If someone was feeling upset, Thad always knew. He was used to take care of other people. He had comforted his little brother when their parents were going through their divorce and when he got nightmares, he comforted Chris after his mother disowned him, he calmed Nick down in his first year when he had a nervous breakdown in the middle of a McKinley vs. Dalton hockey game, and he comforted Terry after his girlfriend of two and a half years cheated on him.
So when he saw Flint, he couldn't help but be concerned. The boy went from lovesick and happy to sad and heartbroken to hopeful and then back to heartbroken in little over a month. When he noticed that Flint wasn't in his classes before noon, but arrived after lunch break, not acting like himself, he knew there was something wrong. Thad had a hunch it was about his ex, but he couldn't figure out what it was. Frankly, he didn't want to try to figure it out, since every thought lead to something worse. He decided to stop trying to figure out what was wrong when he considered the fact that Flint had been blackmailed into murdering a child and its puppy.
Finding out what was up with Flint became an absolute must when Jeff pulled Thad into an empty classroom during break. He told him Flint had told him we was going out and asked him to keep the window open because he would be late. Flint came in around 1 AM and refused to talk to Jeff. He only crawled in his bed and lay there. Jeff just shrugged it off, thinking he was just tired, but Jeff nudged Flint in the morning, he asked Jeff to leave him alone.
Jeff told him he'd be spending the day with Nick so Thad got all the privacy he wanted with Flint. He stood in front of their dorm and knocked. When there was no reply, he knocked again, harder. He heard someone mumble "go away." Thad took it as his cue to enter the room.
"I thought you went out with Nick." Flint mumbled. He was lying in his bed, completely hidden by the covers. Thad walked over to the bed and sat down next to him.
"He did." Thad replied. He felt Flint slightly tense.
"Thad?" He said in an almost whisper. "Could-could you just leave me alone?"
"No." Thad said. "Misery loves company."
"You feel like shit too, huh?" Flint asked and received a nod from Thad.
Flint moved into a sitting position with an almost unnoticeable wince. His eyes were slightly red and he looked like he hadn't really gotten any sleep, despite having spent most of his time in bed for the last 15 hours.
"I'm sorry." Flint whispered. Thad tilted his head, looking at Flint in confusion. "I failed you. I-I wasn't strong enough."
"What are you talking about, Flint?" Thad asked, his thoughts racing. Did he fail the blackmailing guy, thus something bad would happen to Thad? Perhaps he stole Thad's car, picked up his little brother from school and drove it off a cliff.
"I did it. I slept with him." Flint replied. Thad was secretly revealed it wasn't what he thought earlier, but he was only slightly shocked. He told Flint he shouldn't get back together with him for a reason. Flint was a hopeless romantic and he wore his heart on his sleeve. Thad knew after he told him he was in love, all he wanted was to be loved back. That was clearly something he wouldn't get from the guy, what with dating a closeted guy.
But then Thad realized he could have prevented this. If he had only just reminded him that sleeping with someone won't make them love you back, maybe this wouldn't have happened.
"I just… I just really regret it, y'know? You always hear people talk about how special their first time was and…" Flint said, his voice drifting away.
"You're not still dating him, are you?" Thad asked.
"No." Flint answered. "I pretty much regretted it after we did it and he picked up on it. He looked kind of guilty and then we broke it off. He's not a bad guy, he really isn't."
Flint sighed and rubbed his eyes. "I just hate this so much. I just want to meet someone and fall in love and that would be it. No unnecessary drama, no heartbreaks, never feeling like you don't matter… I-I mean, is this something I'm doing? Am I doing something wrong? Am I such a horrible person that it's not possible to love me? Am I really that repulsive?"
"It is definitely not you, Flint. You're a wonderful person. You're smart, you're talented, you're beautiful, you're funny, you're sweet, you're caring, the list could go on and on. You just need to find someone who appreciates all of those things and doesn't take advantage of them. Someone who loves you despite your flaws or even finds them endearing. Someone who laughs at your dorky jokes, someone who finds it adorable when you struggle with making a full, intelligent sentence, someone who loves every part of yourself you dislike."
Flint was silent for a while. "Y-You think that this person exists?" He asked, scooching closer to Thad.
"I do." Thad said, smiling. Flint smiled at his words and Thad felt his heart flutter. He really did have a big, gorgeous smile.
Flint casted his eyes downwards. "Do you think any of these things?" He asked, shyly.
"Of course I do. You've heard me laugh at your jokes. You know how I find your history comic-notes flattering. You know how much I love your voice." Thad said.
Flint chuckled and made an eye contact with Thad. His eyes were really dark and big, the type you could just get trapped in forever. Flint had read and heard about people getting lost in someone's eyes, but he never thought he'd actually experience it. He certainly didn't expect it to happen while looking into his friend's eyes. Then there was his smile, that beautiful smile. And, his chin dimple, oh god, the chin dimple.
He was ripped from his thoughts when Thad cleared his throat and broke the eye contact. What the hell was that? Why was he thinking about his friend, his good friend, in that way? This couldn't be happening, he couldn't be falling for him. He couldn't get screwed over again, not this soon.
"So… are you feeling better?" Thad asked, breaking the awkward silence.
"Much. Thank you. I really… really appreciate this. Y'know, you taking the time to come see if everything's alright and cheering me up. It really worked, I don't feel like utter crap anymore. I actually feel worth it." Flint replied, leaning slightly into Thad.
Before Flint knew it, Thad's lips were on his own. The kiss ended way too quickly in Flint's opinion, but he clearly understood why. Thad was panicking. His eyes were wide, he was fiddling with his thumbs and his bottom lip was trembling slightly.
"I-I didn't, I, um, I'm sorry. That was so insensitive and-and selfish of me, y-you just broke up with your boyfriend. Oh god, please don't hate me." Thad said fast, his voice shaky. Flint laughed, making Thad narrow his eyes slightly and look at him with offence while still being nervous.
"You're such a nervous wreck."
"I-I can't help it. I absolutely hate it. I guess you could call it a flaw." Thad said. He didn't look as nervous as before, seeing how Flint didn't have any negative reactions to the kiss.
"I find it adorable." Flint said, leaning in for another kiss.
Sorry for it being so short. Anywho, there'll be quite a lot of Kurt and Jeff friendship interaction in the next chapter C: Oh and I feel like I'm on kind of a roll here, so expect chapters daily or every other day for like a week. I can't believe I have so many chapters in this story, and oh god, all the reviews! Thank you guys so much 3
