Addison is giving me a hand"

"Good. You can come and stay here if you want, we have a nice guest room..."

"I don't want to bother you or Meredith, I just want you to come by when the baby's born"

"Of course I'll be there"

"I'm due at the end of March" her voice cracked.

"I promise I will be there. Are you sure you don't want me to come?"

"It's fine, I'm staying with Addie. You can have my apartment when you'll come"

"I'll be there"

"Thank you" she fell silent for a second "Derek"

"Yeah..."

"It's a boy" I felt tears welling up in my eyes.

"Congratulations. I'll call you soon, ok? Take care of yourself and call me if you need anything"

"Okay. Love you bro"

"I love you too little sis."

I put the phone on the nightstand and tightened my arms to Meredith, who quietly listened to half of my conversation, rubbing my chest in circles, a slightly concerned expression. I'm sure she saw my mood changing after Amy's words

"Derek, who was on the phone?"

"My little sister is pregnant Mer" I answered in disbelief, unable to put my fingers to it yet.

"Amy? That's good, right?" her eyes were sad, behind the real layer of happiness for my sister.

"She's alone and she doesn't want to tell anybody"

"You want to go there?" her voice plain, comforting

"She doesn't want to. I'll fly when she's in labor. I'll call Addison to tell her to keep an eye on her"

"You're sure?"

"She is" I admitted, feeling helpless.

"I'm sorry"

She gently kissed my lips, holding my hand. I was glad both we had the weekend off, because I didn't wanted anything but stay curled up in bed.

"It's so unfair" I blurted out, creeping the silence "She's having a baby she doesn't want and we..." I choked.

"We can have other babies and she certainly considered all her options"

I was crying. Out of the blue. Like an emotional little girl. Her hands immediately reached for me, rubbing my chest slowly, soothingly.

"Derek, it's ok, she's gonna be ok"

"We would have had close babies, with my little sister. And she's having a boy too, Meredith"

"Shhhh" she whispered in my ear, holding me gently and letting me sob, nuzzling my head on her chest and brushing my hair. I had to be strong but I couldn't stop crying.

AN: Ok, I don't know yet if I have to consider it a crossover with Private Practice, considering that Amelia will be back at some point and a couple of chapters will be dedicated to her, but I can't see this story as a crossover, because it's mainly MerDer, so I pretend Amelia never joined Private Practice and she's still an unknown Shepherd sister that lives in LA.

The fourth sister has a made-up name because it's the only one with an unknown name. When we'll have the definite one I promise I'll change it, so for now on we'll refer to her as Martha.

Thanks for reading this chapter and stay tuned for the next update!