Empty Promises, Broken

Ch 6-Stupid Heart

Bella POV

Edward. Edward was there. There on my couch.

"What are you doing here?" shock and anger colored my voice. Hurt crossed his face.

"I guess I do deserve this. The way you're treating me. I did leave you twice."

"Then why are you here?"

"Because we need to talk, Bella." He simply replied.

"No."

"Please Bella?" His golden eyes were smoldering.

"No way, I'm not falling for it." Even though I already had. I added in my head.

"Please Bella? We need to talk. I won't bother you after I promise. Please Bella?" he was way too persuasive. Not fair.

"Fine." I sighed in defeat. "Where do you wanna talk?" I asked.

"Here if you don't mind." We both sat and we basically caught up with each other like we were old friends or old lovers who saw each other 20 or 40 years later on some random street or random store and then decided to have lunch with each other to find out that they were married and had children of their own.

Then came the more difficult stuff.

"So Bella, have you found anyone lately?" I knew he was talking about Brett.

"No, after you left I didn't go out with anyone else. I never found anyone else. No one would talk to me except my family. No one went near me except my family. I was always moping around. Hoping you would somehow come back someday. I muttered the last part.

Of course he caught that last bit and his face went from pain to amused. I saw this change and asked.

"What's so funny?"

"Nothing." We dropped it.

He became all serious and started to talk." Bella I'm sorry, so very sorry that I left you. It was stupid and pointless. I left you because I thought that if I did you would change your mind about being a vampire. That maybe you'd end up with someone else. I had thought you go to older and moved away and that's why I was so shocked to see you today. I'm sorry Bella. I still love you. I always have. I'm sorry I cause you so much pain."

He was about to speak again but I cut him off.
"Stop. Just stop it alright? I've had enough of your apologies. Sorry doesn't fix anything. Sorry doesn't help me get back all those fifty years I've spent more alone then I've ever felt in my life. I showed you how much pain you've put me through. You can't expect me to forgive you just like that, did you?" I asked.

"No, I don't. I don't expect you to forgive me at all. What I did was a horrible thing to do. I know it doesn't fix anything but I really am sorry. I hope that someday you'll be able to forgive me."

But somehow my heart already forgave him. I realized that I still love him. I thought I was over him. Apparently, my heart thought otherwise. He looked at me. Straight at my eyes. I looked straight at his. They looked so honest, so sincere. His eyes looked actually vulnerable for once. I realized it was probably because he knew that I knew what his thoughts were. We both had a couple of moments to our thoughts.

Then out of the blue I kissed him. He, at first was hesitant but moments later he started to kiss back. His lips were moving with mine. They were warm now since we were both the same now. It felt great and it felt right. Stupid heart I thought to myself. It always acts on its own. I'm supposed to be mad him. I pulled back. We stared at each for a moment he looked shocked and pleased.

"I love you Edward." I blurted out. I was shocked at what I had said. But nonetheless it was true.

"I love you too, Bella." He whispered as we laid there next to each other on the couch. In each other's arms content. It felt like it had when I was still human. It felt right.