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For the last couple of weeks it'd been peaceful for me. Whenever Fenris was out running around with Hawke, I was either at the Dalish camp with Zarrah, or I was at the Hanged Man with Isabela, Merrill, or Varric-whichever one of them weren't out with Hawke, but when he wasn't running around with Hawke, he was with me. During that time we spent our time together. I'd been down in Darktown twice; once to speak to Anders about what had happened at Hawke's, and the second time was because Fenris insisted that I tried to get my scars on my back removed-surprisingly it actually worked. The scars on my back, from what Fenris told me, were barely noticeable now. He was out running around with Hawke, it was a favor for Anders as I understood it, and though Fenris disagreed with it, he still helped.
I grabbed my cloak that Hawke had given to me just days ago and headed out the door to make my way down to Lowtown. I was to meet Varric at the Hanged Man, and I was looking forward to hearing the story he'd placed together about me and Fenris. I closed the door behind me and pulled my hood up over my dark hair.
"I told you that you'd never be able to run from me, my pet," I heard an ice-cold voice come from behind me in Tevinter. "You've been very cleaver, my little one, but now it's time for your game to end and for us to go home." I closed my eyes and started to shake in fear. Fenris! I thought frantically, Oh please Fenris come and save me! Nikoli's hand grabbed my shoulder, and turned me around. He laughed coldly, "You better fear me, Aymjah, because when we get home, you'll feel how pissed I really am." I kept my eyes close, afraid to open them, he shook me roughly and growled, "Look at me, Aymjah." I obeyed, every single one of my instincts told me to obey.
"I'm sorry, Nikoli," I felt as though I would die just then, my heart was breaking. "I-I didn't mean-"
"Yes, my pet, you did mean to do this," Nikoli moved closer to me, his face was just inches from mine, "you made me worried at first, but then I found out your game. I was amused at first; now I'm very angry." He started to walk, his grip on my shoulder tightened as he lead me through Hightown. I wanted to scream out as we were passing Hawke's home, the dwarf Sandal saw me, his eyes were wide and I shook my head. I didn't want to know what Nikoli would do to the boy if he tried to save me. He stopped to admire the sign of Andraste in the Chantry Courtyard and then he moved us along. I turned to look back, just in time to see Anders, Hawke, Fenris, and Merrill walking out of the Chantry. Anders made eye contact with me, but before I could mouth anything to him, Nikoli shoved me forward and down the stairs.
"Please, Nikoli," I breathed out.
"Keep going," he growled coldly. "You don't get any favors from me; if anything, once we get on the ship, you'll get part of your punishment…I might even let the crew have their way with you once I'm finished." I shivered, knowing what he meant. He was assuming that I was still innocent, and he was planning on taking it then- I cringed, making him laugh, "Good, you know what I mean, now move!"
I prayed to the Maker that Anders realized what was going on and told Fenris. I partially walked and was partially dragged throughout Lowtown and down to the Docks. I was afraid to look back, afraid of what Nikoli would do to me if he saw me seeking out help, afraid of what he'd do to the one I loved. He shoved me into an abandoned warehouse and stepped towards me, from the look in his eyes, I could tell that he was going to do my innocence checkup right there. I backed away fearfully from him until I was up against the wall.
"Now let's see if you've behaved yourself while you've been here, my little one," Nikoli smirked while pulling me towards him. I wiggled against his hold, and he laughed. He pinned me against the wall and slid his hand down my breaches. I tightly closed my eyes and attempted to cross my legs. He slammed me against the wall several times, "Let me check you, now, my little one. Then…we can get to more pleasant things. You know what being on a ship can do to a man."
"No," I whispered in Antivan as he shoved his hand down my pants and slid a finger into me.
He kept me pinned up against the wall and slid my pants down. He growled angrily into my ear, "You've been a bad girl, Aymjah. Now, who stole your innocence?" I didn't look at him and he smacked me hard across the face. He held me up so I wouldn't fall to the ground, his finger was still inside of me. A cold smile spread across his face, "I shall have you, trust me, my little pet, you will not enjoy this one bit."
He tore my shirt and my pants off, I closed my eyes tightly, knowing that if I fought him, it'd only be worse. I knew that I wouldn't enjoy it, I'd never enjoy anything that had to do with the monster. I could hear him pulling his pants off, and then I could feel his cock against my naked body. I whimpered, tears spilt from my closed eyes, and I clenched my fists as he grabbed a handful of my hair, biting my neck while he rubbed himself against me. Fenris! Oh by the Maker, please send my love to me! I prayed silently. Fenris help me!
It was almost as if the Maker answered my prayers, the door swung open, and an arrow shot across the room, pinning Nikoli's robes to the wall. I kept my eyes closed tightly and I heard Hawke's voice come out coldly, "Varric, keep Bianca aimed on that bastard, if he moves, shoot his dick."
"Bianca would be more than happy to," I heard Varric say.
"Where's Fenris?" I could hear Anders's voice ask.
"He came to grab me," Isabela barked. I opened my eyes finally. I was bare naked in front of Anders, Hawke, Varric, Merrill, Sebastian, Avaline, and Donnic-Avaline's, and now Isabela.
"I know you," Nikoli chuckled when he saw Fenris, who was hard to miss since he was glowing bright blue. "You were Danarius's little pet. So you're the bastard who took this whore's innocence." I closed my eyes again and winced against the vile feeling of Nikoli's body so close to mine.
"She is not a whore," Fenris spat taking several more steps towards him. "Now release her."
"I'm just leaning against her, I have no hold on her, but I can tell you this, she won't come to you. She's a slave, that's what she'll always be," Nikoli smirked coldly.
"Come on, pretty thing," I felt Isabela tug at my hand, but I didn't move a muscle. I couldn't. Nikoli had me looking into his eyes, his blood magic had its hold on me. "Aymjah…let's get you out of here."
"I told you," Nikoli smirked, "tell them my little pet, tell them you want to go with me."
"No, Aymjah," I could hear Fenris say through my haze. "Come with me, Love."
Nikoli started to laugh coldly, his eyes never left mine, "Like I said, she wants to go with me. She's mi-" His eyes grew wide suddenly and I was released from my hold. I closed my eyes again and felt my cloak being draped over my bare shoulders. Through my blurred vision I saw who I thought was Sebastian lifting me into his arms. My body was tense as I was carried away, tears spilt down my face, blood magic had been used against me, and I felt so dirty from it, the tears just kept coming.
"Shhh, I know the perfect place for you right now," Sebastian told me in Antivan as he ran me all the way to the Chantry.
"No, take me home," I cried when we were at the front door. "I just want to go home!"
"Are you sure? This might be the best place for you," Sebastian said.
"No! I want to go home! I want Fenris! Please!" I sobbed. "I have to explain! I have to tell him why I couldn't-" I couldn't finish, it hurt so bad that I almost left with Nikoli. He was probably dead, I don't know, but the hold he had on me, one that wasn't willing. I didn't have my brain when I was looking into his eyes. I cried so hard that I couldn't stop.
I didn't even realize I was at home in bed until Fenris pulled me close to him, "He's gone, Love, he's dead." I cried against his arms, full of so much guilt, I didn't know where to start. He held me in his arms tightly, and I kept repeating the news to myself. It was easy for me to believe, Fenris more than likely ripped his heart out like he'd promised. That was a comforting thought, but the tears still poured. Nikoli had almost raped me, everyone had seen me naked, and I'd almost told my rescuers to let me go.
I sobbed and stuttered in Tevinter, "I-I-I'm s-s-so s-sorry."
"For what?" Fenris asked.
"I was t-t-to weak," I cried. "H-h-he had p-power over me. I almost t-told you-"
"Shhh, Love," Fenris brushed my hair back. "I've had blood magic used on me as well, and I've even been tempted by a demon…it wasn't your fault." He held me tightly in his arms, not letting me go. I must have cried for hours. He'd kept his promise to me to keep me safe, and for that I was thankful. Once again, like the first time he'd comforted me, he whispered into my ear, this time words of love and promises of a future together. He didn't speak further of what'd happened with Nikoli, he just held me like I needed to be held. I didn't know how he could understand what I was going through but he did, and he always wanted to make me feel better.