Chapter 6

Senior special Agent Teresa Lisbon was back- she sat in her office in the fading sunlight, dealing with the paperwork Jane´s schemes had left for her.

Jane was back to his usual annoying self- closing cases like a fiend, insulting suspects and keeping her busy with paperwork. All the while nagging her constantly.

But in their spare time he cared for her lovingly, with infinite tenderness, giving her everything she wished for- except one thing.

He hadn´t tried to seduce her since she´d been released from hospital. She had been on sick-leave for a whole month, he had been with her every day, but when she tried to touch him more intimately than just hugging and kissing, he´d always stated she was too weak for this- that they shouldn´t be doing "that" right now.

Lisbon had been disappointed. She wanted him so much, it hurt that he refused her. A part of her had started to believe that maybe he didn´t love her like that- maybe he just wanted to make up for allowing her to satisfy him when he had really needed it. Maybe he would just be gone when he had the feeling that she´d fully recuperated. She dreaded the thought.

With a sigh she turned back to the papers. She was strong. She had to take the whole thing moment by moment- never scream before you´re bleeding.

Work relaxed her, always had. Concentration helped her to stop brooding, exactly what she needed right now. Although it was only dreaded paperwork, time went in a rush, and when Lisbon finally looked up, darkness had already settled. So, home.

Lisbon sat back. She didn't want to go home. Jane wouldn´t be there tonight, the little apartment engulfed in loneliness- she felt sad. Why wouldn´t Jane touch her…like a lover? Why didn´t he want her?

What should she do now? Throw him out the next time he showed up at her door and tell him never to come back? No, she couldn´t do that. But could she be content with what he offered her now?

She felt selfish. Jane had suffered badly in his past, she couldn´t blame him for not wanting to engage in an intimate relationship with her. He had been there for her after the attack. And she felt secure in his arms, glad if she could just breathe in his scent and stroke his hair.

Tonight he couldn´t be with her- he´d just told her he had "something else to do". She hoped it had nothing to do with Red John…he was different when it came to this case, even more reckless and unhinged than usual.

So, she would go home and face the loneliness. Maybe she could soak in the tub for a while and then retire to bed early.

She packed her stuff and made to leave the building.

xMentalistx

Sleep wouldn´t come.

Meanwhile it was close to midnight, the apartment was silent and dark and Lisbon sat on her couch, clutching a pillow to her chest and feeling like a small child about to cry.

Why didn´t he really love her? Why did he still push her away? Where was he now?

Damn- Lisbon wasn´t a little girl anymore, she was used to being in charge, to being strong, tough as nails. Why couldn´t she just work? She looked at her mobile- no call. No late night case. Tonight of all nights there was no distraction. She sighed. Bed. NOW.

She got up listlessly, dropped the pillow on the couch and left the living room- no lights were on, but the hall was dimly lit by the glow of the streetlights falling through the glazed front door.

When she turned to the stairs that led up to her bedroom, she sensed a presence behind her- panic was short-lived when she realized who it had to be.

"Sorry," Jane whispered, "I didn´t want to scare you. I just couldn´t find the courage to knock on your door this late."

"No harm done," she said softly,"I knew it must be you pretty fast."

He came closer, very slowly, shoulders drooping slightly, and she thought that maybe he was suffering badly- brooding over the past again, not able to find peace. How could she give him solace? She had to. Every fiber in her reached out towards him.

He looked at her.

"Why aren´t you sleeping?", he said, lifting his left hand to touch her face. She turned her head and kissed his palm, once, twice, then let her lips rest against his fingers, now motionless on her skin.

She just wanted to answer his question when she noticed something- his wedding band. It wasn´t there.

She felt her face go hot. Her eyes searched his in shock- he was watching her quietly.

"I´m ready now, Teresa," he breathed, "I need to have you. I always did. There´s a lot I´ve been contemplating since you´ve been released from hospital. I realized how much I love you when I sat next to your bed waiting for you to wake up. I knew I craved all of you. But- I wanted to be free for you first. I am now. So- if you want me…I´m yours."

She could hardly see him through her tears- she didn´t know what to say.

Jane smiled softly and bowed to kiss her- he poured his whole heart into his lips, kissing her with all the love and tenderness he could muster. His arms wrapped around her of their own accord. How small she felt in his embrace- he couldn´t get used to being close to her, holding her, it still made his whole body tingle with emotions, and he felt the want bubble up inside of him. He needed her- everything of her.

He already knew her body intimately, but this time it was different- this time he was in love, feeling so much it was almost suffocating, and his abandon for her made him shy. He touched her coyly at first, only stroking her with his fingertips- but Lisbon wouldn´t allow him to be cautious. She overrid his brain and immediately pushed her hands under his shirt, hungry for his naked skin. Jane threw his head back and gasped while her fingers aimed straight for his nipples, making him groan with arousal. She kissed his throat passionately, gently sucking the soft skin between her teeth, making him half insane with want…she could feel him harden against her stomach and opened his belt.

Jane only half remembered that he had wanted to seduce HER, he simply couldn´t stop her, it felt too good.

"Teresa," he sighed, "you don´t know what you do to me…"

She grabbed his head and kissed his luscious lips, pushing her tongue into his mouth, swallowing his moans. His hair was so soft under her fingers, she dug her hands in, disheveling the blond curls- hell, she wanted to devour him completely.

Her hands fumbled with the buttons on his vest, finally discarding it on the floor, his shirt followed. She pushed his briefs down with his pants, unable to wait any longer, and he was naked. Lisbon sighed with relief- she had waited so long for this, she needed to have him, now.

She felt how overwhelmed he was, his body was shaking slightly, so tense he almost couldn´t move- it was okay, hopefully her caresses would unfreeze him eventually, now she just had to touch him.

His skin was soft and deliciously warm everywhere her fingers wandered- now she could have her way with him, and he wouldn´t deny her the pleasure of kissing him, touching him. Her mind wandered back to the day in the attic, when he had turned his head to refuse her his lips…she shuddered under the painful memory and recoiled a little in shame.

"No," he whispered hoarsely, "please, don't pull back from me- I´m sorry I pushed you away, I´m so, so sorry…what I did to you was just awful. I never wanted to hurt you- and I know what I want now. I love you, Teresa. More than my life. Please- let me give you better memories."

She could see the eagerness, the longing in his eyes- he desperately wanted to please her.

He kissed her fiercely, finally letting his lips trail down to her throat, her breasts, sucking her right nipple into his mouth.

Lisbon groaned with satisfaction- now, he would start to love her back.

Now he was truly with her.

Okay- next chapter is the last, but I guess you already know what´s about to happen :D...

I try to update soon- that is, if you´re interested, of course :).

Again: pardon my mistakes...I´m still German (too bad- I like the English language much more than my own). I´m pretty self-conscious when it comes to my English- but I practise constantly, I swear!