Risk it all Chapter 7
Why would a person like me risks everything,
When we had absolutely nothing.
I knew this was coming. I felt so hopeless, a lost cause. I was suppose to forget, suppress it into the back of my mind. But here I was in Nagi's arms on the roof. I could still run, though I'd probably break my leg in the process. But for some reason I don't wanna run, I'm tired of trying to close my eyes, opening them and pretending nothing happen. I want to tell him, scream it out to the world all of my problems. I let out a ragged breath, and felt myself being pulled to him. His smell was so intoxicating, like a drug. I released my grip on him a little leaned back, avoiding his curious, concerned eyes and looked around. The door above my room was still open, with Yaya, Kukai, and Ikuto eagerly watching us. Slowly, I looked back at Nagi. My eye's trimmed with tears. Gah, Why am I so emotional? The warm brown eyes were piercing my soul, I could feel myself squirm under his watch. Why was I here? Because the world hated me.
"N…..d...o..r…l…n..o..n..w?" I mumbled under my breath that only a person as close as Nagi could hear. I looked closely into his eyes…his face was funny, it was like i-knew-you-could-talk face. It made me want to laugh. But this is not a laughing matter.
"Rima, if your gonna talk, let me hear you." Why did he want to know so badly? I let out yet another ragged breath.
"Nagi, do you really want to know?" I said a little louder. I admit I was little scared. I could hear him whisper a little yes. And I started reliving my nightmares.
I stay up in my bed, making sure I lock the door. I had mirrors everywhere, all of them reflecting that..thing. It wasn't possible. I couldn't even recognize myself, that thing kept staring at me. It's eyes were hollow and tears kept over flowing down it's face. This was punishment, God really hated me. What did I ever do, I'm just four. Mama, Papa..There arguing downstairs again, They've been like that since I turned four. There was a park we used to go to, and we had so much fun. What change? Did I disappoint you? They always argued before those men came. They came every day, and started yelling at mommy and daddy. I walked over to the door and open it and sat at the top of the stairs. It's almost time. I don't know why but I had a gut feeling something was wrong.
THUMP THUMP THUMP!
Mommy and Daddy stopped talking. The utter silence scared me. Daddy slowly walked up to the door and Mommy frantically brought me downstairs and pushed me into broom closet. I got down on my hands and knees, and stared out of the little vent through the door. Daddy opened the door. The men came inside, one of them grabbed Mommy and put a gun to her head. "M-mommy.." The other went to Daddy and whisper something in his ear, slowly puting his gun to daddy's head and BANG! BANG!
Mommy and Daddy slowly got down on their knees and fell. Mommy was looking right at me. "M-mommy." Mommy took a shaky breath and mouth I-hate-you. Then she stopped moving.
"Look's like our jobs done." And they turn to the door, before they completely left, they spit all over Daddy. I made sure they were gone before I came out. And I stared at their lifeless bodies. And I started laughing. I don't know why but my tummy tickled. I ran to the kitchen and got the matches out of the knife drawer, and got the gasoline for the barbecue out from the back porch. I ran back to Mommy and Daddy and poured that awful sticky smell already over them. And lit the match and threw it at them. I watched them burn for a few minutes, remembering the mirror across the room. I looked so sick, that wide grin wouldn't come off my face. I wasn't happy but I wasn't sad. My golden eyes looked so dull. I ran outside as I noticed the flames were climbing up the walls. Once outside, I noticed the house was in flames. I chuckled to myself quietly.
"Now, I won't ever have to see that again. Best Birthday gift ever. I guess I forgot to mention I turned 5 today. Today's my birthday!" The smile still stuck to my face. The house quietly burned to the ground.
"Rima, you-." Before I could hear the rest I ran across the roof (Not a good Idea I might add.) And jump down into my room, grabbing my school bag, looking back to grab my cellphone. And ran out of the orphanage, to the school, going behind the school into the woods. And I came upon a dirt road. I decided to stop and breathe for a minute. I looked down at my phone. It's been so long since I used it.
Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?
My phone was singing…oh..it was ringing, my bad. The only people that know my number is Amu and the school. I looked at the caller Id, it said unknown number. That's funny. I flipped it open.
"Moshi, Moshi?" I'm really utterly confused right now.
"Rima-chan, I see you." And they hung up as I dropped the phone. I looked around, no one else was here. But that voice was so familiar. I bent down picking up my phone, it was all in my head. Something black caught my eye, and I looked over to a cat coming out of the woods. I walked over to it and bent down. It stopped, looked at me, and puuuurrredd at me. It look like KusuKusu.
"You look like KusuKusu but she died in the fire." I smiled to myself.
"Actually she is KusuKusu." I looked to where the voice came from. Oh My God…I'm gonna die.
That was cool, and the ring tone came from our very own Amutolover1 from the story Who's Mashiro Rima. It's really good, I recommend you read it! AND REVIEW IT! And thank you all who review the last chapter:
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