And he was gone. I didn't feel his presence anymore. HE WASN'T HERE. I tried to call him, but he didn't take the phone. I left him million messages, but he didn't answer. I went to their house, but all I got was his mom telling me Andy isn't home. His mom looked very worried, so I believed her. I went home crying. My black eyeliner was now smeared all over my face as my tears were pouring down. I took the longer way home as I didn't want to go back to that place where all the memories are. I just walked through forest and quietly sang my favourite song: „Your tears don't fall, they crash around me..."
Why did he do this? If he was running just a LITTLE BIT slower, now we could be the happiest couple in this universe. Now he's gone, God only knows where is he hiding at. And he forgot his cell phone, of course. Let's just hope I'll meet him in the schol tomorrow.
ANDY'S P.O.V.
When I kissed Sherry, I felt complete again. I wanted to stop the damned time so this moment would never grow older. But soon I realized I couldn't keep it. I couldn't keep her, because she doesn't feel the same. I just whispered her the last words I wanted her to know: „I love you more than I could ever scream..." Yeah... And I ran away. I hope she didn't see me wiping away tears off my face – it was fu*king black of my makeup. It was raining like a motherfucker, but I didn't care. She shouted some words after me, but I didn't hear them. I heard just her sweet voice, for the last time I tried to remember it.
As I was running, I was deciding where to go. Normally when I'm having hard time, Sherry's the one I wanna talk to. I have nobody except her. But now... I think I'm gonna visit Jinxx. We are performing in Washington tomorrow anyway. And he certainly will be interested in what happened.
I went straight to Jinxx's house, knocked on the door and he opened. „Hey Andy, how's it... Are you crying?" he asked in disbelief. He's never seen me cry before. „Hm..." I shrugged and made a fake smile. „Come on..." he hugged me and closed the door. „Sit down and tell me, what is going on." Told Jinxx looking very seriously in my face. I had feeling he's staring right into my brain, so I told him everthing that happend. „...I kissed her and ran away. She certainly thinks I'm stupid now. I just couldn't help! I love her..." I was staring on the floor playing with little ball. Jinxx told me it's antistress, but I don't think it works anyway. „Wait, wait, wait..." Jinxx started. „Did she tell you in your face that she does NOT love you?" he asked at the end. „Well, she didn't, but..." „THAN HOW THE HELL DO YOU KNOW SHE DOESN'T FU*KING LOVE YOU?" Jinxx seemed very confused and angry. „Well... I... I don't." I replied, realising he is probably right. „Andy... You know I love you, bro, but I gotta tell you, you acted stupid. You should've waited there for her to respond." He put his hand on my shoulder and gazed me into my eyes. „Oh my God I hate when you're right." I told and stood up. „Go to the guest room, tomorrow we leave, don't forget." Jinxx showed me kinda nicer face and I went up the stairs to the guest room.
I threw myself on bed and started crying. What if Jinxx is right and I just made myself look like a jerk and broke heart of the most important person in my life? Or am I right and she doesn't love me? Oh my god I'm so confused! Urgh... I have to calm down, tomorrow we play a huge show, I can't perform like zombie without any sign of a soul inside.
So I laid on the bed and covered myself with a blanket. From my pants I took a photo of me and Sherry hugging last week in were so happy, she gave me a soft kiss on cheek. I kissed the photo and tried to fall asleep. But, just as I thought, I couldn't. Memories were chasing me in every corner of my mind. I've never felt so caged inside before. I hope she doesn't feel the same terrible regrets as I do...
SHERRY'S P.O.V.
I woke up this morning, checked out my phone. Than I remembered I'm not gonna see an usual morning message from Andy anymore. He probably isn't sending me Good-morning-sweetheart message right now. I remembered everything that happened yesterday night. I immediately felt goosebumps all over my body and a tear started running it's route down my face. „Why?" I whined and started crying even more. I didn't even do my makeup or hair, I just dressed random clothes from my closet and went to school. Who cares if I'm crying anyway. The only thing I care about right now is Andy...