Risk It All Chapter 16
Why would a person like me risks everything,
When we had absolutely nothing.
Bruised, I walked to Amu's house. I didn't have the guts to walk back to the Fujisaki's Manor with Nagihiko. Every step I took, pain would shoot through my body. The searing pain across my stomach, and blurriness of my eyes caused by the impact to the back of my head by the chair. I felt like a thick piece of fabric was slowly suffocating me, wrapping itself around my face.
Slowly, I made it to Amu's house. Raising my hand I knocked. I couldn't, didn't, have enough life left in me to pull the confidence through my shell. For the confidence to be felt in the air, to shine in my eyes.
The door creaked opened. Closing my eyes tightly, I waited. What was she going to say? Do? Was I in trouble? I didn't heed her advice.
Biting my bottom lip, I glanced up through my eyelashes. Amu stood there with Ikuto, no surprise there. Her arms were crossed, her face a little red, gently looking at me. Then there was Ikuto, his arms lazily hanging over her shoulders, nibbling on her neck, staring at me. His stare wasn't that bad as it was at school. But still, his midnight blue eyes seemed to bore a hole through my body. I didn't like it. Not at all.
Taking a step back, I nervously rubbed my arms. They were busy. I was intruding.
"Uh, Sorry for the intrusion. I think, I'll just go and talk to you later, kay?" With that I took off running. All I did was followed where my feet took me. I could careless at the moment. I just wish, I wish I could get away from it all.
It was around nightfall when I gave up and went back to the Manor. Hesitating, I opened the door.
"RIMA! Oh, sweetie! Auntie here has been so worried about you. Here go into the kitchen," She said as she pushed me to the dinning room, "See, I even made Nagihiko wait for you, that way you'll have someone to eat with!" She said beaming. As she left the room, my blood turned cold. I was sitting in front of Nagi, alone. This was bad, really really bad.
"Rima, eat your dinner." He said, his voice in monotone. I didn't want this to happen, I mean, I wanted him to leave me alone. But I didn't think I would get used to him that now it hurt not being like we used to be. It killed me, in this weird way.
A chair seemed to squeak across the floor. Nagi had finished dinner and was now leaving. I had to tell him, I didn't want this to continue, but I don't want him to know that he won. I didn't, SCREW RIMA GET OVER YOUR PRIDE!
Right as he was a step away from leaving the room, I spoke.
"Nagi…I'm so sorry." I whispered, watching as he stopped. Craning his neck back to see me, he turned around and walked in front of me.
"There is…There is NOTHING to be SORRY for!" He said, slightly raising his voice. He'd lost his cool.
"But, Nagi! There is!" I cried out.
"NO, THERE ISN'T!" He yelled, rage slipping through into his voice. "I mean, you're my sister member? Why should you be sorry?" His words hurt, and he knew it. He leaned down in front of face, it imitated me.
Twiddling with my fingers, I choose my words carefully.
"Nagi…I am your sister but", I looked at him "I didn't mean it the way I said it. I mean, I did mean it at the time." I took a breath, this was so hard.
"Then tell me Rima, what did you mean? What was your purpose? And why are you apologizing?" He said, his breath tickling my face.
"Those questions are way too personal!" I shrieked quietly. Looking in his eyes, grabbing a fistful of my hair.
"So your gonna give up? Just like that?" I honestly didn't know what to do. Biting my bottom lip, I sighed in frustration.
"What I meant, Nagi…I don't know what I meant. I was just so…you know?"
"No, I don't know." The clock was ticking, just say it all at once, Rima. You can do it, I hope. Looking at my lap, I continued.
"I didn't like it…Saaya and me aren't in good terms, we hate each other, and then I saw you guys making out in front of my locker, and I just couldn't take anything anymore. But when you tried talking to me, I just didn't want to hear it, so I said those things to you. And really, why should I care? I'm your adopted sister, I really shouldn't be prying into your business." I whispered, watching him. He nodded at me urging me to continue.
"My purpose on saying that it shouldn't matter, was because…well…I already told you." Taking a breath, I tried reassuring myself that nothing was going to happen if I continued talking.
"I'm apologizing because I hate this. I hate how we've been avoiding each other, not talking to each other. I hate how I wanted you to leave me alone but now that you did, I hate how it hurts. To top it off, I don't know why it hurts. It's so confusing." I said my voice cracking.
"And I hate how I'm about to cry! I'm not a crybaby, but every time something happens that involves you, I become such a girl! It's terrible! I hate how this solves nothing and this is probably annoying you." I stopped. My voice had cracked, my eyes had the stinging sensation, and I couldn't bare this anymore.
"I…I need to go." I mumbled, trying to push him away and get up. As I tried to push him away, his hand grabbed both of my wrists and he threw me over his shoulder.
Sniffling, I whispered. "I really am sorry."
I am so sorry, this took so long. I mean, I accidentally deleted chapter two because i was trying to fix all of my grammar problems. And then I had to remake chapter two. I'm just so sorry that it seems like I'm feeding you guys excuses. I made this extra long, longer than my norm.
But I do hope you'll forgive me.
Anyways, I want to say Thank you to:
Miyuka Kokoro : Well, Amu is kinda on Rima's side. Not really. :P haha
muzikchic4eva : No Nagi and Saaya are not going out, Rima caught them two making out in front of her locker. Sorry, if that's hard to understand? If it is please tell me, I want to know how to fix it. Thank you for reviewing xD
Pieishyx : Yeah, I can feel the empathy for her. People pulling your hair hurts like CRAP haha :D
6kimiko6: ALL WELCOME NEW COMMER! THANK YOU FOR REVIEWING! There is possibilities for Amuto, and did you know when i google The. Violent. Spazz you pop up as the third result after the search? You should feel special :D
fallenangel320: Yes, yes yes. When I deleted chapter two, I went on Microsoft word and wrote 3-4 pages of I'm sorry and posted it as chapter two while I tried rewriting it because i didn't have a back up copy.
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