A/N: ALRIGHT! new story! it's my darker story!! i love it to death! its my new baby!!!!! i love an emo bella during new moon!! muwahahahahahaha!!! okay enough of my craziness seeing as it is 4:00 am and im still wide awake XDDDD well enjoy the chappie!! no update for a bit im gunna try and get some more content written for DWF and EPB!!!!! anyways enjoy!! i know i'm a bit late witht he song choice but it is really good and you should listen to it while reading the chappie! it works very well!!!!!! okay ill go now bye!

Falling Into Disturbia

Chapter 1- Welcome to Disturbia, population 1

Faded pictures on the wall, it's like they talking to me
Disconnecting on calls, the phone don't even ring
I gotta get out or figure this shit out
It's too close for comfort, oh

It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind it can control you
I feel like a monster, oh

Put on your pretty lies, you're in the city of wonder
Ain't gon' play nice, watch out you might just go under
Better think twice, your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise

Your mind's in disturbia, it's like the darkness is light
Disturbia, am I scaring you tonight?
Disturbia, ain't used to what you like
Disturbia, disturbia, disturbia

Disturbia by Rihanna

BPOV

He's gone. Simple as that. He's never coming back. Of course he's not. He doesn't love or care about you. He never did. You're just a pathetic little human. I put the music up louder to block out the internal conversation taking place in my head. It wasn't exactly the music I used to listen to, but I didn't exactly listen to that anymore. It brought back too many memories.

I got out of the truck because as I focused back to reality I realized that I was already at school. I think the scary thing was the fact that I don't remember how I got there in the first place. As I walked to my locker I realized that I finally stopped getting stares. "Hey Disturbia." Snickered a sophomore named Marnie, who was on the soccer team.

Disturbia was kind of a nickname now. I'm used to it though and it never bothered me in the first place. I usually never talk anyways so I didn't even bother with a comeback. I simply didn't care anymore. Nothing new or exciting happens to me anymore.

I walked to Trig and sat in my usual spot. The desk next to me remained empty. It was a slow and tortuous reminder of what used to be and what could've been. The teacher walked in and that point I zoned out for the rest of the hour. When class ended I walked to the next one.

The rest of my day went on in that fashion. I skipped lunch seeing as I almost never eat. Haven't eaten anything for a month. Not that I care. I skipped Gym and went to The Avenue, also known as the school's smoking area. A sort of Goth girl came over to me.

She Had jet black hair with green and purple streaks in it, a pale complexion and the most striking eyes I've ever seen. They were violet but if you looked close enough they were a really intense shade of blue. "Hey want a smoke?" I don't smoke but whatever, why not? I'll just try one. "Sure."

"You smoke before?" she asked as she handed the cigarette to me. I nodded my head no. "no never have."

"Okay well be careful with the first drag you take." She said as she lit up the end. I nodded again and put it to my mouth.

I took a small puff and resisted the urge to gag and cough my lungs out. So I did the next best thing. I took another drag. Immediately, I felt better. Pretty soon I felt like a pro. A couple minutes passed in comfortable silence when the girl spoke up.

"By the way, I'm Lyla." She said.

"I'm Bella." I replied.

"Hey, weren't you the one who was dating Edward Cullen before they left?" Pain ripped trough my chest and I could feel the hole where my heart used to be grow larger.

"Yea, I was." I tried to sound nonchalant about it but failed miserably because she saw through it.

"I can tell you're hurting bad."

"Obviously." I replied.

" I know some ways to relieve the pain."

"Really?" my ears perked up at the idea of forgetting the pain. If only for a little bit.

"Of course. Come to my house after school and I'll show you. Me and a few friends are getting together to have a small party." She said while writing down the directions to her house on a piece of paper.

I found it a bit weird how she said party. But I shrugged it off. "Sure." Then the bell rang. I put out the cigarette and put the piece of paper in my bag.

" See you in a few." Lyla said as she walked past me. I grabbed my bag and walked to my car, feeling slightly better at the prospect of relieving the pain. And the fact that I found a new friend.

A/N: so? what'd you think??? please review!! it'll only take a few mintues!!!! i need ot know what you think about it??!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!!??! oh and btw be forewarned....

DRUGS, Alocohol, Cutting with razors and blood will be graphic but not too much..there is more things but i dnt want to spoil anything?!?!?

oh and i forgot! most of this story will be based using the books Crank and Glass by Ellen Hopkins as reference....

they are btw two fo the best books int he WORLD!

i love to watch bella fall apart!! which is exactly what's happening in this story muwahahahahaha!!!

ANYWAYS.... REVIEW AND RATE AND WHATNOT!

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xoxo

VampireGrl aka Azrael