Bad language and sexual content. Thanks for reading. I dont own 24 etc...
On the way back he asked her if she would stay with him for the next few nights. He didn't want to be apart from her for even a minute. She seemed really excited by the idea. They stopped off at her apartment so she could pick up some things. Whilst she was there she called Danny. She had tried calling him in the morning but hadn't answered. Then he had left a message on her machine saying he was ok and spending the day with Nick. As they spoke he asked her a million questions about what was going on but she told him she wasn't up for going into it all now. That she was fine and staying with Tony for a couple days.
Afterwards Tony helped her pack up some clothes. She pulled out her panties and threw them on top of the pile. She caught Tony staring at them and it made her giggle.
"What are you laughing at?"
"You are so busted Almeida, checking out my underwear!"
"Can you blame me?"
She laughed and he edged himself a little closer to her. "Makes me think about when you flashed me yesterday."
She went red. "I can't believe I did that!"
"Neither can I...but fuck, that was so hot. You have no idea how hard it was for me to refrain myself."
"Aaahh...don't think I didn't notice you copping a feel when you pulled them back up..."
Now it was his turn to go completely red. This was all so new to them, talking to each other like this. Tony still couldn't believe he had Michelle Dessler in his life like this now. He grabbed her hand and pulled her in closer to him. "Trust me...that was me behaving myself with you. Besides you were so pissed with me, I don't think that was quite the time to be making a move."
She giggled. "True."
He leaned into her and quietly whispered into her ear before kissing it, "but you're not angry with me now, right?"
She titled her head to the side to allow him to keep kissing around her neck. "Nah, you've managed to get yourself back into my good books."
She was so nervous. This was the first time really that they had been alone since they had gotten together. Last night didn't count seeing as she was off her head when they had retired to his room for the night. She loved the feel of his stubble scratching against her neck. She allowed him to continue for a minute before she pulled back a little and looked into his eyes. She felt her stomach do flips as he gently pressed his lips against hers. His hand cupped the good side of her face and his other hand trace across her stomach. It took her a moment to respond but her hands soon found their way to his chest. He deepened the kiss and immediately everything became extremely passionate.
He wasted no time, slipping his hands around to her back and unclipping her bra and then running them back around across her breasts. She gasped and stopped the kiss.
He's lips were still touching hers, "Are you ok baby." He was breathing so heavily that his words were a little broken. His eyes were scanning hers but he didn't loosen his grip on her.
"I just can't believe this is happening." Her hands were now running up and down his chest.
"I can't believe it either. My heart is racing."
They continued to stare at one another, he slowly started to circle her nipple with his finger. Not only did he love how good it felt but watching the reaction to his touch on her face was almost better. He could tell she was shy so he wanted to try and take it slow but it was almost impossible to not just rip all her clothes off. He started walking her backwards so that she was standing up against the wall.
Tony's hands felt so good and she loved that he was taking control because she almost felt too nervous to know what to do. He started kissing her again, but this time it was passionate from the start. He was pushing his body into hers as close as he could. When she felt him grab at her breasts with more force and let out a husky groan it gave her the courage to yanks at his top to pull it off. He slipped it over his head as fast as he could, not wanting to miss a second of being able to touch her.
As he leant back in and began to kiss her again she ran her hands up and down his back, across his chest and through his hair. He barely broke the kiss to mumble to her, "Can yours come off too?"
She nodded as she helped him remove her top and bra. He stepped back a couple inches to take her all in. Yes, he had seen her last night, but this was so different. It felt like the first time for him. He lowered his body and began to kiss her breasts. She groaned, "Oh my God baby, that feels so good."
He hesitated; he had never heard her talk like that before. Her tone, everything about the way she said those words to him was different then her usual voice. He almost lost it right there and then. She felt him hesitate and lifted his head with her hands. "What's wrong?"
He laughed and began nibbling on her ear. "Say that again."
She wasn't quite sure she was following, "What?" but then he grabbed her breast in one hand forcefully, pushed his hard body into hers and sucked on her neck. She couldn't help it."Oh Shit Tony...you...oh my God!"
He gave a cheeky chuckle. "That!"
His phone rang, he just let it ring out as he continued to kiss her. Her hands had made their way to the top of his jeans and he wasn't about to let anything stop this moment. His phone out again. And then hers. As his started again, Michelle pulled back, "Must be important."
He sighed. "It better be."
He snapped his phone open, "WHAT?"
Michelle laughed at his frustration and continued to trail her fingers across the top of his pants. It was clear how turned on he was and he was slowly pushing himself into her.
It was Jess on the phone. Apparently Sam had been calling her phone non-stop. She hadn't answered it but she had listened to all the messages he was leaving and he was threatening her. Clearly furious the police were now on the hunt for him he had completely lost it. The messages alluded to him knowing she was staying with her brother and he was going to come and 'teach her a lesson'. She was crying that she didn't know what to do. Tony told her to make sure everything was locked up and that they would be there in a few minutes.
Michelle had already gathered something was wrong and had begun to put her bra and top back on. Tony winced at the sight of her covering herself up again. He explained what was happening and they grabbed what Michelle had already packed and fast tracked it all the way back to Tony's.
"Shouldn't we call the police Tony?"
"We will be there in a minute. I'll call them once we are there. I doubt this guy will have the balls to actually come to my apartment but the police need to make a report of the messages he is leaving her. I think we are going to have to get a restraining order."
"I agree. I'll call and organize one once we get there."
Tony grabbed her hand. "I'm so sorry we got interrupted..."
"Don't be sorry Tony, it's your sister."
"I know. I just need time with you. We still haven't even had a chance to talk to about last night or anything."
She tightened her grip on his hand. "We will. Don't worry. Let's just make sure Jess is ok first."
Jess was understandably in tears when they arrived. Tony hugged her for a moment before asking to listen to the messages. Michelle took over holding Jess and telling her that she was safe and everything would be alright.
"Were you guys still at the cemetery?"
"No, we were just picking up some clothes from my place."
"I'm sorry Chelle, you have so much going on, the last thing you need is my shit."
Michelle pulled her in closer. "Your shit, is my shit Jess. We are all helping each other out at the moment right?"
After Tony listened to the messages he called the police and Michelle phoned the office to fast track the process for a restraining order.
A few minutes later someone started pounding on the door. Tony looked through the peep hole and saw it was Sam. He told Jess and Michelle to go into his bedroom and lock the door.
Jess started to head there but Michelle stopped. "Tony, I can help you, I am trained for all this you know."
"I know honey but I'm not taking another chance on this guy laying a finger on you again. Please just go and stay with Jess."
Michelle did as he asked but felt sick about it. What if Sam had a weapon? The thought of anything happening to Tony made her ill to her stomach. As she tried to keep Jess calm in his bedroom she could hear Tony and Sam yelling through the door. He was kicking and pounding on it so hard Michelle figured it was only a matter of time before he broke the door down.
Tony was panicked. He knew he could handle Sam, he had been in a hell of a lot more dangerous situations then this before but it felt completely different when it was Michelle and his sister he was trying to protect.
Luckily the police arrived and soon Tony could hear them wrestling Sam to the ground and an officer telling him that it was ok, he could open up. He opened the door to see Sam handcuffed against the wall and then the police officers stepped inside. He didn't want Jess to see Sam at all so he asked the officers to have Sam taken downstairs to the car before he had Michelle and Jess come out of the room.
Jess had to fill out another report with Tony and Michelle and the police took her phone for evidence. The officers assured Jess that Sam would be locked up until a hearing in a few days. The relief on her face was obvious straight away. She hugged Tony and thanked him.
Tony saw the officers out and then turned back to Jess. "Sorry sis, I shouldn't have left you."
As soon as he said it he felt guilty because taking Michelle to the cemetery was so important as well. He saw Michelle's face drop and he quickly back tracked. "I should have taken you to mum and dad's whilst we were out."
They sat around talking and explained to Jess what was most likely to happen with Sam. The truth was, he would most likely be free again pretty soon and Jess was going to have to find a way of protecting herself. She mentioned maybe looking for a new apartment so he wouldn't know where she lived. They tossed around a few ideas.
Finally they walked into the living room where they saw the new TV all set up. "Shit, it's beautiful." He put his arm around Michelle. "Thank you baby, I love it, I really love it."
She smiled. "So are we going to test it out with a movie?"
"Damn straight we are...I'll even let you girls pick some chick flick!"
He ordered them some dinner in, Michelle offered to pay but he refused. She tried again. "Chelle, I want to pay. You have to let me do things like this or it is really going to stress me out."
She backed off straight away. "Ok honey." She knew that Tony was the type of guy that wanted to look after his girlfriend and she never wanted her wealth to be an issue with them."
After they had eaten Tony told them he was just going to call work. He was going to request that both he and Michelle have a couple days to recover but Chapelle was in a foul mood. He told Tony they needed to at least come in and do their debriefs the next day. Tony explained what had happened to Michelle but Chapelle wasn't having any of it. He told Tony that he wanted them both in by 9am. They could then take the next couple days off.
As soon as he was off the phone with Chapelle he called his parents are organised to drop Jess of on their way out so she could spend the day with them.
When he explained to the girls the plan he could see Michelle become distressed. He took her in his arms. "It's just the debriefs honey, then we can have some time off."
"I know, I just don't want to have to deal with all that. I'm not ready to have to think about that day again."
"I know baby, neither am I." He kept her in his arms for a couple of minutes before she pulled back and suggested they start the movie because it was getting late.
After the movie they all got ready for bed. Michelle pulled on one of his Cubs t-shirts to wear. She had been quiet ever since he had told her they had to do their debriefs tomorrow. She took tablets for the pain and crawled into bed.
"How is your eye feeling?"
"Pretty sore. But I'll be fine."
As much as he wanted to fool around, it was really late and they had to be up in a few hours. He also didn't think that Michelle was in the right frame of mind, not to mention she was in pain. So he pulled her body in close. She wrapped her arms around him and they gently kissed for a little while before he told her she should get some sleep.
Michelle knew she wasn't going to be able to sleep. There was far too much on her mind and when she closed her eyes all she pictured was that day's events. Tony looked beat and she didn't want to bother him, especially when she didn't even know what she wanted to say. He stroked her hair until he fell asleep. She watched him for awhile thinking about how lucky she was to have him. She tried to sleep but every time she closed her eyes she felt worse. She wished she could have another one of those valium injections.
She slid out of the bed without disturbing him and made her way into the living room. She silently cried as she sat on the sofa thinking about the next day. At 4 in the morning, Jess came out to get a drink from the kitchen. She saw Michelle curled up on the couch in tears. She approached her slowly.
"Chelle?"
Michelle immediately sat up straight and tried to wipe her tears. "Hey Jess."
"Do you want me to go get Tony?"
"No it's ok, he is asleep and I don't want to wake him."
"You worried about tomorrow?"
"Yeah."
"Look Chelle. I'm not even going to pretend like I have any understanding of how what you guys must be going through. But is there anything I can do? Do you want to talk?"
"I'm ok thanks Jess. Think I just need some time to think really."
"Want me to sit with you?"
"Thanks Jess but its ok, you go back to bed. I'll try and sleep soon."
Michelle had to reassure Jess a couple times she was ok before she finally went back to bed. Michelle continued to sit there and try and digest everything that had happened the last few days.
When Ton's alarm went off in the morning he was surprised to see Michelle wasn't lying next to him. He stumbled out to the living room where he found her sitting staring out the window. He put his arms around her and kissed her on the neck. "Beat me up huh?"
She gave him a small smile. "Something like that."
A minute later Jess appeared. She couldn't believe Michelle was still sitting there. "Chelle didn't you go to sleep?"
Tony looked at them both confused. "What do you mean?"
Michelle shook her head. "It's nothing."
Tony gave Jess a look like she had better tell him straight away what the hell she was talking about. "I found Chelle out here at like 4 this morning..."
Tony turned straight back to Michelle. "Have you slept at all?"
She shook her head.
"Why didn't you wake me? You just sat out here all alone all night?"
"It's not a big deal Tony. I was just thinking."
"It's a huge deal baby. I feel like a right ass knowing I was sound asleep and you have been out here by yourself all night." He looked at her eyes. "And you have been crying."
Michelle stood up. "There was nothing you could do Tony. I can't expect you to be up all night just because I can't sleep."
"Yes you can! That's what I'm here for. You must be exhausted. Come here." He turned her body into his and studied her. Her good eye was red and puffy from tears and her bad eye was still so swollen it was barely open and completely black and blue. He felt so guilty. How could he have slept straight through like that not knowing she had gotten up? How was she ever going to cope with today after no sleep? "How is your eye? Have you taken your tablets?"
"Yep, I just took some about half an hour ago so they will kick in pretty soon."
They had to scramble to get ready. Neither one of them said much as they were too busy thinking. Tony was completely stressed about Michelle and worried what this debrief was going to do to her. He kept a close eye on her as she got ready and she was really quiet.
They had dropped Jess off at his parents and made their way to work. They held hands as they drove but they were both still quiet. It didn't feel awkward, they both knew how heavily the debrief was weighing on their minds and they needed time to gather their own thoughts.
They kissed quickly before hopping out of the car, Tony was about to take her hand when they heard a couple colleagues walk up behind them. They spun around and said good morning and before Tony knew it they were all walking into the office together and he knew he just blown his chance at telling her the million things he wanted to, the most important being how much he loved her.
Michelle got stuck in the corridor with a Jo and Amy who were shocked as hell at the sight of her eye and wanted to know what had happened. She didn't feel comfortable telling them what had happened with Jess and Sam. Although Jo and Amy were good friends that she trusted, Tony was their boss and it didn't feel appropriate to be telling about what was happening in his family's personal life. She had already discussed with Tony that she would tell people that she had interrupted an intruder in her apartment when she got home. She did tell Amy and Jo that she had gotten together with Tony but pleaded with them to not tell a soul. They wanted to keep people knowing about their personal life to a minimum but Amy and Jo were close enough friends that it would feel wrong not to tell them. They were so excited for Michelle. Of course they wanted all the goss on Tony. Michelle let them know that kissing him was better than she had ever imagined but that was it.
Out the corner of her eye she saw Ryan Chapelle lead Tony into one of the conference rooms and he looked pissed. She chatted to the girls some more before heading over to her desk. She had a few things she wanted to do before the debrief and she hoped that she would get to wish Tony good luck with his before he went in.
Tony was copping it from Chapelle big time for his relationship with Michelle. Carrie had told that she has seen them kissing of course and then Tony had basically confirmed it on the phone to Chapelle when they had discussed their briefs and Tony had told him what had happened to her.
At first he thought Chapelle was going to try and say that relationships were banned and he wouldn't stand for it but he quickly realised that officially Chapelle couldn't do that so he was going to do and say everything in his power to pursway Tony to end it. Of course Nina was bought up and the whole mess with Jack and him both having had dated her.
After a few minutes of ranting and raving without a single response from Tony, Chapelle finally calmed down and took a more gentle, sensitive tone, "Are you really going to put yourself in this position again Tony?"
"To say that, suggests you think that Michelle is like Nina and we both now damn well she is not."
"I am not saying that at all Tony. But you know how quickly things in this line of work can change lives, Michelle doesn't have to be a mole for this to have million ways of ending in a really horrible way."
"With all due respect sir, so does every relationship in life. I'm not going to stay single for the rest of my life because of my job."
"I'm not saying that you have to, but wouldn't it be a lot easier to date someone who wasn't in the same line of work as you?"
"I can't help who I fall in love with!"
Chapelle looked shocked, he paused for a moment and sat on the edge of the table. "Love? You are telling me you love Michelle? How long has this been going on?"
"Ryan, there has been something between Michelle and I since the day she started here. She has come the person I trust and count on the most. It has only been the last few days that we have actually begun a relationship but it has been over a year of me having such strong feelings for her."
Chapelle tried a different approach. "Tony, you know I was there when everything went down with Nina. I watched you fall into a very dark place. Everything was a thousand times more complicated because you guys all worked together. What happened destroyed Jack, it destroyed you and so many of us here in the office..."
"I wasn't in love with Nina, Ryan. Yes, we were dating but it was nothing like what I have with Michelle. I was so destroyed because of the depth of betrayal of what Nina did. It wasn't exactly easy to get my head around the fact that I had been involved with someone capable of doing the things she did."
Although Tony was frustrated, he could appreciate that Chapelle was giving him a hard time because he actually cared and didn't want to see him or Michelle get hurt. He wished he could blurt out everything he felt for Michelle but he wouldn't do that, not with Ryan, not with anyone from work. What he had with Micelle was so much deeper and special then he would ever be able to explain to Chapelle.
"Tony I'm not one for office gossip but David hasn't exactly made it a secret that he has dated Michelle off and on as well..."
"That's not true, he has been lying. Michelle has never been out with him."
"Fine, I'm not interested in getting into all that but how are you can to handle things Tony if Michelle ends things? Decides she doesn't feel the same way back? You have both just gotten together after experiencing quite possibly one of the most distressing, emotional days of your lives. Isn't there the possibility you are leaning on each other to try and cope with what you have been through?"
This actually made Tony stop and think. He knew without a doubt that wasn't the case for him and his feelings for Michelle but he didn't know if that could be a possibility with Michelle. His mind started to race to the fact that it was when she fell apart and he found her and comforted her that she kissed him. What if he hadn't followed her? What if someone else had? He couldn't handle this right now, he could already feel logic going out the window and his insecurities creeping in and starting to take over. He didn't think he could hear another word of Ryan talking like this.
"Ryan, I appreciate you are looking out for us, I do. But I have got my debrief to get through and to be honest that's more than enough for me to try and concentrate on at the moment. I can assure you Michelle and I will keep our relationship out of the office and I will give everything you have said some serious thought. Can we please leave it at this for now though? I need to be able to get my head clear for the debrief?"
Ryan thought for a moment and then nodded his head. "Fair enough, I am sorry this wasn't the right time for me to bring this up with you. I'll send Ron in now so you can get on with it."
"Can I have a quick word with Michelle first?"
Ryan was already opening the door for them, "Ok, but make it quick, Andrew is waiting for Michelle in holding 2."
"Thanks."
As Tony rounded the corridor he saw Jackson hugging Michelle and as he pulled out of the hug he very affectionately ran his hand down her arm. She seemed oblivious to it and sat back down in her chair. As Tony approached them he started seething as he saw Jackson place his hand on top of Michelle's on the desk. He could feel himself losing it.
Michelle looked up to see Tony, she was glad he had finally come out of his meeting – she had been having Andrew wait for her because she needed to see Tony before she went in. Jackson turned around to Tony and got up to walk away. He smiled, not in a smirkey way but in a friendly way and as he walked off said, "Morning Tony, I'll let you guys do your debriefs and I'll catch up with you later."
Tony was trying so hard to remain calm but he couldn't. He had Chapelle's words running through his head, he had all the things David had said he had done with Michelle running through his head, he had the debrief and now he had the image of Jackson touching her like that. His voice was quiet. "What the hell was that all about?"
Michelle was completely taken back by Tony's words and tone. "What?"
"What do you mean, What? That! Jackson, all over you!"
Michelle shook her head in disbelief. "He wasn't all over me. He hugged me...trying to be nice, after he heard what had happened..."
"A hug and his hand running down your arm, then he had his fucking hand on yours."
Michelle looked around to make sure no one was within ear shot then leaned in a little closer to Tony, "Jackson is gay Tony. Gay, everyone knows that. He wasn't making a fucking move on me, he was being nice."
Tony was stopped in his tracks, he had no idea. "He is not gay?"
"Yes he is. Openly gay...if you don't believe me, why don't you ask him yourself."
He could see the disappointment in her eyes at how he had just acted. He was so relieved though. "Sorry, I just had Ryan all over me about our relationship and he was making me think, freaking me out and then I walked out and saw Jackson doing that and I all I could think about was all the disgusting things David told me he had done with you and I was seeing that and..."
She cut him off, "Wait a minute. Slow down. What was Ryan saying to freak you and what other things did David say? I thought we had been through all of that?"
Tony was literally shaking he was so wound up. "That maybe we were just leaning on each other because of what happened the other day, that maybe we you...or I...or both of us...I don't know...don't really love each other we just think we do because we are so emotional over what happened. He couldn't believe after Nina..."
"You guys compared me with Nina? Are you shitting me?"
"Its not like that, it's just he was trying to say that look how office relationships are so much more complicated and what would I do when things end..." He knew he was barely making sense. His mouth was moving faster than his brain."
"I don't understand what the hell you are talking about. You are already talking about how you are going to handle things when we are over? And why was David bought up? "Are you...is this all about...are you having 2nd thoughts about us Tony?"
"That is the last thing in this world I am thinking. I love you more than anything in this world. Shit Michelle, nothing is coming out right. I'm so confused. Chapelle said he had also heard you were dating David and..."
Michelle stood up and motioned for Tony to follow her into one of the empty offices. She closed the door behind them. "This is really starting to make me sick. Even Chapelle is fucking talking about my sex life now? What else did David say?"
"Chelle...sweetheart..."
"Tell me now Tony or I swear I am walking out that door."
"You promised you wouldn't do that Chelle."
"If I don't start getting some answers Tony then I'll break my promise. Believe me, I'm not going to be hanging around here while you decide with Chapelle if we should be dating or not, what I have supposedly done with David and being compared with Nina..."
"Chelle I don't believe it anyways, you know I believe you were not with David."
"Clearly you are not 100% convinced or you wouldn't have just acted that way. What did he say?"
"He told James how good you tasted. He didn't say it to me, I just heard but..."
"Tasted?"
Tony's sunk his head but slightly lifted his eyes to her's. "Yes."
"What do you mean by that?"
Tony couldn't read Michelle's face at all. He had no idea what she was thinking although he was pretty sure she was hating him right now. His voice had become weak and shaky. "You want me to explain what that means?"
She kept staring at him. She didn't say a word, he didn't understand why he had to say this out loud. "He meant that when he went down on you, that you tasted so good."
Michelle looked humiliated, horrified and on the verge of tears. There was a knock on the door and then Andrew poked his head in. "Michelle we have to get started. We were supposed to have begun half an hour ago. Chapelle is pissed."
Tony told them they would be out in 1 minute. Andrew sighed and closed the door. Tony turned back to Michelle. Michelle was just stuck there unable to find words. She had never been more confused in her life. She didn't know which point to be addressing, how to even address any of them. Tony looked like an absolute broken mess.
"Say something Chelle."
She wanted to burst into tears. She wanted to understand what was happening.
She heard him beg again. "Please, I'm so scared, say something...anything..."
She took a step to start leaving. "No one knows that Tony."
"Know's what?"
She took a deep breath, "No one could possibly know what I taste like because I have never...ummm...nobody has ever done that to me."
Tony was stunned but made sure that she wouldn't be able to see that. "I believed you sweetheart the night we 1st talked about it. I was and still am angry that he has been lying like this, and Ryan just said he thought you and David were dating and I wanted to set the record straight with him..."
He was going to continue but the door opened again and this time it was Chapelle. He looked at the state of them both a knew they were not in good shape. He would have sent them home however he had to have their debriefs to Division. "Michelle, Tony...I really need these debriefs done now." He kept the door open for both of them to walk out and watched as they were led by Ron and Andrew to separate rooms.
He wasn't overly surprised by the state of Tony and Michelle. Just about every single staff member who had worked that day was in bad shape one way or another. So far he had over 50% of his staff on leave for a week or more to recoup. They were mainly the ones that had been there when the bomb had gone off and had worked for well over 24 hours straight. Those that come in as replacements for the people they had lost seemed to be holding up ok so far. The entire agency was a mess with agents from all around the country being flown in and shifted around to help accomadate CTU and its staff recover from the bomb. Michelle and Tony had been at the heart of the situation all day. No one in the office had come close to experiencing what they and Jack had through the day. He had basically made up his mind that he would be giving them some time off after this, he just needed to wait and see what Ron and Andrew reported back to him.
Considering the state Michelle went into the debrief she wasn't sure how she had managed to get through it. She almost felt numb to everything but Tony at the moment. Andrew had gone easy on her and had many times sat patiently in silence as she tried to recall the order of events that occurred and how they had all played out. She cried a few times but most of the time she was on autopilot just to get through.
After they had finished she was told to hang around for a few minutes whilst he spoke with Ryan. She set off to find Tony.
She bumped into Amy as she headed down the hall. "Oh Chelle, how are you?"
"Ok, just glad that is over with. I'm ready to go home!"
Amy looked uncomfortable. "You haven't heard?"
"Heard what?"
"Tony is being held in holding room 4, he and David got into a fight in the kitchen."
"Oh My God, is Tony ok?"
"Yes, looks like he had a black eye, not quite as bad as yours, but other than that I don't think he was hurt."
Michelle mumbled thanks as she ran to holding room 4. Chapelle was in the hallway and he let her go straight in. She walked in to see Tony slumped in the chair with his head down. He slightly raised his eyes to see who it was and when he saw it was Michelle he stood up. "Chelle..."
"What have you done Tony, what is going on?"
Tony looked completely ashamed. "I'm being suspended for 10 days because I got into a fight with David."
"What happened?"
"I went into the kitchen after I finished my debrief to get a coffee while I waited for you. David came in and straight away made a comment that he had heard we had gotten together. I told him that was right and that I was really pissed off with him for lying about being with you and the disgusting ways he had said things. He came over and stood right in my face and started saying all this shit..."
"What shit Tony, please just tell me what he said."
"He said 'what? You don't like hearing about someone fucking your new girlfriend...if you really listened you could have picked up some tips from me.' I just lost it Chelle, I punched him and he punched me back. We ended up wrestling on the floor by the time security broke us up." Tony half shrugged his shoulders, "I don't care that I have been suspended - you don't deserve for someone to talk about you like that BUT I am sorry for disappointing you with my behaviour and the way I handled it."
Tony wouldn't have blamed her if she just turned around and walked away. He was completely shocked when she sat down. "I am so sorry he said that to you and that you are now in trouble for sticking up for me. Thank you for putting an end to David speaking about me like that, no one has ever done anything like that for me before and I'm sorry he said that to you...are you hurt?"
He smiled, "Thank you. I'll be fine, just a black eye..."
"Yeah but not nearly as good as mine!"
Tony bit his bottom lip, "I can't believe how good you are being to me about this, and I thought you were going to be so angry with me."
"Tony after what he has been saying to you and everyone, I would have hit him myself if I saw him first and I completely understand how hurtful it would be to you. I wouldn't stand for anyone saying stuff like that about you."
Tony felt like he could breathe again. "I am a jealous person Chelle, hearing David talk about you...my sweetheart, my baby...like that made me so furious I couldn't even think straight. I don't want anyone else, I don't care who it is, thinking about you in that way, touching you or talking about you like that. I know you are extremely angry, hurt and confused by what I was saying before the debriefs and I hope to god you will hear me out because I want to be the only one that gets to hold you..."
He was interrupted by Ryan coming into the room. He looked at them both and then sat down next to Michelle. "Tony even though I am suspending you for 10 days over what just happened, I want you to know I am not having it written up formally in your file. I have to be seen as doing something about the matter and David has been suspended as well. After my conversation with you this morning, hearing from Ron about your debrief and now what just happened with Ron, I think you need some time out. You need to take this time to try and work through all of this." He turned and looked at Michelle. "And Michelle, I just spoke with Andrew and he doesn't believe you are fit to return to work right now either."
"Did I say something wrong?"
"It's not about that Michelle. This office...your country, will forever be in debt to you – and you Tony – for what you did on that day. However, it was very clear to Andrew that you are extremely vulnerable at the moment, exhausted and have not had a chance to digest and confront what happened. You both lost colleagues that I know were friends and were emotionally pushed and damaged over what you experienced. I want you to both leave here immediately and get some rest. Think about what has been said today and take some time to work through your feelings so that when you come back to work you can be focused."
Michelle's voice was still weak and quiet. "Thank you. And thank you for not formally writing up Tony's suspension."
"I am sorry that you have been the victim of David's behaviour. I will not tolerate any of my staff being spoken about like that and believe you me, David will be facing a lot over the next few days with this."
"He is going to be so angry with me for all the trouble he is getting in..."
Tony reached out and placed his hand over hers, "You don't need to be afraid of him Chellle."
Tony shuffled his paper work and stood up preparing to leave, "Tony is right, you don't need to worry about him. No decisions have been made and I can't promise you anything but there is a good chance David will at the very least be transferred out of this branch. Now both of you grab your stuff and make a quick exit." He held the door open for them to both walk out of the room.
Tony walked with Michelle back to her station so she could collect her bag and then they headed to the garage. That's when Michelle realized her car was still sitting there from days ago. "I need to take my car Tony."
"Do you think you should really be driving?" He needed to talk to her so badly. He felt like every minute that passed the way things had been left before their debriefs was making things worse. She was barely even looking at him. "I don't know..."
"You haven't even slept Michelle, I don't think you are safe. Are you coming back to my place?"
It seemed like his question caught her off guard. She was looking at her car and then back at Tony, almost hoping an answer would find its way out of her mouth. He placed his hand gently on her shoulder, "Please come home with me so we can talk, we can worry about your car anytime, it is safe here."
"You are supposed to be picking Jess up from your parents remember. They were going out tonight and you guys didn't want her to be alone. Maybe you should..."
He didn't let her finish. He moved his hand to her chin where he gently lifted it so she would look at him. "My parents can drop her off on their way out. I am not worried about Jess right now, I am worried about 'us'. You have to give me a chance to explain, don't put walls up with me Chelle. I promise you I'll prove to you that I can be what you need..."
"It sounded like you are not even sure if I am what you need..."
"See, right there Chelle. Couldn't be further from the truth. Come home with me!"
"Alright."
"Thank you." Tony's heart started to pound. He actually felt excited. He led her to his car, opened her door and helped her in."
He phoned his parents as soon as they were on the road. They had been anxious all day to hear how it had all gone. Tony told his mum he couldn't go into it now but if she could drop Jess off then he could fill her in a little more. His mum apologized that they couldn't cancel their plans for the evening so Jess could just stay with them and give he and Michelle some time alone. His father was a surgeon and was speaking at a huge conference that night, there was no way they could cancel. Tony told his mom they were happy to have Jess, he thought she shouldn't be alone for a couple days until the shock of what had happened had worn off and Jess felt safe. His mum said they would be dropping her off fairly shortly.
He explained the situation to Michelle, apologising that they wouldn't have complete privacy. She told him it was more than fine. Then they drove home in silence. Michelle staring out the window and Tony was just thinking everything over and over in his head trying to figure out where to start. They were barely through his front door when Michele blurted out, "I am so angry with you for even putting me in the same context as Nina in a discussion with Ryan."
He was shocked at her outburst and he felt sad when he thought about how he must have made her feel. Before he even had a chance to respond she continued. "She murdered people Tony! She killed Jack's wife! She betrayed the whole country and you...how could you and Ryan even worry that I could do the same thing!"
He could tell she was going to keep going. Her voice rising with each word. He took her purse out of her hand and dropped it on the ground. He put his hands on her waist and pushed his body in very close to hers so that she was backed up against the wall. He was breathing heavy and leaned his mouth in close to hers. "Stop...stop! I never ever for one second thought that. And neither did Ryan. Ryan was trying to make the point to me that office relationships are a bad idea. That everything becomes so much more complicated. He referred to the fact that because Jack and I had both dated Nina the impact it had on everyone was extreme."
"But..."
"Let me say this Chelle. I told him that I loved you and what I had with you was so much more special and deeper than what I had with Nina. Yes it affected my work, but not because of my feelings for her in that way but because I was so disgusted at my involvement with someone that was capable of doing what she did."
She could feel his breath on her face as it was so close to hers. He had taken one hand off her waist and placed it on her cheek. The chemistry between them was unbelievable. She was surprised at the way he was holding her, making sure he was as close to her as possible, almost commanding her to look at him and hear what he was saying. This was a side of Tony she had never seen but she so deeply loved it. It affected her in ways she didn't think possible. How could she be so angry with someone yet so incredibly turned on and desperate for his touch? "You said that he had said things and you were freaking out, that maybe what we were feeling was just because of what we had been through." She knew what she was saying was not in regard to what he had just said but things were just falling out of her mouth as they flashed through her mind. Almost like she needed to know the answer to everything all at once.
He loved that she hadn't pushed him away. She was allowing him in closer and closer. The hurt, anger, sadness and confusion was written across her face and present in her voice but she still wanted his touch, he could tell. "Ryan asked me if it was possible that we thought we were so in love because of what we had just been through and how we had leaned on each other emotionally to get through that day. I knew...I KNOW...that I am not confused about my feelings for you. I don't think what he said is true because I have felt this way about you for such a long time. But the way he said it, how he said it..." He paused, unsure of how to word what he had to say.
He felt her grab onto his chest and almost pull him in closer. Up till now his voice had been assertive, powerful and strong but now it became quieter and weaker. "I am so scared I am going to lose you. Just hearing him say that made all of my insecurities and worst fears feel like they might come true. I started to freak out that even though I was sure of what I felt, what if he was right about you?"
"You said you were confused and something about how you were going to handle it when things ended between us?" He was so aware that she wasn't giving him any answers back. He knew she had a million things on her mind she was trying to somehow make sense of and understand but he needed her answers as well. He needed her to tell him that all the things he feared were wrong, but she wasn't. Was she putting up walls? He wanted to kiss her so bad, her lips were only a few inches from his. "You need to tell me something!"
Michelle immediately thought he wanted her to tell him about what she had said in response to what David had said. She wasn't aware he needed her to tell him Chapelle was wrong. She scanned his eyes and slightly shook her head, "No, I'm not a virgin."
It only took him a second to realize what she thought he wanted her to tell him. And it was true, her comment back had made him wonder if she was. He couldn't imagine for the life of him how someone as beautiful and amazing as Michelle could still be a virgin. Men must have been falling all over her forever. Hell, she couldn't believe she wasn't already married with children. He licked his lips and whispered, "Its ok if you are you know..."
"I'm sorry. I wish there hadn't been anyone before you..."
He gasped loudly. She had just stroked his ego in a way he never could have imagined. His voice raised again, now out of passion, not frustration. "Are you telling me no man has ever done that to you though? How is that even possible?"
She raised her voice to match his, but her tone was defensive. "I haven't ever wanted them to, it's so so intimate Tony. It doesn't seem like just a lead in to sex. I mean I know it is but I always thought there was something more to it. Something I wasn't willing to share with them." She paused, and then fumbled on her words, this was not something she ever in a million years would she have thought she would be saying out loud. And Tony was staring at her intently, almost like he was looking straight through her eyes to her soul. "I know it must sound stupid...I can't explain it, you won't understand!"
If it was possible, he had just fallen even deeper in love with her. "That's not true, I can understand." He couldn't hold out any longer so he kissed her. She kissed him back. It was rough and intense. They hadn't sorted things out yet. Michelle was so drawn to him. The pent up frustration and turmoil they had gone through was making everything so heated. She ran her hands under his shirt and grabbed onto his chest, he pushed his lower body into hers roughly. He pulled his lips away from hers, keeping them just an inch apart. His voice was deep and husky and as he spoke he continued to push his body into hers repeatedly. "I need to know, was Ryan right?"
Just the way her breaths were so heavy was turning him on even more. "Right about what?"
"Is this real between us? I need to know you are not confused about your feelings about me?"
His hands traced up her stomach and she pushed them up to her breasts. He grunted and she put her hands over his showing him how hard he could hold her. "Tony, I wouldn't be here if this wasn't real."
His hands were exploring her roughly and he was kissing her neck and shoulder. "Why can't you say it" He had never been in a situation like this before. The passion between them was incredible, he couldn't get close enough to her, he wanted ever bit of her but he was so conscious that things were not resolved between them, they were basically still in the middle of arguing. He knew she was still upset and confused but he needed to hear her tell him something, something that would let him know he was safe to completely let himself go with her right now. "I know you are angry, just tell me you are not going anywhere..."
Like Tony, Michelle had never been in a position like this before. She needed Tony like she had never needed anything before. She was scared because she was so confused about everything but right now being as close to Tony as possible seemed like it could make everything else disappear, even if just for a little while. "I love you."
He pulled at her shirt buttons with such force that they actually broke and in an instant her entire top was open. "You love me?" He wasn't questioning her, he was repeating her words, enforcing them.
"Yes" she panted.
"Come here." He picked her up and she wrapped her legs around his waist. He was going to go to the bedroom but that seemed too far away, he sat her down on his couch but only for long enough to reach around and undo her bra. They took a moment to stare at one another before he helped her take off her shirt. She pulled his top over his head and then pushed her so she was lying down. His legs were still between hers, he lowered his head and began to suck hardly on her nipples at the same time using his hands to explore every inch of her breasts. "I love you. You are everything to me Chelle."
She was his. She had never felt like this before. No mans touch had ever made her feel like this. For the first time in her life she wanted everything, she wanted to be as close to him as possible. Watching the way he touched her, the way he used his mouth on her made her whole body feel weak. The desperation to have each other was taking them both by surprise.
He shifted slightly to the side and she took the opportunity to reach for his belt buckle. He grunted and moved his body to the side giving her complete access. As she fumbled with his belt and buckle he ran his hand up her leg, up her skirt and pulled at the side of her panties. Neither one of them had the patience to allow the other to do what they were doing so he took her hand and pinned it above her head. This stopped everything for a moment and all they could hear was the deep panting of one another as they tried to catch their breath. He whispered into her ear, "Don't move."
She nodded and he slipped down her body, reaching back under her skirt for her panties and pulled them off. As he stood he pulled his own pants down before crawling back on top of her. "Better?"
She nodded her head again. "Better." They began to kiss again. Within moments his hand had made its way up her skirt between her legs. "Oh My God, Tony...shit."
Hearing her talk like that drove him wild. He hoped he wasn't being too rough with her but by the way she started to sway her hips to his rhythm he knew wasn't. As the force of his hand pushed her body up and down she was rubbing against him. At this rate he wasn't going to last, she had him so riled up.
He wanted to bad to be able to use his mouth on her but he didn't know if she would let him, or want him to. He unzipped the side of her skirt and pulled it off. He could see how nervous she was. He slowed his hand down as he looked her in the eyes, "Do you trust me?"
"Yes"
"You know I'd never hurt you?"
"Yes...why?"
He collapsed his head into her neck. He didn't know how to ask.
"What's wrong baby?"
He sighed. "Nothing, nothing is wrong. I just want, I want to be...I want to be that guy that..." He stopped unsure of how to finish the sentence.
Michelle knew what he meant. "Tony..."
"I don't want to make you uncomfortable; I'd never do anything you didn't want me to."
She used her hands to guide his head so he was looking at her. "You are that guy...I'm just nervous."
"Hey, I'm nervous too sweetheart. More than you can imagine."
Looking into his eyes, she was sure they were a little watery. His forehead was covered in sweat and his hair was sticking straight up. She knew he was the man she would be with forever. "We are going to sort everything out right?"
He wondered how someone could look so adorable, nervous, scared, vulnerable all at the one time. "Everything baby, we are going to be fine. I'll do anything in this world to make you feel as happy as I do. You are my world Chelle, there is no turning back for me now."
Little tears started to make their way down her cheeks and he kissed them away. "I want you to Tony..."
"Are you sure?"
"I'm sure."
"Stop me at anytime."
She nodded her head and ran her hand down the side of his cheek. He caught it and kissed it.
He slowly started to kiss his was down her chest and stomach. The further down he got the louder he could hear her breathing. He looked up to check she was ok. Her eyes were closed, her mouth open slightly. He smiled. "Look at me baby, I want you to watch." He kept his eyes on her until she did as he asked and then he continued to make his way down.
As Michelle felt his mouth on her she was so thankful she had kept this one thing for him. He was soft and gentle and it felt more amazing than she could have ever imagined.
Tony was in heaven. Nothing in the world could ruin this moment...that was until he heard the buzzer for his apartment ring. His parents were here with Jess. "Fucking hell."
Michelle jumped up and they both scrambled for their clothes. "I am so sorry baby, I am so sorry." Tony couldn't believe this was happening.
Michelle begged him to stop apologizing, it wasn't his fault. He ran to his room and grabbed her one of his sweatshirts and tracksuit pants to put on. The buzzer rang again. Finally they were decent enough to open the door. He answered the buzzer and told them to come on up.
He turned to Michelle. "Oh shit, please do me a favour and whatever you do, don't tell them I got suspended for decking David."
"Ok, I won't but I am sure they would understand."
"Nah, not at the moment, I already got in trouble this morning for my temper from mum."
Michelle giggled. He pulled her in and hugged her kissing the top of her head. "Your secret is safe with me."
"Thank you."
"Oh and Tony...that was amazing, you were amazing."
"Trust me Chelle, I was only getting started. But you, my dear, are the most incredible woman in this world. I don't even know how to get my head around what just happened."
"Me either."
A second later and there was a knock on the door.
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